Okay so guys I don't normally write authors notes on my chapters but this is an exception, I know my upates recently have been irregular, that is because I'm in the middle of my GCSE's and so I have less time for writing, but my last exam is on the 24th of June so after that updates should be more regualr. Also I know some of you have been confused about the recent events, but I needed it to be like that, however I have written this next chapter in Dimitri's point of view so you can understand a little more about what's going through Dimitri's head the past few months, and you can see the differnt relationships the characters have with eachother.

Please if you don't understand anything just ask and iIwill try and make it clear, either by PM or in the next chapter.

Thanks for all the reviews I really appreciate them, I hope you enjoy this chapter, it's the longest so far! almost 4000 words! hahah

Charlotte xx

Dimitri's Point Of View:

I sat happily in my kitchen laughing and smiling at the wonderful jokes and conversations I was having with my family. Viktoria had just joked about beating up

anybody that tried to 'mess' with her, and I couldn't help but laugh she reminded me so much of Rose, forceful, stubborn but also loyal and caring. I sighed, my heart

just sinks thinking of Rose she would fit in so well here with my family, but I just couldn't take her away from her dream she was destined to be a great guardian,

why would she want to be with me?

I can't believe that I was able to walk away from her, and stay away. I would have thought that by now I would have gone back begging for her forgiveness, but I

was staying away for her own good, and that's the only thing that keeps me going. Just because I'm away from her, it doesn't have an impact on the effect she has

on me, every night my last thought is of her, likewise she is my first thought of the day, and she clouds my mind and heart at all hours.

All of my family know about Rose, from the many letters and e-mails I have sent them, but none of them dare question me on it, I guess they could just tell it was a

subject I wasn't willing to talk about. I sometimes receive strange, knowing looks from Babushka, which kind of gives me the creeps, but I just ignore her as much as

I can. I don't want to be dragged into a conversation that I do not intend to speak about.

I sigh... I'm starting to feel a pull on my heart strings. I have been away from Rose for almost a month now, and I really want to see her, but I just have to settle

from hearing reports of her from Guardian Hans. Yes you may believe it to be strange getting reports of Hans, well his name's actually Jonathan, but he was a good

friend while I was training at my academy, he often visited before he became head guardian. So when I called him up the night I left Rose, crying and shamefully I

told him all about Rose and the way I left her, with no more than a note. I knew he wouldn't judge me, and he comforted me in my time of need. So now every two

weeks he receives reports on all students at St. Vladimir's, then passes the report on Rose to me. He's been a very good friend looking after me, and even breaking

the rules for me. I have much to thank him for.

I haven't spoken to Alberta since the night I left, when I had informed her I would be leaving the academy, well I couldn't believe her reaction, she was angry! Wait

no she was fuming! She said she couldn't believe I was doing this to Rose, which lead me to believe she knew about our relationship, although I didn't question her

on it because I didn't want to bring up any suspicions, because she could have just been talking about leaving Rose so close to graduation, and if so that would ruin

Rose's chances of becoming Vasilisa Guardian, and that is what I was trying to avoid by leaving.

I so badly wanted to call Alberta and ask about Rose, but I fear because of her reaction of me leaving, that she wouldn't talk to me about Rose. Oh god, why did

things have to be so messed up? I wish I could just live the rest of my life with Rose and not have to worry about what people think, or what it will do to our

reputations, but life's a bitch 'ey?

So for a few weeks my life continued relatively normal, just joking around and just being with my family, but I could never relax, not knowing whether Rose is okay

or not, it's killing me. So about I decided about a month and a half after leaving Rose, to call up Alberta and ask how she's doing.

But oh boy was that a mistake! And basically turned round and told me that because I was no longer there, that I had no right to know the well being of Rose AND

she even went as far as saying that I was bad for Rose "Miss Hathaway will be fine as long as you stay away" she had said, and oh God did that hurt! It was like she

was pulling away pieces of my heart with every word she said. Roza was in bad shape, and I hated knowing I was the cause of it, and that I wasn't there to help her,

nor was I allowed to return to the academy to see her.

That night I basically cried myself to sleep, I knew that I wouldn't be able to stay away for much longer, I missed her and she missed me, so why should I try and

stay away, when I know in the end we will return to each other?

This is what led me to my decision to call Hans for one last time.

