Author's note: Hey all, seems like I haven't updated for a while... so sorry about that. This chapter will be intense so any of you who are prone to feelings of any kind please have tissues handy. Anyway... enjoy!
Chapter Fourteen: Dying from the Inside
Blue's eyes widened as those words escaped my lips, and a deafening silence consumed both of us. It was as if she didn't know what to say to me, maybe she was unsure of the response she might receive.
I wasn't sure.
But soon enough she managed to choke out some words.
"...you want me to... cut your hair?"
I nodded weakly, knowing that Blue was the only person I would trust to do that for me. The likelihood of me cutting my own hair was very slim, and besides I was deadly with a pair of scissors.
"...but why? I thought you loved your hair?" She murmured, reaching out a hand to comb her fingers through my red locks.
I closed my eyes, breathing in deeply.
It was true, I did.
I was used to having long hair, but now my hair linked me and Gold together. If that was gone, then I could start again and hopefully put right all the things I did wrong.
"I did... but I need you to do this for me"
She frowned as her fingers removed themselves from my hair and her hand fell limply at her side.
"...it just wouldn't be you without your hair Silver..."
I shrugged, knowing that if I put it off for much longer I would never muster the courage to do it.
"I don't care, I need you to cut it off..."
I opened my eyes and gazed at her face.
She looked hurt, but I couldn't understand why.
Hair will always grow back, it was no big deal. Oh who was I kidding! It was a big deal! But, I needed to do this.
"...okay then, I'll do it after work for you..." Blue murmured in defeat, faking a smile.
I nodded, secretly glad that she agreed to it. It's not as if I wanted to go bald or anything, I just needed a change of pace and this was a good place to start.
"Thank you"
I watched the older girl lean on the counter as a sigh escaped her lips.
"...it's going to be so weird seeing you with short hair..."
"I'm sure you'll get used to it"
She looked across at me for a moment before her eyes fell on the display in front of her.
"Yeah... well, I won't have a choice, will I?"
She giggled and then instantly stood up when a customer approached the counter.
I watched as she spoke to the young male Pokemon Trainer who had an Aipom sitting on his shoulder. My eyes concentrated on the purple monkey for some time.
Gold had an Aipom...only his Aipom was far more energetic and playful than this trainer's. His Aipom liked to wear his hat a lot, and play around with the goggles he used to wear when he was younger. I missed those times...
Sighing to myself my ears detected the phone start to ring. Usually I hated answering the telephone at work, but I had no other choice right now.
Cautiously I picked up the phone and cleared my throat before speaking.
"Good afternoon Celadon Department Store, Silver speaking... how may I help?"
There was a pause before a familiar yet haunting voice chilled my bones.
"Hello... Silver"
My eyes widened as I nearly dropped the phone out of my hands.
My brain seemed to just turn to jelly as I realised just who it was who was calling me.
It was Cyan!
"What the fuck do you want Cyan?!" I bellowed into the receiver, both in anger and shock.
I heard him chuckle and it sent a horrible shiver down my spine.
"I wanted to check up on you, to see how you were getting on over there. Is that such a crime?"
I wanted to smash his head in right now, but I couldn't, and that just made me even more angry. The sarcasm danced off his tongue, and it just made my blood boil with rage.
"You lied to me... you FUCKER! You told me I was being transferred! YOU LIED TO ME!"
My eyes darted across to Blue who had now started to stare at me, her face looking pained, probably because I was swearing on the shop floor. But right now I didn't care.
I heard Cyan chuckle once again.
"...so I might have missed out that small detail, so what?"
"So what? SO WHAT?! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT I HURT GOLD!"
Once again I continued shouting down the receiver, knowing that probably everyone was staring at me.
If I had my way I would catch the next train to Goldenrod and royally murder his ass. Prison I could deal with if I got the opportunity to kill him.
"I believe you did that all by yourself Silver... you had a choice to continue your relationship, or whatever it was that you had. You chose to hurt him, I only gave you a scenario to deal with"
I gritted my teeth, trying to remember to breathe.
He was really getting on my nerves, and I hated how this punk knew what buttons to press to get me so riled up.
