Title: In Your Eyes

Authors: Raven Shadowrose/BeethovenRIP

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: A joint FanFic by Raven Shadowrose and BeethovenRIP based on Dixie and Jeff's conversation at the end of Series 26 Episode 36. We have rated it M as future chapters will contain adult themes. Dixie wants to be a mother and Jeff is all too willing to oblige, but, does their conversation in the ED have an unexpected effect on their relationship?

Disclaimer: The authors do not know or own any characters or content from Casualty, any original characters and the story are ours and we do not give permission for anyone to use the story or reproduce it.

Author's Note: Thank you to chan. nelson4444 and olivia. c. king1 for your reviews, we really appreciate them and hope you enjoy this chapter.

Chapter Six.

Dixie drove herself and Jeff home after they had got changed, every so often she would catch a glimpse of the rings now sat on her left hand. It was strange to think that this time twenty-four hours ago she had been sat in the pub with Jeff and everything had been normal. Now, everything had changed. 'What am I now?' She thought to herself. She decided not to analyse herself too much. She loved Jeff and maybe that was all that mattered, maybe that was all she needed to know about this whole situation.

There was a part of her that was afraid, what if by entering into a relationship with Jeff she spoiled everything that they had together? What if she decided that it wasn't working and then he hated her forever after that? What if something happened and they ended up divorcing? She didn't want to lose Jeff, he meant a lot to her and the thought of losing him filled her with fear. Dixie sighed, she was feeling quite jittery and tense, maybe she was just being silly and everything would be fine.

Jeff got out of the car when Dixie pulled up at the house, he opened the door and was greeted by Little Abs. 'All right mate, let's go for a walk.' He took the lead down from the hook and clipped onto Little Abs' collar. 'Hey Dix, do you fancy taking the dog for a walk with me?'

'Okay, why not.' Jeff knew that Dixie was thinking, whenever she thought about something that was troubling her she would always go very quiet.

'Come on Mrs Collier.' Jeff held his arm out to Dixie and she slipped hers through it. He locked the front door and they slowly walked down the street towards the open field at the end.

Dixie held onto Jeff's arm as they walked down the street, it was quite nice to feel as if she belonged to someone. She liked the feeling of being near Jeff, he was warm, she moved closer to him so she could feel his warmth better. She let go of Jeff to let Little Abs off the lead and then she took his arm again. Dixie smiled a Little Abs ran off the minute he was free, running up and down the field. 'Dix, you seem preoccupied, are you all right?'

'Yeah, I'm fine, honest.'

'Dixie, you only say honest when something is bothering you.'

'Really, I'm all right.'

'Talk to me.'

'This is just all new to me, that's all.'

'Are you sure?'

'Yes, don't worry.'

'I'm not worrying, you are.'

'Maybe a little bit.'

'What about?' Dixie stayed silent, she wasn't sure what to tell him. 'Dixie, be honest with me.'

'I don't know where to start, you're the first man I've ever had a relationship with. I'm afraid that something will go wrong and we'll end up hating each other.'

'I could never hate you Dixie, you're my best friend. Come here.' Dixie let herself be drawn into Jeff's arms, she was reminded once again how warm he was, she breathed in his familiar scent and let it calm her.

Jeff held Dixie in his arms, he couldn't imagine himself hating her, she was easily the best thing in his life apart from the kids and the idea of hating Dixie felt so unnatural to him. He was quite happy holding her like this, she was a bit smaller than him, just the right height to hold her close and let his head sit softly on top of hers. Jeff closed his eyes, something about this moment felt so right, he didn't want it to end. He felt Dixie relax, some of the tension she was holding inside her was being released and he was glad about that, he hated that she was feeling all stressed. 'Dixie, come on princess, it is getting dark.'

'So it is.' Dixie called Little Abs over and Jeff put the lead back on.

'I think it is time for something to eat.'

'You always think it is time for something to eat Jeff.'

'I do not, it is tea time, that is why I am thinking about food.'

'What do you think about all the other times then?'

'I'm not sure I can tell you that.'

'Dirty boy.'

'I am a man Dixie, it is only natural to think about it.'

'Right, I hope you cleared the history on your computer.' Jeff looked quite stunned and then he laughed, Dixie really had surprised him with that comment. He took her arm again and they walked home together, it was nice to have Dixie this close to him.

Dixie took off her coat as she went into the house, the comment about Jeff's computer had just slipped out, she hadn't meant to say it. She was glad that he had laughed and hadn't been offended by it. She went into the kitchen and started looking for something to eat, she wasn't really sure what she wanted. 'Jeff come in here a minute love.'

'What is it Dix?'

'What do you want to eat?'

'Let me have a look.' Dixie stood back and let Jeff look in the freezer. 'There's that spicy chicken that we bought last week.'

'Good idea, we'll put the potato wedges in with it too.' Dixie pulled the food out of the freezer, she lit the oven and let it heat before putting the food in and turning the timer on. She put the plates and the cutlery they would need on the side and went into the lounge and sat next to Jeff.

Jeff moved over so Dixie could curl her legs up on the sofa as she liked to do. 'What are you watching?'

'Nothing, just flicking.'

'You don't flick Jeff, what's wrong?'

'Dixie, do you think that you might be pregnant?'

'I don't know, maybe.'

'You're not on the pill and we didn't use any protection.'

'I know, if I am we will deal with it when we find out.'

'A lot of things would change if you are.'

