Four
The tension between Will and Sonny had lessoned somewhat after his breakdown almost a week ago. It wasn't perfect and there was still so much to work through but at least some of what was bothering Will had been revealed and Sonny was able to talk him down and reassure him. Will's thoughts were filled with how to mend fences with his husband when he came upon the club and stopped when he saw Sonny with Paul outside talking though it looked like his husband was upset. He did his best to ignore the voice in his head that tried to make him feel like he wasn't good enough for Sonny and instead listened into the conversation finding himself a little shocked.
"Look I'm just saying that you need to give Will a break. I mean you were his first real relationship," Paul tried to defend and Will didn't really like that this man was trying to make that a defense because he even knew that it wasn't.
"That isn't an excuse to cheat Paul and I don't know why you are getting involved," Sonny said and the blonde could tell from the way his voice hissed and cracked that the brunette was close to losing it.
"I know I said that I was going to stay out of it and let you guys work things out," the ex-baseball player started to say but was interrupted.
"I am in love with my husband but me being his first real relationship doesn't excuse cheating so do me a favor and stay the hell out of our business," Sonny told him a coldness to his voice that surprised Paul as well as Will.
Will stayed hidden frowning as he watched his husband walk back into the club and Paul leave a disappointed look on his face. He sighed because the look he saw on Sonny's face told him that despite what the brunette told Paul he believed some of what had been said. Will knew that it was his fault and that he should have realized that he wasn't the only one with insecurities or doubts after everything had blown up on them. He was suddenly grateful that his father had taken Ari and he formulated a plan in his head on how to talk to Sonny because it seemed he was not the only one that had insecurities.
~Saving Love~
Sonny was in the back office try to dispel the doubts that started to cloud his mind but it wasn't working. He couldn't help but think that what Paul had said was true and that he had pushed Will into something he wasn't ready for. Everything made him so frustrated that he felt like he was to breakdown at any second and he really couldn't afford to do that. He was so lost in his own misery that he didn't hear the door to the office closing or the footsteps that came his way until arms wrapped around his waist from behind. He jumped slightly surprised but relaxed because he knew instinctively who it was without even looking.
"Hey," Sonny greeted hoping to forget about the doubts he was having and relaxed back into his husband who tightened his grip.
"What has you so lost in thought and looking like your about to breakdown?" the blonde asked wanting to see if Sonny was going to tell him on his own or if he would have to push.
"It's nothing to worry about just stuff with the club," he tried to say but he heard the way that Will sighed against the back of his neck.
"I heard what Paul said to you earlier Sonny so are you going to talk to me or are you just going to let whatever you are thinking and feeling stay hidden until it explodes?" Will asked turning his husband to face him and looking into dark eyes.
"It's not an excuse," the brunette said weakly and both of them knew it.
Will looked into the chocolate eyes of the man he loved and knew that his husband was struggling. He sighed knowing that some of that insecurity had been caused by him and his cheating. The real reason he cheated wasn't because of what Paul had said, he was fine with spending forever with the first man he loved but it was because they had fought and instead of staying to figure things out he had taken the easy way out and ruined everything.
"We both know that you being the first man I have been in a relationship with is not an excuse Sonny but I can see it in your eyes that you doubt that. Sonny you didn't force me into anything I didn't want. I cheated because we fought and I felt like everything was spinning out of control so I took the easy way out," Will explained not letting go of his husband even when he tried to turn away to work.
"Maybe he's right though. I mean I pushed you into marriage," Sonny tried to say not meeting the blue eyes that sought him out.
"That's bullshit Sonny. I may have said no when you first asked but I didn't ask you because I felt forced. I asked you because I love you and I wanted forever with you," the blonde trying to get the words through the brunette's thick skull.
"Then why did you cheat?" Sonny cried out the tears falling.
"Because I'm an idiot that doesn't deserve you," the blonde answered surprising him.
Will's hands cupped his face and the brunette was turned to face his husband. There were tears in the blonde's eyes as well and Sonny tried to stop because he did still have work to do even if things were going to be looking up soon but the way his husband was looking at him wasn't helping. All he wanted to do was fall into his arms but it wouldn't fix things not completely anyway. Sonny finally lost the battle and wrapped his arms around Will's waist, sighing when the blonde wrapped his own arms around him and pulled him into his body. The brunette buried his face into his husband's neck breathing in his scent that even now seemed to calm him down and felt a hand run through his hair comfortingly. Will wanted to kiss his husband but he knew that it was still too soon for Sonny so he just settled for holding him because at least it was a start even if it wasn't perfect.
~Saving Love~
Sonny felt like there was something that had lifted a little with him and Will but he knew it was far from being fixed. He felt tired from crying which is the one thing he hated about it and sighed as he leaned against the counter stopping for a minute to rest. Hearing footsteps he turned with a smile on his face only to frown when he saw Paul standing there once again. For a guy that wanted to stay out of his marriage and let him work things out with Will he sure as hell wasn't doing much of it staying out of anything.
"What do you want Paul?" Sonny asked annoyed and could see the concerned look from T out of the corner of his eye.
"I need to talk to you it's about Will and it's important," he pleaded making the brunette want to groan in annoyance but he also thought that maybe if he heard him out then Paul would go away.
"Hey T can you cover for me for a few minutes?" Sonny asked his friend.
"Yeah," T answered giving him a look but Sonny ignored it.
Silence descended into the air as Sonny led Paul to a secluded area that held many memories for him and stood with his arms crossed waiting for him to say something. The way that Paul looked at him with guilty eyes and the way he was shaking which also showed that he was nervous but Sonny was past caring. All he cared about was making a living and saving his marriage.
"I lied to you earlier when I said that what happened between Will and I wasn't my fault," his ex started to say to him but he interrupted.
"Look Paul unless you forced him then it isn't your fault," Sonny interrupted getting frustrated with going over the same thing over and over again and turned to leave.
"That's the thing Sonny I kind of did force him," Paul said.
The words that Paul spoke made the brunette club owner freeze in shock. The shock soon wore off and he tensed anger coursing through him as he tried to process the news and turned to face his ex. He clenched his hands together hoping to reign in the anger that was making him want to punch Paul. It was one thing to hear that his husband had cheated but to hear that there was a chance that he may not have had a choice just made him see red. He had a feeling that there was more to the story though and so he waited to hear what Paul had to say and then he would judge whether or not his ex would be getting a fist to the face.
I would like to make an important note that I do not hate Paul. I actually like the guy very much but at the same time he did in a way force Will. Will could have easily said no that is true but Paul did try to blackmail Will at first so that will be touched on. Please no unnecessary bashing of Paul to me though. Also did anyone else kind of start to feel really bad for Will during 3/26/2015. *Spoilers* I mean I'm still pissed at him but man the way he wanted to pull Sonny to him but Sonny was too hurt and refused and etc. Just ugh guys.