I clenched my other hand into a fist as I continued this conversation.
"How the hell could I continue our relationship when you told me I would never be working in Goldenrod again! I swear to God... when I see you... I'll..."
"You'll what, Silver?" He challenged, and I just knew that he was probably smirking at my misfortunes.
My body was starting to tremble with the adrenaline that was flooding my veins.
"...I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!"
"Silver..." Blue whispered across to me, shaking her head.
I knew I shouldn't be using such foul language on the shop floor, but it was Cyan. I was entitled to scream and shout at him.
Then I heard him laugh loudly into my ear.
"...I don't think threatening me is a good idea, considering all your friends here think you have sexually abused me..."
I looked over to Blue who had just finished serving the boy with the Aipom.
I had a feeling that my expression gave away just how confused I was about what he just said.
Sexually... abused?
I never did that! I hit him, that was all!
"W-what...?!"
I didn't even know what to say to that.
What if he told Gold that I had abused him? Would Gold believe his malicious lies?!
Blue slowly walked over to me, watching me intently like a hawk.
"You heard me...I told all your friends the real reason why you left was because you couldn't face up to the fact you sexually abused me, and... with all the bruises on my face... it didn't take long for them to believe me"
My mouth just dropped open as all that anger just escaped my body and left me feeling paralysed.
Why would he do that?!
I felt Blue's hand on my shoulder for comfort, and I was so glad she was here for me.
Gold...I hoped he didn't believe Cyan's lies...he knew me! He knew I would never do that to anyone!
"...you...you...BASTARD!" I yelled as Blue glared at me, obviously wondering who it was that was upsetting me. If she had her way she would probably snatch the phone off me and start giving him a piece of her mind. But this was my mess, I needed to sort this out.
Was Cyan making it so I wouldn't return back to Johto because of the rumours?
"So if I was you I would stay in Kanto... and never come back. Besides... you don't have to worry about Gold any more, he is well and truly over you"
And at that moment I felt my heart contract painfully in my chest.
Gold... did he believe Cyan? Did he... believe I would be capable of doing something so...monstrous?
I could feel my eyes sting with tears that threatened to fall, but no, I wouldn't let Cyan get to me!
I placed my hand on the counter to steady my balance.
"...what have you done to him?!"
"I haven't done anything, in fact, I am the one who has been here for him since the whole 'breakup' thing. You should be happy! Isn't this what you wanted? You wanted Gold to move on without you, and I am helping him do just that..."
That was it.
I gripped my head tightly with my hands allowing the receiver to fall onto the ground.
I leant over the counter fighting off tears that longed to fall down my face.
No...Gold... he wouldn't...NO!
I closed my eyes, now allowing tears to trickle down my face as I heard Blue pick up the phone.
"Listen here you fucking prick, if you ever... and I mean EVER hurt Silver again... you are a fucking dead man!"
It still didn't help me right now.
My mind became clouded with images... horrible twisted images of Gold and Cyan together, of Cyan comforting Gold about me breaking his heart... and... and...
"NOOOOOO!" I screamed, feeling as if my heart was being forcefully ripped from my chest.
I couldn't breathe, I couldn't see anything, I just felt light headed like I just wanted to die right now.
"...I don't give a shit about what he's done! He's my best friend! You better fucking leave him alone or else!" Blue continued to curse down the phone.
It was nice having some-one on my side, but still, it didn't make the pain any less.
My fingers dug harder into my hair, almost ripping chunks out of my scalp, and I bit my lip so hard droplets of blood started to appear on the counter.
Gold...no...please...wait for me...I am so sorry! Don't...don't let Cyan win...
"If you ever call this establishment ever again I am reporting you to the police! Now... FUCK OFF AND LEAVE US ALONE!"
And with that Blue slammed the phone down in rage.
I didn't see her, or hear another word from her, I just felt her slender feminine arms wrap around my shoulder's tightly.
And I broke down completely.
My chest heaved painfully with every gulp of air that I inhaled, and my legs trembled underneath my body weight.
Right now... I wanted to die...anything would be better than this...
