When I awoke the next morning both me and Lissa were still fully clothed which was a pain, but one thing I was thankful for was that I slept really well, nightmare free, which
was the first for a very long time. It was now Saturday and so classes were over until Monday again, so I just laid back and relaxed enjoying time in the company of my best
friend, even if she was asleep, her presence was comforting, much like a teddy, knowing they're there just calms your nerves down. It's funny really but I feel so much more
relaxed today, I mean the pain and loneliness is still there, but it wasn't taking over my life like it had been, it had dimmed and I have to admit I felt strangely refreshed. "I
guess I really did need to let it out" I thought to myself, and although I didn't let much out the weight that had been taken off my shoulders was huge. I know I can trust Lissa
and so that's what I'm going to do, after all she's all I have left. I feel within myself that I'm strong enough to get through the story without having a breakdown. This is the start
to a new Rose.
Suddenly lurched forward and out of the bed and straight for the toilet the urge to puke my guts was strong, but thankfully I made it to the toilet in time. However I must have
woken Lissa when I launched myself out of bed, because she's now kneeling besides me holding my hair out of the way while I'm bringing up the little food I had yesterday. I
guess my stomach didn't like the idea of me telling Lissa, but like hell if I'm going to listen to it, I'm Rose Hathaway I don't listen to anyone, even if it is my stomach.
After I have finished my puking episode I turned to Lissa and gave her a reassuring smile to let her know not to worry, anyway it wasn't a big deal it would go away soon. Then I
turned to the sink and brushed my teeth. Who wants smelly sick breath? Defiantly not me. After I finished cleaning myself up, I went to go see Lissa in my bedroom, where she
had been waiting patiently for me to finish. She was sitting on my bed with her legs crossed, still in her pink track suit from yesterday. When she saw me come in she gave me a
cautious smile "hey don't worry Lissa, something I was thinking of made me nauseous, no need to panic" I said soothingly, I didn't want her to worry. The room then lapsed into
a comfortable silence. "I'm ready, I can do this" I thought and so gulping down a big breath I said "okay Lissa I'm going to tell you everything, because I know your desperate to
know, just please don't interrupt me because when I start it will all just come out" I chuckled, Lissa just pretended to zip her mouth up and 'throw away the key' "okay so me
and D...D... Him were together, it wasn't planned but it just happened" I said, I then went on to explain about theme and Jesse in the abandoned lounge, the lust charm, me and
him in the gym just after Mason's death, the cabin, and him leaving (without a word to me might I add).
I let out a breath, a huge weight had been taken off me that I didn't even know was there, it's out Lissa knows, and I feel very good about it. I couldn't help feeling bad, she
should have known about this earlier maybe then I wouldn't have suffered as much and she's my best friend she should have known, but I can't change the past so I'm going to
change the future, I'm not going to be sad little Rose. I'm going to be defiant and strong he's going to regret ever leaving me, and if I ever see him again I'm going to kick his
ass all the way to sunny Mexico. "Wow!" Lissa said breaking the comfortable silence in the room "I never knew that much was going on, I never knew you felt this way. Oh Rose
I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you, but I'm going to be here for you now, you're not going to be able to get rid of me" she smiled at the thought but also feeling guilty that she
wasn't there for me, and I did to oh I do love Lissa "no Liss don't worry it was my fault I should have told you, I was just a coward not too I'm the one who should be sorry" I
said "but I should have noticed, If I hadn't have been spending so much time with Christian then-" I cut her off "no Lissa it's not your fault, he's your boyfriend, don't worry" I
said, she was getting herself all worked up now, she just needed to calm down. "But Rose you're my best-"she started "no Lissa please, let's just agree to disagree yeah?
Otherwise we could be like this all night". She nodded and smiled, then tackled me with a big hug until we were both lying on the floor laughing so much, my belly felt like it was
going to explode. After a while Lissa said "well Rose I promise I'm going to make more time for you, starting from now. So let's go get you some of them donuts" she said
offering her hand out to me so I could get up. I smiled to myself this was a start to a new beginning.
Once down in the cafeteria Lissa told me to go sit down and that she would get the food, I tried to protest but she was adamant se would also I could tell through the bond that
she wanted to look after me, and this was her way of doing it, so I complied and went to go sit down with Eddie and Christian. "hey guys" I said cheerily I was feeling a lot
happier "hey Rosie Posie someone's happy today aren't they?" Pyro asked he obviously thought that now I was out of my mood that it was alright to test his boundaries and call
me Rosie Posie, but I wasn't going to let him bring me down, so I simply replied with a "yep" and smiled. "So Rose what's got you in such a good mood then?" Eddie asked
curiously I grinned at him "Lissa" I said happily, "yeah" Lissa said getting to the table, thinking that were asking her something "oh no Rose was just telling us what's put her in
such a good mood lately that's all" Eddie said. "yep" she said making a popping sound on the 'P' "me and Rosie have had some nice girl time" she said smiling "oh that reminds
me! We should go shopping, or to the spar or something it would be so much fun!" Lissa said happily. I could tell through the bond Lissa was ecstatic, at first she was a little
angry, guilty, upset but that was all to be expected but now she's like a new Lissa. A plate of four chocolate glazed donuts appeared in front of me and I couldn't help my mouth
watering they just smelt so delicious! And so I just dug in eating them as quickly as possible, they were just so good!
Once I had finished I turned to look at Eddie, Christian, and Lissa to see them all staring at me with their gobs as big as they can get "shut your gobs guys it's not an attractive
look" I said "God guys anyone would have thought you haven't seen me eat before" I said in a shocked voice, obviously faking, but I tried to make it as believable as I could,
after all Rose is back, and I want some fun.