Title: In Your Eyes

Authors: Raven Shadowrose/BeethovenRIP

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: A joint FanFic by Raven Shadowrose and BeethovenRIP based on Dixie and Jeff's conversation at the end of Series 26 Episode 36. We have rated it M as future chapters will contain adult themes. Dixie wants to be a mother and Jeff is all too willing to oblige, but, does their conversation in the ED have an unexpected effect on their relationship?

Disclaimer: The authors do not know or own any characters or content from Casualty, any original characters and the story are ours and we do not give permission for anyone to use the story or reproduce it.

Author's Note: Thank you to chan. nelson4444 and olivia. c. king1 for your reviews, we really appreciate it :)

Please note that there is some adult content in this chapter, if you do not like it then do not read, you have been warned.

Chapter Twelve.

Dixie shut the door to her office, she was furious, she paced the length of her office, how dare Jeff reveal that they were sleeping with each other to the whole of the station. How was she going to go out there and face all of those people now that they knew? Her credibility as operational duty manager had been shattered, how were they supposed to respect her now? She was supposed to be a lesbian and Jeff had revealed to anyone that would listen that she was sleeping with a man. It would be spreading around the department by now, there were too many gossips around and they would take this piece of information and run with it. What was she going to do? Dixie picked up the stress ball off her desk and squeezed it in her hands, she couldn't stop the thought that it was Jeff's head entering her mind. Why didn't he think before opening his mouth? Dixie sat in her chair and continued squeezing the stress ball, it was making her feel a little bit better.

Jeff was still sat on the ambulance step, Dixie had holed herself up in her office, he wanted to go and see her but he feared that he would get his head knocked off if he went in there. He wanted to apologise for what he had said but it was probably going to take more than an apology to get back into Dixie's good books. Jeff knew that he was an idiot, that he should have thought about what he was saying before he opened his mouth. Dixie was very proud of the work she had put in as operational manager, she had worked hard to gain the respect of the team and he may have ruined that with a few sentences. He was feeling very guilty, he didn't really have anything to lose, Dixie did though. He wasn't sure what to do for the best, should he tell them it was all a lie, that he'd just said it to annoy Dixie, should he tell them that it was true but they should keep it to themselves? Jeff sighed, he didn't know what to do for the best.

Dixie made the most of the time she was spending in her office, she'd tidied up and filed the rotas in their proper order, anything to keep her hands busy and her mind off what had happened with Jeff outside. She pulled out her emergency stash of chocolate from inside her desk drawer and broke off a couple of squares, she popped them into her mouth and savoured the taste. Chocolate always made her feel better, she was craving it a lot right now, she always did when she was close to her period.

Dixie jumped when the radio crackled into life, she had been in a world of her own and hadn't expected the noise that came from it. 'Holby control to 3006.' She quickly pulled the radio off her belt and pressed the call button.

'3006 receiving.'

'Emergency call from Holby Community Primary School, ten year old child has gone into anaphylactic shock, staff administered an epi-pen with little effect.' Dixie pulled on her coat and went to the ambulance as control filled her in on the shout. She walked past Jeff and got into the ambulance, she started the engine and put on her seatbelt. Jeff was supposed to be driving but she didn't care, he had annoyed her and if he had any sense then he wouldn't argue with her. Dixie drove off once Jeff had got into the other side. She wondered about the nature of the call, what was a child doing at school at night? Maybe they were having a disco or a party of some sort, poor kid, she always hated going to shouts where children were involved. Dixie picked up the speed, she had to get there quickly, time was very important in this situation.

Jeff knew that he was in trouble, Dixie's silence said it all, she was only silent when she had messed up and she was deciding exactly how and when he would pay for whatever he had done wrong. He knew that he had messed up big time, would this be the end of the new phase of their relationship? Jeff was brought of his thoughts by Dixie stopping the ambulance, there were people in there as the lights were on. He got out the passenger side of the ambulance and went around the side. 'Don't just stand there Jeffrey, get the kit.' It was the first time she had spoken and she had used his full name, it wasn't a good sign. Dixie had taken the oxygen kit out already, he shouldered that while she picked up the rest. He followed her into the school and they were met by a teacher at the doors. 'Come in, Lewis is through here, he is not getting any better.'

'What is he allergic to?' Dixie asked immediately.

'Peanuts, we do our best to keep him away from them but he reacts to even the smallest trace so there must have been something in one of the foods at the disco.'

'He is very allergic then?'

'Yes.' Jeff hung back while Dixie talked with the teacher, her focus was not on him, she had gone into work mode and nothing from before was even in her mind right now.

Dixie followed the teacher into one of the classrooms, another teacher was with the boy and she knelt beside him. 'Hi Lewis, I'm Dixie, I'm a paramedic and I'm going to help you.' He was clearly in some distress, his face had swollen up and he was struggling to breathe.

'Jeffrey, the oxygen, put the mask on him.' She was only going to talk to Jeff about their patients, she was too angry at him for anything else. She gently inserted the IV into Lewis' arm and started running fluids through it. 'Don't worry Lewis, we're going to help you feel better. Jeffrey, get the trolley please.' She took a look at the epi-pen that had been used and prepared a slightly higher dose. 'Okay Lewis, you're going to feel a sharp scratch.' She injected the dose into Lewis' thigh and hoped that it started to help him, she kept a close watch on Lewis as she filled in the paperwork with what she had done so far.

