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Kagome's POV
It was like a dream. That's all I could remember from the past week while being in the feudal era. I only remembered it like that though, but the more I thought of it, it felt the same as being controlled by Tsubaki or Menomaru. I could see it but couldn't really fight against my body. It all started later that same night after our fight. Even though we slept far, far, apart we both seemed to wake up at the same time in the middle of the night and joined to sleep together. I only could feel my true love for him; I couldn't feel any anger towards him. It felt so peaceful, to not be mad at him for being a jerk, or jealous knowing that he was probably thinking about finding Kikyo.
I tried my hardest to stop everything I did. Doing my hardest to put space between the two of us, but my body never listened. I couldn't stop my actions or stop whatever I was saying. The only good thing that came from it was the fact that Inuyasha was the same as her. It was as if our hands were always glued together.
Inuyasha was acting the same as I was, he only spoke to me sweetly, and it was hard to know that was actually him. The way he looked at me made my heart stop and inside I felt embarrassed. It felt strange being the one he was gentle with. After all the times of having seen him go off with Kikyo, of holding in my true feelings it felt nice feeling loved in return.
That was probably why I was only able to doubt what Sango and Miroku said. Even though I knew it was a spell, I didn't want to believe it. For once I wanted to receive love from the one who I loved myself. It turned that I forgot about my own sense, and now, that lead me into the situation of being on my side of the well, in the pitch black of the night.
Kagome sat at the bottom of the well looking down at the soil that was being dampened by her tears. They were following on their own, even though it was probably caused by her inner feelings. What was he thinking? Was he disgusted? What was going to happen? She thought, bringing her hand up to her face.
Getting up she tied on his haori that she grabbed at last minute to cover herself although now that she was thinking about it, he may never get it back. Not anytime soon. Climbing up the rope ladder she placed over the side of the well, she climbed out and walked over to the door of the well house. Opening the door she stepped through and looked around the area of the shrine. All was quiet and peaceful although the noise of the city was heard as a low murmur.
Going inside she rushed in before anyone of her family could bother to ask anything of her as she ran up to her room. Is that all I'm going to do now? Only run away? Kagome flinched at the thought of her own accusations. Looking around her room, it felt like it had been ages since she was in here. She slid against the back of the door down to the floor.
Is it really running away? I'm sure he feels grateful that we have some separation, so that he can go see Kikyo without feeling the burden of me. She thought to herself. Kikyo, that time we crossed paths Inuyasha almost killed her because of that spell he was placed on with me. Tears slid down her cheek flowing more like a river. Maybe it's now for the best I stay away. I feel so humiliated…so dirty. At least I can sleep with a calm mind knowing those…actions earlier tonight weren't mine. Were they? I'm sure Inuyasha thinks they are. But I don't think I really wanted to actually have sex with him, I just wanted…his love.
"Kagome!" A knock occurred on the outside of her door. "Souta said he thought he heard you come home, and I just returned from a friend's house. Are you in there?"
"Yes Mama." She sighed.
"Are you hungry?"
"No…not really. I just want to take a hot bath." Kagome mumbled trying her best to make her voice sound as normal as possible.
"Alright then, I'll just run the bath water for you dear." Kagome smiled weakly even though her mother couldn't see.
Getting up, she passed the mirror on her dresser and couldn't resist looking through it. The girl on the other side looked oddly normal. Like she wasn't in a turmoil fit that was actually occurring inside of her, she looked exactly like a girl who was just in love and dressed in her boyfriend's haori. Her hair was a little on the wild side, but nothing a good wash and comb couldn't fix to make it seem like silk. Her eyes only matched with what Kagome thought they would look like. Hurt. Hurt badly and wanting to forget everything.
Grabbing a fresh pair of clothes, Kagome went across the hall to the bathroom where steam was being built up from the hot water that was filling the tub up quickly.
Dropping Inuyasha's haori on the floor tiles, she was bare again as she sat down in the tub and let the hot water sooth her muscles. She sunk down low into the water, having it reach up above her neck.
I don't need to go back in a while anyways, I haven't been home in awhile and tomorrow's Monday so I have school. I should take a while to get some work done, and to try and relax. She thought sinking under the water for a minute. Besides, maybe I need some personal time. I can't really have it in the feudal era. Her eyes bolted awake as she looked and her reflection in the water and felt the tears fill her eyes.
I'll never get over it if I cry at every moment I think of going back there. She reasoned wiping away her tears. Maybe I need some good sleep and surely school will get my mind off things…back there. Finishing up her bath, Kagome dried off with a fluffy towel her mom laid out and put on her pajamas. Walking back into her room, combing the last of her hair, she didn't realize she left her window open from the last time she was able to stay home and visit.