My hands were sweating like mad, partly because of what I was about to ask, and partly because of the thought of seeing Roza again.

"Guardian Hans here" he answered on the second ring, "hey John, It's Dimitri" I said, starting off slow, not wanting to jump straight into things. "Ahh Dimitri, how are

you? I thought you knew the reports don't come in until Friday, and today's Wednesday" he said, I could hear the confusion in his voice, on why I was calling him in

the middle of the week, "I'm not too good John, I don't know how much more I can go on without her, and to make it worse I called Alberta yesterday and she told

me Rose wasn't doing too well, and she told me to stay away" I let out a sob, this was the only person I could talk to freely about Rose, he knew everything about our

relationship, and It surprised me that I wasn't suspended from my Guardian duties because of it, but then again what are friends for? "but I don't think I can, I need

her, Please John help me" I cried, whispering the last part of the sentence, then I just cried my heart out down the phone, the true raw pain I was feeling was now

emerging, and it was painful! I never knew I could feel this way about anyone, but I love her so much it hurts to be away from her, and I will do anything to get back

to her. "What are you supposing I do then Dimitri? I know how much you love her, and I feel for you, I really do, but I don't know what you're asking" "please" I said

painfully "just get me back there, I can't stand it any longer" there was a silence for a moment, while I suppose John was thinking about his options.

"Well Belikov, I wasn't going to tell you this until Friday but I suppose I can tell you now. Rose is set to graduate early, and well as her old mentor, I believe you have

a right to be at her graduation ceremony" he said, then paused slightly, I suppose to let me take in the information "And well Belikov this isn't something I should be

telling you, but I have been talking to Petrov recently and well she has informed me of a new plan to increase security at the academy, now I have spoken to the

queen, and this will basically be a test run on the school, if it succeeds then we have the plan put in to place at every academy around the world, but for this plan we

are going to need extra guardians to be with each of the students, and so we are going to have to recruit more guardians". I listened carefully, and I couldn't help but

have my spirits rose from what he was saying, it sounded too good to be true. "Dimitri you are one of my closest friends and it hurts to see you so torn up inside, and

so this once I will make an exception and bend the rules, if you want to be with Rose so badly I will transfer you back to the academy, and seems you do not have a

charge there will be no suspicions brought up to as to why you are returning".

After he said this, I couldn't help the sobs that racked my body, but this time it was in happiness, I was going to see Roza again! "Thank... Thank you so much John, I

don't know how I will ever thank you! So when will the transfer take place? I mean the sooner the better, maybe I could be there for her graduation? And how will

you explain this to Alberta? Because I know she defiantly doesn't want me back" I asked in one big long speech. "Well Dimitri, there's not much she can do, I'm head

guardian and what I say goes, and yes Rose's graduation will happen this Sunday, and so I will arrange you a flight for tomorrow morning, which will get you there

Saturday night, so you will be there for her graduation. And well as for thanking me, just go back and never let her go Dimitri, she has to be special to have this

effect from you, so to see you happy will be enough of a payment, now I must go, but start packing now, and I will e-mail over you the arrangements for the flight,

and I will inform Alberta, goodbye Dimitri" he said then hung up the phone.

I couldn't believe the news! I was going to see Roza, and she was graduating early, I'm so proud of her! I know Hans said to start packing straight away, but I

couldn't hold in my happiness, and packing up my cloths wouldn't express my happiness, and so instead I ran downstairs as fast as I could and into the living room,

where my family was sitting. I ran up to mama and kissed her on her forehead, then cheeks, then moved on to Viktoria and repeated it and I repeated this on

everyone in the room. Then once I finished that, I went to run up stairs and pack, but not before I turned around and said to all of my shocked family "I'm going back

to Roza" I said smiling like a goof then ran back upstairs like a little school boy would do on Christmas day.

It took me little time to pack as I had little amount of clothing. What surprised me was that Hans was able to book me on a flight the same night, and I arrived at the

academy Saturday night so I was able to be there for Roza's graduation. Just knowing she was in the same academy as me made me all giddy inside, I never knew a

girl could have this effect on me, but then again I've never met a firl like Rose.