"Silver..." Blue cooed softly, rubbing my shoulder's gently as I just bawled loudly onto the counter, feeling my lip sting where my teeth had fetched blood.
Gold... he was the only thing that was holding me together... the only thing I had in my life that was positive...and now... it was gone.
"...I've ruined everything...Blue...I've ruined... everything..." I managed to choke out in between sobs.
She continued rubbing my shoulder's softly.
"Now now, calm down. You haven't ruined anything. That prick was probably lying to get this sort of reaction from you..."
I shook my head desperately, knowing that Cyan would not lie about this to me.
No, he definitely would tell all my friends that I had sexually assaulted him. He wanted everyone to hate me, for me to feel as low as he did right now.
And all because of his stupid little brother!
"...no...Gold...he will...hate me...he...and Cyan... they..."
I couldn't choke out any more words. It was too painful to speak any more so I just stayed quiet, still trying to focus on breathing and to ignore the stinging sensation that ravaged my cut lip.
"Shhhh..." She soothed softly, resting her head against my back as I sprawled out on the counter.
"..I'll call Green... he might know what to do..."
"No...I don't..."
"It wasn't a question Silver, I am calling Green and that is final!"
I felt her body move off me as I just stayed motionless, feeling so incredibly sorry for myself.
The only person I ever truly loved in my entire life... hated me now...and now my heart just felt like it was dying from the inside, poisoning me slowly, infecting my entire body.
Fusing my eyes shut the tears would not stop falling down my face.
I never realised what it would feel like to be heartbroken... I had often just assumed it was something that was merely fiction...but now I knew what it felt like. I knew what it felt like to have some-one rip your heart from your chest and stab it to death right in front of your eyes.
"Green..? Green! Thank goodness you answered! I need your help! It's Silver..."
And slowly her voice was beginning to fade from my memory as my legs just seemed to collapse underneath me, and everything just went black.
I opened my eyes to darkness all around me, and deafening silence.
Deep inside a part of me wondered something.
Was I dead? Did my heart literally die in my chest?
I tried screaming, as loud as I could muster. But no noise came out of my mouth. It was like I was drowning in a black abyss, constantly lost in the darkness.
It was as if my body was floating on air, a feeling of weightlessness consumed me as I floated through the void.
Was I really dead? Was this it?
Slowly I closed my eyes, succumbing to this safe feeling that coursed through my body. Maybe this wasn't so bad. Here, I was safe, secure, I had no bad feelings...no sadness...no regret.
But a small voice niggled at the back of my head, pestering me, tormenting me.
"Silver...wake up!"
It sounded so near, yet so far away at the same time, but I just didn't have any energy left to fight. Drifting around in this never ending dark void seemed the best option right now.
"Silver! Open your eyes!"
The voice continued to ring in my ears and slowly I managed to open them.
I was still surrounded by darkness, but only this time I felt like I wasn't alone. Someone else was here. My eyes probed the abyss for answers, for any clue that something else was here.
I could feel it, I could sense another heartbeat echo in the emptiness.
"Silver..."
The voice seemed soft, yet painful, like whoever was saying my name was upset.
And then my eyes noticed a pair of soft amber ones staring back at me. The same amber eyes that belonged to Gold.
And as if by magic my heart started to pulsate faster inside my chest, making all those horrible feelings emerge from beyond the grave once again.
"G-Gold..." I mumbled, outstretching a hand to his body that hovered just before me.
Was he dead too? Were we... both dead?
My fingers gently danced across his face, feeling the smoothness of his skin. I watched as he smiled softly.
"You... came back for me..." The dark haired boy mumbled, now outstretching his hand to mine so our fingers intertwined.
I had never actually held Gold's hand, and I only just realised how lovely it felt. I felt safe.
And slowly I felt tears form in the corner of my eyes.
I seriously must be dead...
"...I am so sorry..." I mumbled sadly, squeezing his hand softly, never wanting to let go.
His face contorted to a sad smile, which seemed more like a frown.
"You came back for me...that is all that matters..."
As both of our bodies floated in this dark void I wrapped my other arm around his shoulder so we were both close. Our noses briefly touched as I closed my eyes.
