Chapter Four: Dominance
Work just seemed to drag on ever since Crystal spoke to me about tomorrow's events.
That was the last thing I wanted! I didn't want to see Gold and 'talk things over', like what the fuck does that even mean? Does it mean try to think of a good enough excuse so we wouldn't feel awkward around each other?
Well, I don't know if Gold actually was awkward around me now, it was just an assumption.
I literally started to count the seconds on the clock in annoyance while I stood behind the counter, trying so hard to ignore Cyan's voice. He just continued to bombard me with questions and right now I really did not want to answer anything.
"So... that girl, is she your girlfriend or something?" Cyan asked, making me start to lose my patience.
He hadn't stopped yapping ever since I returned and it was really grating on my nerves.
"Leave him alone, he has things on his mind right now..." Red answered for me and slowly I raised my eyes to him.
I watched as Cyan nodded and then literally pounced on a customer that walked up to the counter. I sighed, wishing I could just go home and lock myself away forever.
Even here things were getting worse.
"I'm guessing what happened wasn't good, was it?" Red questioned quietly, signalling to me.
I shrugged, again not wanting to talk about my stupid problems.
How on Earth was I supposed to talk about this?
"Well, bottling it all up inside isn't the best option you know. Sooner or later you will just explode and do something you will regret,"
Yeah right, I never regretted anything I did.
That was until earlier today when I fucking kissed Gold, yeah I regretted that so much.
I tapped my fingers on the counter impatiently, my eyes wandering to the clock again. Only half an hour left to go then I could go home and wallow in my own self pity.
At least for the time being I would be safe there.
"I just... want to go home..." I managed to mumble, wondering why the fuck I wanted to talk to someone who had the personality of a brick wall.
"That is not the only reason for your misery, is it?" He pursued, and I should have expected it.
My expression was hardly very pleasant right now, and all I could think about was tomorrow morning and what the hell I should expect.
"I don't think it's any of your business..." I grunted and turned away, trying to busy myself in rearranging stock on the shelves.
Red sighed and folded his arms.
"Perhaps... but still, you can't keep all of your anger bottled up inside forever."
"Just watch me,"
"Okay then, just don't say I didn't warn you."
His voice was starting to annoy me, it was so monotonous and dull that if he kept talking it would probably send you off to sleep.
Not good when you have a job to do.
Frowning to myself I tried to fight off the thought that continued to ravage my brain.
Tomorrow was still a while away yet, so what was the point in worrying over it?
To my surprise half an hour passed quite quickly.
We had more customers to keep us busy and the lack of conversation was actually music to my ears. At least it gave me time to relax a little and focus on what I would do tomorrow.
Once the three of us had locked up the kiosk and had grabbed our things we bid our farewells and headed off home.
Luckily for me both of them lived far away so the walk home was very peaceful. I didn't know whether walking home in solitude with my own thoughts for company was the best idea.
But sadly for me that solitude was broken by a loud voice that made me leap ten foot in the air.
"Silver! Wait up!"
I paused, not even knowing why the fuck I did. Clenching my hands into fists I realised who it was that was calling me.
Fucking Cyan... I thought he lived in Ecruteak?!
I watched as the dark haired boy bounced up to me, panting like he had just run a marathon. I frowned at him, watching as he smiled at me like an idiot.
"I wanted... to apologise..." He muttered in between breaths.
I shrugged and folded my arms, not wanting to hear it to be honest. All I wanted was to get home, have something to eat and go to bed.
"It's fine," I grumbled, not even looking at the azure eyed boy.
"It really isn't, it wasn't any of my business and I kept going on and on at you. I am sorry if I annoyed you."
I smirked.
Well, it must have been so obvious by my expression, or maybe Red had told him off when I had gone to the bathroom or something?
"Yeah... you did," I spat, now deciding to look at him.
It was probably the worst decision I had made because for that split second I didn't see Cyan standing beside me any more... I saw Gold, and that fucking stupid smile of his!
My eyes widened and I turned quickly on my heel, wanting to get the fuck out of here.
