Author's Note: Oh dear...this will be a fun filled chapter for all you Cyan haters out there. I am going to call CyanXSilver...Stalkershipping :D It seems to fit the bill quite nicely. Of course it'n only Gold he has eyes for. Anyway enjoy the next chapter!
Chapter Ten: The Devil's Eyes
"...a blank, pale, emotionless face...with blackened eyes...with Devil's eyes..."
The room was dark...too dark for my liking, yet I knew some-one was here. It was like I could almost feel another heartbeat echo in the emptiness.
Was this a dream?
Then I felt soft gentle lips brushing against my own, longingly, teasingly. I closed my eyes, feeling something warm push itself against me, and hands became entwined in my hair.
Was I dreaming of Gold doing this?
I never dream of him...
An inviting tongue traced over the contours of my mouth before plunging inside, causing me to moan softly. I was losing the will to live right now, like whoever was doing this was literally draining my life.
I held onto whoever it was in the darkness, pulling them closer as I realised that both of us were naked. Our obvious erections brushed together as I whimpered slightly.
God... it felt so good to dream of Gold after we had just done it...
Breaking away from the kiss I felt those lips reattach themselves to my neck, suckling softly.
"G-Gold..." I moaned, curling my toes slightly as my erection throbbed angrily.
Even in my dream world I got so fucking aroused...
"S-Silver..."
His voice sent shivers down my spine as his hands wondered from my hair down my back, to rest on my butt. Slowly, and delicately massaging circles into the skin.
I tilted my head back so he could gain more access to my neck, but that wasn't the only thing he wanted it seemed.
I found myself being flipped onto my back, staring into a black abyss.
It seriously seemed like no-one was there, but I could feel him... hear him... taste him...
"I want you..." Gold moaned into my ear, causing goosebumps to erupt all over my body.
God... I wanted him too, just like before.
I closed my eyes, trying to steady my breathing, trying at least to calm down just a little. But it was hopeless.
I felt one of his fingers slip inside me causing me to gasp involuntarily.
I wish he would have warned me!
"A-ah... I... want you too..." I groaned out loud, feeling as his finger pushed deeper inside me, as if he was testing how far he could go.
I really wanted this...I wanted my dreams to be good for a change, and not full of misery.
Another finger entered me and I gripped his shoulder's tightly, biting my lip.
God...this was torture. I was so fucking turned on right now... I just wanted him...
"Oh God...a-ahhh..."
His other hand started to gently stroke my erection in a teasing action. Running ever so softly over the tip and down again.
I swear I was going to make my lip bleed with how hard I was biting into it.
"G-Gold...please..." I whimpered, hating,yet loving how it sounded at the same time. Usually I didn't like being so utterly submissive, but I did when it was with Gold.
His hands continued to pleasure me entirely, causing my eyes to roll backwards, and me to moan out loud.
Oh my God... I couldn't hold on for much longer...
"I want you to moan my name Silver... I want you to scream it so loud the neighbourhood hears it..." He cooed into my ear, tracing his tongue over it seductively.
I shivered, feeling my release approaching rapidly.
I needed to stop him!
Luckily for me he paused, removing both of his hands so he could open my legs wider.
I didn't want to imagine him looking at me over like I was a piece of meat, I just wanted to feel this moment, to feel him inside me.
God...why did it always feel so good?
I cried out when I felt him enter me, once again feeling complete.
I closed my eyes, trying to breathe once again. But I couldn't.
With every thrust I being pushed closer and closer to the edge.
"Gold~!" I cried out, just like he wanted, hands gripping his shoulders for dear life.
I still couldn't see him, it was so terribly dark I couldn't even see my hand in front of my face. But I guess that added to the thrill.
As he thrust harder and deeper into me, causing my eyes to open only to roll backwards I heard him speak again.
"You're my bitch now!"
What? What did he mean?
And as I opened my eyes I noticed that light had started to seep into my dream scape. I could see Gold, looking at me through narrowed eyes, wearing a smile that just didn't suit him.
Even though my heart was increasing rapidly inside my chest the feelings were still so immense I couldn't help but moan loudly.
"Oh God... Gold..."
"That's it Silver... moan for me. Let everyone know that you are my bitch now!"
And as my orgasm was vast approaching I noticed Gold's eyes change colour.
They switched from that lovely soft amber colour to a sickening ocean blue, and his hair got shorter, and his face twisted into a horrible heartbreaking smile.
My eyes widened as realisation hit me.
IT WAS CYAN!
"No... no..." I mumbled, hating this dream now and wanting to wake up.
I wanted to get him off me, to escape this somehow.
Cyan smiled and continued to thrust harder into me.
I hated the fact that I was still enjoying it! I didn't want him doing this to me!
"You can't escape me Silver..." He cooed, laughing afterwards.
I shivered as my eyes stared back into his.
Devil's eyes... that's what they were.
And as I felt my release taking over me I cried out loudly;
"No...no... NOOOOOOOO!"
I shot up out of my bed, panting loudly like I had just run a marathon. Beads of sweat covered my brow as I looked around my darkened room in a panic.
Cyan was not here, he was not fucking me, and I was safe in my apartment. That was a relief.
I wiped my forehead, trying to get my heart to calm down. It felt like I was going to have a heart attack.
Then I felt something shuffle beside me.
It was Gold, and he was just waking up from his sleep.