I really wished that this was the afterlife, because this was just the best thing right now.
"I... love you Gold..." I managed to choke out, feeling tears fall down my face.
Then a pair of soft inviting lips connected with mine, and at that moment I just felt complete, like nothing and no-one could ever hurt me.
My hand released his so I could gently touch his face as we kissed. It felt like I hadn't kissed him for a lifetime and even if this wasn't real, or the afterlife it was nice to know Gold was always there.
As we broke from the kiss my heart thundered deep inside my chest.
I loved Gold more than life itself, and without him there was no point in living.
"I love you too" He muttered as I opened my eyes.
I watched as his body started to fade from my sight, like something or some-one was taking him away from me.
Desperately I wrapped my arms around him, never wanting to let go. But as I looked at his smiling face I was finding it harder and harder to picture anything.
Everything was fading, I was losing sight.
"...please don't leave me..." I mumbled pathetically, feeling tears fall down my face.
And as his body slowly faded from my memory the last words I heard were;
"I'm sorry..."
"Silver? Silver?! Wake up!" A desperate voice pleaded in my ears which made me open my eyes reluctantly.
It was Blue, and she was standing over me looking worried.
I raised a hand to my head, feeling a terrible headache consume my brain cells.
What the hell happened?
I also noticed I was no longer at work, I was lying down in a soft bed looking up at a white ceiling with Blue's face close to mine in concern.
"W-what... happened?" I choked out, squinting as the bright light seemed to burn my eyes.
"You collapsed! Luckily we managed to get you to Green's house..."
So that was where I was right now, Green's house.
I grunted in annoyance, feeling my whole body ache terribly.
So... seeing Gold... was that just a dream?
I felt her hand grasp mine desperately as she sat down beside me.
"You frightened the living shit out of me! I thought you were dying or something!"
I never meant to make her worried, or to pass out, I guess all the stress took it's toll on me. Right now, I just felt exhausted, like I hadn't slept for months.
"Sorry..." I mumbled, hearing the words scratch the back of my throat.
Feeling weak I decided to close my eyes and just try to relax. There was no way I could go back to work any time soon, not with how my body was feeling.
I could hear Blue and Green's voices mingling in my head as they conversed.
"...how the hell did this happen Blue?"
"It's a long story Green, too long to even begin to tell. And besides... it should be Silver telling you..."
There was a pause as Green sighed.
"Is there a complication back in Johto?"
"...something like that...let's just say some weirdo is trying to ruin Silver's life right now..."
Too right he was.
Fucking Cyan...and now he had taken Gold underneath his poisonous wings, and I was frightened it would be too late to do anything about it.
"I see...what did you hear of the telephone conversation?"
"...something about Cyan lying to Silver about staying in Kanto, and a lot of swearing. Something bad was said... but I didn't catch all of it. When I spoke to that Cyan creep he told me that Silver sexually abused him!"
I took a deep breath, still feeling annoyed about that.
I would never have the heart to do that to my nemesis, let alone Cyan. So... why were my friends believing him over me?!
"Total bullshit! I mean Silver is a bit snappy at times but... a rapist? No chance!"
"I know Green! I gave him a piece of my mind and warned him that if he dared phone the store again I would call the police. But still... what are we going to do now?"
A small smile danced across my lips as I continued to listen.
At least Green knew I was innocent, and he barely knew me. That was something to be grateful for.
But... would Gold believe me too?
"...you'll have to hold the fort at work, and I'll keep an eye on Silver..."
"Are you sure? I mean... don't you have Gym Leader stuff to do?"
That was a valid point, and I didn't want to be seen as a burden, but still, right now I could hardly move. Maybe it was because my heart literally skipped a beat and I collapsed.
"Don't worry about me, I can handle it. Just... go back to work and make sure everything is okay"
Slowly I opened my eyes and witnessed Blue's blurry face.
Soon I saw a kind and sincere smile smother her features as she gently held my hand.
"...will you be okay while I'm gone?"
I nodded weakly, feeling my eyelids get heavy once again.
She slowly rubbed my hand before letting go.
I watched as she stood up and faced Green.