"So, I'll see you at work tomorrow?" He asked and I nodded.
"Yeah, same shift..."
"Cool! Take care and I'll see you tomorrow!"
I looked over my shoulder to see him running back the way he came, in the direction of Ecruteak City. Once I was back in my solitude I rubbed my eyes.
What the fuck just happened? Why did I just imagine Cyan to be Gold? He isn't anything like him... really, okay he looks like him but, that's it!
Grumbling to myself I walked quickly back to my apartment, wanting to feel safe and secure once again because out here on the streets of Goldenrod I sure as hell wasn't.
Opening the door the my apartment was the best thing I had done all day. At least here I was safe and sound, I was away from Cyan, away from Red and away from Gold.
For now...
Switching the light on illuminated my living room and carelessly I threw my keys down on the coffee table, watching as they somehow managed to not fall off.
My eyes were then diverted to my answer machine, which was flashing wildly.
So I had another recorded message?
Reluctantly I decided to see who it was, it couldn't be Crystal again could it? Pressing the button I waited for the message.
There was a pause before a too familiar voice sounded throughout my living room.
"Hello? Silver are you there? It's me Gold! Well... I guess you are not at home right now, or you ...don't want to talk to me. Anyway, I was calling to... kind of ask if things are okay right now, like... between us? You kinda freaked out and ran off in the café, and I didn't know why, so... I guess a part of me has been worrying a bit. Crystal has been worrying too, and she has been nagging on at me to apologise if I have upset you, and to talk things over. So, I'm coming over tomorrow morning. I hope I catch you at home, but maybe... you will hear this message and stay out on purpose to avoid seeing me... yeah, maybe. Anyway, again I am sorry if I have upset you in any way... and I don't want this to affect our friendship. Well... I'll see you tomorrow then... bye Silver."
And the recorded message ended.
So, he was coming over.
I sat on the arm of my sofa, rubbing my forehead with my hand, trying to think of something, anything right now.
He said he was worried about me, and that he was sorry about upsetting me? Why the hell should he be concerned over me?! I always act like this anyway, did he expect anything less? And also, we were not friends!
That was something I needed to tell him tomorrow.
Frowning to myself I wondered about what I did back at the café. Perhaps if I had acted differently then things would not have escalated to that level, and then I wouldn't be in this situation.
But still, I couldn't do anything about it now, I just had to wait for tomorrow morning to come around.
My stomach started growling and then I realised I hadn't eaten anything for a while.
Standing up I made my way into the kitchen and made myself a cheese sandwich. It was probably the only thing I could stomach right now.
As I started to slowly eat I couldn't help but continue worrying over tomorrow.
I hated sorting things out, I just wanted it all to go away and never be brought up again. Of course having Gold around would mean that was totally impossible.
I sighed and leaned against the marbled counter, trying desperately to think of something to do, or say tomorrow.
I didn't want to lash out again, or even worse blurt out that I actually liked kissing him! God this was such a freaking mess!
Once I had finished my sandwich I decided to get ready for bed, after all it was almost half past eleven at night and I had no idea how much sleep I would get.
Sleepless nights seemed to be a reoccurring thing right now.
I stripped myself of my work uniform and threw the garments into the laundry basket. I could wash them tomorrow sometime. As I sat down on my bed I grabbed an old t-shirt from my bedside drawer and pulled it on. It was far too cold to sleep only in my boxers and I didn't fancy catching a cold.
Once I had finally settled into my bed I tried my best to get some sleep, at least while I was asleep nothing could affect me or torment me.
That was unless the nightmares returned...
I was woken up by loud banging coming from the living room, which made me jump up suddenly. Turning to glance at my alarm clock it read the time 7am.
What the hell was going on at 7am? It was far too early to be awake.
I rubbed my eyes sleepily, trying to wake myself up somehow when I heard the banging again. It was now I realised it wasn't banging, but knocking at my front door.
It was starting to give me a headache so I pulled the pillow over my head, attempting to drown out the noise. It was in vain, as the next sound I heard was not knocking, but a voice.
"Silver! Open up, it's me Gold! I know you're in there!"
