Astrid Pov

As the warm warm water from the shower flows over me as if it is washing away the sin i have caused. it felt amzing but i just knew at the back of my head that it is all an elusion. i sighed and hop out of the shower, today was monday i hate mondays so FUCKING much but this monday i was dreading because of school and seeing... hiccup. i got dressed and went down stairs to an empty house.

"mum,dad you home" i shouted as i entered the kicthen to see a note on the kicthen table

astrid

me and your father have already left for work and wont be home till late so here is $50 to buy lunch , and dinner and if there are any problems at school call us and we will get you home ok.

love

mum and dad

I put the $50 in my wallet made by hiccup from real leather, then i get my self some breakfast and pack for the day ahead.

*timeskip*

i wate on the corner of my street for the bus, usally hiccup picks me up and takes me to school but i dont think he will be coming today. as i snap out of my daze the bus pull up in front of me and the doors open, i hear the atmosphere in side all cheerful and happy but as soon people see me that all changes and whole bus goes quite and cold. as i walk down to the back everyone is giving me looks that could kill and wispering stuff to eatch other like "whore" and "slut" it hurts but i just ingerore them. as i take my seat at the back and the bus starts rolling everything go back to normal before i got on , i just sigh and put my earphones and turn a song on and just zone out.

Hiccup Pov

"you dont have to this, you know that" stoick my father said as he has drop me off, mum was to busy at the vets to do it.

"i have to dad" i replied "i just want everything normal please"

"ok son , i am so proud of you and if there are any problems please call me" he replied

"thanks dad, i will see you later" i replied half way out the door and soon as the door is closed he is off to do his job as the mayor.

as i walk to the front of the school i got a few looks from people and few wispers mostly pitty and saddness for me, honestly i dont need it and i just ingore them. as i walk threw the front door i am greet by jack and merrida.

"Hiccup, we herd what happend between you and astrid, are you ok?" jack said

" yeah you ok" merrida adds

"no" i replied "i just need to be alone" as i pushed threw them and walk to my locker

as i reach my locker and open it, it is still full of pictures of me and ... her. i am sick to my stomach seeing her, i just grab a bin on the other side of the hall and rip all the photos off and chuck them in the bin then grab my books. as soon as i close my locker i am greeted by ...her she has small tears in her eyes.

"hiccup..."she say before i butt in

"lets get to class eh" i replied. as i reach my class i turn around to see her gone and i walk in to the class alone. as i enter the class everyone goes silent and looks at me i just sit down in the front of the class in my old spot, just then astrid walks in she has red puffy eyes she must of been crying, and everyone goes slient again and gives her the evils. to be honest i do fell sorry for her because it sucks having people hate you but that it. she take a seat in her usally place. just then the teacher come in.

"ok kids can you please turn to page 101 in your work books" he said

i just zone out and think about better times in my life.

*timeskip*

Astrid pov

it was now lunch time and everyone head to the cafeteria/canteen, as soon i walk in the whole atmosphere changed just like the bus from nice and happy to cold and silent. everyone fell silent and just gave me evils the only people were talking was snotlout and the twints laughing at me. as soon as sat down with jack and merrida everyting went back to normal.

"hey Astrid, are you ok" jack asked

"no, i have just broken my heart of my love for some lowlife" i replied

"i know it hurts astrid, but you will get him back and we are here to support you all the away" merrida said

"i dont know guys i will get him back but thanks guys for the support" i replied

just then the hole cafeteria fall silent and looks to the doorway i do the same to see hiccup, who is standing by the door then he lines up and gets his food and heads to his old table that has not been used in years. just then snotlout walks over to hiccup " oh no" i thought.

Hiccup pov

as i sit down at my old table that i have not used in two years. this table was my spot in the cafeteria before the fire. it still has my tally marks engraved in to the table, marks of my days i have survived at school. just the i add a new tally mark... days with out her. as i finsh of my tally mark, snotlout was in front of me.

"fishbone" he said "get up... NOW"

i get up from my table and say to him " What do you want"

"I just want to say" he replied " that astrid was a good fuck man, that whore had some nice tits and a nice tight pussy" he had a giant grin on his face, as my rage rised i just scrunch my right hand in to a fist and let him carry on with his banter.

"and when i was done with that whore she was begging..." before he could finish i have punch him right in his face and he stumbled back, cupping his nose it was bleading i must of broke it. as the floodgates of 15 years of rage came out i grabed his head and slammed into the table and i did again and again and it felt good. as he collasped i knee him in the face knock him out. just then i looked up and saw a huge croud had gather around, i saw astrid with a gob smacked look.

i look at the twints and yell at them " get this fucking piece shit cleaned up... NOW" they came running in and drag him away, i dont care where. i just need to leave as i head to the hallway i can hear anoter person following me, i turned around to see... her.

'Hiccup" astrid said "what the hell was that?"

"My...revegne" i replied " i will see you later...maybe"

as i walked out the school i need to clear my head so i decide to head to the cove and think, as i reached the cove there is only one thing in my mind i need to punish my self i decied to head to a screat stash on the other side of the cove. i open the box and find my old razor and medical gear and i start to cut and it felt good really good.