Title: In Your Eyes

Authors: Raven Shadowrose/BeethovenRIP

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: A joint FanFic by Raven Shadowrose and BeethovenRIP based on Dixie and Jeff's conversation at the end of Series 26 Episode 36. We have rated it M as future chapters will contain adult themes. Dixie wants to be a mother and Jeff is all too willing to oblige, but, does their conversation in the ED have an unexpected effect on their relationship?

Disclaimer: The authors do not know or own any characters or content from Casualty, any original characters and the story are ours and we do not give permission for anyone to use the story or reproduce it.

Author's Note: Thank you to chan. nelson4444 for your review, we really appreciate it :)

Chapter Fourteen.

Jeff thought back over the events of the past couple of days, Dixie using her mouth on him had surprised him, he had enjoyed it but now he had time to think about it he wondered why she was so insistent on pleasuring him in that way. Dixie was obviously worrying about something, it showed in her face, he was going to have to talk to her about it. He knew that her period always made Dixie insecure and jumpy, he'd lost count of the times he'd spent listening to her while she talked over her worries and fears. The last time it had been whether she was a good enough boss and if she was doing the job properly. Jeff didn't mind reassuring her, Dixie meant a lot to him and he would keep reassuring her until she believed it herself. He had worked out that it was something to do with him, public displays of affection weren't usually Dixie's thing and yet she had kissed him passionately in front of Tamzin. He had to wonder if Dixie was threatened by her, Tamzin was quite an attractive woman, you'd have to be blind not to notice it. Jeff made his mind up, he was going to talk to Dixie and try to get her to tell him what was on her mind.

Dixie messed with her hair, she was trying to make herself look younger, should she start wearing make up to work? She never usually bothered with much make up beyond a little mascara, it was too much hassle removing it all when she got in from work and just wanted to go to bed or chill out on the sofa. Dixie was glad she had a few days to figure it out before she had to go back to work, she hoped that Jackie would be feeling better so she wouldn't have to hire another agency paramedic. She was still messing with her hair when Jeff poked his head around the door. 'What are you doing princess?'

'I'm experimenting with my hair.'

'Okay, but why?'

'I think I look younger with it like this.'

'Younger? Why do you want to look younger?'

'I just want to look presentable, is there something wrong with that?'

'Of course not, just as long as you're doing it because you want to.'

'What other reason is there?'

'Oh, I don't know, maybe it has something to do with the arrival of a young agency paramedic.' Dixie stared at Jeff, did he know or was he just guessing?

'I don't know what you're talking about, I'm just taking care of myself, that's all.'

'Really?'

'Yes.'

'Is that why you practically stuck your tongue down my throat in front of her?'

'That was nothing to do with her, I just felt like kissing you.'

'Come on Dixie, I might be a man but I'm not stupid. Why don't you tell me what is really going on?' Dixie had a feeling that Jeff already had an idea of what she was thinking.

Jeff was trying to get Dixie to open up to him, he wanted her to talk to him and let him know what she was thinking and feeling. 'Dix, you've been snappy and irritable for days, I know that you're on your period and are worrying about something. Talk to me.' Dixie was silent, he knew that he was right, it was just a matter of if Dixie would admit it or not. Jeff sat next to Dixie and put his arm around her shoulder. 'Come on Dix, we've always said that we could tell each other anything. What's on your mind?'

'Is it me that you really want, am I good enough for you? Wouldn't you rather have someone like Tamzin with long hair, a perfect figure and a beautiful face?' Jeff put his arms around Dixie and hugged her.

'What makes you say that you're not beautiful?'

'I've never been the beautiful one, some people are naturally beautiful and I'm not one of them. I'm getting old too, not to mention that I'm overweight.'

'You make it sound as if you are the ugly duckling Dixie.'

'Maybe I am.'

'You're not.'

'Am I not? You must have noticed that I am not perfect, you've seen me naked after all.'

'Don't be so hard on yourself Dixie, nobody is perfect, anyone that says they are is lying. You are beautiful princess.' Jeff kissed Dixie softly and held her in his arms, he wanted her to believe him when he said that she was beautiful.

Dixie rested her head against Jeff's shoulder as he held her, it was always the same words: you are beautiful. Jeff said them with so much conviction that she found herself believng him. 'Jeff, what do you like about me?'

'You're a fantastic paramedic and very skilled; you're a lovely person and very kind to everyone. I love your sense of humour, you always know how to make me laugh. You are lovely, I love your breasts Dixie, they are perfectly formed and just right for my hands. You are curvy and I like having you in my bed, not just for sex but for cuddling up as well.'

'You think that about me?'

'I do, I like cuddling up to you and kissing you, you are my lovely wife and I want you in my life and nobody else.'

'I am glad to hear that Jeff, I love you.'

'I love you too princess.' Dixie felt a whole lot better now that she had talked to Jeff, he liked her and wanted her. She was happy that he wanted her and not someone like Tamzin.

Jeff still held Dixie in his arms, he heard the relief in her voice when he said that he only wanted her and nobody else. He kissed Dixie's head and stroked her arm, he had to wonder if she had pleasured him the way that she had to keep hold of him. He didn't want her to be doing things to keep him. 'Dixie, the other night when you, well, you know, did you want to or was it just something you did to try and stop me going off with Tamzin?'

