Summary: Burt Hummel is one of the most feared mob bosses, and in order to get to him his enemies are going after his twin sons but Burt will be damned before that happens, so he sends them to Dalton. Will it be enough?
Rating: T
Disclaimer: don't own glee or song
"The Hummel Clan"
Get out
(Kurt POV)
"Come on Kurt, you can do it" Gabe keeps saying over and over.
I try to ignore him and concentrate on keeping my hand steady enough to be able to hold a pen long enough to write my name. I just started physical therapy a couple of days ago, concentrating on my arms so that I can at least write when I go back to school but as I see my hand shaking uncontrollably and the pen slips from my fingers I know that the damage done to my arms is too much to even hope for that.
'I'm tired Gabe, I don't want to do this anymore' I sign to him as he sets the pen back in front of me.
"Oh come on Kurt, we've only been at it for a few hours and this takes time, the doctor said so but if you keep lazing around you'll never make progress" he says and pushes the pen towards me.
'Lazing around? I've been working none stop since I woke up, do you think that being in pain every single time you breathe or move is easy? Do you think that I like knowing I can't do anything without help?'
"Kurt" he whispers "I didn't mean it like that, it's just-"
'My boyfriend can't hold me without me flinching, I jump at every sudden noise or movement, and I can't sleep without the help of drugs and let's not forget that I won't even speak' I sign forcefully but careful enough to keep from hurting myself with the casts on my arms.
"Kurt, stop. None of that's your fault, those bastards are responsible, you just have to concentrate on getting better" he smiles and nudges the pen "So let's give it another try, huh?"
'They broke me Gabe, they really did and I'm not sure I can put myself back together, no matter how much I concentrate.' I signal Sam to pull me away from the table 'The psychologist said that it had to get worse before it gets better….. but what if I don't want it to get worse, I'm barely hanging on you can't expect me to brake myself so I can get better because I won't' I motion for Sam to get me out of there.
"Ready for your therapy session?" Sam asks, trying to cheer me up.
"I'm not going, just take me to my room" I sigh and ignore his attempts to get me to see Kim.
We get to my room and find Blaine and the guys chatting away. "Hey guys, what are you all doing here?" Sam asks as he pushes me towards my bed.
"Well we were going to hang with Gabe while Kurt was with Kim but instead of Gabe you came in, why aren't you with the psychologist?" asks Jeff
Before I could answer Gabe and dad came running into the room, looking very angry. "Kurt why the hell aren't you with Kim?" dad asks angrily.
'Because I didn't feel like going' I sign back and ask Sam to help me out of the chair.
"Get away from him Sam" my dad orders and looks me in the eye "You better have a better reason than that Kurt"
"He doesn't want to listen to Kim's instructions" Gabe says, every eye in the room going to him "Kurt told me that Kim said that she had to make him worse before he could get better and he isn't willing to let that happen"
"Kurt?" dad asks, the pity in his eyes makes me snap.
"Get out" I say angrily and blink rapidly to keep the tears at bay
"Kurt is he telling the truth?" Blaine asks sadly.
The walls that I built around me begin to crack as I look around the room. Pity, sadness, anger… looks that the people who did this to me showed me while breaking me.
I can feel my control slipping, i can feel myself starting to shake and the tears are getting harder to control. "Get out" I say again and release the safety pins on my legs so I can brace them on the floor.
"Kurt, please talk to me, talk to us, please; we just want to help" Blaine begs. I want to listen to him, to let go and ask for help but I know that once I do the dam will break and I can't let that happen so I take a shuddering breath and begin to push myself out of the chair. I manage to stand for a few seconds before crumbling to the floor in utter pain; Blaine rushes forward.
"Kurt! Are you okay? Stop moving" he says and moves to help me onto the bed but stops when he sees the gun in my hand "Kurt, what are you doing?" he asks shakily.
'Get out now' I sign through the pain.
"There's no way I'm leaving you here alone in your current state with a gun" dad says and starts to move forward but freezes immediately when I take the safety off. "Kurt, calm down and give me the gun" he says holding up his hands in surrender.
'Get out, I'm not going to do anything stupid but I need you to leave me alone'
"I kind of got what you just signed and I don't like the idea of leaving you alone either so how about you give me the gun and we'll all leave you alone for a while" Blaine offers but frowns when I shake my head "Okay, how about I stay here with you and the rest come back when you say it's okay"
I think about that for a couple of minutes before nodding.
"Alright, but you better call us the minute he says we can come back Blaine" Gabe glares before leaving the room with the rest of them, closing the door behind him.