His eyes were half lidded, and he yawned loudly.
"Silver...?" He grumbled, rubbing his eyes with one of his hands.
I seriously couldn't tell you how grateful I was to discover Gold beside me than Cyan. Man... that was a really bad nightmare.
"Sorry... I had a nightmare..."
Gold sat up, looking at me through sleepy eyes.
"What about?"
I shuddered at the thought of re-telling it.
No, I better not.
"...it doesn't matter..."
"Come back to bed..." Gold cooed softly, wrapping his arms around me sleepily as he pulled me down back into the bedsheets.
I watched as he rested his head against my shoulder and closed his eyes, ready to go back to slumber land.
My heartbeat quietened down the longer I watched Gold drift off to sleep.
He was so peaceful, so at ease.
How was it he could have a peaceful night's sleep and I couldn't? Not even he could fight off the nightmares in my mind.
I sighed.
I just wanted to snuggle against him, to feel safe, to feel like no-one could get to me or hurt me.
But, I couldn't.
I wanted to tell him everything, I wanted to be honest with how I felt.
But, I couldn't.
I knew that the longer this arrangement lasted the worse this would be for me. We had no friendship any more to fall back on, if I called it quits on our sex arrangement then we were over.
I shifted into a sitting position again putting my head in my hands.
I hated feeling like this.
Gold shuffled once again, and leant on his elbows.
"What's wrong?"
I closed my eyes, taking shallow breaths.
It just seemed like solutions were never simple for me, that no matter what I did some-one always got hurt. If I was horrible, or if I was nice...people got hurt.
I felt Gold move into a sitting position, and his hand placed on my shoulder.
He was here for me, he always was.
"I can't...sleep..."
"Well... we did sleep for most of the afternoon."
I heard him chuckle.
Yes, it was probably only around 8pm, that's probably why I didn't want to sleep. Also, there was no way I could sleep after that nightmare. I swear that was worse than any of the others I have had.
"You seem tense..." Gold murmured quietly, causing me to face him.
My eyes took in every little detail of his face.
At his large amber eyes, at how his bottom lip was slightly bigger than the top, like he was almost pouting all the time, at how his hair was so messy when he just woke up, and how beautiful his tanned skin was.
I found myself frowning at my thoughts.
This was wrong. I shouldn't be thinking about Gold like this.
Snapping me out of my daze I felt him place his warm hands on my cheeks, causing me to blush a little.
"This isn't like you Silver... usually you would have kicked me out by now, or would have swore or cursed at me. What's happened to the Silver I know?"
And he was right.
This wasn't me.
This was because of my stupid feelings, somehow they were messing with my personality.
I didn't flinch or back away as his thumbs slowly caressed my cheeks lovingly, I didn't protest when his lips gently brushed against my nose, softly kissing it.
Why would I? Deep inside... this meant something to me. Was it love, or was it my definition of it?
"Gold..." I murmured, trying to steady my voice.
He looked directly into my eyes, his attention entirely focused on me.
"Yes?"
I needed to ask him how he was feeling right now. If he felt anything for me, or for our arrangement.
If not, then I needed to sort it out before it got too out of hand.
"Do you... feel anything for me?"
He had a wounded expression for a moment.
"What the hell made you ask that?"
I shrugged as Gold moved his hands away from my cheeks.
"Curious I guess..."
"Well... I am curious about a lot of things, you don't see me asking about them...no scratch that, I usually just do it."
He chuckled, and I hated it.
I was trying to be serious here!
I looked away, sighing to myself. This was ridiculous.
Did I expect a straight answer from Gold? Pardon the pun there...
"Just answer me..." I said sternly.
Gold raised an eyebrow, and then seemed to actually think about his answer before blurting it out.
"Well... I would have to say yes...it's a stupid question really..."
"How is it stupid?" I shot back, wanting to know.
Gold shrugged.
"Well, I must have some feelings for you otherwise this 'arrangement' would never have happened. I don't go around losing my virginity with anyone, you know...?"
It took all my strength not to fall off the bed in shock.
My eyes widened to the point where I felt they were starting to water.
Gold...was a virgin before he had me? Did that mean...?
"You are joking, right?"
I hoped he was, if not then that meant this was way too serious.
He casually shook his head.
"Nope. I was all sweetness and innocence until you corrupted me..."
Now I folded my arms.
Didn't he corrupt me?!
"You corrupted me you idiot! You started this whole thing!"
I was starting to feel like my old self was returning.
Gold smiled wildly.
"Oh yeah... you're right. Oops! Looks like I corrupted both of us then..."
A small smile crept upon my lips for that moment before it disappeared again.
I was glad that he did that though.
Now I knew I wasn't in a long line of previous fucks, and that I was his first, it did make me feel better.
"But... why did you...lose your virginity to me? I mean...I thought you... weren't a virgin and all..."
"Silver... look at me, and then ask that question again. Who the hell would want to fuck me? Apart from you..."
I rolled my eyes and punched him playfully in the arm.
He dramatised the whole scene by falling onto the bed, screaming and wailing like a baby. Once again I sighed.
He couldn't be serious for long, could he?
I watched as he smiled and got up, pretending that nothing had just happened.
"Not even girls?" I pursued.
"Definitely not girls! I'm not really their type am I? I don't have a washboard stomach with toned abs, or great muscles... and I am hardly the best looking guy in the world, am I?"
