Some of the guardians pushed back, as I made my way through to the centre of the circle, but once they saw who was pushing them, they quickly came to their senses and

moved.

So once I reached the centre of the circle, my anger couldn't help but spike.

I think this is mostly due to having the darkness seeping into me, because if I didn't I think I would most probably run out crying at the sight of him, but this thought angered

me more, why should I be reduced to such lows because of him?

Well the answer to that is that I shouldn't, but I still am, I just can't help but love him.

"You're a coward, a low life. Do you get kicks out of hurting my best friend hu? Is that why you're here? Because I tell u what I will be damned to let u anywhere near her. Over.

My. Dead. Body." She screamed as I entered the centre of the circle.

"Go to hell-"she stopped as if she sensed me there watching them, she slowly turned and looked at me. 'Oh my god' I thought shocked at the sight of her; I've never seen Lissa

like this!

Her face was flushed bright red with anger; her hair was a mess sticking out in many places much like a hay stack, but what scared me the most was her eyes were black.

Her eyes were black! I would presume that it is the darkness, but it didn't make it any less scary, to be honest now I understand why Dimitri was scared when I was in Lissa's

head, I would have probably run a mile by now if I was him, but this wasn't Lissa and she's not in the right frame of mind and I have to protect her, even if it is from herself.

And if that means I have to face Dimitri then so be it.

This wasn't the Lissa I knew, the fun, loving, caring person I knew, this was the darkness, and it wasn't her. What am I going to do? I questioned myself. It just feels like I'm

stuck between a rock and a hard place, I need to get Dimitri out of here, he just seems to be the problem to everything in my life, and I need him to go, actually no scratch that

I want him to go, we need time to recover both me and Lissa, but I know he won't leave, if anyone knows him like he knows himself it's me.

He was wearing his yeah-you-may-be-scary-but-I'm-badass face.

I sighed; sometimes he's just as stubborn as me thinking he can take on more than he can chew, and I know Lissa won't leave she wants to defend my honour.

So I made a snap decision to go with the more logical option and ask the non crazy person, to leave, but it isn't as easy as it sounds.

So sucking in the deepest breath possible, I turned to Dimitri.

I felt a big pang in my chest as I took in his features, he still had that long luxurious brown hair, and those brown eyes I love, but he looked a mess. He looks like he's lost

weight, and he has dark circles under his eyes.

Not that I care 'good' I thought he should be a mess, because that's what he has done to me. Yeah pay back's a bitch.

For the first time in my life this is the first time I've seen him look absolutely petrified, but I'm not sure who of, me or Lissa?

But like I said, he's stubborn and once he's set his mind to something he won't back down. But as I looked closely at him there was something else in his eye as well, he looked

sad, really sad, probably because he hasn't got his way so far.

I could feel through the bond, Lissa becoming more and more angered by the fact that she had promised Dimitri wouldn't see me, and here I was standing in front of him, and so

I was becoming increasingly angry, burning inside of me wanting to be released, but my brain knew better than to let it take control.

So I need to do something before this gets all out of hand, which would include both me and Lissa going off the hook.

So letting out the deep breath I had been holding in, I looked Dimitri directly in the eye, trying not to let the anger take control as I did as large amount were flowing through the

bond.

"you need to get out of here now" I said as calmly as I could considering the situation but my voice still had an edge, I was trying to control myself but it was becoming

increasingly difficult, and I could feel Lissa getting very agitated at the thought of me speaking to him.

This meant more darkness, more anger, and more tension.

Even after me telling him to leave, he just stood there staring at me wide eyed.

Okay well it was kinda awkward yeah no doubt I looked like something's just died on me, but does he really need to stare? Does he want me to feel bad?

I mean he has no right! No right what so ever, he left me! And now he just comes back and stares at me? No I'm not having it, what's he trying to do rub it in my face? Well I

will show him who's boss, no way will I be put in this situation again, and I will put him in his place.

By this time my hands were balled in fists, squeezing them as hard as I could, just trying to let out some anger, but it's not working. I was just too angry he needs to go now

before this all kicks off, but this angered me more because he wouldn't leave.

"NOW" I said darkly, why doesn't he read the situation? Can't he see Lissa's black eyes? Can't he tell that I have the darkness inside of me, well he should! He was with me after

what happened with Jesse he should notice. So much of a guardian he is.

"Rose, I need to talk to you" he said calmly, like nothing serious is happening.

Whoa! This was all it took for me to lose that little control I had. How dare he! He left; he can't just come back demanding to talk to me like nothing's happened.

The darkness began to enter my body fully, filling it up like a jug of juice. At this point I couldn't feel my heartbroken heart; the darkness had now filled up that void as the anger

consumed me.

I lunged at him giving him a massive right hook in the face, most probably breaking or dislocating his jaw. His face screwed up in pain but that didn't stop me, he should feel

pain like I did!

By this time Lissa was hitting, punching, and kicking Dimitri as we both just let the darkness control us.

Dimitri quickly recovered, but I was fast, angry, and heartbroken. He asked for this, he should have left when I told him to leave.

I then faked right, and went left kicking him in the gut. He then launched at me quickly trying to gain control of the situation but I moved quickly, but Lissa misreading the

situation jumped in front of me and elbowed Dimitri in 'the area'.

I smiled evilly, oh how I do love Lissa

Now you may be wondering how that took him down especially seems Lissa's a moroi but the darkness enhances our natural born powers, it takes the darkness part of your soul,

your very essence and enhances it.

It enhances it so much it's all you can think about, and that's what's happening here, on a massive scale.

Not that I cared, he deserved it.

Dimitri was now cowering on his knees covering his parts, and groaning in pain.

