Hey guys.
Jitty Alert!
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Thursday Night
Kitty sat in her hospital room chair, looking out the window and gazing up at the blank skylight with the bright snowy moon glistening brightly.
She's had a few friends from Cheerio's come visit her and coach Sue had visited her too. Of course was being Sue and demanded to know why Kitty didn't open her catty mouth. Kitty explained, Sue was like, "I'm responsible for my cheerleaders! I'd kick that drunk bums ass in two seconds."
Earlier
Kitty laughed. With the exception of Marley, Ryder and Jake, nobody else from Glee club has visited her yet. Some friends they are, she thought. Yet I kind of deserve it. Just a bit.
Jake had wheeled Kitty down to Marley's room, where the four of them sat and talked about anything but recent events and such, obviously. Kitty had asked Jake and Ryder if they knew anything about Kathy.
Kathy was fine. She was not adopted, she was placed in a foster home for newborn up until twelve years old. Once Kitty was out she'd be placed in a foster care home for thirteen above. She wished she was living with her sister, but the two homes were a ten minute walk from each other. She'd visit her sister.
And, for a stupid reason, Kitty was told that she might behave like Phil if Kathy pisses her off about something. "I obviously get their fucking point, but if I were like that I would have done that while I was in the damn house."
"They're just trying to keep her safer than she was before." Jake said as he got up. "You ready?"
"I guess." She said then turned back to the other two. "God, if we're allowed to leave this place let's get real food."
"My Mom can sign me out, what about you?"
"I don't know, a doctor? Beiber, does your Dad work here?"
"My Uncle John is a doctor, he'll sign you out." Ryder said. "At least, I think he can. I'll ask him when I leave."
"Good." Kitty said as Jake lifted Kitty up bridal style and carried her to her wheelchair. "Bye Dog."
"Bye Kitty." Marley said as she waved.
Jake and Kitty got back to Kitty's room, where he lifted her up bridal style again and placed her on the bed and covered her with the blanket. "Want anything?"
"No...crap, I left my journal in Marley's room."
"Journal?"
"Diary. Journal. Whatever the hell you call it. I've been writing in it for the past three days, some volunteer kid gave it to me. Write about this terrible hospital and it's food and publish it." She added.
"Great, just change the name." Jake said. "I'll grab that, anything else before I come back then leave again?"
Kitty thought. "Strawberry ice cream?" She gave a small smile.
"Sure thing," Jake said as he leaned down and kissed her forehead. "I'll be right back."
Jake left and Kitty, once again, sat alone in the room.
She felt alone. Not just now but even when she was with Marley or Jake or Ryder or two of them or all three of them. She wanted Kathy. She needed Kathy. Just to see her sister and hold her for even a minute would make her happy and able to get through the hospital recovery time. But they wouldn't let her see her sister and that pissed Kitty off. But also made her sad, feeling alone.
She knows she's not alone, she wasn't that stupid, but still felt alone without Kathy.
Present
Kitty got out of the hospital bed and moved to her chair near the window. Marley and Kitty kept the chairs there so that when Marley was visiting, the girls would sit there and look out the window. Unless the guys were there, then say lay on the bed next to each other, holding hands and leaning their heads against each other. Like true best friends or, more so, sisters.
Kitty sat in her hospital room chair, looking out the window and gazing up at the blank skylight with the bright snowy moon glistening brightly. That brightness that shined over the dark, it kind of mocked Kitty and yet it didn't mock her at all. It kind of gave her comfort knowing that in some odd way, Kathy was seeing the same moon if she was looking outside the window now. So she felt Kathy with her.
But she missed her sister.
She looked down at her right arm. Her scars were still healing, but still bright red from her self cuts. Each one reminded her of her pain and her reasons as to why she was in there at the first place. She laid back in the bed and thought deeply, a trick she learned from someone else who had cut themselves. She tried to imagine that Kathy was in the room with her, in her arms, sleeping with a grin on her face because she had huge dreams about California.
It worked for a while, but then Kitty felt the pain again as she knew her sister wasn't with her. She opened her eyes and, without thinking again, she used her left hand fingernails and began to scratch harshly against her right arm. Hard and deep and swiftly. Her cuts eventually opened again, some of them at least, and she began to bleed again. But not enough, she was still in pain.
She found Jake's leather jacket on the end of her bed. She reached over and dug through the pockets until she found a knife he has brought from home to cut up the hospital dinner food. "Hospital food is shit. Can barely cut it without breaking the plastic, so I just brought my own from home. Hopefully no one catches me though." Ryder told Jake to put it away and not bring it back again in future visits. I knew they were talking about me and I said, "Like I'm going to do that again?" Ryder gave me some odd look, but I ignored it.
If my timing was right Jake would be back in fifteen to twenty minutes. Plenty of time. I took his knife and began to deeply cut myself again; over the old cuts and making new marks on myself. The blood was oozing down her arms and onto her hospital gown, her tears falling from her face and her neck. Some of her pain was leaving again, she felt somewhat happier than she just did, even if it meant she was doing something she knew was wrong.
She was trying to keep quiet and not make a sound, but she couldn't stop the gasping and taking deep breathes. She sucked in the air once more as she made the final deep cut. She took the knife and wiped it clean on Jake's jacket and placed it back inside the pocket. She then took an arm of the jacket and began to wipe and press hard on her arm to get the new blood drops off.
"Hurry up, hurry up." She muttered to herself. "God Kitty, you're so stupid...why the hell am I stupid?"
"You're not stupid." She heard a voice from behind here said. Damn it's Jake..he's early. "Got your journal thing, but the cafe is closed so you can have the candy bar in my jacket."
Jake placed her journal on the table next to her bed and turned to the bed to get his jacket. He stopped when he saw it was gone, then looked up and saw part of it was hanging off Kitty's lap. "What are you doing with me jacket?"
Kitty remained quiet. Bambi eyed, glaring outside the window, knowing she was screwed.
"Kitty? Hey, what are you doing with me jacket?" Jake asked again. Again she was quiet. "Kitty, what are you doing with my-" He then remembered the knife he had in his pocket. "Shit..."
He went over kind of quickly, all during of which Kitty began to cry again. Her face was cringed as tears fell once again and she attempted to crunch herself together and hide her arm. Stupid her, she knew Jake would find her arm.
Jake did find her arm, bleeding still. But he ignored that and instead just pulled Kitty into a hug. "Hey, it's okay."
"I want Kathy." She whispered softly.
"I know, you'll see her soon enough." Jake said.
"I just want to see her now." Kitty muttered again.
The rest of the visit was them two sitting there. Of course Jake had to tell the nurse what Kitty did, but covered the fact that he was the one who brought in the knife and instead both teens claimed that Kitty managed to steal one from the cafeteria. Jake left soon afterwards.
Kitty laid awake and out at the dark sky with the glistening moon, but no stars. That is until she saw one star shining brightly and twinkle at her. Kitty sat up in bed, held her hands together, and looked at it once more.
"Heavenly angel named Princess Faith of Hope and Dreams...sorry I yelled as you. And Jesus. And God. I'm sorry to all three of you to be honest. Forgive me. Heavenly angel named Princess Faith of Hope and Dreams, I guess if this is your saving me than... thank you. Now just help me get better, get Kathy back in my arms and getting through all this madness. And thanks for my two other angels other than Kathy. Marley and Jake, I need them now. Thanks again, have a goodnight."
And for the rest of the night, Kitty slept peacefully.