"Baby, can you put the gun down now, your hand must be killing you and the cast must be getting scratchy from all the trembling your hand's doing" he points out and my arm drops almost immediately, Blaine taking the gun and putting it in the drawer. "Now, let's get you to bed and give you some pain meds"
When that's done he lays next to me and just hugs me close, not asking questions and not pushing me to talk, just holding me and giving me time to get myself together.
"I don't want to do it Blaine" I whisper, my voice hoarse from not being used for more than a week.
"But you have to babe, you can't let them win, you have to keep fighting to get better, to show them that although they broke you Kurt Hummel is stronger than that and can get back from that. Show them they didn't win Kurt, let yourself be happy again Kurt" he kisses my forehead" You deserve it"
"Can we go to sleep for a while" I ask and he moves us to a comfortable position and after half an hour of humming and singing softly his breathing evens out.
"What if I don't deserve it though" I whisper and let sleep overtake me.
Two hours later, everyone is back in the room, Kim included and sitting around my bed.
"So, Kurt I heard why you didn't come to our session today and-"
"Do you remember when mom died?" I whisper, cutting her off. The room goes silent because for some of them it was the first time they'd heard me speak since I woke up.
"I do, you were terrified and devastated" Kim says and smiles sadly "But we got you and Gabe through it"
"How about you? Do you remember?" I ask Gabe
"I remember what I saw but no one ever told me the whole story.
"It was just after our karate tournament…"
Flashback
Elizabeth Hummel and her sons were being driven back home after a tournament where the boys had both won medals, of course Burt Hummel couldn't attend but Elizabeth cheered enough for both of them. The kids were enthusiastically retelling each fight they had and giggling every so often, they were about five miles from their house when a car suddenly smashed into theirs. They all screamed and Elizabeth through herself over her sons to protect them from the impact and any flying glass.
She was dragged out of the car before the kids could regain consciousness and while she was being interrogated outside and some of the Hummel workers fought with the guys outside, the two little boys inside the upside down car began to wake up. The oldest was the first to hear their mother screaming and begging.
"Gabe, can you see your DVD player?" he asked his little brother
"Yeah it's right here" the other boy answered and passed him the device. The older twin pressed some buttons and soon 'Beauty and the Beast' was playing, he passed the device to his brother and grabbed the headphones. "Don't take these off until dad or one of the guys you know come get you okay" he said and placed the headphones over his brother and left the car to see what was happening to his mom.
"Mommy" he whispered and looked around, he saw his mother on the floor holding her side while a man towered over her and kept hitting her. The little boy ran to her and picked up one of the bodyguards discarded weapons "Get away from my mommy you mean mister" he yelled and pointed the gun.
The man laughed and charged the boy; the little boy shut his eyes and pulled the trigger twice. A thud was heard and Kurt opened his eyes to find the man on the floor with blood pooling around him.
"Kurt, Kurt baby look at me" Elizabeth said desperately when her little boy started hyperventilating. "Come here baby, come to mommy" she said once she had his attention.
He slowly crawled toward her and was immediately pulled to her chest "Where's Gabe sweetie?" she asked calmly, ignoring the pain in her side.
"He's in the car watching his favorite movie, I told him not to move until daddy or one of the guys got him" he whispered and buried himself on his mother's shirt.
"That was very smart honey" she kissed his forehead and looked to her right and saw Robert screaming into the phone "Robert! Get Gabe out of the car" she screamed and saw him rush into the car.
"Kurt, baby I need you to listen to me" she lifted his face so he could stare into her eyes and smiled when the watery blue eyes looked at her "Mommy is going to leave very soon and I need you to be very brave and strong for me. I need you to be a brave little boy and keep your dad and Gabe safe and happy, can you do that for me?" she asked tiredly.
"Yes mommy I can be brave and strong, but where are you going?" he asked innocently.
"I'm going to go to heaven with your grandma and grandpa" she said; her breathing getting labored.
"But why?" Kurt cried "Why are you leaving us?"
"Those men hurt me Kurt, they hurt me really bad and help is coming but I don't think I can hang on long enough for them to get here" she whispered and brushed the tears away from her son's face.
"But you can't leave me mommy, you can't leave us all alone, what will we do without you?" cried the little boy and hugged her tighter, just then noticing the wet feeling on his body and looked down to see his side covered in blood.
"Baby, look at me" she said bringing his attention back to her "What you'll do is live, you'll keep having fun with daddy and Gabe, you'll go to school, find a cute boy to be with and fall in love, you'll live a happy life" she smiled brightly, tears streaming down her face.
"But how will I be happy without you? You're my best friend mommy" he asked, tears streaming down his cheeks again "Who will I play tea with, who will bake with me?"
