Title: In Your Eyes

Authors: Raven Shadowrose/BeethovenRIP

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: A joint FanFic by Raven Shadowrose and BeethovenRIP based on Dixie and Jeff's conversation at the end of Series 26 Episode 36. We have rated it M as future chapters will contain adult themes. Dixie wants to be a mother and Jeff is all too willing to oblige, but, does their conversation in the ED have an unexpected effect on their relationship?

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Chapter Seven.

Jeff woke up slowly the next morning, his stomach and head hurt a little as he began to move, but, he knew they would both settle down after a few painkillers. In a way he was glad they had the day off, the last thing he wanted was to be rushing around on shouts not feeling 100%, that is when mistakes were made. The last thing he wanted to be doing right now was making mistakes, mistakes led to lives being compromised and a telling off from Dixie. He wanted to keep her sweet at the moment as they started their relationship; no obstacles were going to get in their way. He wouldn't let them.

He reshuffled himself in the bed and leant over to his right side expecting to feel Dixie there, but, all he felt was an empty space. He let his hand run up and down the bed where Dixie would have slept. The sheets were still warm and he felt like he could still feel her. Jeff wondered where Dixie could have gone, but, he knew she wouldn't have gone far, this was her bedroom; so, she was bound to come back sooner rather than later.

Jeff used this time to think over the events of the last two days, they truly had been eventful for him. One minute, him and Dixie were just as they always were, the next, he was making love to her and now they had spent the night in the same bed just being close. A warm squishy feeling ran through his body as he thought over the kiss they shared last night on the sofa, he hadn't expected Dixie to allow his tongue into her mouth so willingly, but she did. He found comfort in the fact that she didn't reject him or push him away. Jeff was beginning to realise that Dixie was enjoying the time they were spending together and the closeness they were sharing. The fact that she had said she would like to make love again was something he thought he would never hear her say.

Jeff had it all planned out in his head how he was going to make the next time they made love special. He had had many a year thinking about what it would be like to make love to Dixie. He had played it out over and over again in his head at night and now he had that opportunity. He had spent yesterday thinking about what they had done. He was still ashamed of the fact that he had taken her up against a wall and was determined to make the next time magical. Jeff thought over how he was going to do it feeling himself becoming aroused at the very thought of seeing and making love to Dixie again. He knew she wasn't ready to do it yet and he was fine with that. It gave him a little longer to think about if they would use her bed or his along with the fact that he needed to buy protection.

Jeff had always hated using condoms, he felt he never really enjoyed sex while he was wearing one, but, if it made Dixie happier, he would do it. Maybe, he could persuade her to go on the pill then he wouldn't have to worry. Jeff concluded that that would be a conversation for a few months' time, not right away. He was dragged from his thoughts as he heard Dixie's footsteps coming up the stairs, he needed to shake the thought of making love to her quickly, and he didn't want to scare her with the erection that was slowly starting to form. He rearranged the duvet and lay on his side as Dixie entered the room holding two mugs of tea. 'Morning Jeff'
'Good morning Princess, how did you sleep?' Dixie handed him his mug and took hers around to the other side of the bed taking a sip as she sat down.
'I slept really well thanks, you?'
'Like a baby.'
'I wouldn't go that far Jeffrey.' Dixie scoffed as she took another sip of tea placing the mug down on the bedside cabinet lying back on the bed next to Jeff.

