Chapter 48- A Letter From An Old Comrade- Allen

One month later

I limped into the Black Order, followed by Link, Marie, and Kanda, who was dragging our newest exorcist Timothy behind him.

"I can walk by myself!" Timothy yelled.

"I don't trust you," Kanda said. "You'll just run away."

"No I won't!" Timothy yelled. "I haven't even been in this place for two minutes, and I'm already overwhelmed! Besides, what do you know about being here as a kid?"

Kanda stopped, and let the kid go. He turned to face Timothy, and knelt down. "I've been here since I was nine years old, Brat. Also…" He leaned in, and whispered something to the kid.

Timothy's eyes widened, and he ran away from the swordsman. He literally ran into Lenalee, who yelped. The little boy hid behind her.

"What's going on?" She asked.

Timothy pointed at Kanda. "Keep him away from me!"

Lenalee glared at Kanda, who was now leaning against a wall. "What did you do?"

Kanda walked over to her, and whispered in her ear. Her eyes widened, and she hit him on the head. "You don't say something like that to a kid!"

"Cross said that to me when I a kid," Kanda said.

"Well, Cross is… Cross," Lenalee snapped. "That gives you no right to say anything like that!"

Kanda shrugged, and walked away. Lenalee followed him, yelling at him.

"Does that always happen?" Timothy asked.

"Yes," Link and Marie both said.

"I've never seen it happen," I said.

"You haven't been around long enough to see a lot of things happen, Allen," Marie explained. "Come on, Timothy, I'll introduce you to Supervisor Komui."

"From what I've heard about him, this Komui guy seems insane," Timothy muttered.

"He is," I said. "Don't do anything to Lenalee, unless you want a robot to attack you."

"Who's Lenalee?" Timothy asked.

"The girl that's now yelling at Kanda," Marie said.

"Oh," Timothy said. "She's cute!"

"Come on," Marie said, smiling. "We'll see you guys later."

"Bye," I said. "Good luck with Komui! He's a madman!"

Timothy glared at me, and followed Marie to Komui's office.

Link hit the back of my head. "Why? Why do you have to be so annoying when you're around that kid, and only that kid?"

I shrugged. "I guess that Timothy just reminds me of me when I was younger."

"You were a brat?" Link asked.

"Kind of," I said. "I was annoying enough to get abused. I didn't think that I had to care about people- I was all alone. My parents had abandoned me when I was younger, so I thought that no one deserved my sympathy or love."

"Please do not go into a sob story," Link muttered. He started to walk off, and I joined him.

I smiled. "Then I got to know Mana. He taught me everything I needed to know. When he died, I didn't know what to do."

Link sighed. "And you're not listening to me."

"It's strange; I can't much from before I joined the circus, but there's one face that says in my memory. It's the face of a girl about two years older than me- she would be about seven in the memories. She had chestnut colored hair and blue- gray eyes like me. I want to say that I called her 'Sister'."

Link stopped, and looked at me. "You had a sister?"

"I think so," I said, continuing to walk. "I don't remember anything about her, though. Still, I think I subconsciously look for her whenever I'm on a mission." I paused before saying, "There was a girl watching us when we got out of the Ark. She wasn't an akuma or a Noah. I felt like I could trust her. There was something about her that seemed familiar."

"Do you think it was your sister?" He asked.

I shrugged. "I have no clue. But she reminded me of Lenalee. She just gave off a nice aura."

"Did you tell anyone about it?" Link asked.

"No. I didn't think that I needed to make the others start worrying."

Timcampy stopped flaying around, and looked at me. He opened his mouth, and I saw Komui standing there.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"Attention, all exorcists," Komui said. "Please make your way to the Supervisor's office immediately. This is an order, Kanda."

I smiled, and started to walk towards Komui's office.

"I wonder what's going on," I said.

"For once, I have no clue," Link said.

We entered Komui's office. It was filled with people. Marie, Miranda, General Tiedol, and Chaozii were all talking, Lenalee was standing next to Komui, scolding him for some strange reason, and Timothy was being chased all around the room by Kanda. I noticed that the little kid had Mugen in his hands.

Slowly, the other exorcists crowded into the office. The noise increased to the point where Link was covering his ears with his hands.

"What's wrong?" I asked. I had to yell to be heard.