'A bit of both, I wanted to do that for you Jeff but I also hoped that you would remember how I made you feel if you thought about going off with Tamzin.'

'I don't want you to feel like you have to do that all the time just to keep me.'

'That wasn't the only reason I was doing it.'

'Dixie, it's your period isn't it? You think that because you're on your period and sex is out of the question that you have to please me in other ways.'

'Maybe a little bit, we've been together a lot over the past few weeks and I just thought that I should make an effort to keep that up.'

'It is okay if you can't have sex for a week because you're on, I'm not going to run off and find someone else, I can wait until your period has finished.'

'Thanks Jeff, you're a sweet man.'

'Don't worry princess, I am quite happy to wait.'

'So you're not going to go off with Tamzin?'

'No princess.' Jeff kissed Dixie's nose. 'Tamzin isn't you, stop worrying so much Dixie.'

'I'm obsessing again aren't I?'

'Yes, you are but I love you anyway.' He kissed Dixie's head and hoped he'd put her mind at rest.

Dixie felt very relieved that Jeff wasn't going to go off with Tamzin or anyone else and that he loved her. 'Jeff, do you think I'm silly?'

'No Dix, I don't think you're silly. We all have worries.'

'Even you?'

'Yes, even me.'

'What do you worry about?' Jeff was quiet, he looked as if he was thinking. 'Jeff?'

'I care for you Dixie, a lot, I love you and I don't want what we have to end.'

'Why would we end Jeff?'

'I don't know, everything has changed in our relationship now and we're different, we're a proper couple now. How many married people end up divorcing Dix?'

'That doesn't mean it is going to happen to us.'

'I don't want it to happen to us.'

'It is not going to happen to us, I like being around and telling you to pick up your clothes and put them in the washing basket.'

'Oh yes, you never tire of that and telling me to put the bins out. Let's not forget walking the dog too.'

'Except you always forget to take the bins out.' Dixie had forgiven Jeff for not taking the bins out the last time, she hadn't told him that yet though. 'I don't do it that often.'

'Often enough, maybe you should get your memory checked Jeff, I think it is a sign that you're getting old.'

'I am not old.'

'You are.' Dixie chuckled at the look on Jeff's face, she was feeling a lot happier now.

Jeff saw the improvement in Dixie's mood, he didn't like it when she worried and it pleased him to see her feeling better. They'd gone downstairs a little while ago and Dixie was sat on the sofa and stroking Little Abs. He had a sneaky suspicion that she had forgiven him for forgetting the bins, teasing him about his age and getting old was one of Dixie's favourite things to do. They often teased each other about their age. Jeff liked seeing Dixie smile, she had a very pretty smile. 'Dix, what are we going to do during our days off?'

'I don't know, I haven't really thought about it. Is there anything that you want to do Jeff?'

'Maybe we can go out for a meal or something or we can go and see a film. Go out together.'

'All right, I like that idea, I've not been to the cinema in years.'

'You've really not been to the cinema in years?'

'No, I've always been too busy working.'

'Right Mrs Collier, we're going to the cinema.'

'You mean like a date?'

'Yes, a date, how about tomorrow evening?'

'All right, tomorrow evening it is.' Jeff made it his mission to make sure that Dixie had a good time on their date tomorrow evening.

Dixie was quite looking forward to their date at the cinema tomorrow evening, maybe they could have popcorn and sweets, she wasn't sure what they were going to watch. The date had been organised on the spur of the moment, she liked the impetuousness of it and was looking forward to spending the whole evening with Jeff. She stroked Little Abs' head and relaxed, her worries were almost gone and she would be over her period in a couple of days. She hoped that she had helped to reassure Jeff that they weren't going to get divorced, he obviously cared for her and wanted her to be in his life for a long time. She cared for him just as much and wanted them to be together for life, she wasn't sure when she had got so sentimental but she was feeling it now. Jeff completed her, he was her best friend in life and now he was her husband and lover. Dixie smiled, they'd had a glitch when they'd argued but they were over it now, she hoped that it would remain that way, arguing with Jeff never made her happy, it was lucky that they never fought for long.

Jeff watched Dixie stroking Little Abs, she loved the dog a lot and he loved her too, she would often sit there and stroke him after a long day. Stroking Little Abs calmed Dixie down and lifted her mood, she was calm and looked more relaxed than she had in days, he hoped that the worst of it was over and she would be back to normal again. He was glad that they had talked and got everything out in the open, Dixie's hormones always got the better of her, he would look out for them in future and cuddle her whenever she needed it, reassure her when she needed it and kiss her too. He smiled at his own sentimental feelings towards Dixie, he had a date to plan and was going to make sure that she had a very good time. He would treat her to popcorn and anything that she wanted, he was going to be a gentleman and pay for her to get in, if she'd let him that is, Dixie had always been an independent woman. He would offer anyway and open doors for her too, Jeff smiled again as he realised he was being very sentimental. He went to pick up the paper to see what was on at the cinema and pick something for them to watch. Jeff thought about them going for something to eat too, it would be nice to take Dixie out and treat her. He was looking forward to going out with Dixie and having a nice evening.