'Weak' I thought 'pathetic' he's meant to be a guardian and I've taken him down so easily, he looks so helpless there kneeling on the floor, but 'no mercy' I thought as I started

kicking him.

I thought of him as a punching bag, just kicking and kicking trying to release my anger, but that was going to be hard considering there was lots of darkness, so I just continued

to kick him.

Lissa started catching my drift and kicked Dimitri with me, any place we could.

Any grunt or moan of pain would only spar us on even more, then when he started to bleed, I felt a little satisfaction, knowing he was in pain like I was. Although I consider

emotional pain worse than physical because it's a battle with a part of yourself, not another person.

But my satisfaction was short lived because I then felt multiple arms wrap around me pulling me away from the bleeding body on the floor, and the more I struggled against the

hands the more I felt a resultant force pulling me back, but no way was that going to stop me from getting my revenge.

I became more forceful but more guardians pilled on me. I guess they finally snapped out of their shocked trance to actually do something about the situation, but it's too late

the damage is done.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw Lissa being held back by three guardians, while some other guardians were tending to Dimitri's broken body and on the phone, most probably

calling for back up.

My gaze suddenly snapped up from Dimitri's body when I was being pushed out of the room, quite roughly as well I might add. I was about to fight back against them when I felt

Lissa's emotions.

She wasn't angry anymore; she was sad, nervous, shocked, disgusted and lonely, and it was quite obvious she needed someone there with her.

She needed me, the real me. Not crazy darkness Rose, nice, caring, and protective Rose.

So with the help of Lissa, I tried so hard to push these emotions out of me, draining the darkness out of my body.

Using as much will power as I had, and it used a lot of my energy but I finally started to feel myself again as I felt the darkness leave my body, taking the crazy anger with it,

and I was just left shell shocked.

"Oh God!" I thought "what have I done" I started to shake uncontrollably I'm such a stupid idiot! Why did I let the darkness get the best of me? I was just meant to get Lissa

away then I could help her deal with it... Lissa!

I started to panic, she needed me, but my panic died down when I turned my head to see Lissa on my right trying to be brave and help me but she just looked like a lonely, lost

child.

I just wanted to hug her and tell her she will be alright, that I would protect her and never let anything bad happen to her, but I couldn't really make that promise seems I can't

protect her from herself.

As I made my move to go hug Lissa the guardian behind me refuse to let me out of his death grip to comfort my best friend.

But even better two guardians stepped between me and Lissa, separating us fully.

Now this started to anger me, why should they keep me away from her she's my best friend? But then it occurred to me that we just went all crazy, and wild in there, of course

their going to think I'm a danger to her, no doubt they will want to put me in a mental institution, because no person in their right mind would do what we just did.

But then again we weren't in our right minds.

I turned my head to see a guardian I didn't know holding me, and he looked pretty strong so I wasn't going to mess with him, well I wasn't going to mess with anyone, that

wouldn't do any good to my reputation or anyone's health.

So instead I just turned around and said "its okay guardian, I'm under control now, I'm no threat to Lissa or anyone else. I promise" I said calmly, and to be honest I felt

exhausted to argue, I just hope he will let go.

However much to my dismay he didn't. I sighed feeling disappointed, and sagged in defeat, I wasn't going to cause any more trouble, and I just hope Dimitri is alright.

Dimitri, I felt a huge pang of guilt. I can't believe we did that to him, and oh god the memory of his body lying on the floor all helpless, I just couldn't stop the tears that were

flowing freely from my eyes.

I just beat the living shit out the love of my life, and he could possibly die for all I know; now the pain from that was way worse than having the pain of a broken heart.

He was right to leave me; I just proved that by my actions, he shouldn't have come back I destined to ruin people's lives. Even my own.

I need to make sure he's alright; I won't be able to live knowing I killed him.

All of the sudden I felt Lissa using her magic through the bond; I started to panic oh god I don't want to go back to crazy Rose "please Lissa. Stop" I thought.

The darkness is enough to handle for a lifetime.

The guardian behind me must have noticed my uneasiness because he tightened his grip on me, and although his grip hurt, I was glad to have someone keeping me from doing

anything crazy, shame their guardian instincts didn't kick in when it was most important.

But a second later the two guardians that were separating me from Lissa stepped apart to reveal Lissa standing between them looking all messy and sad. "Let go" she said to the

guardian behind me, she said it forcefully, and it didn't matter that her hair was messed up, or that her clothes were ripped; at that second she looked like a princess.

At first the guardian hesitated, trying to resist the compulsion but in the end he let go of me and stepped aside, allowing me to step out of his grip.

I ran up to Lissa and hugged her so tightly "I'm sorry Rose I don't know what got over me, I'm so stupid I'm so sorry" she said crying into my shoulder. "Shh Liss it wasn't your

fault it was the darkness, don't blame yourself" I said comforting her

"If anyone is to blame it's me, I should have protected you" I said truthfully, oh god I'm going to make a crap guardian I can't even protect my future charge, and that's if they

don't fire me for the events that just happened first.

"Rose it wasn't your fault I let the dark-" I cut her off "Lissa we can talk about this later first we need to see if Dimitri is okay, maybe you can heal him?" I asked sadly, I'm not

sure I could stand to see what I have done to the love of my life.

"Yes of course I will heal him!" she said forcefully "now come on lets go, before it's too late" she said as she tugged on my arm and we walked out of the corridor and towards

the med clinic, where I will have to face up to my consequences.

This wasn't the best start to my guardian carer.

So I hope you like it, i very much enjoyed writing it, I made this chapter quite long to make up for the shorter chapter before :) so let me know what you think x

Charlotte x