This is my second time writing this chapter... Because my internet connection failed last time.. Kill me now..
"Rory, Sebastian, come on, we're going to be late!" I called, starting the truck. Rory is now 10, and Sebastian is 8. Clarke has been fighting the cancer for 2 years, but had started experiencing some complications. She had been submitted to the hospital full time as of last week. "Coming!" Sebastian called, eagerly hopping into the back of the truck. Rory had been shutting herself out, refusing to go to the hospital with us, and today was no exception, as she shook her head, closing the door and refusing to come back out. I sighed, closing the door, and pulling out of the drive.
I walked through the hospital, holding onto Sebastian's hand the whole walk to the chemo ward. "Princess..?" I called, knocking lightly on the open door. Clarke turned her head, opening her eyes, which had dark circles under them. I could feel my heart breaking in two as she gave us a week smile. "Hey-" She started, but was cut off as a fit of coughs wracked her body, making her now much smaller, and so much more fragile form, shake. Sebastian walked forward, stopping next to the bed once Clarke had finished coughing, and he looked as if he were about to cry. "Sebastian.." She smiled, reaching out to him. "Come here, I want to share something with you.." She looked at me questioningly, as Sebastian crawled up onto the bed carefully. 'Rory?' She mouthed, and I shook my head some, her eyes brimming with tears. But she shook her head some, looking at Sebastian, holding his face gently between her hands, her eyes filled with an intensity that I hadn't seen for a long time. "Sebastian, promise me you will take care of Daddy and Rory, and always be strong.." She was quiet about it, and my head snapped up, realizing what she was saying. No.. She can't.. "I will.." Sebastian nodded, and I could tell he was trying not to cry. "Good boy.." Clarke smiled, pulling him into a hug as she kissed his forehead. "And remember, no matter what happens, I'll always be with you, right, here." She pulled him back, and pressed her palm into his chest, where his heart was. Sebastian nodded weakly, tears streaming down his cheeks, and I knew he realized why she was saying all this. "I love you, Mommy." He kissed her cheek. "I love you too baby." She smiled. "Can you please give me and your Daddy a moment alone?" She said it quietly, and he nodded weakly, and got up, and I squeezed his shoulder gently, before closing the door behind him, walking over, and taking a seat beside her bed, taking her hand. "I love you, Princess." I whispered as I gave her a kiss. "I love you too, Bell.." She stared at me for a moment, and reached out, touching my cheek. "I'll miss you.." She whispered, and I could feel the tears burning behind my eyes. "No, Princess.." I shook my head, grabbing her hands with both of mine now, holding onto her like it could keep her alive. "Shh.." She grabbed my hands, pulling me forward, and closing her eyes as she kissed me with an urgency, and pulled back, her lower lip trembling. "I want Rory to have Nova.." She whispered, and I choked back a sob as I nodded, pressing my face into her neck. "I'm so so sorry.." I whispered, shaking my head some. "No.. No Bellamy.. Don't.." She shook her head, pushing me back so she could look at me. "Don't be sorry. Because I'm not. I'm only sorry that I won't be able to grow old with you.. See our children graduate.." She had her hand on my neck. "May we meet again.." She whispered, and her eyes drifted shut. "No.. Princess.. Please.." I whispered, but she just smiled a bit, and then she was gone.. Her hand slipped, and fell onto the bed, and I grabbed it almost instantly, the heart monitor showing a flat line. "No.." I choked out, and shook my head. Nurses filled the room, and my body was full of too much shock and sorrow that I couldn't protest while they ushered me out. The last thing I saw of Clarke was her peaceful face..
I stood by the casket in the funeral home, holding Sebastian tightly to my side. I had been selfish, and refused to go to the hospital, and I couldn't bare to think of the pain I caused her when she wasn't able to say goodbye to me.. I shut my eyes tight, hugging Sebastian tightly as I cried, and he hugged me back just as tight. "I'm so sorry.." I whispered, and Sebastian shook his head, crying into my shoulder. This made me hug him tighter, and for a long time we just stood there, hugging each other while we cried..
I had to fight back more tears when I saw Rory and Sebastian hugging, feeling my throat tighten and constrict, making it difficult to breath. So many people had come by to pay their respects to Clarke, even people who didn't know her personally. That's how big of an impact she had on people.. "Bell.." I heard a soft voice, and turned to see Octavia. Her eyes were red and puffy, and I could tell she'd been crying all night. I choked back a sob, and reached for her, and she stepped forward, wrapping her arms tightly around my waist. "I'm so so sorry Bell.. I know how much you loved her.." She whispered, her voice muffled against my shoulder. I held her a little tighter for a moment, and she pulled back, giving me a kiss on the cheek. "Just remember Bell.. She's still with us.." She smiled weakly, then walked up to hug her niece and nephew. I released a shaky breath. She'll always be with us.. And I know one day, we'll be together, as a family, again. I stepped out, needing some fresh air, and looked up towards the sky, where I knew for sure, Clarke was watching. I smiled a bit, and whispered, "May we meet again.."
Can't. Stop. Crying. Anyway, this will be the final chapter, and I will start taking prompts for different one-shots. PM me with ideas guys.
P.S. Thank you all for following this story, this has been my longest running chapter, so, thank you to everyone who favorited, followed, and left a review!