I ended up throwing my pillow across the room, watching as it hit my wardrobe and fell limply to the floor.
Why the fuck did he have to come round so early?! And I wasn't even dressed! I swear to God I was going to give him a piece of my mind...
I struggled to get up, yawning and stretching in an attempt to wake me up properly.
I squinted towards the bedroom door and reluctantly trudged over towards it. Self consciously I pulled my old black t-shirt further down my body so it was starting to look more like a dress than a t-shirt and walked towards the door.
The knocking started again.
"Alright! Fucking keep your hair on!" I shouted in annoyance, sighing to myself as I grabbed my keys that were lying on the coffee table to open the door.
When I actually managed to open the door there he stood, large as life.
I wanted the ground to open up and take me away forever, the way he was looking at me was like he was going to laugh or something. I tried to fight off the urge to scream and shout at him.
"Wow... bad morning huh?" He commented, smiling that fucking smile of his.
I grunted and rubbed my eyes, trying to get the sleep out.
"Shut the fuck up Gold,"
"So, you gonna let me in or what?"
I moved to the side allowing the dark haired boy inside and quickly closed it behind him.
I wondered if he had noticed my attire yet?
I watched as he flopped down on my sofa, only to wince at the spring that had probably attacked him. A smirk crept across my face, good old sofa, giving Gold payback when I was far too sleepy to.
"What the fuck is with this sofa? It's a death trap!" He cursed, now deciding to move and sit on the arm instead.
I shrugged and moved to stand by the wall, which was opposite his position. I needed to keep as much distance between us as possible.
"Not in the mood for talking huh?"
No, I wasn't. If I had my way I would still be asleep, or at least trying to sleep. That was better than being woken up by this dumb broad.
I watched as his gaze fell to the floor and he swung his legs backwards and forwards like a little child.
"Silver... I'm sorry okay? I never meant to..."
"To what? To hurt me? Don't make me laugh Gold..." I interrupted him, turning away to gaze at an uninteresting spot on the wall.
Anything was better than his face right now.
"I am sorry though, but I don't even know how it got to that. Why couldn't you just... let it go?"
I bit the inside of my lip and folded my arms.
"Let what go? Let go of the fact you were basically insulting me?!"
"Well... just chill out a bit, like Crystal said... you will have a breakdown if you are not careful,"
"I don't give a fuck about what she said, or what you have to say for that matter!" I growled, now deciding to glare at the amber eyed boy.
His face appeared crestfallen for a moment before he furrowed his brow in thought.
"I don't see why you got so touchy about it... you know me by now Silver, you know I joke around and say things just to wind you up. Most of the time I don't mean it in a nasty way."
"To be honest I couldn't care less..." I mumbled, now trying to plan an escape route somehow.
I needed to get him out of my home so I could be safe again.
"It just seems..." He paused, as if trying to think of the right words to say. "... like I don't know... maybe you are in denial..."
I jolted upright, unfolding my arms.
How could he even say that? He kissed me first!
"What?! You kissed ME!"
"And if I remember correctly you kissed me afterwards too..."
I clenched my hands into fists, hating the fact he was so fucking right.
I did, I was trying to prove a point to myself, to prove he was the one who was in denial. Instead I ended up making it seem like I was.
"It was to prove a point... to prove that YOU are the one who is in DENIAL!" I screamed angrily, feeling adrenaline start to build up once again, the same feeling I had back at the café before I smacked him in the face.
He sighed, and combed his fingers through his mop of black hair.
"Well... it sure backfired didn't it?"
He chuckled and I couldn't help but glare at him.
I hoped he wasn't going to test my patience, I did not want to hit him again.
"So why the fuck are you here Gold?! Are you here to gloat about it?" I cursed, turning away so my eyes were now looking at the floor.
My hair had fallen over my face so hopefully he could not see my expression.
"I came to apologise and hopefully sort out our problems... but it seems you are still hung up over it..."
"I am not fucking hung up!" I growled in annoyance.
I heard him chuckle at what I just said.
"Well, you must be the best actor in the entire world then, because it sure as hell seems that way."
