A/N: I feel like I'm taking too long to write but its so hard because once I get home all I want to do is sleep! Well anyways this is a sad day for Tianers but at least someone special is back:)

Chapter 2: Ambivalent Miracle: Part 1

It has been a long day and an even longer month. It's March 27, 2012 and I'm going on my third week of running the Ian Somerhalder empire. Ian was right these people don't know how to even breathe without being told to do so. I've come so close to firing so many people but I can't blame them for getting on my bad side when every side I have is now bad.

Every day I go through the same motions, morning routine, bagel for breakfast, visit Ian, thirty-minute ride in silence to work, be bitchy to everyone for no reason, thirty minute ride back to Mandeville, visit Ian, go home, and finally try to sleep. I honestly don't mean to bite everyone's heads off but I can't help it. I don't mean to be so secluded to myself but I don't feel like talking to anyone but Ian and he obviously can't talk back right now.

I feel myself losing hope each day I go without him it has been thirteen days that's three hundred and twelve hours without Ian without feeling complete without being happy without having a second of peace. This whole experience truly shows how good of a person he really is because I now understand all the stress he is under all the time. I'm amazed that I'm even able to form an intelligent thought when I feel surrounded by nothing but sadness and guilt. I know I'm slowly being swallowed up by that little depressing hole that Ian helped me out of but he's not here.

I'm at my wits end ready to take off and never look back because I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that he's dead. He won't wake up, he won't fuss at me for eating once a day, he won't call me baby doll, his blue piercing orbs won't look through my soul, he won't be waiting for me at the end of the aisle wearing a perfect tux, he won't say I do, he won't see his children… he won't be there.

Wiping away the tears, I call Joe Johnson into my office. He walks in looking terrified which amuses me since he is bigger than me. "I wanted to ask you something."

"Um okay Ms. Green go ahead," He sits down in the black chair.

"I know Mr. Caldwell has always been the acting C.E.O. when needed but he is helping me through this tough time. I was wondering if you would step in as C.E.O. if I were not to show up one day. You are more than qualified you've been here since the beginning and I have complete faith in you. I need a break I don't want to have a meltdown but if one day I just can't find the strength to get out of bed everyone won't be screwed."

"Oh of course I would. I'm s-"

I hold up my hand stopping him from repeating the words I've been hearing every day. "Thank you I'm actually heading home early so if anyone desperately needs help they'll go to you but if it's something outrageous call me."

"You got it take care of yourself."

"I'll try," I grab my stuff and head out the door.

I make sure not to think about anything too serious when driving because I will be a crying mess. Cheynne and Caitlyn already watch me like a hawk making sure I don't do anything to myself. They give me the same annoying sympathetic look when they see my red puffy eyes. I'm so sick of crying but with my new involuntary reaction to be a mute, it's the only way I can express my feelings.

"How was your day?" Cheynne asked walking upstairs with me.

"It was okay the usual day with thoughts clouded by Ian. Don't do it! Don't give me that look I hate it, it pisses me the fuck off!"

She holds her hands up in a defensive way, "Ian's still doing good since a couple days ago he is still breathing on his own now."

"He's too stubborn to go out in a boring way."

Cheynne laughs, "It's nice to know you still have a sense of humor. Why did you come home early?"

I come out the closet in jeans, a tank top, and converse, "I just needed to get out of there I need a break." As I finish pulling up my hair in a ponytail my phone rings.

"Hello?"

"Tiara you need to get to the hospital right now!" Nina practically yells in the phone.

Cheynne and I were already out the door by the word hospital. We came in after Edna arrived she was smiling almost jumping for joy. She grabs me by my biceps, "Tiara my sweet girl he's awake Ian is awake!" She pulls me into a tight hug and I can't help joining her in the happy tears. "Go go go!"

I smile before preparing myself to open the door. I slowly open it to see Ian sitting up in bed drinking water. "Oh my god you're awake." It takes all my power to not plaster my mouth onto his.

