Chapter 4: Talking

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It was a few days after Christmas and now it was time to head back to the TARDIS and head back into space. Rose could really say she was excited if it wasn't for the niggling feeling of the odd dreams she'd been having. At one point, she'd dreamed of a different Doctor, of being stranded on a planet by a black hole and of being faceless at another point. None of it made sense at all and it was frankly terrifying. It'd been so hard to not run into the living room and check to make sure her Doctor was still there, eventually she'd walked out and peaked, only to find Jack and The Doctor speaking. She rubbed her face, headed back to bed and the next day it was time to head out.

She could feel something was going on, but her mind wasn't ready to handle whatever it was. It didn't help that she'd caught Jack and The Doctor speaking a lot and sending her odd glances, but she felt that perhaps they were still worried about the Game station, or that was what she was hoping.

She'd spoken to Mickey on the phone as well, an apology coming from both of them and realizations that they were not right for each other anymore, but they were most certainly always going to be friends.

After saying goodbye to her Mum and getting everything set up, She, Jack and The Doctor were all on the TARDIS and the first thing she did was come back to her room, unpack her bag and then head back out to the main area, where once more she could find the Doctor and Jack speaking in hushed tones, this time, she interrupted, she couldn't take it anymore.

"Something wrong, every time I turn around, you two are whispering to one another…Did I do something wrong?" She bit her lip for a moment as they both looked at her. The Doctor had a concerned look hiding behind those blue eyes of his and Jack was mirroring his look as well.

"Rosie, sit down for a minute will you? We should probably talk."

Rose took her seat as Jack spoke and The Doctor actually looked a bit nervous, Jack looked like he didn't want to start the conversation and eventually she bit her lip and spoke finally.

"What happened on the Gamestation? Last thing I remember is well it felt like a dream, but a version of me…and then gold light and then nothing until I woke up in the TARDIS. I don't know what happened, but I keep having flashes of two different versions of the event…" She trailed off at the concerned looks from both of them, a hand resting on her mouth as she remembered one involving the Doctor kissing her and regenerating into another man, many adventures flashing before her eyes and then finally…being sucked towards a void, any more thoughts on that were cut off when the Doctor spoke again, this time a bit gruffly.

"What do you mean two versions Rose? You should be fine." He trailed off for a moment and shook his head as she rubbed her face. She felt that some of it had to come out, enough to explain her odd reaction just now.

"I keep seeing me back on Earth, upset because you sent me back, trying to find a way to save you and Jack. One version is what we're living right now…Another version…you well…you died and there was another man and we left Jack behind and there were more fights, battles, Dalek's , something else and then A void. Its all confusing…none of it makes sense" She felt lightheaded as she felt more words and memories in her head. "You telling me to always wait five and a half hours.." She chuckled dryly and shook her head as she saw the two looking confused at her. An odd amount of pain hit at the five and a half hour comment but She rubbed her face again, unknowingly a flash of gold had shown in her eyes for a moment.

The Doctor stared at Rose for a moment, seeing the flash of gold and becoming worried over it. Jack sent him a glance as well and the men both trade concerned glances before The Doctor

"Rose, we need to take you to the medbay now. I want to run some scans." The Doctor spoke, a glint in those blue eyes of his signifying something was bothering him but that he wasn't ready to share.

All three of them ended up in the medical area and he was running scans over her, making a few noises here and there, Jack staring at her and she was just confused.

They sat there, well Jack and her, lowly talking as the Doctor continued his scans. It'd taken a bit but now it seemed he was very focused on her at the moment. Staring at Jack and then at her. She sent Jack a look and finally spoke up.

"Somethin' wrong Doctor. You look a bit upset." She struggled to get the words out, he looked more then upset. The look in his eyes reminded her of how upset he looked when he had held the gun on her and the Dalek all the way back in Utah. It frightened her, not of him, but of what must be going on.

He just moved from the room, and she and Jack followed, knowing that's what he wanted. They ended up in the kitchen, sitting down before The Doctor finally spoke.

"It's the Gamestation Rose. You, looked into the Heart of the TARDIS. Honestly, it should have killed you and yet you managed to let it go. It came with a few other consequences.." He trailed off for a moment, before Jack spoke.

"Rosie, what he's trying to say, is whatever you did? It brought me back to life, I was killed by the Daleks, left for dead by them and yet here I am, laughing, talking and just alive."

She looked between the two of them. "Wait, what? I brought you back to life Jack?" SHe struggled to find words, looking between them for a moment. "You are saying I somehow brought you back to life? How is that possible? I don't even understand what happened…." She trailed off, biting her lip once more.

Jack put an arm around her, pulling her closer to him and she leaned into him for the moment, sighing. She really didn't get what had happened to her or what she had done and it still wasn't making any sense. The Doctor stood up and he was pacing about the room.

"Rose, do you remember all the times you and I saw Bad Wolf as we traveled, even before we met Jack?" He waited for her to nod. She did of course and he continued. "When you reappeared with the TARDIS, you called yourself Bad Wolf and said you created yourself Rose. Meaning you left all those messages everywhere as a way…to guide yourself…"

She stared at him, brown eyes meeting those cool blue eyes of his and she shook her head. "A way to guide myself back to you? To save you two? I dont even know what I did on the Gamestation, how did I help anyone.."

The Doctor continued to speak then, sending Jack a look. "Rose, you managed to end the Time War, with a wave of your hands, all the Dalek's there were gone, with words and it was over. You ended the time war…you saved me…you saved Jack. You said you brought life, and you brought Jack back from the dead, he'd been killed by the Dalek's but you brought him back to life for good Rose, Jack cant die ever…"

She gasped, pushing herself up away from the table and staring at the Doctor and Jack. "I…killed all of the Daleks? All of them…and did what to Jack…I…" She stared at the two of the and headed towards the kitchen door. "I…just..you guys…give me a bit of time..I…"

She couldn't handle it, instead she rushed out of the kitchen, planning on spending a bit of time to herself, digest everything that had happened. Regardless if the Dalek's were hell bent on killing them all, or taking over the Earth, she'd commited genoicde right? Then what she'd done to Jack? She couldn't handle it.

She could feel the TARDIS humming as she moved down the hallways, trying to gently comfort her, pushing her towards a room, but she really wanted to just go lay down and digest the information, but the TARDIS was insistant that she go towards the garden and so, that's what she did. Finally, she pushed the doors open to the garden in the TARDIS breathing in the scent of all the flowers and closing her eyes as the artificial sunlight hit her. She'd found her favorite bench and sat down for the moment, trying to handle everything she'd heard.

Her head was in her hands for a moment as she realized what she'd sentenced Jack to, an eternity of never dying, of watching everyone else die. How could she have done that? How could she have been that cruel? And why didn't Jack seem angry at her? Why was he more concerned about her then himself? They both were and she'd killed all the Daleks in one moment, brought back Jack in another and what else had she done? Something was whispering almost in her mind that there was more, something else was going on. She felt the tears starting to fall and couldn't help but sit there and start to cry as she realized all that had happened, all she had done…

Authors note- Edited-2/22/2013