'Oh shit' I thought, as I was puking my guts up. Why is he here? Especially as my hearts starting to heal and I was getting over him.

'Oh god he's here!' I said angrily

I need to get out of here Rose Hathaway never runs but this is too much, a girl can only handle so much and I think I'm at my breaking point.

People were all gathering round me, wanting to help me but not wanting to go near the pile of sick on the floor and so they settled for standing around me watching.

This pissed me off.

What they're just going to stand there like headless chickens? Just watch me as my heart crumbles to pieces.

Typical they can take down a dozen strigoi but to watch a teenager throw up? Well that has them puzzled.

NO! I thought no way are they going to see me like this, for all they know, I'm sick, they don't have to see me breakdown and cry, which I'm on the verge of doing.

I need to get out; away before he comes over or before I breakdown, either way both of those are a disaster, I was determined I would not give in to him, he will not see what he has done to me.

I would not give him the satisfaction of letting him know that he has this affect on me.

So I used all my will power and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand, stood up straight and pushed through the surrounding crowed and headed for my dorm, where I can

be alone, away from those stupid headless chickens.

As soon as I was out of sight I ran, I ran so fast I just needed to get away! From him, from my feelings and from everyone, I was becoming depressed again, I could feel it.

The growing feeling of loneliness came, he was here, and he came back, what to rub it in my face? He never loved me, he just wanted to do the impossible and get into Rose

Hathaway's pants, and like all guys their all ruled by their crotch, I was stupid to think he was any different.

I ran up the steps towards my room, taking two at a time, just needing to get there faster, to be alone, not bothering if anyone saw me, this was a normal sight .

This is what he put me down to, cowering in my room, wanting to be isolated because I just can't deal with these feelings; it's like an overload in my body, just ready to explode.

For the past few days these feelings were dormant, smoothed over by Lissa's kindness and understanding, but now that he's here, well they can't be covered up, no amount of

kindness or understanding can put my feeling's to rest, especially while he's here rubbing it in my face.

Once I reached my dorm I pushed my way in, and slammed my door in a hurry to get I locked. 'Maybe I shouldn't have come here, this will be the first place they look' I

thought, damn there you go again Hathaway; that should have been obvious but you were too busy feeling sorry for yourself, you mess up like you always do, no wonder he left

you.

I started walking round my room, still feeling keyed up from the recent events-this is most defiantly not how I imagined my graduation to be like, stuck in my room alone, and

on the verge of crying, oh well it's better than being out there with him, for that I was thankful for.

Oh god- the thought of him being out there makes my heart want to burst; I love him I can't say that I don't, as much as I wish it to be.

But at the same time, I hate him, he makes me angry the thought of him leaving me, with no much more than a note, and before you say anything it wasn't even a love note

saying he loved me and would be back soon. Nope.

He didn't even have the heart for that, instead it went along the lines of "Rose I'm leaving, and don't know when I'm coming back, this is wrong between us and so I want you to

move on and forget me" although I can't actually tell you what it says because I have Pyro burn it for me, the reminder for me was just too much at the time, but now I would do

anything to have that stupid note instead of him.

At the time I thought I could never forget him, but right now that's all I want, is to forget him all the pain he has given me I just want it to leave.

I want to be strong, defiant, cheeky, and stubborn like I use to be, but do you know what hurts the most? He broke my trust and he was the one person that I would absolutely

trust with my life, but that's not all, not only did he break my trust with him, I feel as if I can't trust anyone.

The pain is so bad I don't want to trust anyone because of the chance of anyone doing the same to me, the pain is just unbearable.

Unexpectedly I felt a huge wave of emotion from Lissa anger, fear, hate and sadness; it was so big I felt kind of dizzy from it.

"Oh shit where's Lissa?"

Damn I was so busy with my emotions that I didn't notice hers, and now she might be in trouble. "Great job Rose, you mess up again" I said to myself as I slipped into her head.

Wow! As I slipped into her head, the anger I felt radiating off her was immense, I've never felt anything like it, and I'm sure the people standing by could feel it, and to me they

all looked scared, and of a moroi? Well that's the first, especially seems they were all dhampire's.

"YOU!" Lissa shouted at... Dimitri. Wait Dimitri? What the hell have I missed? I thought

"You are unwelcome here, and I order you to leave. NOW" she said with so much power in her voice and she sounded so defiant, I'm honestly shocked I have never seen Lissa

like this, and by the look on Dimitri's face he wasn't expecting it either, I mean he had his guardian mask on but I could always see through it.

"Princess with all due respect you are a student here and cannot tell me when to leave, also I'm not here by choice, and I was asked to come here by Guardian Hans Croft, head

guardian at court".

'Wait? Who?' I thought 'he didn't come voluntary?' oh god, there goes my heart again, breaking just a little bit more, and I know I shouldn't be feeling this but I guess on some

level I wished that he had realised that he had made a mistake and came back, but he didn't.

He didn't want to see me; it was only his duty that made him.

However Lissa wasn't thrown back by this new information like me, she was fuming and well at the moment and I could feel the darkness coming on, she wanted answers.

The darkness had been creeping up so slowly and now it has gathered so much in her body, never before have I seen this amount it was scary, this was more than the amount

that she had when Jessie was torturing her.

This is loads of darkness, too much for me to just take like I normally do, and plus I'm already depressed and adding the darkness wouldn't be a good idea.

For Lissa to have this darkness it was dangerous, but for me to have it, well that would be lethal.

"I need to get down there" I said to myself, "before she hurts herself or anyone else" as I pulled out of her head, unlocked my door and launched myself in the direction of Lissa,

and no one was going to stop me, her safety comes before my feelings.

As I was running everything was a blur, colours, shapes, people... all a blur, nothing mattered, only Lissa.

I could feel through the bond that Lissa was becoming increasingly angry and just wouldn't give up, not until she defended my honour, which I was thankful for, but it didn't have

to be like this, not with the darkness controlling her.

The darkness was so strong it was now seeping into me, without my permission, this was dangerous, like a time bomb waiting to explode, and cause catastrophic damage.

If only I can reach there in time to warn people before both me and Lissa fly off the hook.

As I ran into the cafeteria I didn't slow down, not until I reached Lissa, which proved quite hard seems they had a crowd surrounding them, but me being Rose Hathaway wasn't

going to take no for an answer, I was getting through whether they liked it or not.

So I pushed, shoved and even kicked my way through the guardians to get to the centre of the crowd where I would find all the problems to my life.