I lifted my head up, allowing my hair to fall back into place and just stared at him.
I needed to prove I was over this, that I could talk to him and be around him like normal again.
But, could I?
It seemed like ever since the café incident it just kept haunting my mind over and over again.
"I just... want us to be friends again Silver..."
His eyes seemed to sparkle after he said those words and he had to turn away quickly to avoid me seeing it. Of course I did, and to be honest I couldn't ever imagine us being friends.
We were only acquaintances, I just tolerated him because I knew him. We were not friends.
"I was never your friend..." I murmured, trying to finally let it sink into his thick skull.
Gold shook his head.
"Of course you was, I have known you for almost 8 years! We have practically grown up together, so don't tell me we aren't friends because you know that is a lie."
I frowned, thinking about what he just said.
Yes I guess we did grow up together, but it's not as if we went and played football together or had sleepovers, when I saw him I was just civil, well as civil as I could be.
"Friends don't kiss each other..." I muttered, hating myself for saying it.
I knew he would have some comeback for that, something witty to say, to make it all seem a joke. But to my surprise he didn't.
"I guess not-"
He actually agreed with me, which was quite a shock.
I watched as he started to take his muddy shoes off, obviously he thought he was staying for a while, which he wasn't.
"-but... still, it was a one off so I wouldn't let it upset you. It's not like it's going to happen again is it?" He commented, pushing his shoes underneath the coffee table and relaxing on the arm of the sofa.
I grunted and turned away.
I would never let something like that ever happen again, I hated human contact so to have someone kissing me... was just... a big shock.
"So, will you accept my apology, and can we be friends again?" Gold asked.
Out of the corner of my eye I could see him giving me doe eyes and trying to get me to say yes. A part of me wanted to I suppose, just to get this all over with, but another just could not find the strength to. My mind just continued to replay what happened and it would not go away.
Maybe Gold was right, maybe I was hung up on it?
"I think you should leave..." I murmured, wanting to get out of this situation.
"But why? You haven't accepted my-"
"-and I won't. Now I want you to kindly get the fuck out of my apartment." I spat, standing up straight from the wall, trying to get the dark haired boy to move.
And he did.
He stood up and shook his head.
"Silver... you over think about things, you know?"
"I said... leave..."
I tried to remain calm but it was so fucking difficult. Everything just seemed to be a joke, like nothing I did was having an effect on him.
I watched as he walked closer to me, making me back up against the wall.
Don't fucking come near me!
"Okay, scrap the 'maybe you are in denial', you definitely are!"
He chuckled and it made my face start to burn.
Why the fuck did I just do that?
My hands clenched into fists as I glared at him.
"Get the fuck out of my face Gold!" I cursed, hating how close he was to me.
"Why? You worried I am going to kiss you again? Or maybe that is what you want me to do?"
My eyes widened at his words.
I could not believe he just said that! Why the fuck would I want him to kiss me?!
In anger I pushed the amber eyed boy backwards, trying to get as much space between us as possible.
"Try it, I fucking dare you!" I shouted, watching his expression change from calm to annoyed in a matter of seconds.
"You would love that wouldn't you? I know last time you enjoyed it."
Feeling my heart beat ever faster in my chest I protested.
"I fucking did not!"
"You so did, I could tell. Maybe that's why you are acting like this... because you want me to kiss you, because you enjoyed it!"
For that moment I actually was made speechless and no words would come out, it just seemed to become a strangled whine in my throat and that only made me more angry.
My hands clenched into fists, getting ready to punch his fucking face in if he dared say that again.
"Say that again... I fucking dare you! SAY THAT AGAIN!" I shouted, now feeling my adrenaline run through my veins, making my body tremble.
He smirked, like he was ready for it, ready for the punishment.
"You want me to kiss you because you enjoyed it!"
I couldn't control it any more.
I swung back, ready to smash his fucking face in only I was stopped.
His hand had grabbed my wrist and stopped me from hitting him. I frowned and struggled, trying to get loose.
He was fucking touching me again!