Once I came off the plane, I was greeted by Guardian Celeste who informed me that I would have the same room as I did before, and that my guardian schedule was

in my room. Hmm I suppose Alberta wasn't too happy with me then if, she didn't come and greet me herself when I came off the plane, but this did little to dampen

my mood.

I collected my bags quickly and went to my room, soon to be asleep, and see my Rose the next day, and that night I slept happily knowing I would see Rose the next

day.

The next day came quickly, and I had the best night sleep I've had in a month and a half. I arose early; too anxious to see Rose, so I showered and put on some of

that aftershave I know Rose loves then dressed into my suit, and then I made my way down to the guardian's event room, where Rose's graduation was being held.

No one asked any questions as to why I was here, which I was thankful for, but then again I was her mentor. While they were collecting Rose, I just stood quietly at

the back, nervously waiting her arrival. Up until now I never really thought about what Rose's reaction to seeing me would be, I was too preoccupied at the thought of

seeing her, but now I don't really know what to expect, but whatever she does I know it will be dramatic, Roza wouldn't have it any other way.

Suddenly the big medieval doors opened to reveal Alberta, and Rose. Alberta looked kind of smug, along with happiness and pride, and well Rose I don't have any

words to describe how she looked, or how I felt just as she entered the room. Rose wore rather casual clothes which consisted of pale coloured skinny jeans, and

white top with lace up near her cleavage, the top also clung to her curves perfectly, she then had a grey and white cardigan her. She looked absolutely beautiful.

Although the casual clothes came as a surprise, Rose's face also held a look of surprise which led me to believe that she hadn't been told about this graduation.

When Rose entered the room my heart swelled as my love for her increased, there was no doubt in my mind that I love her and I'm going to do anything to put it

right again.

The Graduation continued as normal, and throughout the ceremony I couldn't take my eyes off Rose. The noise of Alberta and other guardians speaking were just

background noise, it was if I had zoomed off into my own world and all I could focus on was Rose, but one thing I was disappointed at was that she didn't sense my

eyes on her, because it had always been that way before I had left. I could always feel her eyes on me because I got a tingly sensation spread over my body, just

anticipating her touch.

Suddenly a loud amount of clapping startled me from my little world, and I clapped as well.

I looked up at Rose to see Lissa tackle her to the ground, and I could visibly see the connection between them had grown, as Rose smiled happily at Lissa. I sighed,

I'm glad she had someone when I wasn't here.

I just stood at the back of the room watching Rose receive all the congratulations from people. I wasn't sure how I was going to go about speaking to her, so I just

watched her.

Well that was until I felt someone's eyes on me, and it wasn't the tingly feeling I got with Rose, so I turned to see who was looking at me. Now I can say I was

shocked to see sweet Vasilisa staring daggers at me, and oh man if looks could kill, I think I would already be buried six feet under. Vasilisa came storming towards

me "what are you doing here?" she said in an angrily whisper, probably not wanting to alert Rose that I'm here, but I don't think that worked, because I saw out of

the corner of my eye Rose's head snap up, then scan the crowd for a Vasilisa, and have her eyes land on me. I swear when she looked at me my heart skipped a

beat, but what I didn't expect was to have her throw up. I then automatically took a step towards her, wanting to help her, however in the process I was stopped by

Vasilisa "Erm, no way are you going anywhere near here Guardian Belikov" she said forcefully, and to be honest I was quite shocked by her tone, sweet, innocent

Vasilisa wouldn't act like this, unless... she knows about me and Rose. Oh well crap, I'm not quite sure how this is going to play out, but nothing was going to stop me

from seeing Roza.

So instead of speaking, I just proceeded to walk forward to the door where Rose when running through. However I was then stopped again by the ever persistent

Vasilisa "I said you're not going anywhere near her Belikov, was that not clear enough?" she asked patronisingly again, I carried on walking forward after Rose, but

was then once again stopped by Lissa "YOU!" she shouted "You are unwelcome here, and I order you to leave. NOW" she shouted, which gained the attention of

many guardians in the room, including Rose's mum, which no doubt I will have to explain this to her afterwards.

