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Summary: Burt Hummel is one of the most feared mob bosses, and in order to get to him his enemies are going after his twin sons but Burt will be damned before that happens, so he sends them to Dalton. Will it be enough?
Rating: T
Disclaimer: don't own glee or song
"The Hummel Clan"
Breaking
(Blaine POV)
Beep… Beep… Beep… Beep… Beep… Beep…
That's the only sound that can be heard inside Kurt's room, it's been three weeks since Canada and two since Gabe demanded Kurt be moved to the house in Lima; we still needed to go to school but all wanted Kurt close so after much begging and tantrums, Burt finally cracked and made the arrangements. For two weeks I've been a ghost during classes, lost in my mind and just waiting and itching to return to my boyfriend's side, for fourteen days I've been holding an unresponsive hand and talked for hours without ever getting a response but my hope has never diminished; Gabe however is a complete different story, I've stood by and watched hope be lost for him and frankly it's started to worry me. Those eyes that day by day begin to darken as Kurt remain unmoving on the bed, the lack of tears since we found out Kurt's diagnosis and the fact that the days between visits have been growing is seriously disturbing and angering.
For a couple of days the guys have been keeping me back, telling me it was Gabe's way of coping and that I should stay out of it and I try, I truly do but I know what it feels like to be ignored by your brother and I can't have that happening to Kurt, not now not ever, especially with the strong bond those two had before this whole nightmare began, so on Friday I decide it's time to have a little chat with one Gabriel Hummel.
"Guys" somebody whisper-yells as I walk towards Kurt's room with the guys. I turn around to find Peter motioning for us to follow him to another room.
"What is it?" asks Nick as we enter the room
"I need you guys to burst Gabe's bubble of depression" he shrugs as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.
"Come again?" I ask when I look around for help but see only blank faces.
"Look, Gabriel has been shoving his feelings about this entire thing aside and has begun to lash out at people so I need you guys to push and push until the dam breaks, that boy has a lot of crying to catch up on and a lot to talk about so when you go into the room work your magic and get him singing, talking, crying, sobbing like a baby, I really don't care which as long as he does something, okay?" he eyes us all and wiggles his fingers when none of us talk.
"Ooookay" Jeff leans in and answers as if Peter were a moron.
"Smartass" he mutters and pushes all out of the room and runs to hold Kurt's door open for us "My lords" he mock bows and laugh when I stick my tongue out at him "Real mature" he whispers and grins.
My grin and happy demeanor disappears as soon as my eyes land on the boy sitting on a chair next to the bed just staring at the wall ahead.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" asks Jeff, startling Gabe out of his stupor.
"Subtle Jeff, real subtle" whispers Nick before we turn our attention back to the teen.
"What?" he asks in complete puzzlement.
"He asked what the hell was wrong with you and I would really like to hear the answer as well, so please enlighten us all" David waves his hand in a 'the floor is all yours' kind of way.
"I have no idea what it is you want me to say" he says, his eyes showing that his words are total shit.
"Let me enlighten you, I want to know what the fuck is wrong with you, I want to know why you would leave your brother, he has done nothing but bend backwards for you and this is how you repay him?" demand Nick angrily
"Don't you dare-"
"Don't dare to what? To say the truth, look around you Gabriel, every single person in this room have stayed by Kurt's side, they cry and rant and scream but at the end of the day they come back, they come back and hold his hand, talk to him, believe in him, what about you Gabe? Where have you been when Kurt needs you?"
Silence. But you can see the shell cracking so I give a little push.
"Answer me!" I scream and that does it.
He's out of his seat and facing me with such anger, despair and fear in his eyes that I take a step back "You want to know what the fuck is wrong with me Blaine?" he laughs coldly "I'll tell you, almost two months ago my twin was taken by an unknown enemy and do you know what I told him mere hours before he was kidnapped, I told him a hated him'-the first tear falls-' I told my brother I hoped he died and that I hated him, that was the last thing he remembers of me, that's the thought he had in his head about me when he was being tortured nonstop for a month" he sobs and I start to go to him but he flinches away.
"Gabe" I try to sooth but he continues.
