Chapter 7: Back to December

Point of View: Tiara Somerhalder July 13, 2012

I hadn't realized how much I missed my baby my sweet white Nissan 370Z. I hated to eat in my car but I was ridiculously hungry craving Arby's fries with cheese and a chocolate milkshake. Popping another fry in my mouth my default ringtone goes off.

"Hello?"

"Tiara G-"

"Somerhalder."

"Ah right Tiara Somerhalder I'm Dense calling from Dr. Graham's office. We haven't rescheduled your appointment there's a spot open in two weeks. Is the twenty-seventh at nine am okay?"

"Uh sure yeah that's fine."

"Okay see you then."

I check the clock when I hang up and realize that I should start heading over to the old place in Mandeville. Ian had been buying stuff and bringing stuff over gradually to Slidell. We decided that today after his first day back at HP we would meet up to grab anything we needed.

I pull up in the driveway behind Nina's car and hop out. I wonder a little bit about why she would be here but I push it aside it's probably harmless.

"Ian!" I look around then head to his study but stop when I hear an intense conversation going on.

"I understand what you're saying but it's not that simple Nina especially now."

"It doesn't matter though! I told you to say something earlier and you know you should've said something back in London right when you were telling her everything. Back then she couldn't be too mad if you just told the truth but look at where we are now. You're married and it's been seven months since you found Tiara every day you don't say anything the worse it gets."

I hear Ian take a deep breath, "How am I supposed to explain to my wife of only two months that I've cheated on her? That in December when I told her I was distraught over her, which I was, I had sex with you. Please tell me how I'm going to keep her happy when I have to tell her that I lied to her face multiple times."

I sit there frozen my heart beating faster as my breathing accelerates. My body feels like it is about to give out and I will go tumbling to the ground. Is this how it feels to have your heart shattered into a million pieces? I know if I walk in there I will end up killing them both with my bare hands.

While wiping my nonstop tears I carefully make my way downstairs to the living room. After pacing and trying to keep calm by not thinking I slide down the wall afraid of my legs buckling. My heart feels like it's about to explode from all the pain and stress that has come up again. All the things I never dealt with lately comes to the surface mixing with everything I'm feeling right now.

I hear the front door close and I wipe my tears away standing to my feet. I grit my teeth when I see Ian walk in.

"Hey there." He starts walking towards me but I hold up my hands stepping back making him stop.

"How's Nina been?"

"Um fine she's fine just came over to talk but nothing important."

"Are you sure about that? There's nothing you want to tell me at all?"

I see Ian's jaw clench, "No not that I can think of."

After taking a deep breath I reply, "You really don't want to do that again not right now."

"Do what?"

"Okay this is where it all started before and this is where I'm going to end it. Let's cut the bullshit what happened in December? Only a month after I left apparently leaving you completely heartbroken and I remember you said you were pretty much alone that time. So we can run this down in order of what happened or you can just say it but trust me today I will get the truth out of you."

"You know what happened we've talked about this before. What does December have to do with anything now?"

"Everything! Everything that we have built from that day all the trust and love and I thought honesty but I guess not. It was built on top of a lie not some small thing it could change everything!"

"I don't know what you want me to say Tiara. It shouldn't change anything I love you and you love me there's nothing else that could break us apart."

"You do know and there is so I am not going to say anything until you open your mouth."

We waste a moment full of silence and stares, "I cheated."

Tears beg to be shed but I resist the urge, "With?"

"Tiara do I-"

"Say it!"

"Nina I cheated with Nina back in December."

"How did it start?" My overly calm voice is even scaring me I feel my anger so close to coming out.

"Why do you want to know all of this?

"I want to hear the words coming from sick mouth. I want you to admit to me all the disgusting things you did. For once in our relationship I want you to fucking tell me the truth!"

Ian shakes his head looking down then back up, "It snowballed it just happened everything that we thought we had put behind us showed up again and the feeling was too much to ignore. It happened the first time the night we did the first sex scene on TVD."

"In other words I was right back then. That's why you didn't put up a fight why you shut down because you couldn't fathom the bullshit you did!" I turn around trying to reign in my anger but that goes out the window when something clicks. "The first time? The first fucking time!" Before I have time to stop a vase is hurling towards Ian's head but lucky for him he knows how to duck. "How many times then?"

"I don't know a couple. Tiara please just calm down and let me explain myself."

"What in the hell is there to explain? You fucked Nina you did what she did to you you're no better than she is! Now tell me how many times did you sleep with that slut?"

"Maybe six I'm not sure."

All I want to do is find a garbage can and throw up, "How long had it been going on?"

"About all of December it ended a couple days before I went to London."

