This chapter is dedicated to my Grandpa, who passed away last month. No one knew how to love quite like him. He was an amazing man.

The next morning Deeks and Kensi went their separate ways again. Kensi to OSP and Deeks to the beach. It was around 11:00 and Deeks and Talia were just talking about grabbing something to eat at the taco stand nearby when Deeks phone rang. He grabbed it quickly, hoping it would be Kensi since he had tried to contact her several times already and hadn't received a reply. When he saw that it was Sabatino he answered it, thinking maybe he had news about Jack. "Hey man! What's up?"

"Deeks?"

"Yeah, it's me. Everything OK?"

"No, man. I'm sorry."

"Is it Kensi? Is she in trouble?" Deeks asked as he jumped up, not caring that he sent sand flying all over Talia.

"Look man, she was chasing a suspect and something went wrong. I wasn't there. I was in ops. It sounded like she was in a struggle and then nothing. When the guys got to her they ordered an ambulance. They said there was a lot of blood, but they couldn't tell where it was coming from. There weren't any obvious wounds. They're taking her to Huntington."

"Oh God. I'm on my way. Have them tell her I'm on my way!"

"Sure, man."

Deeks disconnected the call and then looked at Talia. "I gotta go. Something happened to Kensi. They're taking her to the hospital."

"Go. I'll hold down the fort here."

