Title: In Your Eyes
Authors: Raven Shadowrose/BeethovenRIP
Rating: M
Pairing: ?/?
Summary: A joint FanFic by Raven Shadowrose and BeethovenRIP based on Dixie and Jeff's conversation at the end of Series 26 Episode 36. We have rated it M as future chapters will contain adult themes. Dixie wants to be a mother and Jeff is all too willing to oblige, but, does their conversation in the ED have an unexpected effect on their relationship?
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Author's Note: Thank you to chan. nelson4444, olivia. c. king1 and Carlykinz for your reviews and support throughout this story. Thank you to everyone that has read, reviewed, favourited and followed this story too. We hope you enjoy the final chapter.
Chapter Forty.
Dixie waited anxiously for Jeff, he was coming back to her tonight, he'd worked the last of his shifts in London and he'd called just before he left to let her know that he was on his way. She'd spent the afternoon tidying up and sorting the house out for Jeff's return. Dixie sat quietly on the sofa and tried to stop herself from looking at her phone to see if Jeff had called or sent her a message. She knew that he would be driving and therefore unable to get in touch with her but she still wanted to look even though she knew her phone would have told her that there was a message. It wouldn't be long until Jeff was back here with her and Little Abs and living in Holby. Dixie looked at the clock again and willed the hands to move quicker so that she could see Jeff and feel him holding her once again. It was the thought of Jeff holding her that had kept Dixie going all of the time that he had been away and she couldn't wait until she could make her dreams a reality. Dixie just wanted to have Jeff back with her where he belonged.
The journey from London passed in a daze for Jeff, most of his thoughts were about Dixie and his longing to see her again. He had called Dixie as often as he was able to and listening to her voice made him feel happy. He hoped with all of his heart that Dixie had managed to regain some of the weight that she had lost. Jeff had hated seeing Dixie so unnaturally thin and unwell, she didn't look like Dixie, she looked like somebody else. It pleased him to hear that Dixie had been eating better, he just wanted her well and back to her old self. Jeff promised himself that he'd never again say anything like he had to Dixie when he'd been angry. Seeing her in hospital and so unwell had hurt, he knew that it had been his fault she had ended up in there. Jeff was still feeling guilty over asking for a divorce and the transfer, he was trying to reign in his temper and had made himself a promise to always be honest with Dixie no matter what. He didn't want anything to split them up ever again.
Dixie looked at the clock again, she was trying not to but somehow she kept glancing at it and it frustrated it her when she saw that it hadn't moved much. Jeff would be here soon, the thought sent butterflies rampaging through Dixie's stomach. She couldn't wait to see him and hear him tell her that he loved her and that he wanted to be with her forever. Dixie's mind wandered over different thoughts; would Jeff want something to eat or had he eaten on the way here? Would he want to share a bed with her or would he want to stay in his own room? Would he want to make love or would he be too tired? Surely Jeff would want to share with her, she hoped that he would want to. Dixie wanted to feel his arms around her and holding her close to him, she had gone so long without being held and she craved the warmth and safety of Jeff's arms. Jeff made Dixie feel safe at night, after all, who knew what kind of people were hanging around.
Jeff parked the car in the drive and looked up at the house that he had left behind when he went to London. It felt like an age since he had been here and the house was a very welcome sight. Jeff opened the boot of the car and piled all of his personal belongings on the doorstep. He locked the car when he had finished and then stood on the step for a couple of seconds. Jeff wondered again if Dixie had regained some of the weight that she had lost. The image of her in a hospital bed and looking unwell landed squarely in his mind and he shook his head to try and get rid of it. Jeff momentarily thought about how nervous he was feeling, he wasn't sure why he was nervous, he only knew that he was. He wondered if he should knock on the door or if he should just go in, would Dixie even have the door unlocked? Jeff shook his head and he pushed the handle down, he was about to see his Dixie again.
