Chapter 16

Maureen knocked gently on the bedroom door before she pushed it open and looked into the room. Olivia was stood by the bed in front of her bag and she was packing her clothes.

"Liv what you doin?" she asked her.

"I'm going back to the city…I can't, I can't do this" she said tears on her cheeks. "I can't be the one who could stop Elliot getting custody of Eli, she will use it, me, against him, and I can't let that happen"

"Liv stop it, you can't just go"

"I'm sorry Maureen, I don't have a choice"

"You and dad have done nothing wrong, he has never been unfaithful, you two never done anything whilst he was married, Please Liv don't go don't do this to him"

"I don't have a choice, if he doesn't get Eli cause of me he would never forgive me, your Mother thinks its cause of me you kids hate her"

"You can't honestly believe that" said Maureen grabbing Olivia's arm and stopping her from packing. Olivia turned and looked at her. "We hate what she done to Dad you have nothing to do with our feelings for her"

"I saw the look on your Dads face when he told me Eli wasn't his and he had lost him…I can't go through that again"

"But he needs you, he has needed you for the last 10 years you can't just turn your back him"

"He is strong, he will be pissed for a while but he will get over it and move on"

"No!" she shouted "He isn't as strong as you think, you are the one that's makes him that way" Olivia pulled away from her grip and carried on throwing bags into her bag.

"What's going on?" asked Lizzy as her and Kat came into the room.

"Why are you packing Livvy?" asked Kat. "You're not leaving cause of what that Bitch said are you?"

"Don't talk about your mother like that" said Olivia zipping up her bag. "I need to go it's for the best" she said grabbing her bag and heading out the door.

"I'm getting dad" said Lizzy running out the room.

"I thought you were different" said Kat blocking her way out the room.

"Kat move out the way please"

"No!"

Olivia pushed her way past Kat. "That's it Olivia, run away, just like you always do. Dad told us that's what you do best."

Olivia stopped and turned around and glared at Kat "What!" she snapped.

Kat grinned knowing she had hit a nerve with Olivia; hopefully it was enough to slow her down till Lizzy told Her Dad what was happening.

"Dad came home drunk one night, when we were staying at his. He told me how you had left because things got tough and you couldn't handle it, is that what you're going to do now….run and not tell him where you've gone" she said "he was a mess when you left last time, but you wouldn't know that would you cause you never called him"

"You have no idea why I left" she said starting to get angry. "I had no choice, we were getting too close, we couldn't do our jobs, and it was for the best for both of us"

"No Liv it was for the best for you cause you can't handle it when things get tough" said Maureen "If you can't handle a bit of name calling from my dad's Ex-wife then you shouldn't have started fucking him!" she yelled at her "I thought you were tougher than that"

Olivia looked at her "I'm sorry" she said tears falling down her face "I can't be the one to blame for pulling a family apart….. I need to go"

"Please Liv I'm begging you don't do this it will break his heart, he can't handle any more heart break, don't do this to him" begged Kat.

Olivia shook her head and walked out the door. "I'm so sorry"

"LIV!" shouted Elliot gasping for breath, running into the room and seeing only his daughters stood there "Where is she"

"I'm sorry Dad we tried to stop her" said Maureen crying.

"Fuck" he swore as he ran out. She can't be doing this he thought, she can't be giving up on this already.

Olivia climbed into the car looking for the keys in her bag her sight blurred by the tears. Finally finding them she put them in the ignition and started the car. She tried to calm her breathing as she wiped away the tears. She put the car into reverse and pulled the car back, she turned the wheel putting it into a forward gear her hands shaking on the gear stick. She jumped when she heard a bang on the front of the car.

"Liv stop the fucking car" Elliot shouted standing in front of it.

"El please" she begged him "just let me go it's for the best"

He shook his head tears running down his face "I can't let you go Liv, please don't do this to me, to us, I need you"

"No Elliot you need your kids and as long as I'm in your life she will make sure that doesn't happen"

"You don't know that, Liv just get out the car so we can talk"

Olivia sat in the car and looked at Elliot then to his four kids stood to the side the three girls crying.

"I love you Liv" he pleaded with her, she dropped her head tears fell and she heard Elliot knock on the window by the side of her. She looked up Elliot was stood there "Turn off the car Liv! He said softly.

"I'm sorry" she said as she slammed her foot on the gas and pulled away fighting to see through the tears, as she looked in the rear view, her heart breaking, as she saw Maureen hug Elliot.

A few miles down the road she pulled over and climbed out the car, she was shaking and still crying. She heard a message come through on her phone, she looked it was from Dickie.

Mom may have torn our family part with her lies, but you leaving is tearing our hearts apart. We came to you that night cause you have always been there for us Livvy. You leaving means Mom has won again, she is taking away everything Dad loves, Eli and now you. It's not only dads heart your breaking its ours as well, we all need you please come home, luv you Dickie xxxx

Olivia sobbed as she read the message; she reached into the car and took out a bottle of water taking a drink and breathing deeply trying to ease the pain in her chest. She climbed back in the car and drove.

Elliot's Mom walked into the kitchen and saw Kat and Lizzy crying. "What's happened?" she asked "has your Dad gone back to the city his car has gone?"

Kat shook her head "No Liv has left us" she cried "Mom phoned and started screaming on the phone calling Liv awful names and blaming her, Liv heard everything. She now thinks she is to blame for everything and thinks Dad will lose all of us if she stays with him"

"I never thought I would say this but right now I hate my mom" said Lizzy.

"Where's your father?"

"Down on the beach, he wanted to be alone" said Kat. His Mom walked out and saw her son down by the ocean. She walked towards him and stood by his side taking hold of his hand, she heard him wince and pull his hand slightly. She looked down and seen the bloody knuckles. Looking at his tears soaked face she asked him.

"What did you break?"

"The mirror in the bathroom and the cabinet…..Sorry"

She nodded "Give her time Elliot, she will come back, she loves you"

He let out a short laugh "if she loved me she wouldn't have gone, maybe she was looking for an excuse" he sighed. "Maybe she realised helping to raise five kids that aren't yours with a man who is so fucking stupid he didn't even know he was divorced and was raising a kid that wasn't his, just wasn't for her"

"No, she loves you and will be back"

Elliot looked down at her "Mom" he said "I have never needed someone as much as I need her. I can't think of my life without her, she is my soul mate. I always knew something wasn't right with Kathy I never felt complete with her, but with Liv, when I'm with her I'm complete. She gets me like no one else does, I don't think I can do this without her, the thought of never being with her again, of going to bed alone and waking up without her, her touch, her smell, Shit Mom how do I ….. I can't do it, my heart is breaking. How do I live without her?"

"You don't" said a voice behind him, he spun round and looked at Olivia.

"We do it together because I can't be without you either, I need you and your kids because without all of you I'm not complete…..I'm so sorry baby, I just panicked" she said as he stepped towards and cupped her face in his hands.

"If you ever try and leave me again I swear to god Benson I will shoot you" he said as his lips met her "I love you so much"

"I know you do and I love you, I can't believe I was so stupid" she said wrapping her arms around him. "God I don't deserve you or your kids"

"Hey I guess were all a little fucked up at the moment, we all need time to adjust, it will take time. But we will do it together…..Deal"

"Deal" she said holding him tight "Can I make it up to you" she whispered "We have never had make up sex yet"

"Sounds good" he said his lips on hers.

"I will take the kids out for the night" said his Mom walking away back up to the house smiling.

Just a short chapter all smut in the next on so I'm sorry to all you folks reading the non smut chapters you may have a bit longer before you get another chapter