I hated how he was putting himself down.
See, to me I liked all that. All the imperfections were somehow perfect to me.
"...I like how you are..." I mumbled, not realising what I had said.
I quickly placed my hand to my mouth in shock as I watched Gold's eyes widen.
Seemed like he never expected it either.
"...are you seriously okay? Are you sick, or something?" Gold asked, placing a hand to my forehead.
I batted it away in defence, trying my best to scowl.
"Shut up! I...never meant to say that!"
"Yes you did!"
"I didn't!"
Gold wiggled his eyebrows at me, and nudged my arm gently with his elbow.
"Are you trying to butter me up with compliments so you can have round two with me?"
My mouth dropped open for that moment.
I couldn't believe he just said that!
My heart fluttered for a few minutes before returning to it's usual beating rhythm.
"It is, isn't it?!" He cried out, smiling wildly.
Shaking my head I wanted to protest, but why even bother?
A part of what he said was true.
"Since when did you become a little sex kitten?" He asked me.
A sex kitten? Ha, I had been called a lot of things but never that.
I shrugged and slowly settled back into the bed, feeling Gold's body heat next to me.
"Since when did you become annoying... oh wait... since you were born."
I watched as Gold settled down beside me, resting his head on the pillow.
"Hey! That's cruel!"
"It's the truth you mean..." I mumbled, lying on my side to face him.
He smiled at me.
"See? This is the real Silver..."
He outstretched a hand and gently brushed away a few strands of hair that had fallen across my cheek.
Involuntarily I flinched again, wondering why.
I was used to Gold touching me now, why was I still flinching around him?
"And anyway... where did that conversation come from? Why are you asking me if I have feelings?"
I closed my eyes and shrugged.
There was no way I would ever open up and confess about this, after all, this was only a sex arrangement.
"Like I said...I was curious..."
Gold smirked at me and then snaked his arm around my waist, pulling my naked body closer to his.
"Do you have feelings Silver?" He cooed into my ear, causing me to shiver slightly.
Damn it, what was I going to do now? I couldn't admit it, that would just give me away.
Maybe I needed to do something to distract him?
Something I had never done, or thought about doing before.
Slowly and cautiously I allowed my hand to wonder towards his stomach. As I wondered lower I discovered that Gold was already semi-erect.
Maybe because we hadn't been awake for too long.
Closing my eyes I started to stoke him gently, wondering if I was doing it right.
After all, usually Gold touched me.
"S-Silver..." I heard him groan softly as his body grind against me.
I continued moving my hand in a smooth motion, focusing on applying enough pressure near the tip because that was when Gold groaned the loudest.
I figured he liked it there.
"God... Silver...you're...turning me on..." Gold moaned again, tilting his head back so his neck was exposed and his breaths were heavy.
His hands were holding my hips tightly, like he was frightened to let go in case he would just hit the roof or something.
But still, this wasn't so bad.
Hearing Gold's moans I was beginning to get aroused myself.
As I quickened the pace I felt his body stiffen slightly, like he was trying so hard to keep himself under control.
I smirked.
Now it was pay back for all those times he did this to me.
"A-ah..."
His fingers dug harder into my hips, his whole body shuddering against me, and it was at that moment I thought I had tortured him enough, and slowed right down to a stop.
I watched as Gold's head moved back to look at me, he was panting and had a look of sadness in his eyes.
"Why...did you... stop?" He whined.
I removed my hand and shrugged.
"Felt like it..."
Then I was completely overwhelmed when Gold clambered on top of me, making it hard for me to move.
His erection brushed against mine gently, and I whimpered quietly.
God... I never realised how aroused I had got.
"Okay... now I feel like fucking you senseless..." Gold murmured.
My heart started to quicken the pace as I was told to lie on my stomach instead.
I didn't like this, I couldn't see Gold.
All I could see were the pillows in front of me.
So I closed my eyes, feeling Gold shift his body weight back on top of me so he was sitting on my butt.
His erection pushed against me and I shivered.
I had never done it this way before, was it just as good?
There was a pause so I figured Gold was getting prepared, once again with the land lotion.
Man, that smell would haunt me forever, and I could never use it on my hands again.
Then I felt him push one of his fingers inside me.
I kept my eyes closed, feeling as it twisted and turned inside, trying to ensure I was prepared for this.
Lately I was always prepared, after all, it was only a sex arrangement.
So it was okay to constantly fuck each other right? No harm done?
I bit my lip as I felt him remove his finger, and slowly pushed his erection against my entrance.
He wasn't inside yet, but I knew what it felt like.
That's what was so arousing to me.
And as he finally pushed himself all the way inside me I tried to remember to breathe.
God...I just had a nightmare of Gold and I fucking and him changing to Cyan, and now we actually were! Just don't think about it!
My hands gripped the pillows tightly as slowly I was being thrust into the mattress, causing my bed to make this horrible creaking noise.
Since when did it do that?
"God... S-Silver..." Gold moaned out loud, his hands holding my hips steady as he continued thrusting into me.
I was literally gasping for air every time he plunged deeper into me.
I was trying so hard not to make any noise, to not let it take hold of me.
But I couldn't.
"G-Gold..."
The thrusts got harder and faster, causing my erection to rub against the mattress.
He was killing two birds with one stone here.
I gripped the pillows harder as I heard the dark haired boy moan louder.
It was so fucking hot! I swear Gold's moans were like ecstasy to me.
