Chapter 9: Regression: Part 4
Point of View: Tiara Somerhalder
I somehow manage to get away without anyone noticing. I needed to finally do something that I never wanted to. I actually have to wait which I expect is because some loon is getting their money's worth. After about five minutes, an older woman with puffy eyes comes out. A tall, rather muscular, redheaded man with short hair comes out behind her and smiles at me.
"You must be Tiara Somerhalder. I'm Dr. Spencer Morgan it's nice to meet you."
I shake his hand, "Like wise." I get up and follow him into his office looking around at all the books on the wall and the shades of brown, grey, and red. I sit down on the brown leather couch and he sits in a leather chair across from me only a small table separating us.
"Before we start I want you to know everything you say is confidential even if your husband were to come asking what our sessions were about I couldn't tell him. The most I could say is that you're making progress things along those lines."
I nod my head, "I understand."
"What made you come here?"
"Isn't it obvious? I have problems I can't fix on my own."
"So you chose to come here?"
"It's like a last resort I shut down for months not talking and that's not acceptable when I'm pregnant. I'm not crazy… maybe little but it's just the overwhelming stress I can't take it anymore."
"Stress from who? Family, friends, paparazzi, Ian?"
"The paparazzi is actually on my side I'm pretty sure everyone in the world is. The things that Ian has done and won't do have stressed me out to an unbelievable level."
"What has he done and not done?"
"He won't be honest, communicate or think things through for the long run. He cheated on me twice I was ready to take him back and the same night I went to talk to him was the same night he cheated again."
"Did something happen earlier that day?"
"Um we had the first ultrasound of the baby, I went on a date with a friend, and then that was it Ian went to work that day also."
"Do you think that those events could have pushed him over the edge? Maybe that was the day that he broke from all the stress."
"He was happy from what I could tell but who the hell knows what happens with that man he won't tell me anything until he's forced to."
"Have you tried talking to Ian about his lack of communication?"
"Yup more than once and he says that he will do better which he does for a little bit then it goes back to him being closed off. I don't think Ian understands how important it is for me to know what he is thinking. He lets things eat him up inside giving himself the guilt trip for things he can't control and I try to help him with it but I can't if he won't say anything. All of our arguments have had something to do with me not being able to fully trust him because I don't know what is going on with him."
"Has he not proven to you that you can trust him? Do you truly have a reason to not trust him?"
"Uh hell yeah! My reasons are Nina Dobrev, Tia Gregory, and Dylan Beckford."
Dr. Morgan taps his finger on the armrest obviously thinking about what the right thing to say is.
"See? Even you're thrown for a loop. That's three occasions that he has broken my trust and most people would have left him by now. I consider him lucky enough to have me as his wife on paper still which I've contemplated about changing."
"You mean divorcing him?"
"Divorcing takes too long I would get an annulment. Yes people will call me crazy for not divorcing him because he didn't get me to sign a prenup so I can take half of everything."
"Very true but since you are contemplating the idea I can tell you don't want the material things."
"I want my self-esteem back, I want my confidence back, I want the happiness I had with Ian back I want him. I want the man that I fell in love with the one that I knew without a doubt in my mind loved me for me. I don't think that asking for honesty and communication is too much. There was a time when Ian would just blurt things out right when it came to his mind he would tell me."
"Do you think that there's some personal problems with yourself that are unsolved that make the situation worse?"
"I know that for a fact but I've lived with them my whole life I doubt it will change anything now if they go away."
"You would be surprised at how different you would feel being happier with yourself. If you are happy within it can change your whole outlook on life. If you can depend on yourself you won't have to depend on Ian because it sounds like you two depend on each other more than the average husband and wife."
"That's a reasonable assumption we have both helped each other in ways that most people couldn't do. What he lacks I have and what I lack he has we are perfect together well for the most part."
"There's nothing wrong with that but try and look at this from a different perspective. I'm sure Ian knows about the various problems you have with yourself. Have you ever considered that he hides certain things from you because he doesn't want to make anything worse? He could feel a lot of pressure trying to tiptoe around things making sure that you are happy 24/7."
"He's said things along those lines before but I always tell him that's not what I want."
"What you said right there made it seem like Ian's job is to just make you happy nothing more nothing less. Tiara you have to think about what he wants, what he needs, what you need, and what the best thing is for the both of you. It will be easier to focus on the future and your child once you are happy with yourself and have worked out your marital problems. Trust me from twelve years of marriage I know that if the commitment you share is strong everything falls into place."
"You make it sound so simple."
"Sometimes it is sometimes it isn't." He looks at his watch, "Whoa well that flew by how about in our next session we talk about the beginning of you and Ian's problems from the very first day you met."
"I feel a confrontation coming on."
Dr. Morgan laughs, "You could call it that but how can we talk about the man fairly if he isn't here to give us his side of the story."
"So in other words you want me to bring my husband to my shrink session?"
"Yup that's exactly what I want."
"Fine but what you said right there made it seem like my job is to just make you happy nothing more nothing less," I reply getting up.
He laughs again then pulls me into a hug, "It will all be fine."
I get back home to Cheynne glued to her laptop getting ready for her daily dose of gossip.
"What's going on here?"
"Baby shopping we are going to have to go shop for the peanut and find someone to do the nursery soon. We are women who do not engage in manual labor ninety percent of the time." Cheynne says.
"Uh we are women with men they can do it," I reply sitting next to her.
"Ian should do it it's not like he has done much else for his child I'm sure he would love something to do with his life."
"He doesn't need to do anything I'm perfectly fine by myself."
"Like he would let you be alone if you begged." She gets up and heads to the kitchen, "Chocolate shake?"
"Yup!" I grab the remote and turn up the TV when I see Gossiping Goddess come on. "It's on!"
Cheynne runs back into the room and hands me my milkshake turning the TV up even more.
"Good evening everyone I'm Alyssa Goodrich and this is my co-host Christina Lankford you're watching the Gossiping Goddess. Let's jump right into the juicy new gossip. We're heading back to the south y'all!"
"I don't think that I've ever seen Louisiana on the map this frequently," Christina adds in.
"Me either! Well the smoldering sexy Somerhalder clan is still a bit rocky. Recently there have been pictures of the newlyweds separated with various friends and family. Rumors are floating around that Mrs. Tiara Somerhalder could be filing for divorce!"
"Boo! We don't want to see the dream team break away I ship Tian hard! We, including the team off camera, understand if this rumor is true. Tiara has been through the ringer with Ian. Crazy exes, stalkers, memory loss, and now cheating are in the mix. How much can a woman take?"
"I have to agree with you Chrisy! Moving on but still on the subject of Somerhalders, the Fifty Shades of Grey, soon to be series, cast has finally been released for the movie!"
"Wooo!" They both say together.
"The sexy on screen couple playing Christian Grey and Anastasia Steele will be… Ian Somerhalder and Emilia Clarke! Thank god! Apparently, they were already friends before their names were thrown out there for the part. Emilia, a classy British actress, asked for permission from Tiara to have the sexy BDSM scenes with her husband. Tiara, a major Fifty Shades fan, agreed saying that she would only be comfortable with Emilia playing the part!"
"We didn't forget about the other very important parts either. Check out the site to see the full cast congratulations to Ian and Emilia! Shooting is rumored to start as soon as in two weeks and last almost a year I can't wait people!" Christina says.
Cheynne and I look at each other probably thinking the same thing my marriage doesn't have a fighting chance.
SO! First part of the chapter is the next ultrasound (with a special guest) and the next therapy session woo! Review, favorite, and all that good stuff thank you!:)