Jeff quickly brought the trolley back and made it ready so that they could get Lewis onto it easily. He stood by Dixie and looked at Lewis. 'How is he?'

'The adrenaline is helping but he's still going to have to be checked out.'

'Okay, the trolley is ready.' Dixie turned away and looked at the teacher.

'We're going to take Lewis to hospital, have his parents been informed?'

'Yes, they're going to meet us at the hospital.'

'We're taking him to Holby City.'

'I'll let them know, I'll come with him and look after him until his parents arrive.'

'Okay.' Jeff helped Dixie put Lewis onto the trolley and carefully did up the straps.

'Okay mate, we're going to take you for a little ride in an ambulance.' Jeff pushed the trolley out of the school and helped Dixie put it in the back of the ambulance, once everyone was in he shut the doors and drove them to Holby.

Dixie took the lead when she went into the department, she needed something to focus on other than the stares and giggles she kept seeing and hearing. Dixie was thankful that Zoe remained professional; either she hadn't heard yet or she didn't care about the gossip going around the department. 'What have we got Dixie?'

'Lewis Archer, ten, has a severe allergy to peanuts and went into anaphylactic shock. Two doses from an epi-pen didn't help so we gave him 300 micrograms of IM adrenaline at the scene which halted the attack. Lewis had an initial GCS of seven which improved to twelve on route. His parents have been informed and this is his teacher Miss Jenkins.' Dixie wheeled the trolley out of resus once the handover had been completed and went back to the ambulance, once again ignoring the stares and giggles that she could see and hear. She knew that Jeff was following her but she didn't really want to talk to him right now.

Jeff sat in the passenger seat again, Dixie was still angry at him, he could sense it. It showed in the way she looked past him and wouldn't meet his eyes, every time she slammed the ambulance door and in how she wouldn't talk to him except when they were dealing with a patient. The silence in the ambulance became oppressive as Dixie drove them back to base, Jeff knew that he was for it and that it was only a matter of time before Dixie yelled at him. He wanted to get it over and done with but it seemed that Dixie was quite content to make him wait. Jeff knew what she was doing, she was making him sweat by making him wait for a telling off.

Dixie sensed Jeff's unease, she knew just how to get to him, he'd rather get the telling off over and done with. She smiled to herself, Jeff kept fidgeting and playing with his seatbelt, he was definitely nervous, she had him on edge and she knew it. 'Dixie, are you going to talk to me?'

'No, I am still furious at you.'

'Oh come on, we both know why you're dragging this out.'

'Why is that Jeffrey?'

'This is some pathetic attempt to make me dread my punishment.'

'It is working, you only fiddle with your seatbelt when you're nervous.' Dixie knew that Jeff was losing his cool, it was obvious, he was trying to provoke her into having a go at him.

'It is not working.' Jeff folded his arms and she chuckled. 'Stop laughing at me.'

'No, why are you sulking Jeffrey?'

'I am not sulking.' Dixie pulled the ambulance over at the side of the road, she didn't want to have this argument while she was driving. She took the radio off her belt and pressed the call button.

'3006 to Holby control.'

'Go ahead 3006.'

'Requesting an undisturbed break of an hour.'

'Request received at 21:30, you're back on duty at 22:30, 3006.'

'All received control, over.' Dixie turned to Jeff, he definitely looked nervous, he looked as if she was about to eat him alive.

Jeff wondered why Dixie had requested a break. 'What did you do that for?'

'It would appear that you have something to say to me Jeffrey.'

'Do I?'

'How about an apology for your totally unprofessional behaviour back at the station for starters. What were you hoping to achieve from telling everyone about our personal life?'

'You're just mad because you've always worn the fact that you're a lesbian on your sleeve and now everyone knows that it is bollocks.'

'You really can't see it, can you?'

'See what?' Dixie got out and went into the back of the ambulance, he followed her, he wanted to know what had got her so worked up. 'What do you want me to see Dixie?'

'I've worked hard to get the people in that station to respect me and you go and destroy it with your unnecessary comments, you don't think of anything you're about to say before you shoot your stupid mouth off.'

'You haven't exactly been quiet today, have you?'

'What are you talking about?'

'Moaning and whining about every little thing that I do wrong, you're obsessed with perfection.'

'It is just as well that I am or else nothing would ever get done in the house, the bins would be waiting to be emptied six weeks later and we'd never get to work because there's no fuel in the car.'

'Here we go again, do you ever let go of anything?'

'I'll let go of you one day, off the edge of a bloody cliff, then there'd be nobody to annoy me.'

'Whatever Dixie, you will always find fault with someone or something because that is what you do best.' Jeff folded his arms, he knew that he was in the wrong but he wasn't about to admit it.

Dixie was fed up, Jeff was still acting like a baby. 'I don't know what your problem is, why you can't see that your actions have consequences. Haven't you learned anything at all?'

'I guess not.' Dixie was sure that Jeff was just trying to push her buttons and wind her up.