"If you hadn't come to London it would've kept going on?"

"Can you please calm down?"

"Answer me!"

Ian runs his fingers through his hair, "What do you want to know? Yes I fucked Nina multiple times throughout December it would've kept going on the first time was supposed to be the last time. Baby I'm so sorry I didn't want to hurt you."

"Like this is any better? You lied to me you looked me in the eye and lied so many times. You had plenty of opportunities to tell me but you decided to say nothing for months! You shouldn't have married me if you knew this was hanging over your head!" I shake my head as I realize something, "That was why you wanted to marry me so quick so that you could have me trapped in when you told me. I was the one who was always there for you when you needed someone to call I was there! Before we even started dating I was always there for you in a way that Nina could never be! I was the one who sat by your bed watching a ventilator keep you breathing among other things to keep you alive! I was the one who cried and got depressed all over again without you but I pushed it aside to keep your business afloat! I have always put you before myself Ian and this is the way you repay me? I am your fucking wife I deserve the truth that is the least you could do for me after all the bullshit I have endured because of you."

"Tiara you're acting like I don't love you like I deliberately hurt you."

"Oh go to hell! You don't love me if you did you would've told me but like everything else between us you keep it a secret! I'm sick of this I'm sick of you being an asshole who thinks with the wrong head. I'm tired of crying over a son of a bitch like you. I'm over all of this! You disgust me you sick bastard! I can't even stand the sight of you knowing that you did everything that you do with me with another woman the same one that cheated on you! For such an intelligent man you can be dumb as fuck sometimes!"

I begin to walk out unable to control my tears anymore. Ian grabs my left arm and I whip around slapping him with my right hand. "Don't you ever touch me again! You are a repulsive contradicting jackass and I won't give a selfish spineless pompous dick like you another second of my time! Go fuck yourself." I begin to walk out but turn around, "Oh and if you haven't realized it yet I want a divorce."

I smile sweetly before making my way towards the door but take a detour going to the pool. I take off my engagement and wedding ring and throw them in before walking through the gate to my car. Before I even think about heading home I make my way over to Nina's place which is down the street. That doesn't surprise me. I don't even take the time to close the door because I know this will only take a second. I bang on the door as if I'm the police not even caring if the neighbors want to watch.

"Uh T-?"

"Don't go anywhere near my husband again. I hear you speak his name, see you look at him, think about him or even be in the same room as I him will personally give you a long overdue ass kicking. I will drag you across the floor by your hair but I'm sure you are used to being on the ground since you are such a slut. Nina I swear I will break you in two and you are lucky I don't knock your ass down again but that would be you and my lying cheating husband getting the best of me. If you try to come near me expect me to beat the shit of you have a good day."

I walk back to my car and hop in heading for Slidell. The more I think about the sick situation the worse I feel. All I want to do is cry until I run out tears being left alone by the world. I couldn't understand why Ian had let our relationship get this far let me fall in love with him more and more. He gave me false security making me believe that I was safe with him that he would never hurt me.

I start crying to the point of pain in my stomach so I pull over and sit there with my head in my hands crying. Just when I feel like I am gaining control over myself I jump out, run to the grass, and throw up I'm sure everything in my stomach is gone. I sit on the ground leaning back against the car unsure of what to do. I know I can't drive successfully in this state or go back home because I will end up breaking everything.

I pull out my phone and call the one person that I could think of. "Mom," I say in such a shaky voice.

"Baby what's wrong?"

"You were right we sh-shouldn't have been together h-he cheated." I cry even more when I say my greatest fear of him doing.

"Oh sweetie," I can tell she is debating for the right words wondering what she could possibly say to make anything better. "Where are you?"

"I'm on the ground beside my car too afraid to drive."

"Tiara you can't do anything today or tomorrow you need to just cry. Ever since you were a little girl you would bottle everything up and now it is coming back to haunt you. Once you are calm go home, lock the door, close the curtains, and get in bed a good cry never hurt and sadly I'm speaking from experience. I don't know what happened exactly so I won't give my opinion on the relationship but I will tell you to wait to do anything serious or talk to Ian it will only make it worse."

"Okay," I mumble wiping away my tears.

"I love you baby girl be strong and call me if you need anything. If you want me to come down there to support you I will."

"Okay mom thank you."

Once we hang up I take a deep breath and brush myself off standing to my feet. I turn off my phone and get in my car heading back to Slidell. When I get home I don't get undressed I just go upstairs, lock my bedroom door, and get in bed crying until I'm completely satisfied.

No more Tian:( I will go in depth about how each of them feel later on. There is much more drama coming I'll probably put it in part 2. Leave suggestions, review, follow, ask questions, spread the word please and thank you:)