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"a hypocrite Harm you? " Sarah uttered surprised.
If anything Harm judged himself to a higher moral standards then he judged others
Harm closed his eyes for a moment. Then took of towards the hangar.
Hypocrite, Sarah mind kept repeating. Hypocrite?
She thought back to the cases she and Harm had been working the last couple of weeks. Nothing out of the ordinary. Then it hit her. The realization took her breath away and made her hart beat in her throat.
Harm…Harm….o god …he….
Slowly she followed him into the hangar.
She had to think, think Sarah!, Think! she ordered herself.
This is not about you…someone you care for very much needs you right now. Put aside the silly dreams you never quit believed in yourself.
"Harm, Harm stop" she yelled after him.
He stopped, partly turned and then surprised and shocked her by punching the wall of the hangar with a closed first really, really hard.
And by the looks of it it hurt like a sonofabitch
"of all the things…you stupid…"she ran to him and took his fist in her hands. He had breached the skin and it already started to swell.
"Harm look at me, LOOK at me "
He looked up hesitantly avoiding her eyes as much as possible.
"You didn't tell and i didn't ask but i think i know now"
Before she could judge his reaction he already turned his head to the floor again. In a reflex, finding maternal instincts she never suspected she had, she reached out and pulled him into a hug. Apparently that had been the right thing to do because soon Harm relaxed. She felt his shoulders hitch and felt something wet trailing down her neck.
Quickly she scanned the area but the chain smoking Englishman was nowhere to be seen.
When Harm finally became quiet in her arms,no longer crying tears he had never allowed himself to fall she guided him towards a nearby bench.
And out came to whole depressing story. About a boy who desperately wanted to fill in his fathers footsteps so he hide his true nature. A boy who grew up in a man wanting to serve his country. A man that after years of loneliness had finally found a partner that didn't mind the need to be secretive. A partner he had pushed away after almost a year because he couldn't live with himself winning a case against someone for the same crime he himself was committing.