"Get the fuck OFF ME!" I cried, pushing and pulling against the dark haired boy.
"What, and let you punch me? I don't think so."
He pushed my wrist back against the wall so I could not move.
I had my left hand free but I never punched with that hand, it would just be pathetic if I tried. I glared at him, wanting him to get the fuck out of my apartment and to never come by me again.
I hated him, I hated how he made me feel, so fucking useless.
"Why don't you just admit it?" Gold cooed in a patronising tone, smiling at me as if I was some naughty child.
"I don't fucking LIKE YOU!" I screamed out in rage, trying to get the boy off me and to get my right hand free so I could pummel him into the ground.
Suddenly my power of speech was taken away from me as he crushed his lips into mine.
My eyes widened and I continued to struggle against him.
Why the fuck did this keep happening?!
After a few seconds his lips softened and it wasn't harsh or fierce any more, it was gentle and it was making me start to relax.
No... this is not right! I shouldn't be doing this!
His lips moved against mine, softly, making me close my eyes in defeat.
Why did it feel different this time? Like he actually wanted this?
His hand let my wrist go and reattached itself in my hair to pull me closer. A small whine escaped my throat as I was suddenly being embraced by the boy who I was cursing at a few moments ago.
All my fight was slowly being drained from me, all my control was once again being taken away from me... but I was enjoying it!
I felt his tongue gently brush against my lips, which made me tense up slightly.
What was I supposed to do? If I let him then... was I?
I greeted his tongue nervously with mine, hearing a small muffled groan escape his lips.
Soon enough I was being completely overpowered by this intoxicating kiss, after all, it was my first time kissing someone like this. Right now I did not care that it was Gold, I did not care if it was so wrong, I just needed this.
My hands clutched his t-shirt tightly as he continued to explore my mouth with his needy tongue.
God... how had it come to this? I could even feel my boxers becoming tighter... wait! Did that mean... I was aroused?!
Without thinking I pulled away, watching as Gold opened his eyes to look straight at me.
He was a little breathless and his cheeks were tinted with a red hue, but I bet that was nothing compared to how I looked right now.
I just froze, not quite believing that we had kissed, again!
And he was right... I did enjoy it, too fucking much it seemed...
"Ummm..." Gold murmured, trying to think of something to say.
Of course neither of us could.
It was such a weird situation, and even weirder now I had an erection, that you could clearly see through my boxers. Even so, my lips felt weird when they were not connected to his.
I tried to move into a better position so my erection would not be noticed. Of course Gold was usually a very observant person.
"Bastard..." I muttered, annoyed with myself yet again.
I had allowed him to take my control away, and willingly so. It was unfair.
"I know, but you enjoyed it," Gold teased, still embracing me like I was a porcelain doll or something.
I looked away, hating the fact he was right, and it was so freaking obvious too!
My eyes widened suddenly as I felt hot breath on my neck and then lips attaching themselves to the skin.
I leapt up, only to be held in place by Gold as he started to suckle my neck. Closing my eyes tightly I tried to ignore it, to block it out.
God... why? Why was he... tormenting me like this?
"G-Gold... get... off... aaahhh... me!" I tried to protest, only to moan halfway through my sentence.
Of course he didn't, in fact he probably suckled harder.
My fingers dug into his arms, trying to inflict some sort of pain to get him off me, but it failed.
Nothing was working!
I was stuck between Gold and the wall and I could not escape. I could feel my face burning at the contact on my skin, and I could feel my erection pushing against my boxers.
No! This is... not meant to happen!
"G-Gold... stop..." I groaned, my struggles becoming less and less.
I needed to get him off me, but how? This wasn't how things were meant to go! I was meant to smash his face in and kick him out of my apartment... but instead here we were indulging in slightly illicit activities.
Slowly I felt his mouth remove itself from my neck which made me gasp in shock.
A slight ache consumed the area he had just assaulted and instinctively I clasped my hand over it.
Fuck! He had just marked me the bastard!
My breathing was a complete and utter mess so I couldn't help but pant like I had run a marathon.
He smiled at me.
"Do you accept my apology now?"