She always left her window open for Inuyasha. Feeling tears want to escape her eyes she shook her head furiously. Get a grip! She screamed in her head slamming the window closed. Inuyasha did run after me when I ran off, I wonder why he didn't go through the well.
A flash ran by in her mind about removing the beads she placed on Inuyasha. Those beads created the bond between me and Inuyasha. I wonder now that he is without those beads, and our connection doesn't exist, he doesn't have a reason to pass through the well. This is fantastic! I can stay as long as I want!
Grinning to herself she flopped on her bed and tried her best to get to sleep.
The ringing of the alarm clock oddly didn't knock Kagome out of her mood. Turning off the alarm she sat up in bed and stretched. Her back felt much better spending the night on a mattress instead of the ground. Even if it was without Inuyas-NO! She interrupted her thoughts and leapt from bed. Pulling out a fresh uniform, she threw off her pajamas and dressed for school adjusting the tie when she ran her hair brush through her hair before going downstairs.
"Morning!" She greeted with a large smile as she entered the kitchen and took a seat beside Souta for breakfast.
"Good morning." Her grandfather nodded only paying attention to his paper. "Wait Kagome! When did you get home?"
"Last night." She said simply taking a bite of her omelet.
"Oh," Was all he said returning back to reading his paper.
"How long are you going to be here?" Souta asked causing Kagome to freeze up. There was translation to what Souta was asking which meant he was wondering when he was going to see Inuyasha again.
"Why do you want to know?" Kagome asked acting a bit snobbish to her younger brother.
"I like being an only child?" Kagome shot him a glare as he chuckled and rose from the table having finished his breakfast and ran off.
"It would be nice though, knowing how long we can spend time with you Kagome." Her mother said sliding in the seat across from her own daughter with her own breakfast.
"A while." Kagome said sadly looking down at her eggs. "I'm going to stay for as long as I want." She felt a small sting in her heart saying that and when she looked down at her omelet; she remembered the time she made her own special omelet for Inuyasha. The tears were beginning to want to return, and that she couldn't allow.
"I'm going to leave early and try to get my make-up work." She excused, no longer having an appetite as she grabbed the sack of lunch her mother already packed and headed towards the front door. Slipping into her shoes and putting her backpack on Kagome went off to school.
If Inuyasha can't come get me, then whose even to say I have to go back. Kikyo could finish the journey, I have no need to go back there.
Running to school, she was one of the first few there.
"Is that Higurashi?" Her Sensei said unbelievably as he was beginning to clean the boards.
"Yeah, I'm feeling much better."
"Last I heard you had bronchitis again and were hospitalized."
Thanks a lot Grandpa. Kagome's eye twitched furiously as she walked over to her seat. Opening her math book, she read over most of the steps to refresh her memory so she could understand the notes she got when she asked for copies of her friends' notes.
"Kagome?" Looking up, she saw Ayumi was walking over to her. "I don't believe it, how are you feeling?"
"Much better now…I guess." Kagome smiled. "I think I'll be able to come in much more often."
"Great! You came just in time for the test tomorrow." Ayumi cheered, being the nerd.
"Did I hear you say Kagome was here?" The voice of Eri asked peeking her head in the classroom and smiled. "Hey it is Kagome." She said waving Yuka over as they both came into the room.
"You sure you're healthy enough to be in school?" Yuka asked walking up to stand by Ayumi and she crossed her arms across her chest.
"Yeah, when we came to your house to visit once, your family said you were currently in the hospital." Eri added.
"Yeah…my treatment was going well so they thought it would be fine if I went back to my life just as long as I took my medicine." I'm getting just as bad as Grandpa. "Is it true we have a test?"
"Tomorrow, yes unfortunately." Eri nodded glumly.
"Then…would it be too much to ask if after school I made copies of your notes?" Eri and Yuka exchanged glances.
"That's why we went to visit you." Yuka smiled friendlily.
"We thought we should help out and be nice to you since you were being hospitalized we made copies of our notes and highlighted the main parts that we were told would be on the test." Eri finished taking off her own backpack and pulled out a packet of papers that she placed on Kagome's desk.
"You guys are the best." Kagome said looking up at her friends with thankful eyes.
"You are our friend; we're just upset we don't get to see you that much." Ayumi smiled when she looked at the clock. "Oh! I better get to my class! See you after school!" She waved running off.
They have a point. My friends in the feudal era aren't my only friends. I never spend time with my friends and family, whenever I come home I'm too busy making up my homework and studying to spend time with them, and once I might get caught up in my school work, Inuyasha comes back to take me home. Kagome thought as class began and they were reviewing for the test. I hate having a double life like this.