'Yeah, maybe not, it was only once.'

'Once is all it takes.'

'I know.'

'We have to think about what we're going to do now.'

'What do you mean?'

'We made love Dixie, that isn't going to go away. I quite enjoyed it.'

'I know that it won't, I enjoyed it too.'

'Do you want to try again?'

'I would like to.'

'There's a but, isn't there?'

'Being with you while I'm sober is different to being with you while I'm half drunk..'

'I see what you mean, it doesn't have to be tonight, we can wait for a while until we try again.'

'Thanks Jeff, I think we should be properly prepared before we do anything again. I think we should use protection for a little while until we are sure that this is going to work.'

'I understand.'

'Jeff, having a child shouldn't happen because we got carried away. I'm saying that I hope I'm not pregnant because I want any baby that I have with you to be conceived in better circumstances. I want it to happen because we love each other.'

'I do too.' Jeff hugged Dixie, he was quite hopeful that she loved him, even if it was only a little bit right now.

Dixie went into the kitchen and put the food onto the plates, it smelled wonderful, she sneakily picked up a piece of chicken and popped it into her mouth. 'I saw that.' Dixie saw Jeff stood in the doorway.

'It was only a little bit, besides it was left over.'

'Yeah right, you always get the extra piece.'

'I cooked it, therefore I deserve it.'

'You didn't cook it, the oven did.' Dixie laughed and passed one of the plates to Jeff.

'I am sure the oven is very clever for it to cook things by itself. If you had to live on your own you would starve.'

'It is just as well I have you to cook for me and wash my clothes.'

'Don't push your luck Jeff, I'll make you work with Norman for a month.'

'You wouldn't dare, you'd miss me too much.'

'As if, it would be nice and peaceful for once.'

'Are you saying I'm too loud?'

'Yes.'

'You can talk, everyone can hear you coming before you even get near the station.'

'They can't.'

'Can too.' Dixie laughed again, she really liked their friendly arguing, it made her smile. Dixie reached down and gave Little Abs her last bit of chicken and then scratched his head. 'Seeing as I cooked you can put everything in the dishwasher.'

'That's unfair.'

'How is it?'

'I'm injured.'

'Dylan said you're fine, besides your head is hard as a rock.'

'It is not.' Dixie chuckled at the indignant look on Jeff's face and then smiled as he put the plates in the dishwasher. Jeff went to walk away and she looked pointedly at Jeff and then at the dishwasher. 'What?'

'Turn it on. It is just as well I am here or we'd never have any clean plates.' Jeff switched the dishwasher on and Dixie quietly chuckled, Jeff really could be very forgetful at times.

Jeff let Dixie curl up next to him on the sofa, she seemed to want to cuddle so he put his arm around her and just held her. He gently tilted her head up and kissed her, just a little push, he didn't want to demand too much of her. Once he was certain that Dixie was comfortable with him kissing her, he licked at her lips to try and get her to open them. Jeff was about to give up when Dixie's mouth opened a little bit. He slowly coaxed her lips apart fully and caressed Dixie's tongue with his own. He heard Dixie sigh into his mouth and he pulled back, pressing smaller kisses to her lips. Jeff kissed Dixie one last time an just looked at her, she still had her eyes closed and her lips were parted. Her skin was flushed and she looked as if she had enjoyed their kiss. 'Dixie,' he said quietly and she opened her eyes. He smiled at her and kissed her forehead.

'I had no idea that kissing a man could feel like that.' Dixie spoke so quietly that Jeff just about heard what she said.

'Come here princess.' Jeff opened his arms and Dixie cuddled into him, he felt her free arm make its way across his body and rest at his waist. Jeff held Dixie close and stroked her hair, he loved how long it was getting.

Dixie had many thoughts running through her mind, she was confused, Jeff kissing her had made her heart flutter, she had readily submitted to him. Her heart had told her that she was enjoying it and her head was rapidly beginning to agree with it. It was nice to just cuddle up with Jeff like this, she yawned, the heat from Jeff's body was beginning to make her feel sleepy. 'Dixie, it is time that you went to bed, you're tired.'

'I suppose I am.'

'Do you want to share with me?' Dixie looked at Jeff, she wondered what he meant. Did he mean share as in a sleep or share as in make love again? 'No pressure, I just want to be with you.' Dixie smiled, it would be nice to be held for once.

'Okay, I'm going to go to my room, just knock when you're ready to come in.'

'No problem princess.' Dixie got up and went upstairs, she quickly got undressed and into her pyjamas, she cleaned her teeth and washed her face in the bathroom and then went into her own room. Dixie brushed her hair out and then got into bed, she lay on her side of the bed and waited for Jeff to knock on her door.

Jeff went into his own room and got changed, normally he would wear only his boxers to bed but seeing as he was going to be sharing with Dixie he put a t-shirt on too. He went to Dixie's room and knocked on the door. 'Come in.' Jeff pushed open the door and found Dixie lying on her side in her bed. 'Turn out the light please Jeff.' He did as she asked and then got into the bed, he spent a few minutes looking at her in the dark and then he cuddled up to her. He lightly traced the edge of her arm and then interlocked his fingers with Dixie's. 'Goodnight Dixie.' He waited for a few moments for her to answer but the deep breathing gave it away, she was already asleep. Jeff kissed Dixie's forehead and moved so that he was lying curled around her, she was lovely and warm. Jeff closed his eyes and smiled, it was nice to have someone to cuddle up to again.