"This noise is not helping my headache!" He yelled back.

I laughed. "You are a headache!"

Link was about to hit me, when Leverrier entered the room. All at once, the talking stopped. We all eyed the director.

"What's this about?" He asked.

"We found a letter for the exorcists," Komui explained. He waved a little piece of paper in the air.

"Who's it from?" General Klaud asked. She was leaning against the all that was farthest away from Master Cross.

"That's the catch," Komui said. He looked at the letter. "It's from one of our fallen comrades."

"Who?" Lenalee asked.

"Daisya," Komui said. "The letter was obviously written before he died, unless he came back as a ghost and wrote it."

No one spoke. I didn't know if it was my imagination, but it seemed like Lenalee and Kanda exchanged a nervous glance, and then looked at an empty place in the room.

"He wrote to every exorcist he knew. Some of the things said in here are about those who have died, and some of you won't be mentioned," Komui explained. I could see that he was about to cry.

"Komui, do you want one of us to read it?" I asked.

The supervisor looked at me, and nodded. "That would be great. Thank you, Allen."

I took the paper from him. I looked around the room at all the people who were staring at me. Why the hell had I asked to do this? I was terrified about talking in front of people! I could only perform circus tricks because I didn't have to talk!

I made eye contact with Master. He nodded, slightly, and I felt my fear melt. If Cross was encouraging me to do it, then I knew that I had to do it; or else I was never going to hear the end about how big of a scardy-cat I was.

I cleared my throat, and started to read the letter.

"To my dear family and friends, I guess that if you are reading this, then that means that either I died or I couldn't find the letter in the mountains of paper on Komui's desk. This letter is meant for if I did die. If I didn't, then throw it away. Anyways, this letter is meant to tell everyone what I felt about him or her, but what I never wanted to say personally. First off, Suman-"

"Skip anyone who is dead, Walker," Leverrier interrupted.

I nodded, and looked back at the letter. After a few paragraphs, I finally found a name of someone who was in the room.

"Dear Komui," I read. "I know that you aren't an exorcists, but you played a great role in my life. I guess that you were like an insane uncle to me. I just have one thing to say to you; DON'T MAKE LENALEE ANGRY! If she gets angry and I'm not there to stop her from sending your own robots against you, you're screwed."

The room erupted in chuckling. I smiled, admiring the humor that the Daisya had.

"Marie," I read. The older exorcist stiffened. "You have always been the only person in the Order that is sane! You've been able to ground me whenever my head was stuck in the clouds- even if I didn't want to you ground me. Anyways, you've always been there for me, and I can never repay you for your kindness. You were one of the only ones who ever believed that I could do something more than destroy things. You've been my brother through all of these years, and even in my death, I will think of you as part of my family."

I looked at Marie, who wasn't moving. A small smile was on his face, but I could tell that he was upset. Miranda placed a hand on his arm, and he started to cry.

"Keep going," Leverrier said.

I nodded again. "General Tiedol, you've always been a hard teacher to get along with, but I'm happy that I had you there to guide me for the first two years of being an exorcist. You're strict teachings and the way you always made me be patient molded me into the guy I became. If you hadn't helped me discover what I was capable of doing, then I would have been stuck in my hometown with my crappy family. I'm still not sorry for breaking your glasses, but I am sorry that I was such a pain in the ass to you. You became more of a father to me than I ever thought anyone could, and I'm sorry that I could never tell you that in person.

"And now I go to the two most important people in my life," I continued. "Kanda, we may have fought a lot in the years we've known each other, but I feel like I can trust you with anything. You've always hurt me because I annoyed you, but your reactions always made me want to annoy you more. You became one of the best people I knew, even if I didn't show that. You're like a twin brother to me. We were constantly finishing each other sentences, and we never gave up trying to help each other- no matter how annoying or mad the other person got. I'm asking you to look after Lenalee for me. She'll need someone there to help her, and I want you to be that person. I have one more thing to say to you. It's a little puzzle that you'll have to figure out. 'No matter how many people we meet, there is always one who stays in our minds. She is the one who entered our lives years ago, and who will never leave me alone.'"

Everyone looked at Kanda. He was staring at the ground, confusion on his face. "I have no clue who he's talking about."

"Maybe he's talking about Lenalee," Klaud said.

