Title: Can't Let Go
Chapter Title: A Lonely Sunset
(Fic Series): A Life Worth Living
Fandom: Free!
Pairings: Sousuke/Rin
Rating: T
Warnings: A tiny bit of angst, but all good fun
Summary: Free! Eternal Summer Future Fic
A canon compliant two-shot to explain Sousuke's end scenes in Eternal Summer
Chapter Summary:
A sunset is a perfect time to think about one's life choices.
A/N:
Thank you for reading! I hope you liked it! It was a lot of fun to write, even though it was a bit emotional. The next thing I write will have to be pure fluff because I can't deal with even the smallest angst, it's awful lol. I'm so weak to their pain.
If I made any glaring errors or mistakes please tell me so I can fix them :)
Can't Let Go
Chapter 2: A Lonely Sunset
"What am I doing?" Sousuke questioned the setting sun.
The pier was empty. Bright yellows and oranges spread across the sky, deepening into dark purples and blues. Purples and pinks were the colors of the clouds. It was beautiful, and dramatic, and the perfect setting to wonder what on earth he was doing with his life.
The air was chilly, and the sea breeze blew its icy hands against his face. The wind stung his cheeks in a way that was awfully reminiscent of the dulling sting he felt from being slapped by his mother. He remembered her wild eyes of anger, frustrated tears pouring out the sides but not obscuring her vision. Her teeth were bared at him, disgust scrunching her nose. His father had been shocked still, face paler than any snow and posture more rigid than the rules he lived by. He knew that it was a bad idea to bring Rin along, but his beautiful friend would not listen to his warnings. His mother was more insulted than anything else, as if Sousuke's love for Rin was a direct blow to her pride.
Rin had been calm the entire time, facing each brutal spit of words thrown at them, but Sousuke had felt how his hands had chilled and began to sweat. He rubbed his own hand against his pant leg just thinking about its uncomfortable and distressing texture. He had listened to Sousuke when he asked him to not say a word to his parents. Honored the promise that if he wanted to be there then he'd just have to be silent.
His mother was a raging beast, breaking photos of Sousuke she had displayed in their living room, cursing him when he would not change his decision. She had slapped him with as much force as her small frame could allow, and the heat of it was sweltering. Though small, she did create a good sized bruise under the irritated flesh of his cheek. He let her do as much, but when he saw her infuriated form go to attack Rin he had grabbed her arm with such a tight grip she cried out in pain. Purpling bruises had come to the surface of her skin in a matter of seconds.
He found that more disturbing than any words or actions that had happened that day.
Not even the knowledge that all evidence of his existence that was left in that house was erased. The only things he had managed to save were things that were in his possession before their fight. He had also managed to secure his birth certificate, despite it being among her many files. He was only able to save one baby photo, one of the ones she had on the wall before the fight. All of the family albums had been packed away in boxes in their locked attic. The neurotic woman made sure to let him know that she never had a son like him, and all of those photos would be burned.
He couldn't forget Rin's tears when they left.
However crazy things had ended, his parents acted as he had suspected they would after the damage was done. The old woman who was a part of his mother's club saw him working at the grocery store and congratulated on his studying abroad. The woman who was their neighbor also congratulated him and asked what he was studying. He lied and told her he'd be going to school to take sports coaching classes, filling in her pointed questions with answers that were not his. He gave away Rin's answers to satisfy their curiosity.
Even if his parents caused him grief, he didn't want to cause them more trouble than he already had.
A choked breath fell out of his mouth as he thought about it all.
Why was he still protecting them? Why couldn't they accept him like how Rin's mom accepted them? How far could he go with this? Could he and Rin really last? Would they still stay by them if they don't? Would it have been better to have just been complacent with a life decided by his mother and father, so that he'd at least have them by his side?
Would still having them in his life be worth not being his true self?
He knew the answers. They were simple answers that didn't take much thought. For the most part he was genuinely okay with being disowned by them. He wasn't lying when he said that they weren't real parents to him. But they were his parents, and sometimes he caught himself making up happiness where happiness didn't exist. Cherishing a past that was fabricated, a past that only seemed happy in front of other people. He didn't even notice that his only happy family memories happened in public, in front of people and away from the privacy of their own home. His home life had always been cold and stiff.
Still, even if breaking it off with his parents was inevitable if he was to be true to himself, was Australia really the way to go? He only knew the bare minimum of English, even with all of Rin's training he doubted he'd do well in an English speaking country, and he was just a kid. He had no skillsets he could use to find a job, nothing to put on a resume besides his swimming career.
He laughed at the absurdity of it. Going on some wild crazy adventure with Rin in a country he had never been to with a language he barely understood? If he was being honest, he'd probably follow him to hell and back if he asked. His thoughts were cut short by the shrill ring of his cellphone. He glanced down at the caller ID before he planned on putting it on silent. He stopped himself when he saw the digital image of his favorite goofy smile staring back up at him.
"Hello?" Sousuke answered the buzzing device, a grin finding its way to his lips.
"Where are you? I just got back and you're not even home!" Irritated grumbling came over the receiver and Sousuke laughed at the pleasantly familiar sounds.
"I'm coming home now, don't worry."
"Well I am worried," the voice huffed. "Do you know how late it is? God Sousuke, get lost or something?"
"Nope, just contemplating my existence," he chuckled. He took one last glance at the horizon before turning back onto his path home. His home. His home with Rin and the Matsuoka women. His home with his new family.
"Well stop taking so long," he grumbled. Sousuke almost snorted at the pout in his voice. "What did you come up with?"
Sousuke shrugged his bag higher up on his shoulder and sighed, brow relaxing under the concerned voice of his closest friend and love.
"That I'm crazy in love with you."
His boyfriend sputtered on the line and hung up without another word. As Sousuke went to pocket his phone a soft ding made him pause. He looked down at the text and bit his lip, a gentle sigh escaping him. He breathed in more cold air and hurried on his way back, grinning from ear to ear and feeling like everything would work out somehow.
"I'm crazy in love with you too idiot, so come home already!"