Title: In Your Eyes
Authors: Raven Shadowrose/BeethovenRIP
Rating: M
Pairing: ?/?
Summary: A joint FanFic by Raven Shadowrose and BeethovenRIP based on Dixie and Jeff's conversation at the end of Series 26 Episode 36. We have rated it M as future chapters will contain adult themes. Dixie wants to be a mother and Jeff is all too willing to oblige, but, does their conversation in the ED have an unexpected effect on their relationship?
Disclaimer: The authors do not know or own any characters or content from Casualty, any original characters and the story are ours and we do not give permission for anyone to use the story or reproduce it.
Author's Note: Thank you to chan. nelson4444 for your review, we really appreciate it and hope you enjoy this chapter.
Chapter Eight.
Dixie was sat next to Jeff on the sofa, she was thinking about the kiss they had shared earlier, the one that she had started, it had made her tingle. It was passionate, tender and beautiful. There was a part of her that wanted more, the other part was urging her to be careful, not to rush things. It had been a couple of days since they'd agreed to take it slowly, she'd enjoyed the kissing that they'd been doing. Jeff wasn't pushing her into anything that she didn't want to do, he was being quite courteous. His fingers were tracing patterns over her shoulder, she was feeling quite relaxed and happy. Her fingers fiddled with the chain that sat around Jeff's neck, some of it showed in the open neck of his shirt. She snuggled closer and breathed deeply, Jeff always smelled nice, it reminded her of safety and comfort.
She remembered the times that they'd hugged, sometimes after a bad day they would cuddle up and just take comfort from having someone near. She'd held Jeff in her arms a few times, he showed his emotions to so few people and she felt privileged to be one of the few people that he showed his feelings to. He'd held her too, whenever she'd been struggling he'd always been there for her. Now they were cuddling up for a different reason, was this love? Is this what it felt like? She closed her eyes, Jeff's hand was now resting on her arm and the other one was holding her close to him. It felt nice to be in his arms like this.
Jeff listened to Dixie's breathing, he was watching her, she made little movements every so often, her fingers playing with his chain. She looked so relaxed, peaceful even, her hand moved down from his chain and rested against his chest. He put his hand over hers and kissed her head. They didn't need words, he just knew that she was happy with being with him like this. Jeff moved so that his head was lying on top of Dixie's, he heard her sigh quietly, he didn't want to break the moment, it had been so long since he'd had a hug that had lasted as long as this one.
Many thoughts were running through Jeff's head, mostly about their shopping trip. He was trying to put the embarrassing bit out of his mind, he'd forgiven Dixie for it, perhaps he had been too over sensitive. The other one that kept coming back to him was Dixie looking at the magazine, she didn't need to lose weight. She is beautiful just as she is, mainly her smile, her nose always wrinkled when she smiled, he thought it was cute. He'd told her that once and she had actually looked in the mirror to see if he was telling the truth or not. Then there were her eyes, she had the lightest blue eyes that he'd seen on anyone. Blue eyes that showed every feeling, even the ones she tried to hide.
Dixie felt her head being tilted upwards and then the soft touch of Jeff's lips on hers. She let him set the pace and opened her mouth beneath his when his tongue licked at her lips. She was getting used to Jeff kissing her, she quite liked it, she noted that her heart would always beat that little bit faster when she felt the first touch of his lips on hers. Now, she was feeling something different, Jeff's hand was slowly moving up her body as the kiss became deeper.
Jeff moved backwards so he was lying with Dixie on top of him, he used his now free hands to caress her arms and back, he really was enjoying kissing her like this, he loved that she obviously trusted him enough to let him touch her. Jeff moved one hand up to the back of Dixie's head and tangled his fingers in her hair, his other hand drifted down and settled on her bum, he gently squeezed it and heard Dixie give a little squeak of surprise. Jeff resisted the urge to laugh, he smiled against Dixie's lips and moved his hand back up her body. He brushed his hand against the curve of Dixie's breast and she sighed quietly.
Dixie put her head on Jeff's chest, she'd definitely felt something during that kiss; desire, wanting and need. It wasn't just her, she knew that Jeff wanted her, it was quite a powerful feeling knowing that she turned him on and made him want her. She'd felt it in the way he'd kissed her and moved his hands over her body. She carefully moved off Jeff and stood up, Jeff looked at her and she smiled. He sat up and she had an idea, she playfully straddled Jeff's legs and kissed him. It surprised her when she felt his lips drifting towards her neck, she gasped quietly when his lips touched her neck and throat. Dixie felt herself almost drowning in the sensation of Jeff kissing her neck, it was as if he knew where to kiss her to make her turn to jelly.
Jeff wrapped his arm around Dixie's waist and pulled her close to his body, he wanted more from her, wanted all of her, but he knew that he would have to be cautious as well. The last time they had got carried away ended up in half-dressed sex against his bedroom wall and he didn't want that to happen again. Dixie seemed to be enjoying herself, it seemed her neck was very sensitive to being touched, he would remember that for the future. Jeff moved his lips back up Dixie's neck, he was taking his time about it but eventually he reached her lips and captured them in his. Jeff pushed his tongue straight inside Dixie's mouth, he heard Dixie moan but it barely registered. She was kissing him back, her tongue duelling with his for dominance. She moaned again and this time it went straight through him. It was obvious to him that she was in control and it really did turn him on. He could feel her hands running up and down his sides. There was a little voice inside his head that said they should stop now before things got too heated.