Dixie heard the door open, she knew that it would be Jeff and she ran out into the hall, Little Abs followed her and started jumping up at Jeff, she smiled at them both as Jeff stroked Abs' head. 'Hello mate, it is nice to see you again. I have missed you and mummy so much.' He stroked Abs a few more times and then stood up. Dixie went over to Jeff and wrapped her arms around his waist, much like she had done at the park. She felt Jeff's arms move around her and hold her close to him. 'Hello princess.' Dixie heard the emotion in Jeff's voice, he was clearly happy to see her again. She snuggled herself happily into Jeff's arms and she breathed deeply, taking in the scent of his aftershave to prove to herself that he was really back with her. 'Jeff,' she whispered, she wanted to say more but she was struggling to find the words, they wouldn't come to her no matter how hard she tried. 'It's all right, I'm here princess. I'm here now Dixie.'
'I know, I'm glad that you are.' Dixie hugged Jeff tighter, now that she had hold of him she didn't want to let him go.
'Come on Dixie, let me get my stuff inside and you can cuddle me as much as you like.'
'Really? You promise?'
'I promise.' Dixie slowly let go of Jeff and she helped him to bring all of his stuff into the house, they put it out of the way at the back of the hall and then Jeff closed the door.
Jeff led Dixie by the hand into the lounge and he sat down on the sofa, Dixie sat next to him and she cuddled up to him. He put his arms around Dixie's shoulders and kissed her on the head. Jeff noted that Dixie had gained quite a bit of weight since he had last been here and she had coloured her hair again. He was relieved, Dixie looked a lot healthier and more like her old self again. Little Abs came and sat down by the sofa. Jeff looked down at the dog and then at Dixie who was happily snuggled up to him, he loved them both so much and he didn't want to lose either of them ever again. 'Dixie, I'm glad to be home.'
'I'm glad you're home too. Do you want anything to eat?'
'I'm okay princess, I had something on the way home. Are you hungry?'
'No love, I ate earlier, I had pizza.' Jeff smiled, pizza had always been one of Dixie's favourite foods and he was pleased that she was eating it again. The fact that Dixie was enjoying her food made Jeff feel happy. He gently tilted Dixie's head until she was looking at him and he looked into her eyes, they had their sparkle back. Dixie was herself again and Jeff smiled down at her, he leaned in and softly captured her lips with his.
Dixie opened her mouth beneath Jeff's kiss, she felt his tongue gently caress her own and she moved closer to Jeff as they kissed. She felt Jeff's hand move up and then down her body, it stopped just under her breast and she felt him gently caress the underside of her breast with his finger. Dixie sighed quietly as Jeff moved away from her lips and rested his head against hers. 'Dixie, my beautiful Dixie, come with me princess.'
'Where?'
'Upstairs, I want to make love to you and then hold you in my arms as we sleep.'
'Okay,' she whispered.
'Are you sure princess? If you're not then we can just go to bed to sleep.' Dixie nodded, she wanted to make love to Jeff as much as he wanted to make love to her.
'I'm sure.'
'All right.' Dixie put her hand into the one that Jeff held out to her and she let him lead her upstairs.
Jeff opened the door to Dixie's bedroom and closed it behind them, he switched on the lamp and then closed the door behind them, the curtains followed and then he turned back to Dixie. Jeff went over to Dixie and he gently took her hands in his, he looked at her and then put his arms around her, holding her tight. Jeff breathed in the scent of Dixie's hair, she had obviously washed it not long ago and he could smell her shampoo. He was happy that Dixie was safe and well, he took comfort from having her in his arms, he had come so close to losing her. 'Dixie, my Dixie,' he whispered quietly. Jeff felt lucky to have Dixie in his arms and in his life again, he loved her so much and he was going to make the most of the second chance that he had been given.
Dixie let Jeff hold her, she sensed his need to be held close and she put her arms around him. She heard Jeff sigh into her hair and he kissed her on the cheek. Dixie slowly lifted Jeff's shirt off over his head and she smiled at him, she lifted her arms up and her own shirt followed Jeff's onto the floor. Jeff took her bra off and he held his arms out to her, Dixie wrapped her arms around Jeff and she felt his arms close around her. 'It's been so long since we've been together like this.'
'I know princess.' Dixie looked up into Jeff's eyes and she smiled at him, she loved him so much. She slowly removed the rest of Jeff's clothing and her own soon followed them.
'Jeff, come on love, come and lie with me.' Dixie lay down on the bed and encouraged him to lie down with her, she tilted her head to the right and looked into Jeff's eyes. She saw love, passion and gentleness in his eyes, he was her Jeffrey and she was glad to have him back again. 'Love you Jeffrey.'