Kanda shook his head. "That would be too obvious. Besides, Lenalee doesn't leave me alone either. If he was talking about her, he would have said that the person will never leave us alone."

"Figure it out later," Leverrier said. "Continue, Walker."

I had to resist the urge to hit the guy. Instead, I nodded a third time.

"The last person I have something to say is the one who has a very special place in my heart," I read. "My little Boo, Lenalee."

I cocked my head to the side. "What does that mean?"

"It's the nickname he gave me," Lenalee muttered. I looked at her to see that she was on the verge of crying. I didn't want to continue in fear of making her cry.

"Walker," Leverrier said, his voice taking on a dangerous tone. "Continue."
"Yes, Sir," I muttered. I looked back at the paper. "Lenalee, I really wish that I knew how to say everything to you, but my feelings for you go far beyond words. You are the one person who was ever able to make me think about my actions. When Arisa was alive, the three of us were always laughing. Bits of every conversation we had on the roof of the Order still echo in my mind as I write this. You've been the only one who has ever made my heart beat like a drum just from a single look. You're the only person who has ever made me think about how I could change myself to make sure that you are safe. You are the only girl who I have fallen in love with, and you will be the only girl that I will ever love. You're my best friend, and I can't stand it whenever you're upset. So, I ask you please don't cry when you hear this. I have some advise, Boo: remember that you create your own chain. You are the only one who can wear the chain around your neck. You've always got places to go to if life gets hard. I love you. I love all of you that I have ever met- with the exception of some people. For those of you that I never met, good luck living in the Black Order. You'll need all the luck you can get. I wish you all well in life, and I pray to all the gods and goddesses that you win this war. Sincerely, Daisya Berry."

I handed the paper to Komui, who was holding back tears. Everyone stayed quiet. No one looked at each other, but instead at a little space on the walls or the ground.

"Can I see that, Komui?" Kanda asked after a minute.

Komui handed him the letter, and he read it over. If he was upset, he wasn't showing it. He sighed. "What the hell do you mean?"

"Is that all?" Leverrier asked. "Because if it, then everyone get out."

"One more thing," Komui said. "Timothy, come here."

Timothy did what he was told. He didn't have a spring in his step like usual. Instead, he was dragging his feet.

"This is out newest exorcists Timothy," Komui said. "General Klaud, can you take him on as an apprentice?"

"Sure," The female general said.

"You all are excused," Leverrier said.

We all filed out of the room, sad and flustered. I felt a hand pat my shoulder. I looked up, to see Master Cross walking away.

Lenalee wiped her eyes with her sleeve, and walked over to me. "You looked freaked up there."

"I hate talking in front of people," I said. "Are you all right?"

She nodded. "Yes."

Kanda walked up to us, and looked at Lenalee. "We need to talk."

"I know," Lenalee said. "See you later Allen. Bye, Inspector Link."

"See ya," I said. I watched as they walked away, talking quietly.

"You seemed really upset with the 'love' thing Berry added in the not to Lenalee," Link said. "I wonder if she noticed the jealousy."

I glared at him. "Shut up." I stomped off to my room, and slammed the door in his face. I leaned against it, and slid down into a sitting position.

There was a knock on the door. "Open up," Link said.

"No!" I snapped.

"I guess I'll just have to tell Lenalee that you're in love with her," Link said.

I felt myself start to blush. I quickly stood, and opened the door. "Don't you dare tell her that!"

"Don't lock me out again, and I won't," He said. He walked into the room, and sat in a chair. "I didn't even know you had feelings for he until today."

"What?" I asked.

"You heard me," He said.

I closed the door, and stared at him.

"Did I seriously make it obvious with how I feel about her?"

Link laughed. "No. But you're getting pretty flustered now. Let's just hope Komui doesn't hear this conversation. He is, after all, right outside this room, talking to Rever."

I felt my eyes widen. I opened the door, and peered out. Komui was nowhere in sight.

Link started to laugh even harder, and I glared at him. "I hate you." I closed the door, and sat on the bed.

"And I hate you,' He said, still chuckling.

My ears became hot, and I buried my face in a pillow. I groaned, and threw it at Link. It hit him the side of the head

"What was that for?" He asked.

"For being an idiot," I mumbled.

Link rolled his eyes, and started to write in his stupid little notebook.