Dixie heard Jeff moaning in his throat, having him at her mercy like this was a very big turn on for her, she loved it. He had handed her all control and she was making the most of it, she really was enjoying herself. She wanted to shut off the part of her brain that was telling her she should stop now, she knew that she had the budget meeting in the morning and that she should get some sleep. She wanted to be well rested for it and for that to happen she should end it now. Dixie slowly pulled away and just looked at Jeff. 'Princess, is something wrong?'
'Sort of, I really liked the kissing and I would like to continue but I have that budget meeting first thing in the morning, I should try and get some sleep.'
'Are you sure that's all it is?'
'Yes, what else would it be?'
'Maybe you weren't really ready for this and you're just trying not to hurt my feelings.'
'No, that's not what it is, I promise you. I just don't want to rush anything.'
'Okay, come on princess, let's go to bed then.'
'Thanks Jeff, for understanding.'
'I know how much you hate those meetings.'
'I do, they don't see the human side of the job that we do, all they see is money and profit. I could never put human life below money like they do.'
'Dixie, stop thinking about it, you'll do enough of that tomorrow.'
'I know.' Dixie slipped her hand into Jeff's and they went upstairs.
'Your place or mine, Mrs Collier?'
'Yours, I'll just be a minute, I have to get some of my clothes.'
'All right princess.' Dixie let go of Jeff's hand and went into her own room, she was still thinking about the meeting, she always dreaded it coming around again.
Jeff went into his own room, Dixie hated those budget meetings, she loved her job but this is the part that she hated the most. She always came back depressed, he always made a point of having her favourite chocolate bar on standby for when she returned from her meeting. They were always telling her that she was over budget for equipment or training, he failed to see how you could be over budget for something that was necessary for saving lives. Dixie had pondered over that question for a long time, they'd told her that she had to make cuts to save money, she'd been up until one in the morning trying to find a way around it. Eventually he managed to persuade her to go to bed and get some rest, she'd tried to resist but eventually tiredness got the better of her and she'd given in. He hoped they wouldn't go too hard on her tomorrow, he wished that he could go in with her and back her up but he knew what she would say to that.
Dixie got changed into her pyjamas and went to Jeff's room, she wondered if she should knock or if he would mind her just walking in. She opted for safety and knocked on the door. 'Come in princess.' She opened the door and found Jeff already in bed. 'You don't have to knock princess.'
'I didn't want to walk in on you if you were half naked.'
'It's nothing you haven't seen before Dixie.'
'Even so, I was trying to be polite.'
'Much appreciated princess, come on, get into bed.' Jeff pulled back the quilt and she got into his bed, it was warm from his body heat and she put her head on the other pillow.
'Have you set the alarm Jeff?'
'Yes, it is already done.'
'Good, I would hate to be late for that meeting, it is bad enough that I have to go and listen to them tell me that I'm over budget again. Being late would only make it worse.'
'Dixie, stop thinking about it. So you're over budget, we save lives every day and that is more important.'
'I know you're right.'
'Then stop thinking about them, they don't matter.' Jeff was right, they don't matter, she would spend as much money as she needed to so that the station could run properly.
Jeff noted that Dixie looked a little more relaxed, she had obviously taken his words on board for once. 'Dixie, you trust me right?'
'Yes, you know that I do.'
'Good.' Jeff carefully moved until he was lying on top of Dixie. 'I'm going to give you something to think about other than that meeting.' Jeff closed his eyes and kissed Dixie, his tongue slipped inside her mouth and he felt her arms lock around his waist and her foot sliding up and down his leg. He was amazed at how all this was happening, it had been an odd couple of days. Jeff put his hand up Dixie's pyjama top, he just wanted to feel her skin again. He stopped his hand under the swell of Dixie's breast and lightly brushed his finger against it. He was kissing her deeply now, he felt the response and urgency in Dixie's kiss and his lower body began to respond to the feelings the kiss was creating in him.
Dixie felt pleasure running through her as Jeff kissed her, his finger stroking the underside of her breast felt nice and she wished that he would move it upwards so she could feel more of the feelings that were coursing through her body. Dixie felt Jeff slowly stop the kiss and he moved onto his side of the bed. 'Have I distracted you enough Dixie?'
'I think so.'
'Good.' Dixie wanted more from Jeff but she didn't know how to ask him, they'd said they would take it slowly and she still thought that but there was something inside of her that wanted to forget all about taking it slowly and feel Jeff inside her once again.
Jeff looked at Dixie, her skin was flushed and she was smiling, it was a good look on her. Jeff wanted to forget the taking it slow part, if Dixie didn't have that meeting in the morning then he would have done. He turned on his side and put his arm over Dixie. 'Goodnight Dixie.' He wanted her to get some rest, she needed it.
'Goodnight Jeff.' Dixie spoke quietly, she was already in the process of falling asleep. He watched Dixie quietly until she had fallen asleep, only when he was certain that she was properly asleep did he close his eyes and go to sleep.