Jeff watched on as Dixie lay on her back on her side of the bed, she looked like she had slept well and he also felt she looked a little contented. Jeff took a few swallows from his own mug before placing it on the floor beside the bed. He lay back down moving closer to Dixie. 'You all right Dix?'
'Yeah, was just thinking that's all.'
'Oh, that isn't good, do you remember what happened last time you started to think?'
Dixie turned her head to face Jeff, 'That won't be happening this morning Mr Collier so get that idea out of your mucky little head straight away.' Jeff pouted at Dixie before resting his head back onto the pillow.
'So what is the plan for today then Princess?' Jeff heard Dixie sigh before she answered.
'Well, we have housework to get done, that pile of washing isn't just going to disappear, also, we need to go to Tesco and get some bits in, after that, I haven't really thought of anything.'
'Fair enough.' Jeff replied while still looking at his wife. He felt like a schoolboy all over again, he had someone who he loved deeply lying next to him and he simply just couldn't believe that she had consented to being his wife for real and they were now in a relationship. The warm squishy feeling started to rear its head again and Jeff let out a small giggle. 'What was that?' Dixie asked a little shocked at Jeff's behaviour. 'Nothing.'
'Jeffrey, what are you thinking of?'
'I am just thinking how lucky I am to have you. How lucky I am that you are my wife and that we are together. You make me feel complete Mrs Collier.' Jeff blushed slightly at his own words, even he had to admit that they sounded slightly naff but Dixie seemed to like them.

He watched a small smile creep across her face as his words sunk in, Jeff couldn't help himself, he needed to feel her lips once more, and he wanted to kiss her again. Slowly he leant in pressing his lips against hers just giving her a small soft kiss before he pulled away, Dixie looked up into his eyes and tilted her head slightly on the pillow.
'Now Mr Collier, I know you can do better than that.'

'Are you sure Dixie?' Jeff was unsure what she wanted him to do; he had a feeling she wanted a repeat performance of last night's kiss, but wanted her to give the command so he knew that was what she really wanted. He didn't need to wait long for Dixie to reply.
'Jeff, kiss me again how you did last night.'
'With pleasure princess.' Jeff leant in again capturing her lips in his own mouth encouraging and coaxing her to part her lips once more so he could slide his tongue in. Dixie willingly opened her mouth allowing Jeff's tongue in once more, she relished the feeling of him moving around in her own mouth. She thought about sliding her own tongue into his mouth but didn't feel confident enough to do that yet. She felt Jeff's hand wander up her body and settle on her waist as he continued to kiss her. Dixie still couldn't believe she was kissing a man, not just any man, but her best friend. She still couldn't believe how great it felt to her. She felt herself becoming incredibly turned on as Jeff continued to dance his tongue around in her mouth, she didn't want the kiss to end. Jeff pulled away and looked again at Dixie who once more looked flushed with closed eyes. He knew she had enjoyed it and so had he. 'Dix?'
'Umm.'
'I am just going to go and have a shower.'
'Okay.' Dixie still had her eyes closed; Jeff felt warmly satisfied that he had had that much of an impact on her. Slowly, he got out of bed and moved quickly out of the room again hiding his arousal from Dixie making his way across the landing and into the bathroom.

They both enjoyed spending the day together even though they were doing mundane things. Jeff was making an extra special effort to help Dixie with the housework, usually he would just leave her to it and occasionally do the hovering, but, today he wanted to be more helpful. He thought that if he helped, they would get it done quicker and therefore would have more time to spend with each other. Jeff liked spending his days with Dixie; he wouldn't have it any other way. He was well aware that she knew this even though she never said it. Jeff often thought about how different their lives would have been if they had never met, but, he was glad that was never going to become a reality. They were going to always be together, no matter what.

