The next few days were good, I was on the road to recovery and my heart was healing, and I'm sure people were noticing my better moods and complexion. I was still the same

badass Hathaway but I could control my feelings a lot better now, and channel them into things, instead of them becoming wild and out of control. I mean I still feel angry at

Dimitri for leaving me but it doesn't hurt me so much anymore I can now say his name without being overloaded with feelings, although I still get a pang of sadness and anger,

but nothing I can't control. I think my recent recovery is mainly due to the great support of Lissa she has been my rock through this, and although people have been nice around

me but they never knew what was up, except Lissa. There has also been a big change in myself I can open up more to people, well only Lissa really because I know I can trust

her, but other people? Not so much. I mean yeah I love Eddie, Pyro, Alberta and Adrian but after Dimitri leaving it has been an automatic thing to shut down and not let people

in, because if you don't let people in they can't hurt you when they leave. I'm still as deadly as ever though, I still have all the pain and suffering from Dimitri leaving and so I

channel that in my fighting, and well let's just say I can kick butt. And I love it.

I still have mentoring, and people have recently been complaining that I didn't need it, and that they should be mentored instead but Alberta understand I need the time to get

my anger out, not to actually train, because let's be honest there's not much more these guardians they keep bringing in can teach me, I'm just that awesome. Also after my

slow recovery I'm puking a lot less, and I think it's because the heartbreak is starting to heal, and although it will never heal back to normal, much like a fracture, your bone will

break and heal but it will never be exactly the same as before, but I'm getting stronger to overcome it. Now I'm mainly only puking after my morning trainings, which I think is

partly due to the exercise as well, but as it seems to be going, I feel there's no need to tell Alberta, I didn't want to worry her.

Yes Alberta is still extremely busy with the planning on these larger numbers of strigoi forming in places around the world, and it's becoming increasingly worrying. Every time I

see Alberta she's always looking really tired and stressed, not a good look on her.

So here I am in my room reflecting on my life, I've actually taken to writing a diary, I find it really helps with getting my emotions out, because I feel I can't trust people I can

only trust myself, so writing a diary is the perfect solution, I can get my feelings out without having to rely on anyone. So in this diary I am currently writing at this very moment

contains everything about me and Dimitri, Lissa, Eddie, Christian, Alberta, Mason. Everyone. This is why I always keep it well hidden, because if it was found, well all hell would

break lose. Then out of the blue there was a knock at the door, and I quickly jumped out of my bed and hid the diary under a loose wooden floorboard in my room, then go to

get the door.

There standing at my door was Alberta, she had the same tired-worn look she had been wearing for days, but now along with that was excitement. "Rose come with me" she

said, a direct order, I couldn't disobey, not that I wouldn't I trust Alberta and so I followed her along.

She was leading me to the guardian building, where I met the disciplinary committee when the little 'incident' happened with the field experience. Now I started to panic 'I hadn't

done anything wrong have I?" I thought but I hadn't, I've been on good behaviour since Dimitri left. Alberta seemed to be smiling back at me, obviously noticing my discomfort

as an attempt to comfort me, but it wasn't working. As I was lead into the guardian building I were led into a long corridor, with one big wooded door at the end, you know like

the big medieval ones? Yep just like that. As we reached the door, they both just suddenly opened, like they were expecting us, whoever 'they' were.

I gasped, this is the room the use for meetings and banquets, it is an efficient and practical room, much like all the guardians here. Within the room, there were many guardians

all seated in different rows all facing the stage at the front of the room. Through the bond I could feel that Lissa was here, not only that she was excited, REALLY excited. Alberta

led me through the crown of guardians to the front and onto the stage, all the time I was wondering why the hell I was here. As soon as I was on the stage Alberta pointed to a

seat next to guardian Lionel, the tattooist and told me to sit there. From where I could was I could see Lissa beaming at me, next to here were Adrian, Eddie, and Christian

whose faces all matched Lissa's. "Okay" I thought "I'm getting kinda freaked why the hell was I here? Why are they all smiling at me like creepy clowns?" but I kept my face cool

