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"I believe," he said, still smiling, "that you would call it popping my cherry." Before disappearing, the Winchester boys looked at each other before hearing a loud bump upstairs, before the cries of;
"Cas no, I'm sorry okay? Seriously," they could hear Willow laugh from down the stairs, mixed with her high pitched squeals, "No more pillow fights okay?"
Before looking at each other with identical looks of horror.

"We need to tell them," whispered Willow as she looked up to Castiel with huge green eyes and he felt his heart flutter, although she'd only slept for five hours she looked more alive already, the black circles under her eyes were already beginning to fade and the colour in her cheeks returning, but they both knew that he could only protect her for so long.
Castiel smiled down at what he hoped to be comfortingly at her, "I know, I'll be ready when you are."
"When do you think you can talk about it?" she asked, equally as quietly.
"Three day. I tried so hard to tell you," he murmured quietly, pushing a strand of hair behind her ear, planting a small kiss on her forehead, stroking the small of her back as she pressed her slim naked body onto his.
"I know," she smiled up at him as she leant in for a kiss, "We'll manage."

"Willow Lilly Winchester get your ass out of that shower and down here," Bobby yelled up the stairs as Dean and Sam exchanged terse looks at each other as they could hear Willows muffled unintelligible reply.
"Bobby I was out of the shower like an hour ago, you need your ears tested," Willow said as she jumped down the stairs her damp hair flying out behind hair as she looked up at him with her emerald eyes.
"Who's in the shower then?" Bobby asked frowning.
"Cas," Willow said quietly, smiling cheerfully at them, a dimple appearing on her left cheek and she looked around and laughed at the shocked expression on all three of their faces. "What?" she grinned, tugging a discarded red and black checked shirt on.
"Cas is in the shower," Dean said raising his eyebrows and at the same time Sam said in an equally surprised tone;
"You're so happy."
Willow raised her eyebrows as she carried on grinning as she heard the bathroom door upstairs open. "I told Castiel about how amazing showers are when you stressed and he wanted to try," she glanced at Bobby quickly, "I told him that was okay," before continuing, "the whole falling thing, I think he just feels bad, it's complicated."
She hurriedly finished her sentence as she heard heavy footsteps coming down the stairs, "and I'm allowed to be happy aren't I," she carried grinning up at Castiel and Dean caught her eye and for a second the saw some emotion flash in front of her eyes that he couldn't quiet but his finger on but before he could say anything Castiel was beside her.
"What seems to be the matter?" Castiel asked his voice husky as he cocked his head, clasping Willows hand for a second before walking on the other side of the room.
"We've got information," Bobby spoke up, "on this demon called Asmodeus," he carried on speaking from the book on the desk, "he's mentioned in the Book of Tobias, he's meant to be a prince of hell, and in charge of lust from the Seven Deadly sins."
"Where?" Willow asked, her voice cold as everyone looked up at her in alarm, her eyes set in stone as she pulled the knife from her back pocket, "where the fuck is he?"
"Will-" began Dean in alarm, standing up slightly while everyone else looked at her in alarmed silence.
"Where the fuck is he?" she cried, her voice growing close to hysteria holding the knife up to her chest with her arm held out as Castiel moved towards her.
"Don't," her voice was low and dangerous, "he needs to die. I am going to fucking murder the bitch."
Castiel ignored her warnings and walked towards her, she slowly moved her arm down until her arm dropped her arm down to her side as he gripped her shoulders.
"Willow, what's wrong," he asked quietly, his crystal clear blue eyes boring into hers and Willow flinched away from him ducking her head as she lowered her eyes.
"No," she whispered and everyone in the room clung to her words, the tension in the room making their hairs stand on end, "I can't," she carried on, tears streaming down her face, "you can't know. It's dirty."
"Know what?" Dean said quietly walking over towards her, Castiel stepped aside and watched Dean comfort Willow in ways he didn't think he ever good, he knew that already she depended on him, like he did with her, but with Dean she was different, he couldn't explain how he just knew it was, they went further back, she had more faith in the fact she'd never lose him.
Dean shook Willows shoulders and peered into her eyes their green eyes clashing as he raised his eyebrows, "you can tell us anything," he said so honestly which made Willows heart melt and churn at the same time, her thoughts were swimming in her head as she tried to make a smile appear.
Willow stepped out of Deans grasp as she slid to her knees, shutting her eyes for a second until out of nowhere Bobbys hand appeared in front of her with a neat glass of vodka, Castiel and Sam exchanged a terse look with one and other before diverting their gaze back to Willows slouching body.
Her voice was raspy as she spoke, barely above a whisper, "I was only just sixteen and you and John were away on a hunt," she glanced at Dean, "and Sam was at college. I was in a shitty motel trying to watch TV but I was so scared, you and John were on a big demon hunt – do you remember? You destroyed Asmodeus nest before, it was one of our biggest hunts back then but you wouldn't let me come, John was all for it, but I was pretty beat up from hunting a rouge Vampire before the demon case so you point blank refused to let me go with you. I was sitting in the motel," she said quietly, "when there was this banging on the door, with your voice and I was so scared that you were hurt so I opened the door and it wasn't you. It was him, I had no idea who he was but he wasn't alone – I knew they were demons but I couldn't get my gun and they tied me down," her voice became emotionless as she continued, "they beat me, remember? I never told you the rest, or who it was I was too scared. I couldn't think about losing you, or saying anything I felt so worthless. They tied me down and beat me senseless, laughing, saying I was special and my body asked for it. They took turns Dean," she cried her cold eyes meeting his as he still stared at her. "And I cried and begged and fought, but I couldn't get them off me and they didn't stop and it hurt so much. Their hands were all over me and their jeers, that's what I have nightmares about, they always said they'd come back. And then they just left, just got up and walked out and I was just lying there and I felt so dirty and worthless," she was cut short by the noise of smashing glass as it seemed like Bobby threw a discarded bottle at the wall, his face red with contained anger.
Willow glanced up licking her lips, with fear etched in her eyes as she tried to gauge their reactions. Sam was stunned in silence his eyes wide as he looked into the distance, Dean was biting his lip, trying to keep the anger inside him boiled inside while Castiel just walked from where he was sitting and pulled Willow into his arms and kissed her head, "no one here blames you," he said as calmly as he could, his anger boiled underneath the surface, "you overcame that you are so strong and they will all die."
"They will," she agreed quietly, "I'm better than I was then. I'll kill them."

"You sure you can do this?" Sam asked, turning on his seat to stare at Willow who was in Castiel arms the Demon killing knife in her grasp as Dean pulled up opposite the supposed derelict building that Rufus had told Bobby Asmodeus was in.
"Yes," she said calmly, meeting Sam's eyes and sharing a small smile before leaping out the care with Castiel behind her.

Just in case you didn't get it, yes Willow was raped and at first it was going to be more graphic I suppose, but I didn't think it fit with the tone, especially what happens in the next chapter. Ooooohhhhhh.
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