The room would start to spin and my mind would just became fogged over with lust.
"You're... so good..." Gold groaned, tightening his grip on my hips as he plunged deeper inside me.
My eyes were unable to open or close, instead they were just rolling around like I was dizzy.
My mouth hung open limply as breathless moans continued to escape my lips.
I couldn't help it.
It felt so good doing it this way.
He was reaching deeper inside me and it felt indescribable.
"A-ah!" I cried out suddenly, my eyes shooting open as Gold suddenly managed to hit something deep inside me that just turned my world upside down.
As my body continued to grind against the mattress, and my erection was getting more eager for release I felt him speed up again.
How did he do this?! Did he have countless supplies of stamina?
"G-Gold...harder..."
I wanted him to hit that spot again and again.
And it didn't take long.
I gripped the pillows so tightly I was twisting them out of shape as uncontrollable noises continued to escape my lips, over and over again.
I wasn't even sure what I was saying.
Was I pleading to him? Was I praising him? No idea... All I knew was I was getting close...so close...
"Oh God...I'm...I'm gonna..." Gold cried out desperately, as he thrust harder and faster.
Seemed like he was going to release too.
"G-Gold...oh God... GOLD~!"
And after a few more precious thrusts I felt my body shudder violently as I released all over the bed sheets and mattress below me.
My breathing pattern was a mess as I literally gasped for air, feeling Gold's body twitch as he orgasmed just after I did.
I closed my eyes as I tried to ignore the horrible sticky mess that was underneath me.
Oh my God... that was the best orgasm I have ever had in my entire life...
"Shit..." Gold groaned as his erection shivered inside me.
And at that precise moment I just felt like I wanted to cry.
I just knew that moments like this were never meant to last, that I could never tell Gold how I felt.
I could never be honest with him, or with myself, because if I actually admitted it out loud then I would have to accept it.
There was no way I could do that.
An hour or so passed, and as usual I showered, trying so desperately hard to peel off the horrible sticky goo that was covering my stomach.
Gold had offered to change the bed sheets, which was nice of him.
I just wondered if he even knew where to find them? Oh well, I'm sure he would find them eventually. Gold was relentless after all.
Once I was all clean and the incriminating bed sheets were thrown into the washing machine we finally both sat down on the sofa.
It was 10pm now, and my stomach was making horrible growling noises.
Man... I was hungry. But I hadn't got much in the house to eat.
I needed to go shopping, and soon.
"You have just reminded me why I hate doing laundry..." Gold whined as he relaxed on the sofa.
"Shut up Gold... it was your fault anyway..." I retorted, folding my arms.
I didn't like being hungry, I got even more irritable than usual.
Gold looked at me with a shocked expression.
"How was it my fault? You were the one who made the mess!"
"Yes, because YOU made me!"
Sighing to myself I knew that this was normal for me, Gold and I sniping at each other occasionally, and then managing to have the best sex ever.
That was life right now.
He smiled and wrapped an arm around my shoulder.
"I'll take that as a compliment."
"Whatever..."
Then my stomach made the loudest grumbling sound ever, loud enough for Gold to hear. He chuckled.
"You hungry?"
"..maybe..." I murmured, hoping he wouldn't make some terrible joke about it.
"Well... why don't we go out and grab a pizza or something?"
That didn't seem like such a bad idea, and besides the shop was literally a few blocks away from my apartment.
It would be okay to go out that far, wouldn't it?
"...I'm not paying for it..." I grumbled.
It was his idea so he could pay.
Gold's eyes widened as he scoffed at my remark.
"Hello? You are working and have regular income? Why do I have to pay when I am basically broke?"
I knew he was joking, Gold always managed to survive somehow.
If he didn't have any money he would either beg off his mother, or if that failed try to butter up Crystal.
Or me...
"You suggested it..."
"I did...but that doesn't mean I should pay for it!"
I unfolded my arms and just looked at the dark haired boy.
"So...I let you fuck my brains out, and yet you won't buy a pizza? I'd say you owe me."
The look on his face was priceless. He had no idea if I was joking or just being rude.
Maybe it was a bit of both, but it was also true.
Why should he be stingy, and why should I always let him have whatever he wanted?
I watched as he sighed.
"...alright, you got me there..."
So that was how I got Gold to buy me a pizza.
Guilt tripping.. such a wonderful thing. Whoever invented it I seriously would have shook them by the hand.
But, still I felt a little uneasy about leaving my apartment for obvious reasons.
And the horrible gut feeling I was receiving didn't help matters.
Once Gold and I finally decided to leave my apartment it was dark outside.
The sky was devoid of clouds so you could see the moon. It was still pleasantly warm, considering the sun set a few hours ago.
We walked side by side, keeping a suitable distance apart so no-one would suspect anything.
Actually, that was just to make me feel better. I didn't want to walk too close, or too far apart in case it seemed too suspicious.
As we finally turned the corner and saw the shop in sight there was a crowd of people outside.
It seemed like some sort of commotion had happened, or was happening.
"What's going on?" Gold asked, probably to himself, but he always said things out loud.
I rolled my eyes, not really caring.
Maybe they found a bomb in the pizza shop... yeah a totally plausible idea.
Even so we ended up walking over to find out what the problem was.
There were a lot of trainers hanging around, all of them talking amongst themselves about some sort of tournament.