"Thanks" Deeks said. Then he ran to his truck and took off, tires screeching.

~~~Densi~~~

When Deeks pulled up to the emergency entrance at the Hospital he saw the paramedics pulling Kensi out of the Ambulance. As he ran over to her he heard tires squealing and looked over to see that Sabatino and Hetty had just arrived as well. Deeks continued to run. He reached Kensi just as they paramedics were lowing the legs of the gurney.

"Kensi, baby, are you ok? What happened?"

Kensi, who had been valiantly fighting off tears until this point, finally broke down. "The baby, Deeks, I lost our baby. I'm so sorry."

Deeks quickly grabbed her hand with one of his while the other reached over and wiped the tears from her face. "It's ok, it will be ok. As long as you are ok, that's what's most important to me."

The paramedics interrupted the tender moment. "I'm sorry sir, but you need to step aside so we can take care of her."

Deeks knew it was best for Kensi that he step away, but his body wouldn't, couldn't seem to cooperate. He then felt a strong hand clasp his shoulder and Sabatino's voice urging him to step aside. "Come on man, let them do their job. We'll go get a cup of coffee in the waiting room and they'll come get you in just a little bit."

"Yeah, yeah." Deeks answered. He then looked into Kensi's eyes and told her "I love you baby. I'll see you in just a few minutes."

Overwhelmed, Kensi just nodded her head as the paramedics wheeled her inside.

"Kensi was pregnant?" Sabatino asked. "Man, you work fast!"

Deeks could see the humor in what Sabatino said, but he was in no mood to joke around. He was worried about Kensi and even though he told Kensi about the most important thing was that she was ok, and that was the truth, he was heartbroken. They didn't even know if she was pregnant yet, but he realized that he had hoped she was, and the loss of that life broke his heart. It took him a moment to realize that Sabatino was still waiting for an answer. "Yes, no, I don't know. I mean, it was a possibility. We were going to take a test this weekend."

"I'm sorry man. Why don't we go on inside and see what's happening."

"Yeah, thanks."

When Sabatino and Deeks walked into the waiting room they saw Hetty speaking with a doctor. Before they could reach her the doctor walked away and Hetty walked over to them.

"Mr. Deeks that was Dr. Herrington. He will be taking care of Ms. Blye. He's a good man and an even better doctor. You can rest easy. She's in good hands."

"Thanks Hetty."

"Why don't you two gentlemen go have a seat? I'm going to go make a few phone calls and I'll come join you shortly."

An hour and a half later Deeks and Sabatino still sat in the waiting room. Hetty had left to return to OPS, Callen and Sam had stopped by to check on him but had to go continue to work their case. Sabatino was concerned about Kensi and was assigned to keeping the team up to date, but mostly stayed to support Deeks. Even though Sabatino had disliked Deeks in the beginning, he had come to respect him in the last few weeks. He loved and supported Kensi in a way that Sabatino had come to realize he never could. He also appreciated the way Deeks treating him. Once he apologized to Deeks for blackmailing Kensi, Deeks had always treated him with kindness and respect. Sabatino had to respect that, knowing that he deserved much less after what he did.

Finally Dr. Herrington returned to the room and called for Mr. Deeks. Deeks jumped up and bolted over to the doctor.

"Marty Deeks?"

"Yes, that's me."

The doctor then glanced over to Sabatino, making sure Deeks knew and approved of his presence.

Deeks nodded. "He's good."

"Well Mr. Deeks, Ms. Blye is doing well. She had a large uterine cyst that burst when she was attacked. We had to do a procedure to remove what remained of the cyst, but she is now doing very well."

"A cyst? What about the baby? Was there a baby?"

"As far as we can tell Ms. Bly was never pregnant. It would be very unlikely with what she had going on. She may have had some similar symptoms, but I highly doubt she could have conceived with the size of the cyst."

"Oh, so she's alright? Could she conceive now that the cyst has been removed? Was it cancerous?"

"She's fine. We will have the cyst tested just to make sure, but these things are rarely cancerous. I didn't see anything that would worry me. If you two are trying to conceive you should give it a few months but you should be fine after that."

"No, no, things happened and we thought there was a good chance she could be pregnant, but we weren't trying."

"Yes, well, we do see a lot of 'things happened' babies around here." The doctor said smiling.

"I bet you do." Deeks answered, smiling for the first time since that horrid phone call. "Can I see her?"

"Yes, you may. Just one at a time though right now." The doctor said while glancing over to Sabatino.

"Oh, sure." Said Sabatino. "I'll just stay out here and update everyone. Let them know she's ok and all that."

Deeks gave Sabatino a quick nod and the followed the doctor back to Kensi's room.

On the way to the room the doctor looked over and told Deeks "She'll have some bruising from the hit she took to her abdomen. She should keep ice on it to help with the swelling. We were able to do the procedure vaginally so she may be a little sore, but she should heal quickly. No sex for a couple weeks."

"Sure doc, thanks."

The doctor then gestured room 215. The door was open, but there was a curtain drawn for privacy.

"I'll leave you to it. I'll come check her again tomorrow morning before she leaves."

"Alright. Thanks again."

"Sure. Goodbye."

Deeks nodded his goodbye to the doctor and then quietly walked into the room. The lights were off, but there was plenty of sunshine coming in through the window. The room was empty except for the still, sleeping form laying in the bed. The only sounds were the distant sounds of the doctors and nurses down the hallway.

Deeks just stood there and stared at Kensi for several minutes. He was so used to seeing his kick-ass Kensi, it was surreal to see her pale, quiet, vulnerable. Eventually her lashes began to flutter and Deeks closer, wanting her to know he was there and that she was safe.

"Deeks"

"Hey Kens." He said as he pulled a chair over and then reached for her hand.

"Did the doctor tell you what happened?"

"Yeah, he did. How are you feeling?"

"I'm fine. No pain. Must be on the good stuff."

"Ha! I'll have to find a way to take advantage of that."

"Mmm…There wasn't a baby Deeks."

"I know."

"Why does that make me sad? Shouldn't I be happy? Relieved?"

"I feel the same way. I was really starting to hope we would have a little Kensi running around, making messing, eating all the food in the house."

"Hey!" Kensi said, trying to be tough and light hearted. It didn't work very well. Deeks could see the pain in her eyes, hear it in her voice.

"Scooch over." Deeks told her.

Kensi happily scooted over, wanting desperately to have him closer. Deeks climbed up on the bed and laid next to Kensi, enveloping her in his arms. The safety, security and love in that embrace caused Kensi to let go and just cry. Cry for the loss of what might have been, for what she had secretly hoped would happen.

Deeks heart broke for Kensi. His amazing girlfriend, the love of his life, who put on a front of being tough and fearless, never needing anyone or anything, but deep down was a woman who wanted the same things every other woman wants, a baby, a family… love.

When Kensi calmed down Deeks quietly whispered in her ear. "I love you Kensi. Look, the doctor said it would be safe to try for a baby in three months. If you want to have a baby we can start trying then."

"No, no, that's going to fast. We should take some time, get married and all that first. Right?"

"Who's to say what too fast is? Did I ever tell you about my grandparents?"

"No."

