A/N: I think this chapter will be in two parts and not too much more of Tian being apart. Ummm after this story I'm going to write a spin off like a what if kind of thing. So far I know that it will start off with me meeting Cody first instead of Ian but things change once I do meet Ian so still Tian:) eventually I will start asking opinions on things later on. Do all that good stuff at the end as well please and thank you!

Chapter 10: Drifting Away: Part 1

Point of View: Tiara Somerhalder November 8, 2012

Chapter 10: Drifting Away

Point of View: Tiara Somerhalder November 8, 2012

"Whoa mister! You need to calm down in there I will feed you in a second I can't go downstairs naked!"

I continue to look for clothes and find a black shirt that shows off my upper back, which is perfect since I'm hot more often. I put on black lace leggings and turquoise wedges then take the time to admire myself in the mirror.

I place my hands on my bump looking from the side, "I have to say peanut we make a pretty hot couple." My son kicks me again and I know that's his way of saying I don't care crazy lady just feed me.

I go downstairs finally and Cheynne rushes towards me to cover my eyes, "Uh what's with the secrecy?"

"We want to surprise you!"

"Who's we?"

"Cody and I are setting up right now."

"Um for?"

"Don't act like you don't know!"

"You look stunning sister/cousin in law you're glowing!" Cody yells from what I guess is the living room.

"Thank you brother/cousin in law! Cheynne are you going to lead me to my car or what?"

"Yeah about that um that's part of the surprise so someone else is taking you to the doctor's office."

"Don't tell me-"

"I love you! Have fun! Bring back pictures of Chris or I will kill you to the car we go!" She continues to cover my eyes and walk me outside. "Keep your eyes closed still I don't want you trying to run away."

"Fine." I hear a car door open and music playing.

"And they say she's in the Class A Team. Stuck in her daydream been this way since eighteen. But lately her face seems slowly sinking, wasting crumbling like pastries…."

Once I'm sitting I already know who's driving, "Hi Ian. Cheynne we will talk about this later."

She uncovers my eyes, "How did you know?"

"I can feel when people stare at me and when I'm near my husband I get a weird tingle all over my body."

Cheynne tries to hide her smile as she turns away walking back into my house. I turn my head towards Ian seeing him stare wide eyed at my stomach. I wave my hand in front of his face and he snaps out of his daydream.

"Um wow uh happy twenty-sixth birthday."

"Oh… thanks."

"What's wrong?"

"He just kicked when you spoke it's like he knows who you are. I guess he can feel when you're near too."

A V forms between his eyebrows, "Gosh this sucks."

I can't help but giggle I have no clue why probably from the urge to cry.

"What's so funny?"

"You… I can't… I don't know…." I keep laughing tears falling down my face. "Okay okay I'm good."

I look at Ian and he's smiling obviously amused by my giggle fit. "You have no clue how much I love to hear you laugh. Did you forget it was your birthday?"

I nod my head and put my hands on my stomach, "I've been in la la land with Christian here."

Ian glances at me then looks back at the road, "You're still naming him Christian?"

"Yeah that's what we agreed on. What you don't like it anymore?"

"No I do I love it." He turns back, smiles, and then looks back at the road.

"Good can you make a detour to Arby's we're hungry."

"I thought you weren't supposed to eat before an ultrasound?"

"But…" I take his right hand off the steering wheel and put it on my stomach, "Do you know your son is trying to tell you by kicking your hand? He is saying I want to eat right now daddy so please take me and mommy to Arby's."

I place Ian's hand back and I see him swallow. "I guess I have no choice but to feed the two people I love the most."

My heart flutters amazed at how his sentence flowed out without a second thought. Oh, today is going to be long.

Ian and I sit there looking everywhere but at each other. I think we both were over being mad choosing to be sad.

Dr. Graham walks in, "Hello Ian I wasn't expecting to see you."

He chuckles, "I wasn't expecting to be here."

She smiles at the both of us then directs her attention to me, "How are you feeling my dear?"