My eyes widened at his words.
So, he was doing this so I would forgive him?
For an odd reason I could feel my legs begin to tremble, as if they would just collapse and I would tumble to the ground.
Right now... I had no control whatsoever.
"I...I..."
I couldn't even speak.
His arms were still around me, holding me and I just did not know what to say. My heart was still racing inside my chest and my erection was still pushing against my boxers.
"I'll take that as a yes" Gold chuckled, his face still sporting that red glow, probably just like mine, only mine would be worse.
Having red hair isn't the best when you blush, it makes you look like a freaking tomato.
I turned away, feeling very embarrassed right now.
As if I had allowed him to violate me like that!
Then I felt something else, something warm gently touching my crotch, rubbing ever so softly which made me jolt upright.
My eyes diverted towards to see that it was Gold's hand and he was rubbing my erection through my boxers!
"Are you excited Silver?" He practically cooed down my ear, which made me erupt in Goosebumps.
I closed my eyes, trying to block out the feelings that he was giving me, but I couldn't.
The motions of his hand were just... making me even more aroused! But I didn't have the energy or the will to tell him to stop.
I gasped as I felt him grab me roughly through my boxers.
"Want me to help you out?"
I was trying so damn hard to breathe.
I had to keep reminding myself because for minutes at a time I would hold my breath and pray that I would pass out or something.
His hand on my crotch... was doing weird things to my brain. It was like I couldn't think straight, like nothing made any sense any more.
I gritted my teeth, trying to suppress any kind of noise that wanted to come out of my mouth. He was not going to win, I would not let him.
Suddenly it was as if my body became paralysed or something. and I could not move.
Gold had slowly pulled my boxers down with his fingers and had left me feeling terribly exposed right now. I closed my eyes, wanting to do something, anything right now but I couldn't.
My heart was rattling angrily inside my chest and there was nothing I could do about it. I refused to open my eyes, I did not want to see his reaction or anything, as far as I was concerned this was not happening.
But oh God it was! And I knew it so well.
"Ah!" I gasped, my eyes shooting open only to find that Gold was no longer standing in front of me.
He had gotten down on his knees and what had caused me to gasp was his tongue.
He was... oh God! Was he giving me a blow job?!
I turned my head towards the ceiling, biting my lip as the feelings continued to escalate.
His mouth had completely consumed my erection, and fuck... it was so hot, as in literally! It was like too hot and I could feel myself sweating already.
I could feel my body trembling slightly with every stroke of his tongue against my sensitive organ.
I was determined not to let him know it was affecting me in any way even if it was really difficult.
"Fuck..." I groaned, hating myself for liking this!
I should have been kicking his head in by now, so why was I not?
I grabbed a fistful of his hair and pulled hard, hearing him inhale sharply.
I couldn't help it! Why was this even happening in the first place?!
My other hand steadied myself against the wall as I continued to not make eye contact.
I didn't... no I couldn't watch him do this to me...
"Mhmmmm..." Gold hummed against my erection which made me jolt upright again.
Shit! This was not good! I could feel myself getting closer to the edge, and I didn't want that!
I tightened my grip on his hair, fusing my eyes closed.
My whole body was trembling and I was worried that if I wasn't keeping myself pressed against the wall I probably would have collapsed.
"G-Gold~!" I cried helplessly, hating how it sounded out loud.
So fucking desperate, so fucking wrong on all levels.
Gold's mouth pleasured me in a way that I had never ever thought was genuinely possible.
Well.. I had never believed something like this would ever happen to me!
As the pressure continued to build to a level I could not even begin to describe a part of me wondered how it had got to this, to Gold giving me a blow job in my apartment like some filthy whore?
I knew Gold better than that, and this was something he wouldn't do. Yeah, he was a joker and would probably make comments about it, but I never dreamed he would actually do this...
"Ahhh... shit!" I cursed, trying so hard not to explode right now, but the longer this went on the more control I was losing.
A small part of me wanted to do something, anything to get this to end.
We couldn't go back from this could we? Friends don't do this to each other!