I didn't catch all of the conversation, but what I did notice was a girl who was taking photos of everyone.
Was she a reporter? A photographer?
"Well...shall I go and order?" Gold asked, indicating with his thumb to go inside.
"Yeah... I'll wait here..."
He nodded and entered the shop, leaving me outside with all these people.
I still had no idea why they were gathering outside a pizza shop. Outside the Pokemon Centre would have been better, well, for me anyway.
I sighed, feeling the wind tousle my hair before disappearing into the atmosphere.
It was so loud around all these people, I could hardly think straight.
That was it, I needed to walk.
And I did.
I just walked up the street so their voices all merged into background noise, and finally I could think again.
For a moment I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
Maybe a part of me was worried, worried about bumping into him...
"Hey!"
I leapt up in shock when a voice entered my ears.
Turning swiftly on my heels I discovered it was only the girl with the camera.
She smiled at me, holding the camera tightly in her hands.
"Are you here about the legendary tournament too?" She asked me, and straight away I was thinking 'what the fuck is she talking about?'
"What tournament?"
I watched as the wind tousled her long black hair as she pulled out a newspaper from her handbag.
Slowly and cautiously she handed it to me.
"It's in here! I've been sent here to take photos of all the competitors for the local newspaper, and of course the legendary guest"
And it was true.
Apparently some amazing tournament was being held in Goldenrod starting from tomorrow.
I wonder who the main legendary 'guest' was... considering Red was working here.
I rolled my eyes and shoved the newspaper back into her hands.
"... not interested..."
Her large emerald eyed sparkled as she looked like I had just crushed all her dreams.
"But, you are a trainer right?"
And what if I was?
"...yes I am..."
"And, you are a strong trainer too, correct?"
"Look... I already said I am not interested, okay?"
I wanted to stay calm, I really did.
Once again she looked hurt, like she almost expected me to jump at this chance.
She shrugged weakly.
"Alright then... sorry for bothering you..."
And I watched as she walked back to the crowd of bustling trainers.
It still didn't make sense to why they were congregating outside the pizza shop.
I folded my arms and leant against the wall, waiting for Gold to hurry up.
Seriously... were they going to Italy for this pizza?
"...well this is a pleasant surprise..."
All the fine hairs on my body stood on edge as my eyes slowly and mechanically moved to the direction of the voice.
I knew that voice... too well.
I unfolded my arms, standing up straight as the figure approached me.
Feeling my heart speed up dramatically in my chest I realised that it was Cyan!
Stalking me yet again it seemed.
"...and here I was thinking that you were too ill to make it into work today?" He mocked me, smiling.
Looking at his face I noticed all the visible bruises that smothered his features.
He had a cut lip which had swollen slightly, there was dark bruising around his left eye and there was dried blood just underneath his nose.
I did all of that?
"Get the fuck away from me!" I cried out, wanting this freak to leave me alone.
Cyan chuckled.
"...aren't you pleased to see that I am okay after that terrible beating you gave me? Now... what would the police say if reported it as physical abuse?"
He was taunting me, trying to get a reaction out of me, and it would not work.
I had an alibi, so it didn't matter what he did.
"I don't care what you do, I am not scared of you"
"I never said you were scared Silver..." He said coyly, standing right in front of me, with his hands in his pockets.
"Have I really fucked your head up that much?"
I glared at the blue eyed boy that stood right in my line of fire.
I could hit him... I could...
"If you don't want to end up in hospital I suggest you get the fuck out of my way." I warned, feeling adrenaline start to flood my veins with every second that passed.
I watched as Cyan shook his head.
"Is violence always the answer for you? Well...I shouldn't be surprised really. No wonder no-one loves you, or wants to be around you... you're a psychopath!"
I felt my hands clench into fists.
No... that wasn't true. Gold did, he wanted to be near me, he cared for me, and that was all I needed.
"...and no wonder your brother wants to kill himself because he has to put up WITH YOUR SHIT!" I spat.
Cyan's eyes widened for a moment before he frowned.
"Now that was a low blow, even for you...but still, at least I know who it was who told him to quit being a Pokemon trainer..."
For that moment I felt a part of me die inside.
Shit! He knew it was me? Or was he bluffing so I could confess?
No, that wasn't happening!
"...and why the fuck are you telling me this?"
Cyan's eyes narrowed in disgust as his face neared mine.
"Ever since that day... all he has done is beat himself up about it...he tried to release his Pokemon... and he even tried killing himself today..."
Shit, this was way out of hand.
Why on Earth would some kid want to try to end his life over something I had said? It was ridiculous.
I kept up this façade as I glared at Cyan.
"...I repeat, why the fuck are you telling me this?!"
Cyan's cold blue eyes diverted to the floor, before turning to glare at me with disgust.
"...he tried overdosing on a bunch of pills, and because he didn't die straight away his liver is basically useless now. The doctor's said he urgently needs a liver transplant otherwise he will die!"
And this was all because of me?
Was that why Cyan hated me so much?
I took a deep breath, hoping Gold would seriously hurry up right now.
"Oh right..."
"...is that all you have to say?! Just 'oh right'?!"
Cyan got closer to my face, and if looks could kill I would have died a thousand times over.
"...I knew it was YOU who told my brother to quit being a trainer!"
Without realising it I had been backed up against the wall, trying so hard to keep it all together.
How did he find out? Did his brother give him an accurate description or something?
