Uhm, yeah, hello everyone. First I want to thank you all for reading this story. It helps a lot with writhing, when you know that people are reading it. Anyway, I have wright this message because I wanted to clear a thing: as you all have notice that I wright Hanji as a guy. While in the anime he/she is a girl. Or most people are saying Hanji is a girl. In the manga Hanji has no gender, and I am fallowing the story of the manga. So that means: that I made Hanji a guy in this story. Thank you for understanding. Enjoy the story!

Chapter 5
The wind will always blow.

"Hurry up you brats!" Levi yelled at us while he was riding his horse in front of us. "If there was a titan behind you, you were already dead!".

I let out a frustrated groan while I tight the grip around the straps of my backpack. Who's freaking idea was it to let me train with the newbies from the Survey Corps? This was going to be my death!
I looked around me and saw all tired looks on everyone faces. The maneuvering gears were hitting against our tights painfully. We had them but couldn't use them. Well we could. But that means that you didn't past the test. This was all a test to see how far the newbies can go. Well it was a good thing that I already sported for a long time.

I looked up when I heard the sounds of gas. I saw Erwin and Hange circling above us. I had even more pressure because my grandfather was watching me. This day was getting worse.

A yell behind me, let me look back behind me and I saw a girl slipping and falling in the mud. It had rained hard yesterday and the ground was still slippery. Was someone going to get her up? No. To my shock, everybody saw her fall. But nobody helped her. They just ran past her like she was nothing. If there weir titans behind us. She was dead and she knew it.

I let out a frustrated sound and turned around to run at her. When I was next to her I let myself fall on my knees, not caring about the mud. "Hey, you okay?".

She looked up to me and I saw tears in her eyes. She also was looking like she was in pain. "I-I'm fine". It was clear that she was lying.

I looked up and saw Erwin and Hange standing on an branch watching us. Damn! What was I going to do? If I didn't help her, I'm leaving my teammates. But if I helped her, what would happen to me?

"Y-you should go" she broke my thoughts while she tried to get up. When she putted some weight on her ankle she cried out in pain. A sprained ankle. That was not goo. "Hurry up!".

I made up my mind. I put down my backpack and turned my back to her. "Can you climb on my back?".

She looked at me surprised. "W-what?".

I sighed and nodded to my bag. "Grab my bag and hold it between us. Just make sure you hold a good grip on me". She didn't moved. "Listen, we both want to finish this. So climb on my back! Now!".

Finally she grabbed my bag and climbed up my back. I put my arms around her tights so I could hold her better. Slowly I stood up and was surprised by how light she was.

I looked back for a second. "You okay like this?".

She nodded. "Thank you".

I smiled and started to run.

Everybody was already out of the forest. But I didn't care. I knew that I did something good. I didn't let my teammates behind just to make sure that I was going to be okay. I could not be okay if I knew that a teammate would die because of me.

It was small run and I saw the first members of my team. I let out a sigh while I ran at them.

"There they are" someone yelled and pointed at us.

I stopped running and went down on my knees to let the girl slide of my back. I turned to her and open my bag, grabbing the water that was in there. "Are you okay?".

She smiled. "Yes, I am". She grabbed the bottle from me. "Thank you".

I smiled back when I felt someone standing behind me. It could only be one person.

"What, in fucks name, were you think you were doing?" Levi asked and I could the annoyance in his voice.

I stood up, turned around and saluted. "I helped one of my teammates, captain" I started and I felt the air around us getting thicker. "She fell and sprained her ankle. She couldn't walk".

Levi crocked and eyebrow. "Oh, really?".

Before I knew it, something hit me right on my cheek and I needed to take some steps so I wouldn't fall. I looked up and saw Levi coming right at me. What in hells name was he doing? I dodged his first punch but was to slow for the kick in my guts. I grunted while Levi pushed me away from him and I fell on the ground. I grabbed my stomach and clenched my teeth to not let anything getting out of my mouth. This was just another test.

"So" Levi started and grabbed me by my hair so I was looking at him. "You thought that you could just play the hero. That, if you saved her, everything would be okay". I get another kick and this time blood was coming out of my mouth. This wasn't good. "When a commander says to run. You will not stop. For nothing!"

I let out a laugh. Well I was already beaten up. So, what more was the problem. "A good thing then, that you are not my commander" I looked at him in a mocked way. "Captain Levi".

I heard my teammates gasping and I even thought that I heard Erwin yelling something.

Levi was looking at me pissed and his grip on my hair tightened painfully. I think I did it now. I really said something really bad. I was here for only 2 weeks and this was not a great day.

Levi huffed and let go of my hair. "Everyone, get out your maneuvering gear".

Everyone cheered excited and I saw Hange getting to the girl who I helped. Well at least we could use it now.

"Except for you" Levi said to me and let my gas running out of my maneuvering gear. "You are going to walk".

I looked at him in shock. Is he serious! He could not just do that! We ran all the way here to use the maneuvering gear. Why should I be the only one who wasn't using it?

"If you can talk like big guy" Levi said and started to walk away. "Then I will treat you like one" he then launched himself with his own maneuvering gear and left me alone.

My teammates were still standing on the ground and were looking at me. Could they think about helping me? Would they thinking about getting me out of this? But before I could ask anything, they all launched themselves and were gone. I was standing alone in shock. They just… left me. They left me… to die. Even the girl I helped, was gone. So far for teammates eh?

I stood up slowly and wiped away the blood that was running out of my nose. I grabbed my belly when it pulled painfully and let out a groan. I better started walking. It would be dark soon.
I took a step, when I felt a huge pain in my head and the darkness built itself around me.

"Find the light"
"Ask for the light"
"Leem!"
"Just be, who you want to be"
"LEEM!"

My eyes shot open in shock and I got up like I burned myself. I yelped out when the pain in my belly made itself known. What happened?

"Leem, take it easy" Erwin said next to me, while he put his hand on my back to let me sit up. "Just take it slowly".

I grabbed my head and closed my eyes to make the spinning stop. I took a deep breath to calm myself. What happened? Was it a black out? Was it just like it happened before? But, why was I not home then?

"W-what happened?" I asked. It was no more than a whisper but Erwin heard me.

"I was going to ask you that" he answered. "What happened?".

"I-I don't know" I answered him and looked at him confused. "It felt the same as what happened at home".

Erwin looked at me surprised. "Does that not mean, you supposed to be home again?".

"I don't know"

Footsteps were heard and I saw Levi, Hange and the others coming back.

"Are you okay?" Hange asked while he got on his knees in front of me. "You got a lot pain?".

I shook my head, but winched when it hurted more. "No, I'm fine. Just a headache".

Hange let out a sigh and then looked at Levi angry. "You went too far, Levi".

Levi frowned. "It's his own damn fould, shitty four eyes".

"Don't worry about it" I said while I slowly stood. "It happens. I deserved it anyway". I turned to Levi and saluted for him. I needed to get this straight. "I'm sorry I offended you, captain Levi. It was not in my right to say that".

Everyone looked at me surprised. Even Erwin didn't know what to say. Was it that weird to apologize?

Levi crocked a brow. "Seems like you have some respect as blondie always has". He turned around. "Everyone. We are going now". He launched himself to the woods. Everybody fallowed him in silence.

"Are you sure you are okay?" Hange asked while he got ready to launch himself.

"I'm fine" I answered with a smile.

He nodded and flew away.

I stretched out and started to walk. I needed to start now before it was really getting dark.

"Leem" Erwin said behind me and made me stop. "Just make sure you get back before dark". With that he flew behind the others.

I sighed and started to walk again. Well, there was nothing else I could do.

To be continued...