"Eh the usual breathless, a tad bit uncomfortable but I don't care I'll be seeing my baby boy soon."

"Doesn't sound out of the ordinary most first timers are miserable."

"Sometimes I feel like that but it's worth it."

"Oh! Happy birthday as well."

"Thanks I'm getting up there."

"Hey I'll be forty in four years so shush," Ian says making Dr. Graham laugh.

I roll my eyes and layback pulling my shirt up.

"Have you been feeling any movement from your little guy?"

"Yeah he was kicking on the way over here being very grumpy when he doesn't get what he wants."

"Any noises or situations that make him kick?"

I glance at Ian, "He kicks more when I'm really happy or excited, when I'm hungry well when he is hungry, my voice, and practically anything that Ian does. When he spoke his son kicked, when he had his hand on my stomach he kicked, and just being near Ian makes him kick."

"Has that happened before?"

"Uh well no I haven't seen or talked to Ian in months."

Dr. Graham's mouth pops open obviously shocked, "Well let's gets this show on the road." She puts the freezing jell on my stomach then starts to explore concentrated on the screen.

The fast thumping of my son's heartbeat fills the room, "Everything looks alright from what I can see no problems so we can do maybe one more ultrasound before the baby is due how about March?"

I nod, "Good would you like to see your little boy in detail?"

"What kind of question is that?" I smile at all the possibilities I could see. Dr. Graham starts to click around and I take that chance to look over at Ian. He's leaned forward with his elbows on his thighs. I see a tear drop to the white tile floor yanking at my heartstrings.

I brush my hand over his hair revealing that perfect hairline that I absolutely love. "What's wrong?"

Ian turns towards me, "Nothing."

"Hearing his heartbeat?" He nods causing me to smile, "Had the exact same effect on me."

"Instead of a 2D ultrasound we are going to do a 3D ultrasound." Dr. Graham turns the screen towards us.

"Oh… my… gosh…." Ian and I say in unison. We are completely hypnotized by our chubby cheeked son with his perfect little lips curved up in a half smile.

"He's absolutely perfect."

"Already smirking like his old man," Ian mumbles in amazement.

We're both on cloud nine walking out of the doctor's office but reality seems to set in once we are in the car. An awkward silence consumes us and I can't help but chuckle remembering the days back in Seattle when I thought every day with Ian would be silent. I couldn't have been more wrong if I tried. I find myself making a twirling motion with my fingers where my wedding and engagement ring was. Some days I barely notice it's gone but others my finger feels so naked.

I see Ian glance down at my hands and I can see him getting uncomfortable so I try to brighten the mood.

"We should go baby shopping soon. I don't even have a clue about what I will do about a nursery."

"I'll take care of the nursery and we can go clothes and gear shopping when I come back from Seattle."

"What do you mean? And aren't you going to be there for like a year?"

"I'm coming back for the birth of my son obviously. And I mean I'll take care of it that you don't have to even think about the nursery until the day that you take our son home."

"I feel like you're relinquishing your parental rights already and we haven't even signed anything."

He chuckles, "So that's your sly way of telling me that I should be expecting divorce papers? I'm not surrendering I'm just preparing."

Before I can reply, we come to stop arriving at Dr. Morgan's office. We don't have to wait at all which makes me assume that he is expecting a good couple of hours with us. Ian and I sit on the brown couch on opposite sides creating as much space as possible.

"How would you two like to start?"

"I guess the beginning," I mumble.

Dr. Morgan looks at Ian who nods, "Who wants to go first?"

"…I will." I glance at Ian and he does the same then we turn away. "In the summer of 2010 we were taping TVD and they made a giant call for extras. The first couple of days only a handful of them were used but when the drama actually started they brought in a couple new people. I was standing there next to Nina doing our usual… Delena moments. On cue, I looked up at 'the new girl' and it seemed like everything stopped. I even fucked up my line but somehow it worked so I followed her as I was told to do. I walked across the room to where she was sitting at a booth and my insides flipped and rattled looking at the most beautiful woman I laid eyes on. I knew in that moment that I would have to make her mine and only mine possess her, own her, and have her in a way that nobody else ever had or ever could."