He stares at me blankly with those gorgeous blue eyes, "Uh yeah I'm awake you are gorgeous."

I wipe away the last of my tears, "You don't look too bad yourself."

Ian laughs, "Oh yes I'm bringing sexy back after a month in here apparently. Can I ask you something?"

"Of course."

"Who are you?"

My eyes widen as the dagger turns into my heart. "I… I'm… uh," Tears come to the surface but luckily, someone else comes in distracting Ian from my answer.

"Hey there!" Nina comes in saving me from a mental break down. She leans down to hug Ian but he puts his hands on each side of her face and kisses her. It's not some ordinary kiss it's a mind blowing stop the world make sure your panties are still on dramatic kiss in the rain type of kiss! I get up and leave just as they pull away.

"Tiara wait! I didn't mean for that-"

"Shut up! Just shut up! He doesn't remember me! He doesn't fucking remember me. A year of his life with me has been wiped out! I'm done… I'm done! I can't take this shit I want to be there for him but how can I when I'm a damn stranger to him! He thinks you two are dating like what the fuck?" I start pacing across the hallway trying to control myself.

"Edna was the only one who had went in there the rest of us waited for you I had no idea I'm so sorry. I'll go straighten this out right now."

I grab Nina by her shoulder, "No don't we can't overwhelm him and I don't want him to be with me because we told him so."

"Ms. Green?"

I turn around to see tall black haired man, "Yes?"

"I'm Dr. Andrew Glen I've been looking over Ian's progress. I couldn't help but over here your dilemma and this was something we were afraid of happening. I'm sorry to say that we can't force his memory back he needs to slowly regain it himself. I'm sure all of you can try to remind him of what happened last year but since Ian spent most of his time with you, it's your choice. Now about him going home, Ian has already asked to leave and he has recovered fast. If you keep a close eye on him we will allow him to go home momentarily."

"Um okay I'll take him home."

With a small smile and nod, Dr. Glen walks off. I turn back around to Nina who looks distraught. "I know what you're about to say and I don't know if I'm comfortable with that."

"Nina would you say that we are friends now?"

"Yes."

"Do you trust me?"

"Yes."

"Good because I trust you. I trust you enough not to take advantage of the situation and I know you care about Ian but its platonic right?"

"Yes platonic."

"The only way I'm sticking around is if you stick around. I want you to act as if you and Ian are dating again. Of course the press and everyone else will know that it's fake but Ian won't know."

"Tiara I-"

"I want you to move in I'll find a place, Cheynne and Caitlyn already have their own place, and that's it everything is perfect now."

"No I'm not going along with this if you aren't living there too."

"Uh Nina Ian is asking for you," Cody says awkwardly.

She looks at me unsure of what to do, "Go I'll head home and move my stuff into another room."

Nina gives me a sympathetic smile before turning away. I leave the hospital alone speeding back to the house. I storm into the closet pulling down the biggest suitcases I can find. I yank everything that's mine off the hangers throwing it into the suitcase. I pull the little dresser that holds all my underclothes and has my jewelry on top down the hallway to the farthest room away. After I throw everything from the bathroom into the suitcases, I drag them into my new room with seconds to spare before I hear footsteps coming up the steps.

I have a mini panic attack knowing that I won't be able to face Ian anytime soon. I run into the bathroom closing the door behind me but not all the way, so I can see and hear.

"This is Tiara's room," Nina says walking in slowly.

"Looks like she just moved in. Why does she live here?"

"Um she had a terrible break up with her fiancé and since you two are best friends you let her stay here. Tiara just came back into town that's why there's suitcases here."

"Oh okay."

You go girl that's a good lie!

"Am I missing something here?" Ian asks walking closer and closer to the bathroom door. I scoot back quietly slipping into the tub. I hear the door slowly creak open and footsteps coming in.