But still, I was way stronger than this prick so what if I did say all those things?
He couldn't do shit to me.
"So what if it was me? What exactly are you going to do?" I challenged him, narrowing my eyes at the shorter boy.
Deep inside my heart was thundering against my ribcage, in anger and shock.
I couldn't believe he found out.
"HEY!"
I heard a voice which made both Cyan and myself turn to face that direction.
It was Gold, minus the pizza for some reason.
I rolled my eyes.
Great... things were definitely going to get worse now.
As he ran over to us he looked from me to Cyan, and then back to me.
"What the fuck is going on?" He asked.
Cyan smiled, and looked at Gold.
Now he must have realised that he looked just like him.
"Ah, here he is... the infamous Gold... the person who is better than me apparently..."
It didn't take long for Gold to figure out what he meant.
"So, you are the guy who tried to kiss Silver?!"
He sounded angry... why? We weren't a couple or anything.
Cyan kept that evil grin on his face as devil eyes glared into Gold's soul.
"I am... and what of it? You couldn't do anything more to me than Silver already has."
Deep inside I knew he wasn't just talking about his face, he was talking about his brother, and how I had somehow created that chain of events to unfold.
"..and besides, why would you defend him? After all, you two aren't a couple, nor do you have any feelings for each other..."
I wanted to speak up, to put my point across, but Gold beat me to it.
"Yes we do!"
My eyes widened as I listened to what he said in my defence.
"...Silver can be really horrible sometimes, even a little heartless... but I know that deep inside he is a good person. He does have a soft side, a caring side no-one ever sees because he is too scared to open up to anyone. And we do have feelings for each other... well I know that I have feelings for him...and that is why I will defend him..."
Gold looked across to me for a moment.
My heart was dying, deep inside.
I wished he hadn't said that, I wished he would have denied it.
Cyan knew now, he knew how important we were to each other. That just played right into his hands.
"...interesting..." Cyan mused, looking from me to Gold, and back again.
Then he smiled, a wicked smile.
"You faggots are all the same...always thinking with your fucking dicks..."
"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY?!" I bellowed, taking step towards Cyan.
I would have willingly busted up his face even more.
Seriously, it would have helped me right now.
"Silver... calm down, I can handle this..." Gold issued calmly.
"Awww... I must admit this is a very touching scene...too bad all good things must come to an end at some point..."
What did he mean? Was he going to try to split us up?
Wait, what?
We aren't even a couple!
"What the hell is that meant to mean?" Gold asked in annoyance.
I watched as Cyan started to laugh.
"Let's just say Silver won't be in Goldenrod City for much longer..."
There was no way I was going to let this ass-hole drive me out of this town.
I had lived here a lot longer than he had worked here.
I wasn't going to be dictated to by this little prick.
"...and how do you figure that out?"
Cyan eyes narrowed dangerously.
"...I got you transferred to Kanto instead... Celadon to be exact, so you won't be working in Goldenrod any more."
I felt a part of me sink into a never ending pit of despair.
Kanto? There was no way I could commute to work... it would cost too much, and that was why he did it!
A feral growl emitted from my throat as I was trying so hard not to flip out, and kill this punk right here.
"Kanto? Why the hell did you do that?!" Gold blurted out, his voice sounding pained.
Now I knew...I knew he felt something for me.
This was so wrong, and it was going to end badly I knew that now.
Cyan's mouth twisted into a grin once again, seemingly pleased with what he had achieved.
"...that's what he gets for trying to kill my little brother..."
"W-what? Silver would never kill anyone!"
Gold continued to defend me and a part of me wished he wouldn't.
I could defend myself, I didn't need him trying to fight my battles.
"...looks like you don't know your boyfriend very well then, do you?"
So that was it...I was going to be working in Celadon City?
How the hell had this happened?
"I know Silver better than you ever will, just because you are jealous he chose me over you..."
It felt weird having people fighting over me...
Cyan's eyes twitched as his voice rose in pitch.
"I am NOT jealous!"
Gold raised an eyebrow at the blue eyed boy.
"Oh really? Then why did you try to kiss him? You don't try to kiss people you don't like, and you have only acted like an ass since he pushed you away. I would say that's either jealousy or desperation to me..."
I looked across from Gold to Cyan, hating how they looked so very similar.
At least now I could look at Cyan and not see Gold. I just hoped that when I looked at Gold I wouldn't see Cyan any more.
And the fact I had that nightmare about him.
"Well... if I am desperate you must be desperate too for actually defending this guy!" Cyan retorted, pointing to me.
Hey! Don't bring me into this!
"...If you seriously want to keep your balls in perfect working fashion I suggest you SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I yelled angrily.
It was now I noticed the group of Pokemon trainers had started to take a keen interest in our heated argument.
They watched, seemingly intrigued, but didn't dare make any noise.
"...and you would know all about that, wouldn't you? Just face it, both of you, you are nothing more than a cheap fuck, and a lifetime of regret"
I really was losing my patience here, I was doubting the likeliness of me holding back for much longer.
"At least we can get laid... you would probably have to pay some-one to sleep with you, and even then they would be paying you to keep your fucking clothes on..." I spat vehemently, feeling proud of my insult.
I watched as Cyan's eyebrow twitched in annoyance.
Then just before he was about to say anything I heard a voice interrupt our argument.
"Excuse me? Can I take a photograph of you?"