Tears began to flow faster from Elizabeth's eyes, knowing that she would miss out on so much "I'll be looking out for you from up there, just like grandma and grandpa are doing right now, I'll keep an eye on all off you, I promise" she swore, her vision getting fuzzy form blood loss. "Sweetie, will you sing with me?" she asked sadly, smiling down at her son through her tears.
Kurt took a shuddering breath and began to sing their song
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take this broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Elizabethheld her son closely and laid down, knowing that this song would be her last.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free
The little boy continued singing through his tears as his mother's heart stopped beating under his ear.
Blackbird fly, blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night
Blackbird fly, blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night
End Flashback
"I remember Robert carrying me out of the car and listening to you crying and singing to her. Then dad and the ambulance got there a few minutes later" Gabe said with the same far away expression on his face.
"It took a hell of a lot of effort to get you to let go so they could transport her body to the hospital" dad said, brushing away his tears when he thought no one was looking.
Everyone expected me to say something but I was lost in my head, I kept replaying my mother's death and what happened while I was captured over and over again, every wound, every insult, every punch, every pain, all of it and I couldn't help but feel all alone, hurt and tired, I wanted everything to go away so I reinforced my shields, I built walls strong enough to keep the pain away and before I knew it the pain was gone but only a shell of me was left, anger and the need to protect myself and those I love remained.
"Kurt?" Gabriel asked and I just blinked and looked at him. Something he saw made him gasp.
"Kurt, sweetie, look at me" Blaine said with a hint of panic and when I did he gasped as well.
"Guys? I think we should give Kurt some time to rest" Kim suggested and the way she said it made me understand that she wanted to say something without me present. They all got the hint and said goodbye and followed her out of the room.
"Kurt, I don't know what Kim is going to say to explain why your eyes look so dead and angry but believe me when I say that I will do everything I can to help you come back, I want my boyfriend back Kurt, I want the boy I fell in love with to hold me and kiss me and just be with me, I won't let you stay like this sweetheart" he promised and kissed my forehead before leaving the room as well.
(Blaine POV)
"What the hell just happened in there?" I ask the minute we're far enough away from Kurt's door.
"Yeah, I mean, I thought that by telling us that story he was making progress" Wes said confusedly.
"Yes and no" says Kim and continues to explain when she sees our confusion "By opening up he progressed by telling us he was hurting inside just like when his mother died, letting us understand that he's feeling sad, tired, lost and above all vulnerable but by doing so he also discovered just how vulnerable he felt and he knew that the men who did this made fun and relished that so he built walls, shields of a sort, to protect himself from that, to make sure no one ever does that again"
Silence reigns while we all digest the information "So what you're saying is that the story made him realize he was vulnerable and therefore built walls to protect himself, right?" I ask and continue when she nods "And what do these wall entail exactly?"
"From what I know of him, what my experiences have showed me and what I just saw in there, I would say silence, he's been using sign language since he woke up when he feels vulnerable and wants to distance himself from you but now we can expect total silence so I hope you've all been studying up on it because he's not going to talk until I've made some progress with him"
"Is that all?" Burt asks, looking relieved.
"No, he will probably flinch even more at any touch since he's back there for all he knows and everyone wants to hurt him and from past experiences with Kurt, he won't cry, he will keep every emotion bottled up and until we can break that bottle then he won't get better" she sighs and rubs her forehead "That's why I said things had to get worse before they could get better, we have to find that specific memory that is hurting him most, we have to find what they did to break him, that moment that made him break and when he breaks down and let's everything flow, that's when he'll start to heal"
"We're screwed" exclaims Jeff
"My thoughts exactly" murmurs Nick "That boy keeps everything to himself if he thinks he's protecting us and I bet he's thinking that right now"
"We'll do what we have to do, and if that means not touching him and learning sign language then so be it and we will push until he cracks, that boy in there isn't Kurt and we will do everything possible to get him back" I say angrily, pointing at Kurt's door "I want my boyfriend back, I want to see that loving boy who couldn't even hold a grudge against his bully, I want to see him smile and laugh, I want… I just want my Kurt back" I sob slightly.
"We'll get the real him back, Blaine" says David and pulls me into a hug.
"Just watch" says Wes and hugs me as well
"Yeah, everyone wants to see you be all cute and lovely again" Jeff says and tackles us all
"Rome wasn't built in a day and between all of us, we can help him come back" says Nick and joins the hug "Except Jeff, he's a moron and has no patience"
"Hey!" he yells and starts chasing his boyfriend down the hall.
I laugh and turn around when a hand lands on my shoulder and look up to see Burt standing behind me "Your friends are right Blaine, we'll get my boy back and then we'll kick those bastards asses for ever coming near him" he says with a scary glint in his eye. Whoever hurt Kurt will be very sorry when Burt Hummel finds them.