He felt a warmth overcome him as he laid there silently, You really are here Haru sighed because every time he felt this way, he just knew it was Rin. It had to be! No one else could cause this kind of warmth to fill his heart.
But this time, this time it started to feel a bit more intimate somehow. He could swear he felt Rin s arms tightly around him. He could also swear that soft lips were tracing the nape of his neck and wandering off. Haru softly gasped because it was strange yet not unwelcome in the least. In fact, he wanted to get lost in this even if it would be downright nuts to anyone who would ve saw.
But the fact was, he was alone in his room, in a house that felt empty expect for the fact that he could feel Rin. He could feel him stronger than ever.
Haru tried to hold onto an arm that he was sure was around him. He stayed where he was afraid too much movement might make it all just stop. His heart had the strongest reaction with the way it beat in his chest like there was something to anticipate or maybe it was just a small hope there.
This only made him long more to see Rin or at least hear his voice. Which maybe something was granting that because all of the sudden he swore he did hear Rin say something. Or maybe it was because he could swear that that warm breath was right around the back of his neck, right where he thought Rin may ve kissed him somehow.
"I can feel you Rin. I don t know how or why but I can feel arms around me and I Was that your lips at my neck?" Or am I really losing it?
Those words were almost enough to make him freeze but Rin was very happy to hear it. He had been wondering when Haru would sense him, he didn t think Haru was aware of spiritual presences but this was nice. He smiled and brought his wing in closer to Haru, the tips of the feathers trailing against his leg. Rin wondered if he d feel it.
Rin was almost certain he could feel Haru touching him but he saw that their arms were very close to one another. Did that count? Maybe. If it did, then Rin was likely the most close he had ever been to Haru physically. But that didn t mean that Rin had stopped kissing Haru s neck, even sparing a little bite.
He sighed along Haru s neck, nuzzling him before he heard Haru speak again. It was so weird to hear that, it made Rin laugh softly and nod, his grip tightening on Haru. Yeah, I was kissing your neck, I m sorry about the bite but I d always wanted to do that, he laughed.
Maybe this being dead thing wasn t so bad.
Who was he kidding? It was terrible. Being dead was probably one of the worst positions Rin had ever been in, even if he had let the idea of suicide cross his mind before coming back to Samezuka. That didn t mean he d tried it though.
"If I could, I d make love to you right here. Who knows, maybe angels can do that too?" Rin pressed his chest and hips against Haru s back and body. He tried threading their fingers together and found himself sighing once again, maybe he shouldn t be torturing Haru like this "I can leave if my presence here hurts you," he offered.
Something made his leg tickle which he almost didn t notice because he could still feel the kisses at the back of his neck and what he thought felt like Rin s teeth. Just that though alone made his skin tingle but feeling it was much more so.
It was no wonder within that moment that Haru softly moaned Rin s name. It made him wonder what exactly was possible in such an unusual predicament. Though he loved the feel of Rin s lips almost too much to move, Haru rolled over to try and face Rin because judging by those kisses that was where he was.
Haru closed his eyes, picturing Rin in his mind because it made it more real. For now maybe this was the only way to see him. Because feeling him seemed to grow stronger with every passing moment.
"Even if this is strange, it feels nice. I m glad at least you are with me in some way, shape or form. Don t go until you have to?" Haru wasn t sure how it worked for someone who had passed on but he had also heard of angels wandering the earth though he had never physically seen one. Was Rin really an angel as he had pictured in his mind? He could see his sweet friend being one because Haru had always thought Rin could be rather angelic when he wanted to.
He was softly chuckling at that but that stopped when he swore he heard Rin again. Or it sure as hell sounded like him. Something about making love or leaving. Haru s heart sped up because it hadn t crossed his mind they could maybe go that far. Maybe it would ease his regrets on such things or maybe it was wrong to want Rin in such a way when he was gone.
But frankly if that was the case, why could he feel Rin so intensely? It would be almost perfect but yet ironic if he could see him at the same time. Like he wasn t really passed on so young and in such a painful manner.
As Haru pictured Rin in his mind, somehow he got a better sense of where he was laying on the bed and he reached out to what felt like Rin s face. He could even feel how soft it was. It was like he was still alive and still with Haru.
"Don t go. Don t even speak of leaving me again .." Haru leaned closer moving slowly till he thought his forehead may be pressed to Rin s maybe. "If it is really possible. I want you to do that, Rin. Make me yours " Before I really do lose my mind.
Just hearing the moan of his name was much more satisfying than it probably should have been. Sure, he d heard it earlier in the evening, but now? It was so smooth and sweet that Rin almost couldn t believe it.
He didn t mind it when Haru turned and almost pulled away so he wouldn t hurt him. Instead, he got closer and continued to kiss along his neck and shoulder, sucking gently on the smooth skin that he was finding. It was so nice Rin almost preferred being dead.
"I didn t want to go in the first place. I was just about to message you when the train wrecked and I doubt that my phone would even be sent back here. There were so many things that I wanted to send you, to tell you, to experience with you while I was alive. I m so grateful to be able to just be here now."
