Chapter 42- Asian Branch- Kanda

I followed the other exorcists out of the Ark and into the Asian Branch. I felt my guard shoot up as I looked around at the place from my childhood. This happened every time I came to this branch. I always felt like I was trapped again, and that I could never get out.

I saw the chief of the Asian Branch- Bak Chan- staring wide-eyed at Lenalee. His face started to break out into hives, and he turned around.

"Stupid stocker," Daisya said. He was glaring at Bak, and slowly inching towards Lenalee. I could feel the protective vibe around him increase as he neared her.

"Forgive him," Won said. "He's just happy to see that you're all alive."

"I think we're all happy to see that," Lenalee said. She was smiling her innocent smile. "That you for letting us land the Ark here."

"Of course!" Bak said, turning around. He had obviously clamed down because his hives were all gone. "You exorcists are an important part of the Black Order, so you always have permission to enter this branch."

"I'm going to look around," I said, trying to get out of any further conversation. "Contact me when we plan to leave."

"Do you know your way around here, Sir?" A girl with glasses asked.

I didn't answer. I just walked past her.

As I walked, I allowed my mind to wonder, remembering all of the memories that I had at this place. Most of my memories were bad but some of them were good.

I stopped when I found myself standing in a room full of small pools on the ground.

I knelt down and placed my hand on the bloodstain on the floor. It was the spot where I had killed Alma.

I gripped Mugen's hilt tightly, not wanting to think about that moment.

"I never thought I would ever see you cry," Daisya's annoying voice said. I wiped the tears that I hadn't even noticed away, and glared up at him.

"What do you want?" I asked.

"I want to speak with you. I can't talk to you about this when anyone else is around, because I'm pretty sure none of them know about Arisa kissing you, then you pushing her off the cliff."

I felt my heartbeat quicken. I slowly stood. "How do you know about that?"

"Where I get my information shouldn't be the problem," Daisya said. I heard a hint of hatred in his voice. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I was going to," I said. "but then that idiot Beansprout came! Then you died, and I haven't exactly had time to think about her death, now have I?"

"That doesn't give you an excuse!" Daisya yelled. I saw tears in his eyes. Were ghosts able to cry? I had no idea.

"You had two years to tell me the truth!" He said. "The only thing that you ever told me was that she fell off a cliff! But that's not the full truth. She fell because you scared her!"

"Do you really think I knew that she was going to fall?" I snapped. "That sort of thing is almost always unpredictable! I didn't think that she was going to fall!"

"You should have saved her then!" Daisya snapped. "I've seen how fast you are, so why didn't you save her?"

"I tried," I said. "I was slow. Ok, I'm admitting that I was too slow to save her."

The memory of both Arisa and Alma's deaths swirled through my mind. I held my head in my hands; feeling like it was about to explode.

"What's wrong?" Daisya asked, not sounding the least bit worried.

"Nothing," I said, not looking at him. "Just leave me alone."

"I'm not going to leave you alone until you tell me why you scared her!" He yelled.

I felt anger surging through me. I felt the power building up inside of me.

"Daisya, please leave me alone!" I yelled. I didn't want to know what would happen if I freaked out with him in here.

"No!" He yelled back. "I don't get why Arisa would ever fall in love with someone like you! It's even crazier than Lenalee falling in love with Lavi! It's impossible! So why did she kiss you?"

"I don't know!" I yelled. I fell to my knees, groaning. "Daisya, leave, now. You don't know what's going on, and I don't want you to get hurt!"

"Wow, I actually get to see the nice side of Yuu Kanda," Daisya said, his voice as harsh. "First, he starts to cry, and then he says he doesn't want me to get hurt. It seems like you're a different person. Did something in the Ark change you? Maybe you feel the need to be nice because that cursed kid saved your pathetic life."

I felt myself shaking. "Shut up," I said.

Daisya knelt in front of me. "You're being pretty pathetic right now, Kanda. I'm surprised you're not attacking me."

I didn't know what was going on with him. Why was he being so cruel?

"What's going on in here?" I heard Lenalee ask.

Damn. I thought. I really don't need her here.

I heard her running towards us, and felt her pass me. She kneeled in front of me and grabbed my hand.

"Are OK?" She asked.

"I'm fine," I said. "I just need to be alone.

Lenalee hugged me. "Calm down, Kanda," She said. "I don't know what's going on, but I know that it's your anger that's making it happen."

I felt myself calming down. The pain in my head stopped, and I looked at her.

"What's going on?" Lenalee asked again. "What were you two talking about?"

Daisya and I glared at each other, but neither of us answered.

"It's your fault she died," Daisya seethed. "You killed her!" He disappeared with that being said.

Lenalee looked confused. "What did he mean by that?"

I shook my head. "He's just being himself- blaming me for everything."

The anger in Lenalee's eyes surprised me. "I am going to hurt him," She said.

"What happened between you two?" I asked. "You seem to be avoiding him."

"We just had a fight," She said. "Now this happened. He's definitely changed, hasn't he?"

"Yeah," I said. "He's probably upset that he can't rest in peace."

Lenalee looked at the ground. Her eyes widened as she saw the bloodstain. She looked petrified.

I chuckled. "It's been there for nine years," I said. "This is the place I killed Alma."

Lenalee stared at me with wide eyes. "This is the place? Why are you here then? Are you torturing yourself with the memory of his death?"

"You don't need to worry about that," I said. I got to my feet, and helped her up. "Visiting this place is like visiting a graveyard. I don't know where they buried his body, so I visit this place to pay my respects to him."

She smiled at me. "We should probably go." She made a movement like she was trying to pusher hair out of her face when she remembered that she had very little hair. "Komui's going to be really upset when he sees this."

"Let's go," I said. We walked out of the room, and back to the other exorcists.

Cross had Allen in a head-lock, yelling at him for a reason I didn't know, Tiedol, Lavi, and Chaozii were all laughing at them, and Marie, Miranda, and Bookman were all talking, completely ignoring the fact that the white haired kid was turning purple in the face.

Even though it was a strange thing, the scene in front of me was one of the most normal things I had ever seen.