"My grandparents were amazing. They are the ones that took me in after everything went down with my dad. My mom was a mess and they took me in. Raised me really. Anyway, my grandpa fell in love with my grandma at first sight. On their second date he was all set to propose but they were in a graveyard so Grandma told him not to. She loved to go look at the old graves. Loved the history of it all, but it wasn't a very romantic place so she made him wait until their third date. They married and started their family shortly after."

"They were so in love Kensi. Grandma was always real high energy, wound tighter than a spring. Whenever anything went wrong she'd gripe a Grandpa. He would just smile and say 'Yes dear, anything you say dear' in this loving and slightly sarcastic tone. He loved her so much that he never really got angry with her or resentful of the way she was. He just loved her for who she was, without limits or conditions. Grandma loved him too. She just had a different way of showing it. She would fuss at him for eating things he shouldn't and put this massive piles of vitamins in front of him at every meal, but it was because she loved him so much she wanted him with her for as long as possible. I don't think my grandpa made a single meal for himself or washed a single piece of laundry for the entire 58 years they were married."

"That's the kind of love I have always wanted to find. That's the kind of love I have for you Kens, so no, I don't think we are moving too fast. I don't think there is any such thing when you have the kind of love I have for you. I think we should just worry about what feels right for us and act accordingly. So if you want a baby in three months, we'll try for a baby in three months. If you want a marriage first, then we'll get married in two, because this is forever for me Kens."

Kensi pulled her head away from Deeks' neck where it had been tucked ever since he climbed up on the bed. She looked into his eyes and then leaned in and gave him a quick but fierce kiss. "I love you too Deeks. I really do, but I don't think we should really get married and start a family just yet. I want to have you to myself for a while longer. My feelings are just all over the place and messed up right now."

"I know baby. I just wanted to let you know that when you're ready to take the next step I'm right there waiting for you. Of course, I'm always happy to practice the baby making too…but not for two weeks. Doctor's orders."

"Seriously? I'm gonna kill that guy that hit me with that stupid pipe!"

Deeks laughed and then pulled the blankets back up around Kensi's shoulder. "Get some sleep sweetie."

"Stay with me?"

"Of course. There's nowhere else I'd rather be."

While Deeks and Kensi had been talking Sabatino was outside making phone calls to Hetty, Granger, and Sam and Callen, filling them in on Kensi's condition. He headed back inside, flirted with a nurse in order to get Kensi's room number, and then went to check on her. When he got to the room it was silent. He peaked his head inside and saw Kensi and Deeks curled up on the bed together. He quickly snapped a picture to send to the guys to show them Kensi was alright and quietly stepped out. He decided that Deeks obviously didn't need anything and Kensi was well taken care of so he left the hospital and headed to his place to get a bite to eat before going back to work.

When Sabatino opened his door he was rather surprised to see Jack sitting in his living room. "What are you doing man? You're lucky I didn't shoot you!"

"Sorry, you weren't answering your phone and I got sick of waiting out in the hall."

"Well, I spent most of my morning at the hospital, so I wasn't taking any calls that weren't work related."

"Oh, well I need to talk to you. Kensi is messing with me and I am so angry. I just don't know what to do. She's my fiancé, you know? But she tells me she has this surfer now and she doesn't want to marry me, but then I know this thing with the surfer dude won't last. He'll leave her high and dry once he gets bored of her. She belongs with me, you know? She is so beautiful and we look so good together. I know she will regret breaking things off with me. Why would she do this now? Now that I have everything together? I'm ready to give her all the things we dreamed of. We can travel the world, experience new things. That's what we always wanted to do. Why would she abandon all that to get freaky with some beach bum?"

Sabatino leaned forward in his chair and rested his elbows on his knees. "Look Jack, I think you need to move on. Accept that you and Kensi are over and go find some other hot chick to travel with."

"What? Why would you say that?"

"Because, my time at the hospital, I was there because Kensi was injured. When they were wheeling her into the ER she apologized to Deeks for losing their baby. She has well and truly moved on." Sabatino was aware that there never was a baby to lose, but he didn't think Jack needed to know that. Maybe this would help him put Kensi behind him.

"Well, maybe she just stayed with him because of the baby. Maybe she'll leave him now that it's gone!"

"Nah man. It's not like that with them. They are really and truly in love. They want to build a life together. Marriage, babies, the works. Here, look at this picture. I took this just before I left the hospital."

Jack looked at the picture for just a second before looking away. He took some deep breaths to calm himself down and then looked again, taking the time to study the picture. They were all tangled up, Kensi tucked tight in Deeks' embrace. Obviously neither one of them were going anywhere anytime soon. Kensi never cuddled up with him like that, not even after sex. She always said he was too warm and she needed room to breathe.

"People change Jack. Dreams change. Kensi must have been really young when you got engaged. She's grown up, matured. Obviously she's ready to settle down, start a family. Things you would never want to do. Things that would send you running for the hills. It's time to accept that she is a different person and it would never work between you now, regardless of whether or not Deeks was in the picture."

Jack took a deep breath. "You're right man. I kept thinking things would work if I could just get Deeks out of the picture, but you're right. It wouldn't work even if I did. It's really over. I think I'll head out of town tomorrow. Go see what kind of assignment I've got waiting for me."

Sabatino stood and Jack followed him to the door. Jack offered his hand and said "Thanks again" As the two men shook hands. Sabatino then opened the door and ushered his co-worker out the door.

After Jack left Sabatino closed and locked the door and then collapsed on the couch before saying "Thank goodness!" to himself.

A/N: Thanks for sticking with this story. I'm sorry it took me so long to get this out. I thought I was going to get an update out on Super bowl Sunday, but I got a case of writers block and then life got crazy again.

It was 52 degrees F today and I was able to drive with my sun roof open! It appears that spring is finally arriving here in the "Big Sky State" but I will try to get another chapter out soon, despite the distractions that the sunshine brings after a long winter.

That sweet love story about Deeks' grandparents was truly my grandparent's story. My grandpa really did propose on their third date, and they really did love each other like in the story. When my grandpa passed away he was 90 years old and had been married 69 years.

So now, if you bothered to read all my blabbering you are in for a treat. Anyone that knew which state the "Big Sky State" was (without looking it up) can tell me and I'll send you my Grandma's recipe for Mississippi Mud Cake. Grandpa loved it when she would make it, before Grandma cut him off sugar that is. Ok, even if you have to look and want the recipe I'll give it to you, but you do have to confess to your cheating.