Now it became quite clear that Lissa wasn't going to let me pass without a type of explanation, but I owe her nothing, so I just settled for saying "Princess with all

due respect you are a student here and cannot tell me when to leave, also I'm not here by choice, and I was asked to come here by Guardian Hans Croft, head

guardian at court" okay well obviously that was a lie, but I'm not about to announce my undying love for Rose in front of Vasilisa and practically every Guardian at

this school. However Vasilisa didn't like this and her eyes visibly darkened, well actually they were black! And it was scary; I wasn't quite sure how to react, but

before I had any chance to comprehend what was happening she started shouting random insults and threats at me "You're a coward, a low life. Do you get kicks out

of hurting my best friend hu? Is that why you're here? Because I tell u what I will be damned to let u anywhere near her. Over. My. Dead. Body." She screamed at

me, and then she went on to say more insults but suddenly stopped, when Rose appeared from the circle that had appeared around us.

I wondered why the Guardians aren't stopping Vasilisa, but Rose's face confirmed it all, they were scared. Of Lissa. I mean you could feel the anger radiating off her,

not to mention her eyes are black! It's probably the darkness...Wait! The darkness! That means it's going to be seeping into Rose, oh no this isn't good.

I turned my gaze to Rose, to see her visible fighting the effects of the darkness then she said "you need to leave now" she said as calmly as she could, but I could tell

she was struggling with the darkness. Now the most logical thing to do would leave, especially as I saw how this ended last time, wait no it ended well, but she was

rather dangerous. But me being me, I stayed, I needed her to know I'm sorry "Rose I need to talk to you" I said, just wanting her to understand, why things have

turned out like this, but nope that was a bad move.

Next thing I know Rose is charging at me, and her eyes are now as back as Vasilisa's, I tried to defend myself, but I didn't want to hurt her, especially knowing this

wasn't her it was the darkness. But next thing I know I'm kneed in my 'area' then I feel myself being kicked and punched until I pass out into the blackness.

The next thing I know is I'm feeling extremely groggy and disorientated, last thing I remember is Rose launching herself at me inside the Guardians even room.

Suddenly, I start to feel a spread of warmth and happiness spread through me. Hmm this is strange I thought, I've never felt this feeling before. For a few minutes I

contemplated on what this new feeling could be, perhaps I'm dead? Wait I couldn't be because I still felt pain, although the pain was starting to go. It wasn't until I

heard voices that I finally understood what was happening. "Lissa, we need you fit and healthy too, come on he looks a whole lot better, but we need to go, the

longer we stay the more likely we are to get caught". Realisation finally dawned on me, Vasilisa was healing me, now I'm quite surprised they actually snuck in here

to heal me, I thought they hated me? Ah well I'm glad they did because I felt a whole lot better.

I then heard Vasilisa move away from me and start to fiddle with something, while Rose came near me and started doing something else, I knew it was Rose by me

because I can always recognise her strawberry shampoo anywhere. Rose then placed something on the bedside table although I can't see what it is because my eyes

are closed.

It's only when Rose came very close that her strawberry shampoo was very strong, and she said "I love you Dimitri, don't ever forget that" OH MY GOD! She still

loves me! Now that made my heart swell, and I know from now on I really do believe that we could work through this.

After my encounter with Rose, I couldn't let myself fall asleep, I was too hyped up at the thought of me and Rose. At this point in time I didn't care that she or Lissa

just hurt me, because I know that wasn't them, so it's easily forgotten.

I sighed as I opened my eyes to the bright room around me, from the look outside the sun was high in the sky, so everyone would be asleep this time at night. So I

let my eyes just scan around the room that I knew Rose was in earlier today. After being away from her for so long, just the thought of her coming in close contact

with me made my heart beat twice as fast.

As my eyes scanned around the room, they landed on a folded piece of paper on my bedside table. Scribbled on the front of it said 'comrade' I smiled, she wrote me

a note. I then unfolded the note to read what's inside

'comrade, things were never meant to turn out like this, I'm so sorry, come by and talk when and if you feel up to it, of course I will understand if you don't '

Ah it's from Rose, short and sweet, but I can tell from the note she feels incredibly guilty about earlier events, and after what she said to me when she thought I was

unconscious I know she still loves me.

It didn't take me too long to decide what to do about this; I know she loves me, just as I love her, she said I could come by and talk, so that's what I'm going to do. I

don't care that it's the middle of the vampire night, I love her she loves me and so if she feels the same way I do she would want to see me at any time at night.

So I got dressed into my earlier suit and exited the door, to find the woman I love.