"Okay then, just... call me if something happens, okay?"
"Don't worry Blue, I'll make sure he is okay"
I watched as the older girl left the room, leaving me alone with Green, not that I minded.
He was okay in small doses, and I doubted that he would try to annoy me given my state of mind.
The taller male sat down in the seat Blue was sitting in, and just stared at me.
His face expressed worry for some reason, was I really sick or something?
"...we need to sort out that weirdo you know, he can't just go around accusing people of rape!"
I just watched Green, at how he clasped his hands together, and his emerald eyes scanned the ceiling in thought.
"...but...how?" I croaked out, feeling the sudden urge to cough afterwards.
Green shrugged and sighed.
"I don't know, maybe I could talk to Red and get him fired or something, there must be something we can do..."
Weakly I shook my head, knowing that Cyan had probably covered his back so dismissal could be avoided, after all, he wanted to destroy me entirely.
I closed my eyes, suddenly finding it hard to breathe again.
Was it all this talk of Cyan? Or was it the fact I was terrified that he was poisoning Gold?
"You need to rest..." Green mused softly, his emerald eyes now gazing at me.
I didn't even have the energy to reply, I still felt like I was going to collapse again even though I was lying down.
My heart seemed to beat irregularly, and it would flutter occasionally in my chest. It was starting to make me feel sick.
Then I felt Green's hand gently touch my forehead, feeling how hot I was.
I didn't think I had a temperature or anything, but I guess it wouldn't hurt to be safe.
"Don't worry about this, Blue and I will sort this out" He assured me with a kind smile, as his fingers gently brushed aside strands of my hair that had fallen across my face.
I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply, feeling a wave of lethargy wash over me.
Why was he being so nice to me? I didn't deserve his kindness.
And soon enough I was able to drift off into an uncomfortable slumber, aided by my own restless thoughts.
My limbs animated back into life when a chilling breeze attacked my bones.
Opening my eyes slowly I was met with a blanket of stars nestling high above in the heavens.
Was this a dream again?
It was night time and surprisingly cold. I shivered, rubbing my arms to gain some heat.
The stars...if I made a wish... maybe all this could be sorted?
"Silver?"
I heard my name echo in the darkness which made me turn to look down at my lap.
It was Gold, he was resting his head on my leg, looking up at the starry night sky. It was so comforting to hear his voice in my ears, to feel his warmth against me, even if this was only a dream.
"Yes?"
He smiled at me softly, and for that moment I felt my heart melt like chocolate under a burning hot sun.
"Tell me that story about the stars again... you know, the one your Mother told you..."
It caught me off guard, but I smiled nonetheless.
Slowly I started to comb my fingers through his dark hair as my eyes scanned the network of gems in the sky.
"...okay, even though it's stupid..."
I took a deep breath, feeling somewhat unsettled right now.
Why did Gold want to know?
"...when I was little and I felt like giving up... my Mom would always tell me to make a wish to the biggest and brightest star in the sky... to wish that things would get better, and to believe that nothing stays bad forever. I always thought it was stupid, but I used to do it, and sometimes... it did work. I even do it sometimes now, just because it makes me feel like I am still close to her in some way... even though I actually don't even know if she is still alive..."
I sighed, and stopped moving my fingers through Gold's hair.
It was stupid... but it did help me. It helped me have some hope, some faith in myself that things would always get better. And most of the time things did get better, it just took some time.
I smiled softly, reliving those memories.
"...weird isn't it? I even made a wish that one day I would even find love, or discover what it actually meant...seems like that wish did come true after all..."
I looked down at Gold noticing that his eyes were closed.
Did he fall asleep on me?!
Typical Gold...then again I would fall asleep on me...
"Gold..." I murmured, shaking the dark haired boy into waking.
Only he didn't wake up.
His eyes remained closed, his mouth hung open slightly and his body just seemed limp against mine.
I swallowed hard, gripping the dark haired boy harder.
"Gold.. wake up!" I commanded, watching as his head softly swayed back and forth in my lap.
Only he didn't wake up.
His eyes remained shut, closed off from the rest of the world.