"What do you mean?" Nina asks walking in and spotting me in the tub. I tell her the best way I can to get him out of here without opening my mouth. She turns her back just as Ian comes closer but luckily, he's looking into her eyes.

"I don't know just the vibe feels a little awkward like if the woman runs my companies I wouldn't want to have the temptation to mix business with pleasure."

"You both set clear boundaries when she moved in and plus when she is having a rough day at the office you can help."

"Hmm okay well let's go see the rest of this gigantic castle that I call mine."

I exhale when I hear the door close. I peek over the edge to see I'm finally alone then get out the bed. Since I'm already in here, I figure I might as well take a shower washing off the stress. Thinking about Ian waking up but him not remembering anything that we shared together made me break. I ended up in the corner of the glass door shower holding myself as I cried so hard it hurt. Once I composed myself, I got out, grabbed a big white fluffy towel, and wrapped myself up.

I look down at the floor as I walk out the bathroom putting my hair up. I hear the door open and assume it is Nina but of course, it's Ian. I clench my jaw trying to contain my feelings as we just stare into each other's eyes. After everything we had been through, I could still feel the connection pulling between us.

"Uh I'm sorry I thought this was-"

"No it's fine." I grab some shorts slipping them on under my towel, pull a shirt on, and then take the towel out from under my shirt. I turn around and Ian is sitting on the bed looking at me as if he is in some trance.

"Are you okay?" I ask while sitting down on the other side of the bed.

"Yeah I'm fine I'm so tired of people asking me that already."

I laugh, "Trust me we're on the same page."

He looks into my eyes with a raised eyebrow full of curiosity but his facial expression softens, "You've been crying."

"Yeah…" I look down at my hands trying to hide my red puffy eyes.

Ian scoots closer brushing up against me, skin to skin, sending a tingle throughout my body. "Is it because of your fiancé? Nina told me that you were a little heartbroken."

"Yeah I started thinking about him and my emotions got the best of me."

"How long has it been?"

"March 15 was the day I lost him."

"He died?"

"…I guess in a way he did."

"Oh I'm sorry I don't mean to pry I'm trying to rebuild relationships. In my opinion any man who has you should hold on tight you're beautiful and there's something about you that draws me in like a fly to a light, like a fish to the sea, like the wind beneath a bird's wings."

My eyes widen with shock he said that the night we sat on my bed and he told me how he felt. "Oh wow…."

Ian chuckled, "I know it's weird but hey maybe that's why we're best friends."

"Mhm best friends."

"What's your full name?"

"Tiara Alexandria Green."

"Hmm rolls off the tongue nicely."

"Gosh déjà vu," I mumble to myself thinking about when he said that on the set of TVD.

"I lost my memory right?"

"Yup just a little bit."

"It seems like I've missed so much like there's more to the story with you and me."

"Trust me we are just friends nothing more nothing less." It pained me to say it but that's the way it had be.

"I guess I'll gain it all back eventually. I'm going to go to sleep I'm still pretty tired."

"Me too."

"Wait what happened to you?"

"I was kidnapped and experienced water boarding, starvation, and battery. After three days of that I…"

Ian looked up at me, "You don't have to tell me."

"No I have to um all of that caused me to have a miscarriage."

His jaw quivered a little bit as he searched for words but ended up pulling me onto his lap and holding me close, "I'm so sorry."

I couldn't help the overbearing tears, "I'm sorry I'm so sorry," I mumbled over and over again into his chest.

Ian rubbed my back up down, "Shh it's okay everything will be okay."

I before I knew it sleep had crept up taking me away in Ian's arms.

YAY IAN AND TIARA ARE BACK but not all the way:( I plan to drawn this out a little bit like Tiara won't just jump back into his arms and have a lemon attack! I'm thinking about having this memory loss last for the rest of this chapter, another chapter, and possibly a half but there will be more awkward run ins between Tiara and Ian so their relationship isn't nonexsistant! Ask questions if needed, review, favorite, follow, suggestions! Please and thank you:)