and my guardian mask on (which I had recently perfected) however it didn't help my nerves that Lissa was blocking me out of the bond. "Good morning everyone" Alberta

announced when standing at the podium at the front of the stage "we have gathered you to this very important meeting to congratulate a very fine member of our team. She has

continually shown us her potential amazing fighting skills and I believe that in the near future she will make a legacy of her own for novices in the future to look up to and

admire. So on the this joyous occasion I would like to announce that Rosemarie Anne Hathaway is being given her promise mark a month early due to her amazing skills and

willingness to put others before herself. Congratulations"

The crowd erupted in cheers, clapping and whistling. Lissa and all my friends were standing out of their seats, cheering me on the loudest. If I'm going to answer honestly I'm

shocked, beyond belief. I've never heard of a novice getting their promise mark early, especially a bad behaved one like me. No there must be some sort of mistake, and all this

time I just couldn't move out of my seat, I was frozen. Well this was until Lissa came up on stage and hugged me, this shook me out of my trance, and I hugged her back. All I

could feel through the bond was her extreme happiness and pride. When she pulled back from the hug I beamed back at her with the biggest smile "I can't believe it I'm going to

become a guardian!" I exclaimed I felt so happy right now, my life was finally complete, and I could last without Dimitri, this just proved it. Instead of Lissa saying anything she

smiled back at me and went to go take her place again, but I could feel everything I needed through the bond.

Once people had settled down Alberta began to talk again, she let out a chuckle "I know this is surprising Rosemarie but we wouldn't do this if we didn't have complete faith in

you, you know all the guardians you faced?" she asked me, not trusting my voice I just nodded "well they were qualifiers of a different sort, instead of taking a normal trial like

the other novices, we tested you with experienced qualifiers around the world to test you, then report back to us" she continued "and I'm so very pleased to announce that you

passed them with flying colours!".

The ceremony continued much like my molnija ceremony but this time I also had to take my guardian's oath, which was basically me promising to put moroi before myself and

keep the safe which I obviously agreed to, 'duh' that's a bit obvious. After all the talking we finally got down to business and I felt the familiar sting of the needle, marking my

neck permanently with the needle 'no turning back now' I thought as the needle was piercing my skin, marking me with the deadly sign that would tell strigoi that I'm deadly.

After my promise mark was done guardian Lionel told me how to look after my tattoo, but I didn't listen I already knew how to do it, of course I pretend to, it would be rude not

to, so I added a nod and a "yes" when I though appropriate and he sent me on my way.

I was first tackled down by Lissa with a big hug and she was telling me the whole time how proud she was of me, that I was so strong and that she loved me. Then next I was

greeted my Pyro that hugged me, he didn't say anything but the look that he gave me said more than a million words. Eddie was next up "ha ha well Rosie looks like you're my

boss now" he said with a cheeky grin "yeah I guess I am, but I tell you what I won't bust your for sneaking out" I said, of course joking but he just laughed and moved on. The

ceremony continued on like that and I had congratulations from many people, Adrian, Stan, Kirova, and basically all my teachers. Alberta had also come up to me and informed

me that I would receive my moroi at the novice's graduation and for now that I would be helping out with guarding the school. She also gave me my own stake, with a rose vine

in carved on it, with 'Rose' written on it. One person who did surprise me was my mum. She was here and had watched my ceremony why didn't I spot her? I thought. Anyway

she hugged me but didn't say much, one thing I had learnt was that my mum was a woman of very few words, not that I minded.

Out of the blue I felt uneasiness, anger, worry and fierceness coming through the bond. 'Oh god something's wrong Lissa's in trouble why was she feeling this? I was instantly on

guard and searched the room for Lissa. I spotted her across the room-she looked fine, what was with the emotional overload? Then I realised she was staring at something, well

more like a death glare to someone, not something. I looked at where she was looking, and then I felt my stomach heave at what I saw... It was Dimitri. And that's when I threw

up.