It was the dark haired girl with the camera, and she was speaking to Gold.
I watched as he blushed slightly.
Well, Gold loved being a little attention whore at the best of times, and given a photo opportunity he was there. Like a moth to a flame.
Then I diverted my gaze to Cyan, watching as he got angrier and angrier.
"What the fuck woman?! Can't you see we are arguing?!"
Her emerald eyes blinked at Cyan for a few moments before shrugging.
"I can see that, now if you'll excuse me I have a job to do..."
What, was Cyan going to start insulting an innocent girl now?
Gold smiled sheepishly as she readied her camera to take a snapshot of his goofy grinning face.
That was until Cyan forcefully knocked into her, causing the camera to fall onto the ground with a crash.
That was it.
I had lost it.
"WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?!" I screamed at him, grabbing the blue eyed boy my the scruff of his t-shirt.
I watched as he just smirked.
He had no remorse, no guilt, no nothing.
He was hollow inside, with the blackest eyes.
With Devil's eyes...
"...if my brother dies because of you I swear I will destroy everything and everyone you love!"
I tightened my grip on him, really wanting to smash his face in yet again.
I didn't think I could damage him any more though.
He could try, it's not like I loved anything.
"Good luck with that... I don't love anything or anyone in this world"
And then I watched as Cyan's eyes shifted from me to Gold, and then back to me.
He smiled again, sending a horrible shiver throughout my body.
"...for now..."
In rage I let go of him and pushed him forcefully backwards.
Cyan glanced at all of us before deciding to leave the scene, tail between his legs.
That's it. Run you little fucking Buneary...while you can.
I turned on my heel to face Gold, who was helping the girl pick up her camera, and attempting to fix whatever it was that had fallen out.
"Fucking ass hole...why did he have to go and do that?" Gold grumbled.
I didn't offer to help pick up the pieces of the camera.
I did my heroic scene for the day.
She tucked a piece of black hair behind her ear as she smiled kindly at Gold. Obviously she was grateful for his help, even though it was me who chased Cyan, the poison boy away.
"It's okay...he's obviously on his man period." She mumbled, giggling afterwards.
"He's on something I'll give you that..."
I folded my arms and leant against the wall, feeling the wind tousle my hair once again before disappearing into the atmosphere.
He would destroy everything I love? How would he do that?
And besides, I didn't love anything, or anyone... did I?
"Thank you though... both of you... for stepping in and sending that freak packing." The girl thanked us as she stood up, camera seemingly fixed.
Gold smiled while I just shrugged it off.
Compliments were wasted on me.
"Thank you for interrupting... I swear he was beginning to annoy the ever loving crap out of me." Gold joked, pulling a funny face that was supposed to be Cyan I assumed.
He started to mimic his whiny voice, pretending to argue at me, and of course I just ignored him.
At least Gold could find the funny side of everything.
The emerald eyed girl smiled.
"You two are so cute together, you know that?"
My eyes widened as slowly and mechanically I turned to face Gold and as soon as our eyes locked I swiftly turned away again.
Me and him... cute? Okay... this girl was high or something...
"You really think so?" Gold asked, obviously curious and I just rolled my eyes.
That's it Gold, give the game away why don't you?
She nodded.
"Oh! How rude of me, I haven't introduced myself properly! My name is Violet. I work for the local newspaper and I am here to take photographs and gain information about this tournament that is being held tomorrow."
"Tournament...?" Gold questioned, turning to look at me.
I waved him off.
Like it was my thing? Especially if the legendary guest was the great champion Red.
Mister-I-Have-No-Personality-Please-Worship-Me. I don't think so.
"Yes! Great trainers of Goldenrod are gathering to test out their skills against our legendary guest"
Placing a hand to my head I could just picture Red's face when he actually discovered how many people were here because of him.
Probably as expressive as orange peel...
"Sounds interesting..." Gold mused.
"Sounds like a waste of time..." I added in.
Violet looked to me, her face expressed nothing but shock.
Did she even know Red, like know him properly? Seriously, if she did and she still liked him... then there was something wrong in that girl's head.
"...but you don't know who the mystery guest is!" Gold exclaimed dramatically, like it was the biggest kept secret ever in the history of Goldenrod.
It was so blatantly obvious even an idiot could figure it out.
So that made Gold an even bigger idiot.
"Do you really care?"
Gold pouted like a child.
"It might be some-one famous..."
"...or some-one who's personality is as dull as dish water..."
"Hey! Don't speak about Red like that!" Violet blurted out accidentally, and then quickly covered her mouth with her hand.
I rolled my eyes.
So much for this famous guest keeping everything under wraps.
"Red is the legendary guest?!" Gold exclaimed.
I didn't know why he was so excited.
He saw Red just the other day when he was searching for me.
Violet nodded and smiled.
"Yeah! Everyone is super excited about meeting him. He hardly ever ventures away from Mt Silver so for him to be in Goldenrod is a big honour for us"
I placed a hand to my head.
For fuck's sake... it was only Red...no big deal. So what, he was the Pokemon Champion, he still ate, pissed and slept the same as anyone else.
"No wonder all these trainers look excited..." Gold mused.
I watched as Violet smiled.
"Anyway... I really should be getting back to taking photograph's of the competitors..."
Thank God for that...
Gold's face expressed confusion for a moment.
"Oh... okay..."