"Why did you feel that need?" Dr. Morgan asks.

"Before that day I felt hollow, cold, and heartless. When Tiara and I's eyes met, it was as if she found my heart lighting a spark filling me up with a feeling that only she could give me. Now I know that feeling was hope she gave me hope making me believe with one look that as long as she was around my life would be better."

"Did you ever tell her that's the way she made you felt that day?"

"Not until now."

I stare down at my hands fiddling around with the empty space on my ring finger. "Tiara how did you feel the first moment you saw Ian?"

I laugh a little at the memory of when I truly saw him for the first time. "That wasn't the first day I saw Ian actually. Cheynne dragged me to some convention and I was bored out of my mind because I had no clue what everyone was talking about since I hadn't watched the show. Everyone started screaming when they announced Ian Somerhalder and Joseph Morgan coming to the stage. I looked up and I melted I understood why people were going nuts. Yeah Joseph was hot but Ian… I don't even know he was well still is an Adonis. Aphrodite is the goddess of beauty but if there is a god of beauty and perfection its Ian. Listening to him speak you had no choice but to listen he commanded the room with such power. In that moment I vowed to myself that I would make that man mine and if I couldn't I would at least have an hour of his time just him and I. Never in a million years did I think I would get more that a glance let allow a ring on my finger."

"Why not?"

"Uh look at him! He's sex on a pair of fine legs and then look at me I'm lucky to even get called cute like a puppy. Ian always… always looks like he has stepped straight of a GQ magazine he used to be a fucking model for Pete's sake! When he was modeling being the definition of perfection, I was in school stuck in books and my fantasylands when I wrote fan fiction. I would have to be extra crazy to even think there was possibility that I would get a guy but I got the guy the one everyone wants."

"But T-" Dr. Morgan cuts Ian off holding his hand up.

"Maybe that's exactly what he wanted a normal girl who was stuck in books and fantasy lands. Ian what drew you in to Tiara?"

"Tiara's one big contradiction and I love it. She's 5'5" with gorgeous long legs that models would kill for. She's smart understanding the overly difficult stuff but doesn't understand the smallest things at times. She can be soft spoken but loud when she wants to be. She oozes sex appeal and beauty being able to stop a room without even saying anything but doesn't believe in what she has. I just want to make Tiara see how special she is."

"Do you feel pressure to fulfill that?"

"Not really just frustrated."

"Would I be right in saying that the strong emotion and connection that you two have started right when you saw each other?"

We both look at each other then nod.

"What do you think has been the biggest problem for the both of you lately?"

"Communication," We say at the same time making Dr. Morgan laugh.

"Half the problem is figuring out what is wrong so at least we know that. Ian how about you give me your input on the issue since Tiara and I have talked about it before."

"We're both hard headed and beat our opinion into the other's head but it gets us nowhere. I refuse to let Tiara be I calculate everything needing it to be perfect so I feel that she is safe. I don't like her being alone because that is when her mind wanders and she thinks the worse about herself and about me. I don't want her to leave me ever and I know that is selfish. Then I think that Tiara likes to piss me off sometimes because she feels like I don't treat her like an adult. I know I piss her off when I don't tell her things and I really don't mean to do that I've just always been so private."

Dr. Morgan directs his attention to me, "Would you ever judge Ian on purpose?"

"Never, I have no right to if he actually talked to me I would sit there and listen only giving my input when wanted."

"Well there you have it Mr. Somerhalder. You shouldn't be afraid to open up you're opening up to me so why not to Tiara, Mrs. Somerhalder." I smile at how he stresses Mrs. proving his point. "And you would've known that already if you would use the most important tool you have in a relationship which is?"

Ian laughs at himself, "Communication."

"You shouldn't fear it because if you talk to Tiara she talks to you it works both ways. If you shut down on her, she shuts down on you because she feels like there is a double standard. Am I right Mrs. Somerhalder?"

