Chapter 22 – The End
It's been a year since me and Phil met each other, and I still can't believe it. For me seems like a week ago, but when I remember all the time we spent and all the moments we shared, it seems like an eternity. I feel like I know Phil since the beginning.
These last months have been crazy; I've done so much stuff that it's practically impossible for me to remember everything. I went to Jamaica, to L.A. and lots of Youtube gatherings where I met some amazing people, like PJ and Chris.
I have now more subscribers to my channel that I could ever imagine and it's one of the best feelings in the world to know that people around the world enjoy my videos. Sometimes I still get a little overwhelmed when thinking about this, I know that people only subscribe because they want to, but the pressure to make something good it's always too strong, maybe because I'm a perfectionist and I'm really harsh about myself. Anyway, the best part is that Youtube asked me for a partnership with them so now I can make money by uploading videos. Finally I have some extra money to spend in useful things (most probably in videogames). I'm currently studying law in the University of Manchester, which makes me really happy. Well, not the fact I'm studying law, because honestly I don't know what I was thinking; what makes me happy it's the fact I am now living 5 minutes away from Phil, which means I can go visit him whenever I want. I even spend some nights there from time to time, since Phil now owns his own place, or in other words, there are no adults around (If you don't count Phil as one, and me since I'm 18 now). We actually spent most of our nights playing video games and watching films like the nerds we are, but it's wonderful to have privacy when something more intimate comes up. And it's always good to be able to sleep in a big room contrary to my university room that is so small I can reach both walls with my arms open.
Me and Phil were closer than ever, the rare times we are separate it's when I'm having lectures or when I have to go home for the weekend to visit my parents. Either way, I couldn't ask for a better friend (or boyfriend).
We chose to keep our relationship a secret, since we were getting more and more attention from Youtube, and if one day things don't work out, we don't have to make a video explaining, so it's much more simple this way. Well, not really, because we have to hide it from everyone, even our closest friends, but I guess that's the price I have to pay to be with Phil. It's true we haven't been the most cautious people in the world, always trading tweets and photos on Dailybooth, but we weren't trying to hide anything before, so I guess we just have to be a little more careful from now on.
We have been talking about living together next year, if we are still friends then (which I hope we are). When Phil brought up this idea it seemed the perfect scenario ever and since then I can't wait for next year to come, just to be able to wake up everyday next to him, and be able to share breakfast and be with him all the time (wow that sounded much better in my head, here just sounds too overly attached). Anyway, 2010 has been so far the best year of my entire life and I can't wait to see what else it's going to bring. My relationship with Phil made more confident and less awkward around other people, my self-issues are better and I don't see life in such a negative way as I did before. I could never thank him enough. I am now making friends around campus and I have been uploading better videos, ones that I am really proud of. For someone that was too afraid to expose himself on the Internet a year ago, I think I made some really big changes since then.
I feel like a new me. It's true that I'm still super lazy and still haven't started my exercise routine (and I doubt that will ever change), but I feel good about myself and I in my opinion that's the best way to feel.
Oh God, I'm getting late for that party tonight. I should get going, Phil is waiting for me outside.
I grabbed my hoodie, put on my shoes and went to meet Phil.
For some reason I have the sensation that my life is starting now. And I couldn't be more excited to live it.
a/n: And this is the end! I know it was too sudden but I have a confession to make, I wanted to do this fanfiction similar to what I thought it was the 'real' story, but today I found out about this post on tumblr phandirectory tumblr com/post/51477877119/for-the-pheels, and I saw I made too many mistakes, so I don't feel motivated to continue this story. I may write more in the future but they will probably be AU or just some one chapter. Anyway, thank you so much to all of you who followed, reviewed and favorite my story, I can't thank you enough. Once again, thank you for reading, and hope you can forgive me. Xx
- Mariana