And my heart was slowly increasing in pace.
What the... what the hell was going on?!
"GOLD! WAKE THE FUCK UP ALREADY!" I screamed out, feeling my body tremble violently as his remained limp and lifeless.
My eyes widened as I witnessed the love of my life just remain motionless in my lap, no life animating his body into action.
Tears formed in my eyes suddenly as my heart hurt with every cursed beat.
No...he wasn't...
"No... GOLD!" I cried out, holding his body tightly as I rested my forehead against his, feeling as if my whole life was now crashing down around me.
Gold...he was dead...but how?! What sort of dream was this?! But for a dream... it hurt so much... like someone was literally twisting a knife in my heart, watching it bleed out slowly.
I rocked backwards and forwards, holding Gold's lifeless body like it was the only thing keeping me together right now.
Why...? Why me...?
I looked up quickly noticing we wasn't alone.
Standing a few metres away from us was none other than Cyan, wearing a grin the devil would be proud of.
It was his fault...he had taken Gold from me...
Taking one final gulp of air I cried out loudly into the heavens;
"NOOOOOOOO!"
I shot up suddenly from my slumber, hitting my head against the headboard in shock.
I cringed.
Fuck... that was... a terrible nightmare.
I glanced around my surroundings realising I was still in Green's bed, and it was now dark.
How long had I been asleep?
Slowly I rubbed my eyes, still feeling my heart thunder in my chest.
Gold... I watched him die... but why?! Did my mind hate me too?
Suddenly the bedroom door burst open and there stood a worried, and slightly out of breath Green.
"What the hell happened?! Are you okay?!"
Did I maybe scream out loud?
I weakly nodded, feeling like a complete and utter idiot for doing that. It was only a dream, it wasn't real. But why did it feel real to me?
I watched as the taller boy moved away from the doorway and sat down on the edge of the bed.
His emerald eyes glanced at me as I struggled into a sitting position. As I rubbed my head slowly I answered his question.
"...I had a nightmare..."
"what about?"
I frowned, not really wanting to relive that horrible thought.
"...about Gold dying..."
Green's face contorted to sorrow as he just looked at me.
Why was he even here? He should be out doing Gym leader things, or something. I didn't need his help.
"Well.. if you ever want to talk about stuff then you can talk to me... if it will help..."
He smiled awkwardly at me, and as I looked away at the bedsheets that were wrapped over my body like a cocoon I felt so incredibly sad right now.
I loved Gold more than anything, but right now I doubted the possibility of ever getting our relationship back on track.
"...yeah... thanks..."
"Or if you just want to punch something, or shout or scream... that's cool too"
He chuckled softly.
I glanced back up at the older boy, now knowing why people seemed to flock to him like moths to a flame.
It was his personality, how he came across to others. Red never seemed to speak of Green much, and when he did he only said he nagged him about the job. But now I could see he only did that because he cared about Red, just like he cared about me.
"I'll bear that in mind next time..." I murmured, forcing a smile.
It was actually nice to have some-one here to talk to, and it was great to know that I could get everything off my chest if I needed to.
That was something of a rarity nowadays for me.
Green smiled softly at me as he stood up.
"I'll go and get you a glass of water..."
My eyes followed the taller boy as he wondered out of the room, leaving me in solitude once again.
And right now I was terrified of being alone.
When I was alone bad dreams and visions haunted my head.
I needed some-one here...I needed to feel safe, but right now I felt anything but safe.
I clutched the bed sheets tightly to my chest as my heart started to speed up dangerously.
What if my dream was a vision of the future?
What...how would I cope with that...? I couldn't...there is no way I would survive.
It didn't take long for Green to arrive with a glass of water.
I watched as the spiky haired male placed the glass on the beside table.
Then I watched him move to open the curtains, allowing some natural moonlight into the room. Deep inside the selfish part of me wanted Green to stay for a while, at least with him here I could relax a little.
If he just abandoned me... I don't think I could cope right now.
"How are you feeling?" He enquired as he sat on the bed beside me.
I nodded weakly, reaching out to grab the glass of water.
"...I could be better..."
