Jill had been home several days and life had returned to normal, the sort of normality that Gordon had feared would never happen again. But they'd yet to fully brace the situation with each other, instead skirting around their loss. Both of them completely heartbroken and shattered by what had happened but managing to hide it from the other.
Jill sat in the living room, her eyes glazed over indicating she was in her own room and deep in thought. Gordon entered the room quietly having put the three children to bed. He stood in the doorway leaning on the door frame, just watching his wife; Jill oblivious to his presence. It hurt the man to see his wife in such a vulnerable state shattered by what had happened.
'Jill...' he uttered to which there was no reply, so he spoke a bit louder hoping to gain her attention 'Jill...' Gordon walked over to the sofa. Weatherill responded by looking at him, as she blinked a lone tear rolled down her cheek. She quickly brushed it away with the back of her hand as her husband sat beside her, placing a hand on her shoulder.
'Whatever's the matter love?' He asked, almost kicking himself as he spoke the words
'Sorry... I'm so sorry Gordon' she cried as she collapsed into Ormerod's arms.
'Come on love, its okay. Everything's going to be okay' Gordon soothed into her ear whilst holding Jill close to him. Her body made jumpy movements as she let out sobs, muffled by Gordon's shirt.
'Can you forgive me Gordon?' the female Doctor added in between crying
Gordon didn't have to ask what she meant, he knew. 'Jill there's nothing to forgive you for. These things happen, you know that. I'd never blame you darling'
'I lost ... I lost our child... our baby'
Gordon didn't reply, he just held his wife even tighter and kissed her head; he to cried, silently though.
After what seemed like an eternity but was probably closer to several minutes Jill restored some sort of composure and much to Gordon's shock blurted out her desperation
'I think we should try for another child Gordon'
'Jill we'll never replace the one we've lost' reasoning with his traumatised wife
'What's there stopping us from having a fourth?'
Gordon sat in a state of shock at his wife's suggestion. Of course he wanted another child but they hadn't got over the one they'd just lost. He knew that Jill wasn't ready physically or emotionally to try for another, and truthfully neither was he.