Hai y'all! I'm gonna keep this short. Enjoy and happy trails my lovely Readers & Reviewers.

Kudos by the way if you know what Magnus's car looks like. It's my dream car. Elegant, classic, not fussy, but still has something under the hood. *I'm a car addict ok*

~L.C

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I stared at the photo in my hands and tried not to be sick with worry. Alec hadn't called or came around yesterday. Maybe he regretted us dating and wanted out. Maybe I had scared him off. So many maybe's ran through my head as I switched my stare from the phone to the one remaining photo of my mother. I had told Alec she was gone but I just wasn't ready to tell him the whole truth.

I still remember the phone call. The dial tone had been loud and obnoxious back then not the light trill I had changed it too after I had come back to my senses. The low tone of the police officer saying how sorry he was and that he would do anything to find out who had done this. The sudden darkness enveloping my chest as I realized I wouldn't see her again. I had smashed china, burned photos, and drank. Drank till I could forget everything. Drank till I didn't remember my own name. Drank until the pain faded into nothing, a pure sense of ignorant bliss. But the pain and my name and everything came back so I drank more. Vodka beer wine. I wasn't picky. If it had any alcohol content I would drink it.

Then I had met Camille. A white lighthouse in my sea of black stormy water. She had lost her whole family to a fire and she managed to float a small life raft to the island that was Magnus. We took a little of each other's pain and slowly I came out of my vicious cycle. But old habits die hard and I took up another addiction.

Glitter and hot pants kept most people at bay. Camille never questioned it and I didn't question her man eater attitude. She had moved down to Florida and I hadn't seen or heard from her since.

In some deep dusty part in the back of my head I knew it was to keep people away. Make them not want to get to close but I didn't care. Not until the raven haired angel descended on me at least. I wanted to tell Alec everything. I wanted him to know how every morning I woke up and slowly choked back a sob as I realized my mom wouldn't call today. I wanted to tell him how every day I regretted not going to her funeral. I wanted him to know every part of me because where I was folded I was a lie.

Thinking about my mom, the pain, the drinking, Camille, had my throat suddenly tight and I tried to breath but couldn't seem to get enough oxygen. I quickly grabbed up all the thoughts and put them in a tight little box in the back of my head. Alec had said that it helped him feel better and it worked surprisingly well for me to.

Chairmen Meow let an indignant meow escape his mouth as I nearly flung him across the room when the phone next to me let out a 4 note trill. I snatched at it and hurriedly put it to my ear, hitting my face on the way up.

"Hey Alec. I was worried sick. Wh-"

"Magnus this isn't Alec. This is Jace, his brother" Mr. Baywatch sounded tired and I wondered whether Clary had forgotten what her car looked like again. I rolled my eyes and began to describe Clary's red Honda but Jace cut me off.

"It's not Clary. She's fine, better than fine actually your whole list treatment whatever thing has been helping but forget about that!" Jace sucked in a breath and my heart stopped. "Alec was mugged the night before last. Izzy thought you should know."

I dropped the phone. Not this again. I tried to breath and slowly rocked back on forth on the pink coach that still smelt like Alec. I remembered all the times he was splayed across this couch these last 2 weeks and how badly I had wanted to jump on him and kiss him silly but instead we had talked and talked and talked. Learning more of each other and slowly becoming closer than anyone since her.

"Jace where are you? How is he?" I had a million more questions but I had to be smart about this. A little voice in my head said, "Pull it together Bane! You weren't going to be a little bitch and just cry. You were going to be strong and you are going to be fine. You weren't mugged were you? NO! Alec was and Alec was the one who deserved to cry and shake not you. Are you seriously going to just sit there? MOVE! You want to keep this one or are you going to not go and comfort him and leave him to the wolves. I SAID MOVE!" I shook my whole body and started running around the apartment putting a few days' clothes in a bag and some food. Shutting off lights and putting out food for Charimen I was halfway ready to leave before Jace even got anything out.