"Just... try not to worry about things back in Johto, everything will sort itself out, you'll see"
Yeah right, if only he knew.
It wouldn't get better, in fact things were bound to just get worse. Cyan had vowed to destroy everything I loved, and that meant Gold.
And there was nothing I could do to stop him.
"...I need to go back home..." I murmured quietly, thinking that perhaps if I got to Johto tomorrow then I could sort this out before Gold hated me for life.
Green shook his head as I took a sip of water.
"That's not going to happen..."
Slowly I placed the glass back on the bedside table.
"Why?"
"Have you seen what state you have gotten yourself into?"
I frowned as I looked downwards.
Yes, he was right. At this moment in time I was in no state to do anything, or go anywhere.
"But... Gold..."
I placed my head in my hands, feeling so utterly powerless right now.
Cyan was out there poisoning Gold and I couldn't do anything!
"...everything will be fine..." Green assured me, gently placing a hand on my arm in comfort.
Was he right? Would everything be okay? Right now... I doubted that.
Sighing deeply I closed my eyes and leant against Green's shoulder.
I just had this awful gut wrenching feeling that I would return to Goldenrod only to be hated by the one person who I loved.
Gold promised me he would wait for me...was he telling the truth?
"I know you probably feel like the world is against you right now, but trust me...things can only get better. And besides... you have me and Blue on your side"
I glanced at the emerald eyed boy and watched as he smiled at me.
He was on my side?
It wasn't a war or anything, yet right now I felt like I had just been in the middle of a battlefield. Still, I guess it was comforting to know some people didn't believe Cyan.
"Thanks... I guess..." I mumbled, now feeling how warm Green was against me.
Gold used to be warm...he would always see the bright side of any situation and I was always the depressing one...why was Green reminding me of those times?
"Don't mention it, like I said... you're not that bad a person"
I struggled into a sitting position, moving away from Green.
He watched me the entire time, obviously wondering if I was okay.
I was fine, a little heartbroken but fine nonetheless. This was something I needed to cope with, letting Cyan win was not an option.
"...and if Gold really loves you then... he won't believe Cyan's lies" Green assured me.
My eyes gazed into his as the moonlight shone onto his face, illuminating those perfect features.
Why was he here for me? Why didn't he just abandon me like everyone else?
And then I found my heart started to beat a little faster the longer I stared at the older male, wondering just what the hell was going on in my head.
This was Green, he wasn't Gold... yet why did he make me feel better?
His hand still rested on my arm, obviously oblivious to it now, but I noticed.
I noticed the coldness of his fingers against my skin, I noticed the alluring stare behind those eyes, and I noticed how hard it was becoming for me to breathe.
"Green..." I muttered quietly, feeling so incredibly weak and afraid right now.
And then I found myself moving closer to the older male.
I needed this... I wanted to feel... safe.
I closed my eyes, not allowing anything to register in my head right now.
But as I inhaled the scent of strong cologne and felt warm breath on my face I heard Green's Pokegear ring loudly.
I paused, not daring to move an inch or open my eyes as I heard the brunette move to answer his Pokegear.
Deep inside I was kicking myself.
What the fuck was I doing?! I loved Gold! Why the hell did I try to kiss Green?
I retreated back to my safety spot on the bed, now allowing my eyes to flicker open.
"Hello? Ah, Blue! Yes, everything is fine stop worrying! Yes... I am sure he would love to see you..."
Right now I felt so ashamed of myself.
What would I have done if I had kissed him? It would have lead to a lifetime of regret, and not only that... Green was dating Red! It was wrong on so many levels. A moment of weakness... that's all it was...
"Yeah, you can come over! Alright then, I'll see you in five minutes!"
And the conversation ended.
I sighed as I felt the older male shuffle to place the Pokegear onto the bedside table.
What the hell was I going to say now? Oh sorry about trying to kiss you... it was a mistake?
But he didn't question my actions or anything, he stayed quiet, not even daring to look at me.
What the hell had I done? Even Green hated me now...
"I'm... sorry..." I mumbled pathetically, wondering if he would suddenly go mental at me, or something.
But he didn't.
He smiled softly.