Maybe the words weren t getting through but Rin thought it may have been the sensations from himself that were causing it if Haru could feel him. Either that or he really was driving Haru insane, he d know if the other answered to something he hadn t even asked. He just hoped it didn t come to that.
The raven s words had him pausing with his forehead against Haru s. Just what Ohh. OH. Rin s eyes widened when Haru suggested that, practically telling him to do it. I how? I mean, I know how-how, but Me in you, or the other way around? He couldn t even believe this was being discussed, it was like something straight out of Ghost. Now, Rin just had to worry about some kind of demon things coming to take him away from Haru.
The kisses he felt at his neck became more intense, he hoped it left a mark. Physical proof would make him feel more sane but maybe if he could get this lost in Rin, his sanity was worth losing.
Haru reached down, removing his shirt from his body along with his boxers, if he was going to feel Rin then he wanted to feel as much of him as possible. Nothing in the way.
Maybe he didn t hear everything Rin said, for some reason it was like bad reception. But he could sense him so profoundly now, could feel every little touch and his body was so sensitive to it all.
He wanted Rin.
He could feel Rin press his forehead more firmly against his own. Haru sighed, it was him. He was here. He was not crazy. It was too damn real, it felt so real. Yes Haru sighed, you in me. I want to feel you in the most intimate way possible. I want to give myself over to you and just forget all this sorrow. Please Rin .
Haru wrapped his arms around Rin as one lone tear fell from his eye, I love you so much. I always have. I should ve told you
Rin was intending on making little marks all along Haru s skin if he could manage to do so. That was one of his main goals in this. What was new was the fact that Haru was undressing and seemed to want him. The angel stared at the raven laying there with him and Rin found that he couldn t exactly think.
"You already have told me, I ve watched you all day baby." He hoped somehow whatever he was saying was getting to Haru even if it were coming off strangely. The redhead kissed Haru back and began rolling them both so that Haru was underneath him.
For some reason, Rin could already press his hips against Haru as if he hadn t been wearing a white tuxedo all day. The sensations that went through him had the redhead gasping but he had enough sense to lick his fingers to reach down and prepare Haru for this. If health class taught him one thing, it was that someone s rectum couldn t lubricate itself.
He was trying his absolute best to be gentle with Haru, watching his face quietly just in time to lean down to kiss him. He nipped at Haru s lips and kissed him harder, trying to pour as much of his love into it as he could. He only pulled back so that he could get a breath, unable to tell if he were breathing out of habit or if he actually needed to.
"You re so beautiful, so gorgeous I hope that this can make up for everything that you re going to miss now that I m dead. I may not even be visible to you or this could all just be a dream, but I m not going to stop. I won t leave you. Haruka, I love you."
He could feel Rin s weight over him, he could sense how gentle he was being treated. He could feel skin on skin which made him gasp softly. Haru let his legs fall open to make it easier as he felt Rin s fingers inside him. He was very gentle with Haru, this made Haru s heart race with anticipation.
He kissed Rin back when he felt his lips again, more passionately than he had previously. He finally heard Rin clear as day. Heard him saying sweet things which only made him want to surrender to the redhead more.
"Good " He groaned softly. It wasn t really clear that he was saying it because of Rin s words of staying at his side until he spoke more that is. "Because I need you." He needed him, he wanted him and he could hardly believe he was really here like this.
The last wish he had was to hopefully see Rin, he closed his eyes so that he could at least envision him again and it made the feelings of Rin s touches more profound.
Haru pushed against the fingers to encourage Rin, it felt rather odd because he wasn t used to it but he slowly started feeling good.
The better it felt, the more he pushed against Rin. The more he desired to feel Rin inside him. But he didn t voice it because he was in no rush. He didn t want it to be over when it had barely started.
Rin hit some spot and Haru s voice rang out across the room, it had hurt at first and even burned slightly but not now. When it had, he had just gone along anyway. He wanted this far too much to do anything to cause it to stop.
Haru s voice cracked for a moment, he leaned closer to Rin and searched for his lips. When he found them he kissed him in an almost desperate way because he just wanted this. Wanted Rin at least once. He was grateful for whatever it was that caused him to feel Rin near, fell his touches and sense him even if he couldn t see him.
As much as he loved hearing that, it still broke Rin s heart. I ll be here as long as you want me, baby, he whispered. Rin made sure that he was stretching Haru properly, slipping another to scissor the fingers and try to get Haru used to it.
Large wings were tucked against his back to keep from hurting Haru accidentally. Now that he could be felt, Rin didn t want to hurt Haru unintentionally, that wasn t an option. Red eyes were watching Haru carefully, a small smile stretching across his face when he saw the other enjoying it.
He peppered little kisses along Haru s inner thighs and down to his hips, slightly surprised at the way Haru s voice reverberated off the walls. It was a beautiful sound and made Rin almost impossibly harder. Gorgeous, I want to hear more of you.
Those fingers started torturing that area, rubbing slowly just as Rin got up on his knees. The only other thing he had for lubricant was spit and Rin started making sure that his cock was as wet as it could be. He didn t want to hurt Haru, that was the last thing he wanted.
