Dagian didn't take her pain pills with her on the trip because she wasn't certain if she could take them with her on the plane or not. So when she woke up the next morning and the drugs were out of her system, she was in a lot of pain.
And Lily was fussing to be held.
Dagian fed her and placed her on a blanket on the floor where she could watch.
Changing the bandages was going to be a pain. She honestly didn't know how she was going to do it without asking Rumpelstiltskin.
Her solution came a few minutes after standing in the bathroom when Emma knocked on her door and came in upon Dagian opening it, "Hey."
"Hey," Emma greeted and came into the room. Lily smiled and gurgled to Emma. Emma looked uncomfortable and slipped her hands in her coat pockets, "Um…Neal wants to spend time with Henry. He wants to spend the day with him before we figure out what we should do next."
"Are you going to allow that?"
Emma looked determined, "He's not going to do it without me. And unfortunately Mr. Gold isn't going to allow me to go without him so it looks like we're having a family day. We meet in an hour."
"Okay," Dagian said, "I need to change my bandages so-."
"Do you need help?" Emma asked.
"I couldn't…ask you to do that."
"I don't mind," Emma said, "I've probably seen worse."
"Thank you," Dagian said and made sure her door was closed, "Emma?"
"Yeah?"
Dagian drew a breath, "I'm sorry about…how I treated you yesterday."
Dagian had expected Emma to blow up at her but instead Emma shrugged, "Okay."
They walked to the bathroom together. Dagian stood quietly for a few seconds and then drew a breath, 'Rumpelstiltskin's going to ask you to convince Bae to come with us."
Emma hesitated, "And what do you think about that?"
"I can't offer an unbiased opinion."
Emma was quiet again, "He'll hurt Henry."
"It's been over a decade since you saw him last," Dagian reminded her, "He can change."
"With the luck I seem to have?" Emma scoffed and then remembered that she was talking about Dagian's son, "Sorry."
"No, it's okay," Dagian muttered, "What he did to you was horrible, I'm not going to make excuses for that and your fears are very well founded."
Emma finished with the bandages and Dagian turned. Emma searched her face and looked like she was conflicted over what she was about to say, "Henry won't talk to me."
"He's angry," Dagian told her as a means of comfort, "Anger fades."
Emma looked hurt at the next words, "He compared me to Regina."
Dagian felt both disgust and annoyance. She knew Henry was probably just comparing them both because they lied about big things to him, but it left a bad taste in her mouth, "That was dramatic."
"Last night, I was thinking…Henry came for me last year…because I was supposed to be the savior. The mother thing…I think was a bonus. His priority was to get me to save everyone. And now I've done that and now I lied to him and he has his father and grandparents…maybe my use is done. Maybe he doesn't need me anymore."
"Emma," Dagian said a little more sharply than she meant, "Of course he needs you. You're his mother."
"I abandoned him…I gave him up and signed my rights away-."
"Emma, you were in jail. And I'm guessing you were broke. You gave him up because you thought it was best. Regina was not what was best for him, but you had no way of knowing that. You've been more of a mother to him emotionally since you got here than Regina has all his life. Take it from someone who was there. Well….semi there."
"I was just trying to protect him. I didn't want him to get hurt."
Dagian closed her eyes to block out the memory of leaving Bae when he was a baby…how she left him with his father who had a coward's reputation rather than take him with her because she knew his 'coward' father was better fit to raise him than she was.
Dawn had never really paid attention to Emma. The only times she'd done so was when Rumpelstiltskin took notice of her. Dagian, however, had come to respect the savior. Maybe there was a kindred spirit in there for both of them somehow that Dagian didn't think about before she learned they were family.
"We do things when we feel like we have to protect our children," Dagian told her, "Sometimes there's no right decision and sometimes we don't want to do them but we do. You're not perfect, Emma. You'll make mistakes. The world is not so black and white that it's as clean cut as Henry, with an eleven year old's mind, thinks it is. Does he have reason to be angry at you? Yes. But one day, he'll understand why you thought it was best to do it."
Emma nodded.
"But I take it your mother's told you this stuff already."
Emma smiled wryly, "Yeah, but I wanted to see where you stood on everything. Seeing who I have as alliances"
"I want my son back more than anything," Dagian told her honestly, "and I think you know how that feels. But…if at any time you feel that he's a threat on your son…I'll back you up on it as long as it makes sense."
Emma nodded, "You'd do that?"
"Of course," Dagian said but she wondered how much she'd actually mean it if it came to that, "We're family now."