"It's okay..."
And instead of making myself feel any worse than I already did I decided to pretend to be asleep, so as I settled into the bed and closed my eyes I prayed that Blue would get here soon and rescue me from this dilemma.
I was awoken by Blue's melodious voice as she bounced over to me.
My eyes flickered open, and I smiled at seeing her kind face.
It seemed like forever since I had seen her.
She sat down beside me and held my hand gently.
"How are you feeling?"
I shrugged, now noticing Green was no longer here.
Maybe he had other things, more important things to do than watch over me.
"I could be better..."
She rubbed my hand as my body ached once again.
Why did I feel like I was dying? I only passed out, I should be up and on my feet in no time. This was just weird...
"Do you... still want me to cut your hair?" She asked me with sorrowful blue eyes.
Weakly I nodded, not knowing if I had the energy to stand up.
After everything that had happened today I was more determined than ever to change my appearance, starting with my hair.
"Yes...I do.."
"You want me to do it now? Or when you are feeling better?"
At least Blue had warmed to the idea of seeing me with short hair.
She didn't really have a choice in the matter because even if she was dead against the idea I would still go ahead with it.
I grunted as I shuffled into a sitting position, feeling my hair coil around my shoulder's.
It would feel so strange when that feeling was no longer around.
"Yeah...I may as well get it over with..."
She nodded and stood up.
Then she took both of my hands and helped me out of the bed.
When my feet came into contact with the carpet my legs were still slightly shaky but soon adjusted.
Maybe I was scared of collapsing again?
"How much do you want me to cut off?" She asked softly, releasing one of my hands to inspect my hair.
I shrugged, not really caring. As long as it wasn't as wild as Green's then I would be fine.
"Just... do whatever you think will look the best..."
She nodded, and with that said I was lead out of the bedroom, ready for my transformation.
I would be lying if I said I wasn't shitting bricks right now, and I would be an even bigger liar if I said my heart wasn't pounding in my chest when Blue started to cut off pieces of my hair.
I watched as red coils dropped to the ground, remaining motionless like dead serpents.
Slowly my old life was being replaced with new as I stared at my reflection in the mirror.
My eyes witnessed Blue's creative flair as more and more of my hair fell to the floor. I took a deep breath, wondering if this was really okay?
After this though I would be almost unrecognisable, but that was okay. Maybe that wasn't so bad. It still felt weird not to have hair tickling the back of my neck, I felt exposed for the first time but I would get used to it. I would have to.
Slowly I closed my eyes, feeling Blue's fingers comb through what hair I had left on my head.
A part of me didn't want to see it, didn't dare open my eyes to see just how short it actually was.
"You look so different with short hair you know?" Blue commented as I felt the cold edge of the scissors press against the side of my face.
I flinched but tried to calm down.
It was okay, I trusted Blue.
"I bet I look terrible..."
I heard her chuckle.
"I wouldn't say that! It makes you look older I think"
Did she really think so?
As her fingers combed through my hair for the last time she stood back and placed her hands on my shoulders.
"You can look now if you want..."
Cautiously I opened my eyes only to witness the massive transformation I had just gone through.
The length around my face was gone, along with the red coils that used to hang down my neck.
It was all gone.
She had managed to cut my hair so it actually was about the same length as Red's hair, but my neck still felt exposed.
Self consciously I placed my hand to my neck, feeling how weird it was to feel skin instead of hair.
"You hate it, don't you?" She murmured quietly.
I took another look at my reflection.
Okay... maybe it wasn't so bad. So I looked like Red's brother or something with the haircut, but I guess it did make me look older. This was something I could get used to.
"No.. it's... okay" I smiled softly at Blue in my reflection.
It was done now, there was nothing I could do to turn back time, but even though all my hair was gone the horrible reality still remained.
Cyan was still out there, poisoning Gold... and I needed to do something about it.
Author's Note: AH! FUCK YOU CYAN! Dx OMG! Why would you do that?! Poor Silv! But maybe things will get better, and he will end up hurting Cyan, like ripping his balls off :) I hoped you enjoyed the intensity and the drama, and please review! :D thanks!