After a few moments, Rin lined himself up, both hands on Haru s hips, and began pushing into him. I m sorry, I know it ll hurt He moved very slowly, making sure to keep his eyes on Haru s face.
Haru gripped the sheets as the feeling of Rin s fingers grew more intense with the adding of a finger and the way they were moving inside him. He couldn t hold back the soft panting and moans it caused.
His body pushed against them as he seemed to be hitting some sweet spot inside Haru so well, like he was some expert but he probably wasn t. He probably just lucked out somehow.
He could feel Rin s lips over his thighs, finding them to be rather sensitive. He d never been this turned on.
When he finally felt Rin s cock slide in, he heard him clear as ever. Maybe it did hurt at first but this was Haru s first time. (And maybe his last ) He bit his lip and then smiled as it started to feel good.
"It didn t hurt for long, its worth being able to do this with you " Haru spoke softly between pants but was soon unable to say much more expect that he really just wanted Rin to "please move "
Haru wrapped his legs around Rin s waist, his hands around his neck and he waited, knowing Rin was being careful with him and maybe a little more so than need be but it made Haru feel appreciated and cherished.
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Something in him wanted to beg for a second chance at life just so that he could be there to love and take care of Haru. That was the one thing that he wanted to do more than anything in the world. He was panting, almost certain that he would end up cumming as soon as he moved.
He did move at Haru s request, thrusting shallowly before finally pulling out to the tip and shoving back in. Rin lifted Haru over his hips and sat up on his knees, thrusting up into him. Small gasps and low moans left him while he was doing this, his grip tightening on Haru s hips. His wings wrapped around Haru to encase him, the redhead letting out a little noise.
"I love you, Haru," he whispered. "I m addicted to you and not just because of this. I-I fell in love with you when I was younger, I just didn t know what it was, and then I just I left. And that race, when I quit swimming, I didn t mean to hurt you like that. There s so much I regret doing to you, Haru, but so much more I regret not getting the chance to do. I m sorry you had to see what happened to me, I m so sorry "
He kissed and licked at Haru s neck and shoulder before turning his face up so that he could press their lips together. He couldn t get enough of the beautiful taste of Haru. It was more than enjoyable for him.
As Haru felt Rin s cock fill him, he couldn t help the moans as he attempted to say Rin s name. Since at the moment, he still couldn t see Rin, Haru closed his eyes and pictured him as he listened to him speak. As he felt him in the most intimate way possible and heard him clearer than ever before. He sighed at the new type of high he seemed to feel from it all.
He heard Rin say he loved him. He heard everything that was said this time. He could hear him so well, feel him like he was still alive and Haru couldn t help the desire to see him and maybe that was why.
He opened his eyes but in his current state it took him a moment to realize that he could see him, it was faint but it was Rin. Haru couldn t really speak as yet more moans escaped his lips. He felt safe in a way he never had before and he felt a strange contentment perhaps because he knew Rin knew he loved him.
Finally.
Feeling Rin at his neck, Haru whispered softly knowing that Rin s ear was closer to his lips at the moment. I - I can see . It was so hard to speak at the moment, as Rin seem to hit just the right place. Rin! Haru gripped at Rin s shoulders firmly, slightly digging his nails in as he felt Rin deep inside.
He couldn t get over the beauty that was Haru under him, Rin had never seen a more beautiful sight as Haru right then. He was truly gorgeous and Rin adored seeing him like that. Rin just wished he d gotten the chance before he d died.
Those eyes on him made Rin s thrusts become uneven and disjointed, he couldn t believe that Haru was looking right at him and it made his heart race. Of course, it was probably just his soul s normal response to Haru ever looking at him. He couldn t quite get over it but Rin did appreciate it.
He grinned and pulled back enough to look at Haru and watched his face, moving his hips harder and faster. He wanted to see that reaction from Haru, Rin wanted to make him call out like that again. The angel gripped Haru s hips and began taking him a little better than he had before, with much more confidence.
"I want to watch you come undone," Rin whispered. "I loved seeing you in the bath earlier but I want to feel it when you do, please. I hope you get to keep seeing me after this." He pressed his lips to Haru s, kissing him and letting out a small noise.
Maybe Rin had heard him, yes Rin knew Haru could see him now and his initial reaction seemed to be of shock or something because the way he was moving inside Haru changed and seemed a little clumsy for a moment. That didn t change how good it felt because Haru was so sensitive from all the penetration as this had been going on for a while now.
His thrusts felt as if Rin had gained full control over himself once more and Haru could feel him moving even harsher and in somewhat of a frenzy. He yelped out Rin s name as a surge of pleasure hit him and shot up his spine and throughout his entire body. He groaned out Rin s name and dug his nails into the angel s back.
He knew he was getting so damn close, but he tried his damnedest to hold on as long as he possibly could. His heart raging in his chest and his breathing a very heavy pant as he soon said Rin s name several times some audible and some making no sense at all.
The new angle Rin was hitting that sweet spot all over again. Haru wasn t sure why it felt so damn good but that was all he could take as his body shudder almost feeling like it was being massaged from the inside all over. From the top of his head all the way to the tip of his now curled toes.