"G-Gold~!" I moaned as my eyes widened and I could not hold it back any more.
I could feel my erection twitching uncontrollably as wave after wave of ecstasy just washed over me, making me breathless.
At that moment I didn't even think about the fact I had just released inside Gold's mouth, and fucking enjoyed it too! But, after he pulled away and wiped his mouth on the back of his hand realisation hit me in the face like a rock.
Trying to get my breath back I felt his fingers pull my boxers back up, to once again cover up my shame, my guilt. I released my grip on his hair, watching as it fell back into place.
Again I felt paralysed, like my body would not function properly.
My eyes locked together with Gold's for a moment before he looked away.
Maybe he was ashamed?
"I'm..." He murmured, but no more words entered my ears.
My legs just seemed to collapse underneath my body weight and I fell to the ground, my eyes still staring into nothing. My body continued to tremble violently, not quite knowing how to deal with what just happened.
I could never come back from this...
"Silver? Are you okay?!" I heard Gold's desperate voice and saw his figure rush to my side, looking over me worriedly. I couldn't even muster the courage to speak.
Once again he had managed to take away all my control... only this I doubted the possibility of getting it back.
"Hello? Is anyone in there?" He continued, gently tapping my forehead with his hand.
No strength entered my bones, I just felt heavy and weak and immobilised. My heart had stopped ramming itself against my chest and now felt like a dead weight, keeping me down on the ground.
Maybe that is where I belonged...
I felt his arms hook under mine as Gold tried to lift me up off the floor and drag me to my sofa.
I didn't make any noise, or movement, I just allowed him to drag me along the carpet.
My pride, my dignity was basically gone anyway, so why should I even bother?
"You big useless thing..." Gold muttered as he finally managed to push me upright on the sofa.
Getting a little breathless he combed his fingers through his hair and just looked at me. I never responded, I just stayed in this statuesque state.
How could I even begin to ask questions about what happened?
"Silver... you are starting to worry me..." He pursued, trying to get me to say something.
He sat beside me, those amber eyes of his probably keeping an ever watchful eye over me in case I flopped back on the floor again. I was glad I was worrying him, after what he did he deserved to feel like shit because I sure did.
I managed to frown at my thoughts, and decided I did not want him near me a second longer.
"Get... out..." I managed to mutter, hoping he heard me and made a swift exit.
Sadly, that was not the case.
"What did you say?"
So now I would have to repeat myself and risk my voice completely failing on me.
I clasped my hands together in between my knees and bowed my head, allowing strands of red hair to fall over my face.
"I said... get out..."
He didn't move at all, he just stayed sitting on my sofa, watching my every move. Now I was starting to lose my patience.
At least my temporary paralysis was gone.
"Silver... if it's about what happened... I'm..."
"...out..." I continued to repeat, not wanting to hear his pathetic apologises that didn't mean shit to me.
"But... I-"
"OUT!" I shouted, finally losing all sense of control.
I watched as he leapt up in shock and got up off the sofa.
My eyes narrowed as I followed his every move. He quickly put his shoes back on, not even looking at me the entire time. He was probably too scared to.
Once he put his shoes on he smiled at me awkwardly and made haste towards my front door.
"I'll... see you around Silver..."
And he left, just like that.
I was all alone once again, like nothing ever happened, like it was all a horrible twisted nightmare.
Putting my head in my hands I felt a knot in my stomach, causing me to feel sick. I wanted to vomit violently, to try to remove that horrible feeling that had consumed me.
Why was it I was powerless around him?
That was just not like me, and I wasn't going to stand for it. I dug my fingers harder into my scalp trying to inflict some kind of pain, to feel something, but the only emotion I felt was guilt.
That was it, I wasn't going to just sit around and feel sorry myself... no, I had to think of something, a plan to ensure my control would come back and for good this time.
There was no way Gold was going to keep making me feel like this, and I hoped that this time my plan would be a success.
OMG! LIME TIME! There is a reason why I didn't write a full lemon :) You'll find that out later on! Hoped you liked the session in the apartment and review! Let me know guys! Thank you so much!