The emerald eyed girl held her camera tightly in her hands.
"...but as a thank you gift for getting rid of that arrogant prick from earlier I would like to take a photo of the two of you to put in the newspaper"
Fucking hell no! I wasn't going to let anyone take a photo of me! Especially with Gold, he ruined so many photos as it was...
"Really?! You would do that?!" Gold sounded excited.
Like I said... attention whore.
Violet nodded.
"Of course! You two really helped me out so it's the least I can do!"
I didn't really have much a choice.
Gold seemed to have decided for the both of us. He wrapped an arm around my tense shoulder and smiled his goofiest smile yet, while I just remained indifferent, not expressing any emotion whatsoever.
I watched as Violet took the photograph, and the flash blinded my eyes for a second.
"Look out for your picture in tomorrow's newspaper!"
"We definitely will!"
It was now I noticed Gold still had his arm around my shoulder, and it stayed like that even when Violet bid her farewells and jogged back to the group of trainers.
At least they weren't staring at us any more.
I sighed.
Great, everyone was going to see my ugly face in the paper, and know of my apparent heroic act.
It wasn't heroic, Cyan was just a bastard.
"...what a weird day..." Gold commented, looking at me.
Yeah, that was true.
"I can't believe Cyan... fucking getting me transferred..." I groaned.
Not that I had an issue with working somewhere else, and usually nothing would have kept me tied down to this place.
But this time there was.
I needed to do something about that.
"What's going to happen?" Gold asked, his voice sounding pained for a moment.
I knew that he didn't want our arrangement to end, or whatever it was that we had.
Gold even admitted that he had feelings for me yet again, in front of Cyan!
Were we more than just an arrangement?
I shrugged, leaning against Gold's side as I sighed quietly.
"...I don't know..."
"Do you want to go?"
Weakly I shook my head.
I didn't want to leave him... I didn't want to leave what we had. It was good, it made me feel slightly more happier than if I was alone.
Gold was the only constant thing in my life. If he was gone... I don't know how I would cope...
"...then stay here! Go to the department store tomorrow and tell your Manager everything that Cyan has been doing to you. The stalking...the obsessive behaviour...he will sure as hell get fired for that!"
I felt Gold's other arm wrap around my shoulder so he was hugging me in the middle of the street.
And I did the same, clutching his t-shirt tightly.
My body trembled slightly as the realisation of what Cyan had done was sinking in.
He was trying to get back at me, trying to make me feel as worthless as he did right now.
"...why should I stay Gold? What do I have keeping me here?"
I wanted him to be honest with me and hoped he said that he was the thing keeping me here.
Instead he didn't say anything and just hugged me tighter.
I closed my eyes, feeling my heart get heavier and heavier.
"You can't let Cyan win..."
"...I won't..."
"But if you go to Celadon then he has won!" Gold argued and he was right.
Maybe I needed to get away? So then I could ignore the horrible sickening feeling that continued to creep up into my throat, suffocating me.
Every time I looked at him my heart would thunder in my chest, I found it so hard to breathe, and my personality just broke apart into thousands of tiny pieces.
I needed to stop that from happening.
I didn't want to fall apart.
"It doesn't matter if I go anyway, you will move on and get over it. Crystal will be there for you and soon you won't even remember what we had..."
I tried to kid myself into thinking this.
That if Gold somehow agreed with me then I wouldn't feel so bad. Going to Kanto would mean it would be harder to travel back here. Money would be the issue, as it usually is, and as much as I wanted to stay I still needed to pay bills.
Gold moved away from the embrace with a hurt look in his amber eyes.
"It doesn't matter?! It will matter! Silver, the past few days have really made me realise how much I need you in my life. What we had...have...it's special to me, and always will be. You have never allowed anyone to get this close to you, and that means something to me. I always want to be that one person who you let hug you when you're feeling down, who you let kiss away all your problems, and who you wake up to in the morning when you have a nightmare..."
I could feel my throat tighten up, like I couldn't breathe.
My heart hurt with every beat and I closed my eyes.
Slowly... I was falling apart. Who was I kidding? I loved Gold...I knew that now, and Cyan knew it too. He would do anything to make sure I was miserable, that I couldn't have the one person who actually mattered to me.
Slowly I leaned back into the embrace, feeling Gold's arms tighten around me protectively.
"I...need you too..." I mumbled quietly, clinging onto the dark haired boy for dear life.
If he wasn't in my life then who did I have? I had no-one, Gold was the only person who cared about me.
He could deal with my mood swings and hateful comments.
He could deal with my abusive nature and argumentative personality.
He could deal with my weaknesses... better than I could.
Taking a deep breath I tried to steady my nerves, it was hopeless.
I wanted to tell him.
Just tell him! Tell him you love him! Tell him now!
I opened my mouth, but no words came out. Instead it just sounded like a whine and I sighed.
It was useless.
But as I felt my heart slowly sink deeper into despair I felt it jolt back into actions when I heard Gold mutter the words;
"...I love you Silver..."
And as I closed my eyes tightly I was sure I felt a single tear fall down my face...
Author's Note. :'( Poor Silver! He loves Gold but cant' say it! And Poor Gold too! Cyan is a home wrecker and is trying to ruin poor Silvy's life! Will he managed to get Silver transferred to Kanto? Please drop me a review, and please rant and rave all you want to about Cyan. ^^ It actually makes me smile.