Chapter 9: Regression: Part 2

I wake up with a raging headache and flip over with a groan looking at the clock that says 9:08. I guess I'm not going to work today. I flip over to see a woman's clothes thrown across the room. Looks like Tiara's size maybe we got back together last night? Yeah I would never cheat again obviously. I hear the shower turn on and I get up to go brush my teeth.

Making my way downstairs I try to remember what happened but nothing is coming back just talking to Cody. Whatever I will just ask Tiara when she comes down here. I'm about to head to the kitchen when someone rings the doorbell. I open the door to see Tiara standing in front of me in a blue tank top, jeans, and Nikes. Oh shit what have I done?

"Good morning," She murmurs looking down at her hands.

"Uh good morning come in."

Tiara practically becomes one with the wall getting far away as possible from me walking in. "So um here's your keys back I didn't want you to get in a wreck last night you were really drunk."

"Tiara why aren't you looking at me?"

"No reason."

"Well look at me then."

She finally looks up at me, "Also I don't think I'm coming back to work while pregnant I'm just too tired so Cody will bring me my work."

"Why not me?"

"Well he sees me more and you would be busy anyways."

"You know I'm never too busy for you. What happened last night?"

"We just had a fight that's all."

I reach my hand out about to pull her closer but she jumps slightly looking scared. "Did I… did I do that to you?" I finally realize the giant bruise on her arm.

"Um I'm going to go."

"No w-"

"Hey do you have any a- Oh shit."

Tiara and I both turn and look at the stairs and all I want to do is jump off a cliff. I look at Tiara who already has tears falling down her beautiful face.

"Out."

"I- I'm s-"

"Shut the fuck up! Tia if you know what is good for you, you will just leave and never turn back. Now get out before I kill you with my bare hands." Tiara glares at Tia who is frozen on the stairs but manages to scuttle out the door.

Its deathly silent neither of us knowing what to say.

"Really? Again? You cheated on me again! I'm fucking pregnant your damn wife and you don't even care that means nothing to you! How dare you? Do you just like hurting me? You must do because this is the second time that you have fucked some bitch! At least Nina had emotion behind it but Tia was random and you called her because she looks like me could you be anymore low down? You know what fuck it fuck all of this you can do whoever you want because from this day on you can consider yourself single."

Tiara starts to walk away but I run in front of her, "Please baby don't leave I'm sorry okay? I didn't even know."

"You didn't know? That's your fucking excuse for cheating on me twice? I hate you I hate you so much!" Tears pour from her brown eyes wrapping her arms around her stomach. "It hurts physically! The one way that you could hurt me the most, you did… twice! As if one time wasn't bad enough we were just getting back on track! I came here last night to take you back to tell you that I need you that I can't do all of this by myself! I wanted to experience this pregnancy with you your son or daughter needs you because I need you! But no, we can't do that because you keep fucking everything up! I can honestly say I had nothing to do with putting you in bed with Tia you don't even know her favorite color! I'm sure you got to know her up close and personal!"

Tiara pushes past me and walks out the door. "You can't drive like this!"

"Oh now you want to care about me and your child? Fine I completely forgot we're in Covington I will just get Cheynne to take me home. I don't even care I just want to get the hell away from you!" She replies beginning to walk down the driveway to the street.

I follow behind her, "I am sorry! I don't know what else I can do or what to say!"

"You shouldn't have to say anything because you shouldn't have done it in the first place! I felt guilty a bit about the Nina thing because I'm the one who pushed you into her arms. If I had never left, you wouldn't have gone to her and we right now would be at home in peace without a care in the world other than our growing baby!" Tiara turns around, "If I remember right you are the one who wanted a child and when I'm finally able to conceive you go all crazy acting like you're single! I refuse to take care of a thirty-five year old kid!"

She continues to walk down the street turning into Cody and Cheynne's driveway.

"You shouldn't blame yourself for what I did months ago it's not your fault you need to calm down."

"There you go again with that word 'calm'. How am I supposed to be calm when my husband can't control his urge to stick his dick in anything with a pulse? It's disgusting, appalling, ridiculous, outrageous, sickening, unbelievable, and every other word that could possibly describe your nasty tendencies!" Tiara practically bangs on the door and is answered in two seconds.

"Wha-"

"Can you take me home? According to my husband I can't drive in this state."

Cheynne and Cody look at us wide-eyed, "What happened?"

"Oh you should know! I fell in love with a fucking man-whore! He cheated again on me after I left his house last night he calls Tia the chick that looks like me! You were there when I decided to tell him I'm pregnant so he knew and still decided to cheat!" She turns towards me, "Why? Just tell me why. Why am I not good enough? Why can't I satisfy whatever you need? Why am I not enough for you? Why not just say you don't love me anymore and divorce me instead of cheating? Why do you enjoy hurting me? When I hurt, your child hurts as well. Why can't you care enough for your baby to stay faithful? I just don't understand! I know I'm not the best person look or personality wise but why stand in front of a bunch of people devoting yourself to me if you were just lying? Why don't you love me anymore? Is it because you never loved me period?"

I've never seen Tiara so torn up crying so much. I put my hands on each side of her face looking to her red eyes, "Tiara I love you I truly do. You are enough for me you're more than enough. I hate hurting you it seems like everything I do it hurts you in some way. I never stopped loving you and I never will if you don't believe anything that comes out of my mouth ever again just believe that. Please stay with me I know I shouldn't even have the audacity to ask but I need you I need you more than anything on this earth."

Tears slowly trickle down my cheeks, "I'm so sorry. I promise I will get this right I will make everything better for you and if I can't accomplish that, I will make everything better for our child. I will do anything to make you happy again to see that perfect smile to hear that cute giggle to earn your love. If I spend the rest of my life earning your trust back earning the privilege to even breathe the same air as this beautiful goddess I stand before, I will do it. I can't lose you I understand us needing to take a break but please don't leave me. At least tell me that you won't leave me."

Tiara looks at me for another second, "Cheynne I want to go home now." She walks around me and through the door not turning back.

I try to swallow the giant lump in my throat putting my hands on my hips.

"You fucked up big time," Cody says shaking his head disgusted.

:( well we are going to start skipping around now and I have a lot of stuff about to happen if I can fit it in the next part I will but there might be four parts to this chapter. Review, favorite, follow, and all that good stuff please and thank you!