I nod amused by the fact that Ian listens once a trained specialist tells him the same thing I've told him.

"I should know that by now my wife has told me that before."

Can he read my mind?

"Now Tiara I want you to be completely honest on your opinion of the future of your marriage."

"…Do I have to?"

Dr. Morgan laughs, "That would be ideal."

I look back down at my hands feeling the tears come to the surface, "I don't think it will work and honestly I'm tired of trying this is the third time if it hasn't worked by now it won't ever. I just want to be happy and that should come naturally… with or without Ian. I'm not going to be one of those women who sacrifice their happiness to be in a loveless marriage. I don't want to be together because of Christian I want to be together because that is what we both want. If we can't agree on the status of our relationship, how will we agree on bigger things like how to raise our child? I've looked at this situation from every angle every point of view nit picked over every possibility and…."

I stop and try to control my emotions before I end up crying uncontrollably. "I can't do it anymore I can't be eaten up inside thinking is my husband cheating on me again or is he really working? Is he lying to me to make me feel better or lying to hide his chick on the side? Does he really love me and only me or does he still love Nina or love someone else? I won't do that and I can't. If I get hurt again… I know this will sound really bad but if I get hurt again, that's it that's the end for me. I truly think that I could hurt myself if that day came where the person I love with every fiber of my being hurt me again. I'd rather be lonely and happy instead of psychotic and married."

"So in other words you are saying that-"

"I'm saying I think I want a divorce… annulment actually." I wipe away my tears and peek up at Ian who looks as if I have stabbed him and ripped out his heart.

He clenches his jaw obviously trying to hold in his emotions but that doesn't work. "Not a divorce an annulment. A fucking annulment! You want to wipe away any evidence of you being my wife? Like a fucking divorce wouldn't be bad enough but an annulment? Really Tiara? I never thought that you would be such a vindictive bitch! Do you hate me that much? What more can I say what can I do to prove to you that I'm sorry?"

I take deep breaths counting to ten to reign in my anger. "Are we done here? I shouldn't be getting upset."

"As long as you two talk about this you can't leave this discussion unfinished." Dr. Morgan says still looking at a fuming Ian.

I get up and walk out already dialing a cab. "So you're just going to ignore me acting as if you didn't drop a bomb on me!"

I keep walking gritting my teeth. "You don't think I deserve an explanation?"

"How do you like Nina and Tia as a fucking explanation?"

I press the elevator button and the doors open. Ian of course follows behind still yelling. "I know! I was stupid it was idiotic and childish! What the hell else do you want me to say?"

"Nothing! How dare you act as if this is all my doing that I have no reason to want an annulment?" I step out of the elevator once it opens and keep walking towards the exit, "I want this over with fast quick and easy. You pushed me to my breaking point and you had better think again if you expect me to stick around after all this shit I have been through for you! You are acting like I owe you something when I don't!"

I sit on a bench outside about to press call when Ian takes my phone, "Oh no you didn't."

"Go get in the car."

"No."

"Tiara I'm not playing around get in the car."

I look up at him, "Nope."

"I'm not leaving you here!"

"Well you better pop a squat because I'm not moving until someone other than you takes me home."

He takes a deep breath and sits down next to me. "I'm leaving tomorrow."

"Do you expect me to care? I am a vindictive bitch."

"I didn't mean it I wasn't expecting you to say that up there."

"Well I did."

"Can we forget this whole situation? It is your birthday and I shouldn't be upsetting you."

"Why did you do it? Why did you make that call a couple months ago? If you hadn't have done it we would be together at home with the people we love celebrating my birthday."

"All I can remember is that I wanted you so bad I would have you any way I could get you. Then Tia popped in my head and the call was made. Part of me is glad I fucked up again because I was where I should've been but now I think I am. I'm sorry I truly am sorry and I wish I could take it back take everything back that has hurt you."

Ian takes my hand up to his lips and kisses it, "I love you I always have and always will."

"I love you too and that will never change."

He gets up and I stand as well, "C'mon beautiful let me get you home."