'I can see that, you're so bloody stupid sometimes Jeff, when are you going to grow up? When are you going to start acting like an adult?'

'I didn't hear you complaining last night or this morning when I was taking you all the way to happy land.'

'Why are you bringing that up? This is about you and your inability to keep your mouth shut.'

'Is it really?'

'Yes.'

'You see, the problem stems from the fact that you got into bed with me and you can't handle the fact that people know about us.'

'Don't be stupid.' Dixie suddenly found herself pushed back against the wall of the ambulance.

'Are you telling me that you didn't enjoy it when I was touching you? Do you remember moaning my name as I fucked you against the wall of my room?' Dixie cursed her own body, having Jeff this close to her and saying those things turned her on a great deal, she wanted him, it was hard not to think if the memories she had of Jeff inside her and making her moan.

'This isn't about that.'

'It's about me right? If people know about us then you have to admit to them and yourself that you're not as gay as you thought yourself to be, you have to admit that you're wrong and you can't handle that. You don't like being wrong Dixie and you know it.' Dixie felt Jeff's hand moving up her body, she shivered as it settled at the base of her back and he pulled her close to him. 'Tell me I'm wrong, tell me you don't want me.' Dixie gasped as Jeff's lips caressed her neck, she couldn't tell him that she didn't want him, not when he was touching her like this.

Jeff heard Dixie gasp as his lips touched her neck, he knew that she wanted him, her hands were moving up his back and he captured her lips with his. Jeff pushed his tongue inside Dixie's mouth and pulled her shirt out from her trousers, he wanted her so badly. Jeff went back to kissing Dixie's neck and he heard her moan. 'Don't think this means you're off the hook Jeffrey, I'm still furious at you.'

'Of course you are princess.'

'I mean it, you're still in trouble.'

'We'll see if you feel that way later on when I have you calling my name in pleasure.' Jeff heard Dixie moan in reply, he gently squeezed her breast and moved his hands up and down her body. He loved Dixie's curves, she was very womanly. Jeff pushed Dixie down to the bed and pinned her arms down by her head. 'I want you Dixie.' Jeff didn't give her time to reply, he kissed her again and released one of her hands so he could unbuckle her belt and pull the zip down on her trousers. Jeff slipped his hand inside Dixie's trousers and quickly found her clitoris. Someone is a naughty girl Dixie, you're all wet.' He gently played with her clitoris, listening to her moan and feeling her moving against him, trying to encourage him to touch her some more.

Dixie couldn't believe what was happening, what she was about to do with Jeff in the ambulance of all places. She pulled his shirt out from his trousers and moved her hands up inside it, she felt every inch of his naked flesh that she could and he moaned into her mouth as he kissed her. Dixie felt Jeff's rapidly growing hardness dig into her thigh. 'Jeffrey, do you have a condom?'

'In my wallet.' Dixie giggled.

'You're like a horny teenager.'

'Says you, you're just as bad Dixie.' Dixie chuckled and watched Jeff take the condom out of his wallet and roll it onto his fully hard length, she moaned as Jeff slipped inside her body and started to move inside her.

'Oh, Jeff.' Dixie moaned again and wrapping her legs around Jeff's back.

'This is getting to be a habit, us making love half dressed.'

'I wonder who's fault that is.' Dixie timed her movements with Jeff's, she moaned as she felt her orgasm approaching.

Jeff moved faster inside Dixie, her felt her body tightening around him and he moaned into her neck. Jeff slowed his movements, he moved enough to keep her on the edge of orgasm but not enough to let her tip over. He felt Dixie trying to increase the friction but he kept it at the same slow speed. He heard Dixie moan and beg him to get a move on, Jeff grinned, he was quite enjoying keeping her on the edge. Dixie's body tightened even more, he rubbed his finger over her clitoris and she moaned his name in orgasm. Jeff groaned, he wasn't going to be able to hold on. 'Dixie, I'm going to come.' He felt Dixie's arms hold him close as he moved inside her and rested his head against her chest as he came. Jeff closed his eyes, he slowly moved out of Dixie's body and then tried to sort himself out as best he could. He watched Dixie straighten her hair and clothes and he followed suit, they only had a few minutes left on their break.

Dixie carefully drove the ambulance back to the station, her body was still fizzing from the orgasm that she had just experienced. She was still a little bit mad at Jeff but it was definitely less than it was before. She parked the ambulance in the bay and went inside the station. 'Come on Jeff, I'm hungry.' She gave him a look that said it was his fault and he grinned. Dixie heard the voices as she went to the rec room, they were talking about what Jeff had said earlier. They obviously hadn't heard her come in as they carried on talking. 'Does anybody have anything to say to me?' She glared at them all and nobody spoke. 'Well? You had enough to say about me behind my back. Yes, me and Jeff are shagging as you so crudely put it, I suggest you get over it.' Dixie turned on her heel and left the room, she passed a very red faced Jeff, he was clearly quite embarrassed. 'Come on handsome, it is time for us to get something to eat.' Dixie linked her arm with Jeff's and left the rec room behind, suddenly she was no longer mad at Jeff for what he had said earlier.