Three

"Because why would Sonny want me when he can have someone like Paul?" Will screamed the question out and it echoed through the apartment.

Sonny had been coming back from Victor's and was going to stop at home to see Ari when he had heard yelling. He had stopped outside the door wanting to hear what it was about and hoping that his daughter wasn't inside listening when he had heard those words and froze in place shocked. He finally moved a moment later opening the door to the apartment and finding Will standing with his father and both of them looked surprised to see him.

"Where's Ari?" he asked wanting to know if their daughter had heard the yelling.

"She's with Marlena," Lucas answered seeing that Will had turned his back to Sonny and refused to move.

"I need to talk to my husband," Sonny told his father in law knowing that what needed to be said had to be said in private.

Sonny waited for his father in law to leave and saw the concerned look that Lucas threw out but he didn't say anything and the door was closed leaving them in silence. He opened his mouth to say something when Will stormed into the bedroom closing the door before anything could be said. He sighed and leaned against the desk chair trying to figure out what to even say or think. Sonny had known that his husband was insecure; he always had been from the beginning. He shook his head wondering how he was going to fix this or make him understand that he wanted him not his ex-boyfriend. He honestly didn't even understand where this was coming from really considering that he had made it clear when he got back that Sonny wanted Will and only him, it was the whole reason for trying to fix their marriage. He walked over to their bedroom and turned the door knob walking inside the room to find it dark and the curtains closed.

"Will," he said softly seeing the figure of his husband lying on the bed curled up with his back turned to him.

A muffled cry escaped and Sonny felt his heart breaking because something in the blonde had broken. Something that was probably buried deep inside him broken when the truth of the affair came to light and Sonny had a feeling whatever it was that caused all this insecurity had started in his childhood and the way he was raised. Maybe that was why Will had gotten so crazed in writing a story that would send Paul away. Something had broken in him and he didn't know what it was that caused this break in Will but Sonny had to try to fix this otherwise things just might spiral out of control.

"Will look at me," Sonny pleaded softly.

"Just go away Sonny," Will called out and Sonny could tell from his voice that he was upset and crying.

Knowing that he wasn't going to get much out of the blonde unless he did something Sonny got on the bed and lay down next to his husband. He quickly curled up behind Will and wrapped his arms around the blonde drawing him in close and tightening his hold. Will tried to wiggle his way out for a few minutes but then he realized that Sonny wasn't going to relent his hold and he gave up but he was still tense.

"You need to talk to me Will," he whispered to the blonde.

"His reasons for turning you down are gone," the blonde told him but Sonny knew there was more.

"There's more to it than that and we both know it," Sonny said needing to know because he had a feeling that this was needed for them, for their marriage to be saved.

"He's perfect like you are. He's out, he's famous and he has money," Will explained and Sonny waited knowing there was more, "When he came back to town you didn't tell me that he had and you didn't tell me that you proposed to somebody else before me. Then you found out about the cheating and that it was with him and you called him before you left. You wanted to see him before you left but not me. When you came back you said you wanted to work things out but you didn't even want to share a bed."

Sonny closed his eyes and brought his head down to rest against the blonde's neck. He sighed because he knew that he contributed to this break down by not telling him about Paul but in his defense at the time he didn't think that it mattered anymore. He sighed moving closer to him and tightening his grip. He thought that he would be the only with problems because of their failing marriage and the only one with any type of insecurity but he was wrong.

"In my defense I didn't think that Paul mattered since I didn't love him anymore. And I didn't share a bed with you because every time I thought about you in a bed it was with him," Sonny admitted quietly.

"It was only once Sonny," the blonde started to explain getting upset again and Sonny could feel him start to have a panic attack which had only happened twice in their relationship.

"I know Will just calm down," Sonny whispered making shushing sounds to sooth him because as hurt as he still was he wasn't so hurt that he was going to let the man he love be in pain.

"I'm such a mess. Paul is perfect and I'm a mess," Will told him like he was trying to explain something his hands wrapping around Sonny's wrists gripping them.

"What do I have to do to make you believe that I love you and I'm trying to make us work? I can't forget what you did Will and I'm not excusing it but I'm trying because I'm still in love with you and I can't live without you. You need to tell me what I have to do to make you believe me when I say that I don't want Paul, I only want you. I don't know what else to do," Sonny begged wanting to make this better.

"I'm sorry it's not you and I know that sounds like some made up line but it's true. It's me and I just can't stop all these thoughts and feelings like I'm a big mess that you shouldn't want," Will explained trying to stop from sobbing.

"We have a lot to work through but I'm here Will and I'm still in love with you. That isn't going to change just like the fact that I'm over Paul isn't going to change either," he swore to him not knowing what else to do.

"I'll try to believe you," Will told him but whimpered when Sonny's hold loosened and he asked a question that broke the dark haired man's heart. "Are you going to go sleep on the couch now?"

"No I'm not. We are going to change and then we are sleeping in our bed," Sonny said feeling his heart break.

Sonny wasn't ready yet to change in front of his husband again or sleep naked with him so he left his husband alone to go change in the bathroom needing a moment to collect himself. He still felt like there was more to Will's breakdown that he was getting but at the same time he felt like an ass. He was just trying to give himself time to take things slow and fix their marriage but it seemed that sleeping on the couch had hurt Will immensely and it had caused more of a breakdown. With a sighed he walked out to the bedroom in a pair of sweats and a dark t-shirt to see that Will had changed already as well and was once again curled up with his back to him. Sonny shook his head in frustration at the whole situation wanting to save their marriage but there was so much going on that it was hard. The one good thing about his husband's breakdown was that it just showed Sonny how much he still loved his husband and he was going to do whatever he had to so that their marriage was saved.

So I got inspiration for this chapter from Monday's (3/23/2014). *Spoilers* Seeing Will yell at Paul and show the insecurity he was feeling made me wish that Sonny had followed him and heard that just so he could reassure him and fix things. It also broke my heart to see Sonny blame himself for pushing Will into marriage and a relationship in general. I will be bringing that aspect in very soon. Also I will not unnecessarily bash Paul because I like the guy but this is purely a WilSon story.