Chapter 6
Smith talk.

I let out a painful grunt when I moved my back a little. Being a punching bag for Levi, was not a thing I was going to do another time. It really got me this morning. I couldn't even get up like I normally did. Must be because of the training as well. It wasn't that bad. I was just not used to it. But somehow, my body felt like it was used to it. Like it always have done this. Must be something running in the family.

The door to the cafeteria was pushed open and Erwin walked in. I looked up at him and he made a move, saying that I should come to him. Should be nothing seriously.

I stood up and walked to him.

"Good morning" he said and walked out the cafeteria. "Did you sleep well?"

"Ha! That's a good one" I said laughing sarcastically while I rubbed my cheek. "I couldn't get any sleep".

"I'm sorry that I didn't stop Levi yesterday" he started to walk and I fallowed him. Not that I had much choice. "But, you needed to know that you would not disrespect your captain".

I looked at him confused. Disrespect? I never disrespected Levi. It was just… a defense. "I never mend to disrespect him".

Erwin let out a laugh. "I know that. But I think you learned your lesson".

"I do have yes" I said chuckling. "So, what you wanted to talk about?"

He looked at me and I could see it was something very serious. I didn't ask anything when he didn't answer. He probably wanted to talk about it in his office. So I just need to wait until he wanted to say something. I'm actually not that kind of guy who just waits. But this time, I felt it was imported.

Erwin opened the door to his office and let me walk in first. "Here we can talk". He sit down and gestured to the chair in front of the desk.

I sat down and looked at him confused. "What's going on, Erwin?".

He folded his finger into each other and leaned his chin on it. "I want you to come with us, on the expedition".

I must looked really shocked, because Erwin's eyed widened a little in confusing. I stared at him. Did I heard that correctly? Did he just really said that I needed to come with them? Outside the wall? Were the Titans are? What should I do?

Erwin broke my thoughts by coughing. "I know that it is a little out of nowhere. But, I think we really need you".

"Why?" I asked when I found my voice again. "Why do you need me?".

"Because, you know of the things that are going to happen" he answered.

"You mean the dairy?" he nodded. But I couldn't tell him what would happen right? It's just like in those movies: when something change when it needs to be happening, it would only get worse. So if I tell him that Petra and the other were getting killed by the female Titan. Probably more people would die. I couldn't say anything. I couldn't stop anything. I just needed to let it all happen.

"Leem?" Erwin broke my thoughts again. "It seems like, you are fighting with something".

I couldn't tell him, what was on my mind. He then just wants to know, what would happen with his team members. But I can't. "I'm sorry, Erwin. But, I don't think that I can be any help outside the wall".

"Why not?" he asked while crooked one of his fuzzy eyebrows.

"I never worked with the 3D maneuvering gear. I didn't have anything training like all the others had. I just had one day of training, if I can remind you" I answered and frowned. "It would probably mean my death".

A silence went over us and I couldn't to make myself look at my grandfather. He was probably disappointed in me. Just like all the others from the family. I was such a disgrace.

"You remind me of her" Erwin said out of the blue. I looked at him in shock. Who? "Laura. My wife. Your grandmother".

"How do I remind you of her?" I asked confused. Who was Laura? I never read anything in the dairy about her. His wife? Well he needed to had a wife, or else I wouldn't be born.

"The way you act" he answered and leaned back in his chair. ""The way you do. The way you look".
I looked even more confused at him. "What do you mean: "how I look"?".

He let out a sigh and open his drawer. He pulled something out of it and looked at it. "I never thought that I could look at this one again, feeling happy" he smiled a little and then gave it to me.

I took the object from him and saw that It was a photo frame with a picture in it. It was of Erwin who was smiling gently at a woman who he held close. The woman smiled back at him and had her hand on his cheek. They both wear the uniforms. So, she also was part of this corps. Laura.

I looked better and then the shock came. Now I knew why Erwin said that I reminded him of her. She had dark long hair that was tied at the end. She had grey, blue eyes that were looking gently. This was the reason. I had the same hair and eyes. So this was running in the family. But nobody knew. Why did nobody knew about this?

"We need you, Leem" Erwin said and I could hear he was desperate. "I know, that you can't tell me what will happen with everyone, because you know it from the dairy"

I let out a sigh and shook my head, putting the picture on the desk. "I don't know".

"I will protect you" he then said and he stood up. "You will be in my squad and I will protect you no matter what".

I was in shock again. How can he say that so blindly? I know that he would protect me and that's the problem. If he needed to protect, he couldn't protect himself. It was not an option for me to go with them! "I'm sorry".

In one step he was standing in front of me and grabbed my shoulders. "Leem, I'm begging you!". This was getting scary. "We already don't have enough people. And now that we need to make sure that nothing will happen to Eren, we need your help".

I bit my lip. What was I supposed to do? I could help! If I knew how! I did not know how to fight. The only thing I could do was… distracted them. I looked up. "Okay, I come with you. But" I said when Erwin opened his mouth to say something. "Put me somewhere in front of the group".

"What?" Erwin asked confused and let me go. "Why?".

I stood up and started to walk at the door. "Because I will distracted those Titans" I opened the door and looked back at him. "Then you all can just go what you all need to do". With those words, I walked out the room and closed the door behind me.

I had no idea what was coming at me to say all those things. I did not even know what I was supposed to do. I didn't had a plan. It just all came out! Now I really needed to come with them. Well in a way I did felt somehow excited.

To be continued...