"So how's your boyfriend Kagome?" Ayumi asked popping a french fry in her mouth. The four school girls were gathered at their usual after school spot, WacDonald's after a long day. Both Eri and Yuka grew disgusted faces but instead of coming up with a change of their most interested subject, they just took to eating their food.
Kagome's jaw fell open, although nothing came out as she clamped her mouth shut and looked down at her soda. She didn't order any food and didn't even eat much of her lunch her appetite was so spoiled.
"Oh? Is he two timing again?" Yuka quipped setting down her burger.
"No."
"Being a jerk again?" Eri asked.
"No."
"Did you guys brake up?" Yuka asked again.
"Not technically." Kagome mumbled.
"Then what happened?" Ayumi asked in a sympathetic and gentle voice. Kagome's face turned dark red, not wanting to tell this to her friends.
"Noooooooooooo!" Eri gasped deeply.
"What?" The other two girls asked in unison. Eri leaned in closer to Kagome's face.
"You guys…did it." The other two gasped spinning their heads to Kagome who met none of their gazes.
"Not technically."
"Oh my god! You did!" Yuka shouted, causing a few head turns.
"Not so loud!" Kagome hissed. "And we just got very close; I stopped before we did, end of story." She huffed sipping from her drink.
"So you're embarrassed from it?" Eri asked.
"What do you think?"
"Oooooooo," Yuka hissed. "What happened after you stopped yourselves?"
"I ran off." Kagome muttered. "And now I don't know if I can ever face him again."
"Why did you stop him?" Eri asked curiously, resting her chin in her palm.
"I don't know, maybe because I don't want to have sex."
"You didn't want to have sex with him?" Yuka asked raising a brow.
"Nooo, I love him, but having sex would have been a mistake both of us would have made. And he's in love with someone else." Kagome said sadly.
"You see!" Yuka said slamming her fist on the table. "That's why there is no good coming from loving a two-timer."
"But if he wanted to have sex, wouldn't that mean he has some feelings for you?" Ayumi asked innocently that the other two shot her an annoyed look.
"Or he just wanted to get laid." Eri added bitterly.
"It wasn't him though." Kagome murmured. "We were under a…influence."
The three gasped and leaned in closer to Kagome. "Does that mean you've been drinking to?!" Kagome slammed her head on the table in frustration.
After leaving the food joint, they walked together until they parted ways for Kagome to head back to the shrine and the others to head to their homes in the city.
Maybe Eri and Yuka are right. She thought walking home with the sun setting off in the distance creating more shadows. Being in love with a two-timer is trouble and I don't want to make him chose. I want to put off our departure for as long as I can. I wouldn't have to worry about that if I went back, would I?
She was already at the steps of the shrine as she walked up them and came to a view of the shrine and could see the vision of the past. The green grass and the clear sky that was seen in between the tops of the trees. The Goshinboku standing taller than them all. Kagome walked up by the sacred tree and looked up at it.
That time with Menomaru, Inuyasha and I transcended time. We must have a pretty strong bond in order to do that. She brushed her hand along the scar of the tree gently, knowing five hundred and fifty years ago Kikyo pinned Inuyasha to this tree, and only five hundred years ago, she released him from it. Her bangshid over her eyes as she stepped away from it. It's not me he wants though. If he truly ever wanted me, he would have told me. Instead he told Kikyo. Kikyo is the one he chose and I almost got in the way of his choice because of my feelings. It would truly be better for everyone if I never returned. Miroku and Sango will be okay and I'm sure they'll take care of Shippo.
When she looked up to the tree she saw Inuyasha's peaceful face from the time she first saw him. I'm really in love with him, but he's not in love with me. Inuyasha doesn't have the beads of subjugation, now, he can be free of the burden of me.
There was a low rumble in the earth as Kagome's eyes grew curiously at the Earth shaking beneath her.
"Wh…what's going on?" She asked herself steadying herself by holding onto the Goshinboku and she looked up to the darkening sky. The aura around her was growing darker and corrupt as a dangerous wind blew by her violently.
Something bad is going on.
This chapter practically killed me. It took me hours in order to get this out I only at first had about 600 words so you're welcome for getting over my writer's block and getting this chapter out. So not only did I end it on another cliffy, but next chapter you won't be able to find out what's going on in Kagome's time because I want to get Inuyasha's view of the curse out. T.T that's going to be painfully hard but I'll come up with something. I was thinking of everyone making fun of him or something. Well please give me lots of beautiful reviews!