Memories
Toby's POV
I was walking back home after the homework burning, finishing off my drink. I walked in the house to see Simon playing the Wii. "Hey toby, what took so long?" Simon said as I shrugged. "I wanted to take the long way home. Where's Dad?" I asked and this time, Simon shrugged. "Your father went out. He said something about being alone." And I understood. It was a few days until the anniversary of my mother's death. It was also the day of my birthday. I went upstairs as Simon kept playing Super Smash Bros.
Simon's POV
I watched as Toby went upstairs. Ever since I could remember, Toby and his dad have been living with us. It wasn't until a few years ago that we were finally told the story. How Phil's wife died giving birth to Toby and how Phil blames himself for not being there with her. At the time, he was in a coma so he had no clue. We had taken Toby in since our mom is his father's twin. When his father finally awakened, it wasn't our mom who told him the news, but Susie who broke the news to him. Apparently, they had some connection but it ended. Feeling sad for him, I went upstairs to our room and was about to knock on the door when I heard crying from the inside.
Toby's POV
I couldn't help myself. It was my fault that my mother died. If she didn't give birth to me, then mom would still be alive and Dad wouldn't be as depressed as he is now. I feel like every time Dad saw me, he blames me too, knowing that it's my fault. Many times, I wish I could go back in time and fix it but I couldn't. If I was able to give my life in exchange for my moms, I would do it in a heartbeat. Many times, I wonder why I am still here. Why don't I just end my life? My father hates me and I don't have a reason to keep on living. I went to the window and I looked up at the sky, hoping that my mom was watching down on us. I realized what I had to do. The only thing someone like me could do. "I need to end it all" I told myself when my door suddenly slammed opened.
Simon's POV
"I need to end it all". When I heard Toby say those words, I pushed open the door and tackled Toby to the ground. "DON'T!" I exclaimed and I saw tears in his eyes. I got up and helped him up. "Toby, I don't care if you blame yourself. I don't care if you hate yourself but I swear, if you end yourself, I will hate you forever." The look in Toby's eyes had changed from sadness to anger. "You don't get it". I heard him murmur and before I could ask, he repeated himself. "YOU DON'T GET IT!" I took a step back. "What don't I get?" I questioned him. "You think I don't understand how you feel? You don't think I know what you're going through! Have you forgotten about Alice"! I hollered and the room got quiet. "I loved her and she was the one. Nobody could replace her. She was the one, Toby, and now she's gone. Do you know how many times I had a nightmare about her? How I wasn't fast enough or strong enough to protect her? You don't have to go through the pain of seeing her face every time you go to sleep. Her family hates me, her friends want me to end myself and you know what, I almost did. Many times, I took a knife and placed it on my chest, thinking about how I should do it. She's never gonna wake up and it's my fault." I was sobbing at the end and Toby pulled me into a hug. "Listen. Let's promise each other. Let's promise to never end ourselves because of our loved ones. We have to keep living for them. It's what they would want us to do." Toby said and I nodded. I got up and said, "I'm going to go see Alice. Wanna come?" but he shook his head. "Nah, I'm gonna go see mom." Toby said and we both got ready before heading to see our loved ones.
Toby's POV
I was walking to the graveyard, thinking about whether this is a good idea or not. I didn't change my mind as I walked in, heading in the direction of my mother's grave. I stopped when I saw my father there. As he walked passed me, I waited until he left before I walked over. "Mom, I miss you" I said as I read the tombstone. Beloved Husband, Mother, and Friend had been engraved on the tomb. "Only if you were here to see how much of a little crybaby, you would probably laugh." He told himself as he cried over his mother's grave.
Simon's POV
I walked in the hospital, the nurses there, recognizing me and they gave me a pass as I walked up to Alice's room. She was still as she was last time, in a coma but still as beautiful as always. "I miss you, so much. Only if you knew what I've been going though." He sniffled and sat down on a stool next to her bed, weeping for her.