"Then, he's finally found and I'm so glad, he's safe and now I can finally apologize but the son of a bitch won't wake up!" he screams
"Enough!"I growl and advance, ignoring his attempts to pull away I grab his face with both my hands and make him face me "You're such an idiot Gabriel Hummel, your brother loves you and no matter what hurtful things you say he will always forgive you even when you don't apologize and the last thing he would have been thinking during…those times was the day you said those hurtful things, he held on to the good moments to make it through so stop thinking that way and stop hating him for it"
"Sing" Sam whispers from behind us.
"What?" he asks after pulling away from me.
"I've heard you listening to the same song over and over again so it must mean something in this situation so sing it" he smiles and moves to plug in an I-Home.
"You don't have my i-phone and there's no way I'm giving it to you" Gabe says childishly.
"There's no need for you to do it" says Cam and hands over a green covered i-phone smiling smugly "Just instruments, right? Yeah not that hard to find when it's on the most played list"
As soon as the music starts we know why he's been listening to the song.
"Let it out Gabe" I whisper and move away from him, leaving him alone next to Kurt.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even.
His best days will be some of my worst,
He finally met a man that's gonna put him first,
While I'm wide awake, he's no trouble sleeping,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.
My lips quirk up when I hear him changing the lyrics.
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz he's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.
The more he sings the more the lyrics begin to come true because Gabe is clutching at his chest and Kurt's hand while trying to keep it together long enough to finish singing.
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love
while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even)
You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.
I step forward and finish the song when he begins to full out sob and I realize that the song doesn't just relate to him but me as well.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break, no it don't
break, no it don't break even no.
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces,
(One still in love
while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces,
(Cuz when a heart breaks
no it don't break even)
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, It don't break even, no
We all give Gabe some time alone with his twin before joining him around Kurt's bed. After a couple of hours of talking, singing a couple of songs and eating, we begin to relax and do our homework when Kurt's leg twitches, all of us drop everything and rush forward, Sam hurrying to press the button that would call the nurses and doctors.
"Kurt?" I call, taking his hand and waiting for a response. "Kurt, can you hear me?"
I hold my breath just waiting and finally his eyes begin to flutter open.
"Come on baby, you can do it" I encourage.
His eyes open completely and he blinks a couple of times before panicking and choking on the breathing tube, Gabriel snatches his hand away when he moves to pull it out.
"Damn it, hold him still but mind the wounds" he orders "Doctor!" he yells just as the door burst open and doctors and nurses rush to the bed.
"Kurt!" Dr. Sloan screams "I need you to calm down an exhale when I begin to pull the tube out, okay"
"Exhale" he pulls the tube out and a nurse puts the oxygen mask on "Deep breathes Kurt" Sloan moves to continue checking him but as soon as he touches him, Kurt flinches away violently, causing stitches on his neck and chest to rip and start bleeding "Kurt'- he soothes and steps away, motioning for the nurses and doctors to do the same when he starts trembling-' it's okay, we won't hurt you but I need to make sure you're fine before we leave you alone" he steps forward slowly but Kurt still moves away as much as the needles and pain allow him. "Come on kid, you know me I've been your doctor since you were born, have I ever hurt you?" a shake of the head is all he receives "Will you let me check you over if they all left the room?" a nod is all it takes to make us all leave the room.
We pace in front of the door for what feels like days before the door finally opens and the doctor comes out, closing the door behind him and looking really tired.
"How is he?" I ask as soon as the door is closed.
"Physically or psychologically?" he asks tiredly and leans on the wall.
"Both"
"Physically he's as well as can be expected, I had to stitch him up again and it'll take a while for them to heal completely and be removed other than that the recuperation process is on its way but it's pretty darn long, especially if he doesn't want anyone to touch him; which brings me to the other matter, psychologically he's totally damaged, he flinches all the time and can't stand to be touched, I had an advantage of knowing him all my life so perhaps Gabriel and Burt will be able to touch him for short periods of time but that's as far as it'll go. I'll call Kim, she helped him after his mother died perhaps she can do it again" he sighs and walks away.
"What now?" I ask, not taking my eyes off the door that is keeping me from seeing my scared and broken boyfriend.
"Now, we give him space and wait until he can at least stand to have us in the same room without freaking out" says Sam and motions for us to follow him downstairs.
"But I need him now" I whisper before turning my back on the door and following the rest.