The morning seemed to go relatively quickly, they had put some washing out on the line to dry while they went shopping and had cleaned the house. Dixie had tried several times to get Jeff to sit down as his stomach was still hurting, but he had refused saying he was all right. They were now walking around the aisles of Tesco buying their groceries for the week. Jeff always looked positively horrified at what Dixie bought each week, he swore they didn't eat all of those things in the trolley. 'No bloody way Dix, put that back.' Jeff said as he watched Dixie pick up the latest Weightwatchers magazine and flick through to the seven day menu planner.
'Jeff I was only looking.'
'Put it back, you do not need to buy it.'
'I was only getting ideas for dinners and that.' Jeff scowled at his wife who sheepishly returned the magazine to the stand before walking off in the direction of the fruit and veg. He knew she was self-conscious about her size, but to him she was perfect. He made a mental note to tell her that at least once every day. He would hate for her to diet and lose weight, he loved her the way she was, to him, she was perfect.
Jeff continued to watch as Dixie placed a variety of fruit and vegetables into the trolley; he thought now would be the ideal time to get his purchase. 'Dix, can you take the trolley, I will be back in a minute?'
'Where are you going?'
'I need to get something that's all.'
Before Dixie could reply, Jeff had hurried off towards the Baby Planning section. When he got there he was a little overwhelmed at the selection staring him in the eyes. It had been so long since he had needed them that he had no idea which ones to get. He felt really nervous and embarrassed like everyone was looking at him knowing what he was up to. He felt like his personal life was suddenly everyone's business. He hated it. He had to work out which ones to buy, get them to the checkout, and to the car quickly before Dixie came looking for him.

Jeff studied all the boxes in front of him, he didn't want to rush this purchase, he needed to get it right, it mattered greatly which ones he bought as he wanted Dixie to feel comfortable with having him inside her once more, the last thing he wanted was to hurt or irritate her with the wrong sort of condom. 'That one in the purple box looks and sounds interesting.' Jeff paled and spun around at these words. He knew that voice. 'Stop being such a school boy about it and pick them up, put them in the trolley and let's get the milk.' Jeff stood there totally gobsmacked as Dixie spoke. She had crept up behind him and had obviously studied the packets as much as he had. Jeff went to speak but no words came out, he was hoping to have done it by now, but, Dixie had caught him completely off guard. 'Oh for God's sake Jeff move out of the way.' Dixie pushed him to one side leaning over the trolley, picking up the box and throwing it in. 'Come on handsome.' Jeff felt her tug at his arm as she moved him and the trolley in the direction of the milk aisle.

The rest of their trip around Tesco was uneventful until they got to the checkout. Jeff stood there mortified as he watched their groceries being scanned one at a time before making their way down the conveyor were Dixie was waiting to pack them into bags. The packet of condoms were getting closer to the front, he just wanted the ground to open up and swallow him whole. He didn't even register the checkout operative making some comment about the purchase, but, he did hear Dixie's response. He was also sure the rest of Tesco did as well. 'Oh get over yourself sweetheart at least he is getting some action which is more than I can say for you now hand them over and do your job.' Jeff went bright red at what he was hearing still refusing to make eye contact with anyone, he quickly paid for the shopping and rushed out of the store at such a pace that Dixie had to run to keep up with him.

Once Dixie had put all the shopping away and the infamous packet of condoms on the stairs to take up later, she went in to the lounge with a cup of tea to find Jeff. He hadn't spoken since she found him staring at the condoms in Tesco, she knew he was embarrassed about buying them and she knew that her actions had totally shocked him. She had never seen him this quiet. 'Oh come on love, it wasn't that bad.' She said as she handed him his mug.
'Dix, you practically told the whole of Tesco that we are having sex.'
'Why else do people buy condoms if not to use them?'
'You didn't need to say it so loudly though did you?'
'Jeff, I don't understand why you are getting like this.'
'It's embarrassing.'
'Sweetheart, you are a paramedic; we deal with embarrassing things all the time.'
'Yeah, but not embarrassing things that involve our personal life though Dix. There could have been patients we have treated in there listening to that.'
'So what if there were, Jeff, are you ashamed of what we did?'
'No, you know I am not.'
'So what is the problem then in buying condoms for when we do it again?' Jeff shrugged, he knew Dixie was right and he was just being over sensitive to the situation. Dixie couldn't understand Jeff's feelings about the whole thing, but, she could see his pride had been dented, she only knew one way she could make it up to him. 'Come here love.' Jeff moved into her arms as she took his head in her hands tilting his face before instigating a long, tender but passionate kiss. She found the courage in herself to return the feeling of having her tongue caressing Jeff's in his mouth, she relished this feeling and let her heart take over.