"Lenox Hill Hospital. He's alive but pretty beat up. Jacob's all messed up to. Hey I know this is really random but .. How long have you been with my brother?" I stopped in the middle of filling Chairman's water bowl. Was he serious? He was going to be a jerk because I had been dating Alec for what, 2 days?

"2 days I think. Why?" My voice was hard and slightly scary to even my own ears but I didn't care. I finished everything and started to slowly jog out of the apartment.

"Oh it's nothing like that. I don't care that's he's dating you. Actually, I'm happy. Yesterday at the party was the happiest I had seen Alec in God I don't even know how long. Your good for him .. I don't know I just felt betrayed that he didn't tell me but I'm pretty sure he didn't have time considering that he's been under heavy sedatives for the last 2 days but thanks. That helped a lot. So I'll see you soon I guess."

"I'll be there in 5 with coffee because you sound like shit Mr. Baywatch." Alec would have giggled at the nickname and I took comfort in the thought.

"Oh shut up sparkles... Thank you Magnus. See you then." Jace hung up as I started up my white 1960 Oldsmobile Super 88 Convertible and tried to comb through my hair with my fingers. I had no makeup and my hair was its usual soft straight self, Alec would be happy and I took comfort in that thought as well. I had been walking around in just some soccer sweatpants but I had thought the nurse's may have a heart attack if I walked in without my shirt so I had threw on a white v-neck as I had run down the steps of my apartment. Besides this body was only for Alec to see now.

The coffee line was too long. I eventually pushed past some people and smoozed till the attendant was a puddle at my feet. I ran out with 4 cups of coffee and probably broke every single speed limit possible during the 5 minute drive to the hospital.

The attendant working the cheaply painted front desk was too slow. She took forever, running her finger up and down and up again over the list of patients. Just as I was about to scream at her she said in a voice too cheerful for the situation, "Lightwood 234. There are already 2 people in there so tell them no more visitors for me ok?" I gave her a nod to curt to be polite and half ran half Olympic speed walked up the 2 flights of stairs and down the ominous corridor. I pushed the door and nearly slammed into Jace standing directly on the other side.

"Oh there y-" I didn't catch the rest of Isabelle's comment because my eyes had zeroed in on Alec. His face was deformed with swelling and was a nauseating shade of purple. His shoulder was wrapped in bandages and cuts and scrapes covered what little of his body I could see under the paper hospital outfit. To see him out of his holey sweaters was weird enough and I knew that he would have been emabrazed to be in the thin gown only protected by thinner sheets.

"Dear god." Again my throat clenched and I couldn't breathe but it was only for a second. I was going to be fine. The voice started screaming at me and saying things like, "You are being such a wimp. PULL IT TOGETHER BANE! Do you seriously want to cry like a baby in front of these people." I shook my body again and spilt a little coffee on my arm. The burning heat grounded me and I slowly, silently passed out the cups to Isabelle and Jace.

"Who did this and whats wrong with him?" I wanted to start a personal man hunt for the sick bastard who had broken my boyfriend so bad. The outside marks and bruises made my blood boil but my heart was as cold as ice at the thought of what was wrong with Alec where I couldn't see.

"He's gotten a few cracked ribs a lot of bruising and he had some small internal bleeding but they stopped that. He also has a concussion. As for who did this we have no idea and I think that's for the best right now because if I found out… well let's say I would be in jail for man slaughter right now." Jace's voice was eerily calm and I believed every word he said because I would be right beside him.

"What about the dog, Jacob, you said he was beat up too?" Alec would be devastated if his dog died. He would lose his eyes in the world and I doubted he would ever take a replacement.

"Shattered hips and a broken leg. He lost a lot of blood and it's pretty touch and go right now. If he lasts another night he will be alright." Isabelle sounded even worse than Jace if it was possible and she took a big swig of the coffee.

I sucked in a breath and stole another look at Alec. An almost silent, "Oh Alexander," passed my lips on the exhale and I took a seat and grabbed my boyfriend's hand, trying to get comfortable. I was going to be here a while.