'Love you princess.' Dixie leaned in and kissed Jeff, she stroked his cheek again and she rested her forehead against his.
'Make love to me Jeff,' she said quietly and he nodded his agreement.
Jeff lay on his side next to Dixie and he trailed his fingers over her arm and down to her fingers. He just looked at her in the light of the lamp, her curves were coming back and he smiled. 'You are so beautiful princess.' He kissed Dixie on the head and stroked his fingers over her body until he reached her stomach and he rested his hand there as he gazed down at her. He noticed the blush that coloured Dixie's cheeks as he looked at her. 'My Dixie.'
'I'm yours Jeff, always.' Jeff captured Dixie's lips with his own and he felt her hand run up and down his back as their naked skin touched. He felt himself becoming turned on as he stroked Dixie's bare skin with his hand and she touched him, he wanted her and needed her. Jeff slowly moved out of the kiss, he sat up on the bed and he slipped on a condom. 'Dixie, I want us to try something.' He smiled at Dixie and guided her into position until she was sat in his lap with his length buried inside her body. 'Wrap your legs and arms around me princess.' Dixie did as he asked her and Jeff held her close, they were connected again and he loved the way that it felt.
Dixie looked into Jeff's eyes as he slowly started to move inside her, the position they were in meant that everything felt so much more intense and deep. She could feel every inch of Jeff's length inside her and she moaned into his mouth as he kissed her. Dixie pulled away from the kiss and she looked into Jeff's eyes as he moved inside her, she rocked her hips against his and she was rewarded with a moan from Jeff. She soon found her timing and began to move in sync with Jeff's movements and she moaned again as her orgasm started to work its way through her body. 'My Jeffrey, I love you.'
'Love you too sweetheart.' Dixie wrapped her arms tighter around Jeff and pulled him closer as her body slipped into sweet release.
Jeff looked into Dixie's eyes as he made love to her, he maintained eye contact with her and moved his hips up to hers. He held onto her tightly as his own orgasm rushed through his body shortly after Dixie had hers. Jeff kissed Dixie on the head and held her close, he didn't want to let her go just yet. 'Dixie,' he said softly and he kissed her, he kept it slow and tender and stroked her hair as he held her close to him. Jeff noticed that Dixie still had her rings on the chain around her neck, he reached up and released the chain that was holding them. He let the rings fall off and into his hand. 'Dixie Collier, I love you, always. Be mine?'
'Jeffrey Collier, I love you, I am yours, forever.'
'Forever,' Jeff repeated and put the rings back on Dixie's finger. He really did like the sound of forever with Dixie, he loved her so much and wanted her by his side always.
Dixie snuggled up to Jeff, she didn't feel like sleeping just yet so she moved until she could look at Jeff's face. 'Jeff?'
'Yes princess.'
'We will be all right now, won't we?'
'Of course we will my love, I'm not going to let anything come between us ever again.'
'Neither will I.'
'Good, I'm going to love you forever sweetheart.'
'I like the sound of that, forever, it's nice.'
'It is.' Dixie snuggled herself back up against Jeff's chest and just let him hold her, she was back in his arms and she didn't want to be anywhere else. She loved Jeff more than anyone and she was determined that she would always be by his side.
Jeff looked down at Dixie, she was still awake but her eyes would close every so often and he knew that she was falling asleep. 'Goodnight princess.'
'Goodnight Jeffrey.' Jeff smiled at the sleepiness in Dixie's voice. Dixie's hand was resting on Jeff's chest and he looked at the rings that now sat on her finger, it meant the world to Jeff that Dixie had welcomed him back into her life. He wanted her in his life more than anything, without her it felt as if his whole world was coming crashing down around him. Jeff hadn't been able to focus properly when he had been without his Dixie, he loved her so much and wanted to be with her. Jeff gently cradled the now sleeping Dixie in his arms. 'I love you princess and I promise you that I'm going to tell you that at least once every day.' Jeff rested his head back against the pillow and he silently vowed that he would always take care of the woman that was lying in his arms, he would be near her when she needed him and give her all of the love that she deserved, forever.