*A/N: Now if you don't know I going to check my own story(okay I know I said that before). Reason why I really just want my story up fast and having a beta reader is slowing me down. Not to insulted all Beta Reader I glade that they have something like that. But I just want to update and finish quickly. So please enjoy all miss spell words and grammar errors.

Chapter 7

Johan didn't want to open his eyes. He felt so safe and clam where ever he was. Still he felt something that was unsettling. He know the filling and if he didn't wake up he know what might happen. His turquoise eye open slowly and the first thing that caught his eyes was a certain burnet. Judai was smiling big when he saw Johan awake. "Hey have a good nap?"

"Jud…ai," Johan said slowly, "Where am I?"

"The nurse's office. Mai-san let me stay whi….aww" before Judai could finish his cheek was pinch. Johan sat up quickly and saw a blond woman where a white coat.

"Judai-kun how many times do I have to tell you it Mai-chan." She let go of Judai's cheek and look at Johan. To Johan she was a strange nurse. Long blond hair, lovely purple eyes, and a big chest. To any man or boy she would be an idol, but to him he still like Judai's look more then her. "Hello there Johan-kun! My name is Mai-chan and I am the school nurse." She let out her 10 out of 10 smile. "It seem like your fever went down but I want to give you some so that it won't return. Also you can stay here until the end of school if you like."

She bent down to his eye level. "But before I can give you something I have to talk to you about something." She turn around to Judai, "Judai can you give this letter to Jonouchi." She handed Judai the piece of paper. Judai frown but Johan nodded his head telling him it okay to leave. The burnet let out a sigh and went out of the office.

"So Mai-chan…" Johan said in a unsettling voice, "what wrong?"

"Look your fever wasn't cause by a cold, but I still don't know what the cause was." She sat down on the bed next to Johan's. "Can you give me a clue. Like did this ever happen at your last school?"

Johan quickly shook his head, "No I….just didn't get a goodnight sleep." His voice was rattled, "You know a new house, new city, and unknown surrounding. I still not use to sleeping here."

"Right," her voice said that her believe him but she still know something was off. "Look if there anything you like to talk about just tell me. I won't tell a soul trust me."

Johan look at Mai wondering if there any trust he have left. "Don't worry I okay just tired that all."

She let out a sigh and give up. "Fine but trust me when I said that something don't seem right with you and it reminds me of someone I know." She then got up, "I'll get you the medicine just rest here." She left him to think about what she just said.

"Really, I doubt that anyone went through what I going through right now." Johan thought as lay back down.

Jonouchi's office

Judai open the door to the older blond office. He saw the counselor on his desk sleeping. "Jonouchi awake up," The burnet step in the office and close the door behind him. "Jonouchi time to get up." Still no response from the blond. Judai was about to get closer when the office door open. Judai turn around and saw the older burnet. Judai smile, "Good afternoon Kaiba-san." The older burnet just walk pass him.

"So Judai why are you here and not in class."

"Let see it started about lunch time when me and Johan was talking about how…"

Kaiba sigh, "Just tell me why you not in class."

"Oh Johan was asleep in the lunch room and Yugi-san told me that I should just take him to Mai-sa..chan's office. Then Yugi-san and Mai-chan told me that I can just skip class and stay by my Johan's side." Judai smile big and his mind was on Johan.

"At time like these I wonder what my staff thinks about. It seem like it more for what the students wants then what the needs."

"It cause you let…" Both look at the blond whose head was still down, "me chose the staff. Besides…" He left his head and saw the two burnet in his office, "you known how my friends are. So Judai why are you in my office?"

"Right," The golden eyes teen pull out the piece of paper, "Mai-chan told me to give this to you," he handed to Jonouchi the note. The hazel eyes adult open the letter and started to read it.

Kaiba looked Judai, "Is that all," the golden eyes teen nodded, "Then go back, there no need to stay around."

Judai look at him then at Jonouchi then back at him. "Oh I see you want to have fun wit…" Kaiba quickly grab Judai and push him out of the office.

"Judai you have one weird imagination," said Kaiba while closing the door. Judai sigh and headed back to the his Johan.

Kaiba turn around to Jonouchi whose head back down on the desk, "What the matter? And what did the note said?"

"Nothing much just that Johan have a fever and she knows that it not cause by a cold. I don't know what she wants me to do. It all depend on Johan and if he say what we all know then I can make a move but not until then." Kaiba look at his lover with a surprise look, "Now there something that I thought I'll see," The blue eyes adult was out of his state of shock.

"What 'you never that you thought you'll see.'"

"You having a surprise look on you face," the blond left up his head, "what made you so surprise?"

"You having a decent thought for once. Also you thinking headed that something that you never done in the past.

Jonouchi let a small laugh, "Well in that past I was more scary to think what would happen."

Nurse's office

Judai quickly got back to Johan whose was now sitting up, "Hey Johan where is Mai-san opps I mean Mai-chan?"

"She said that she have paper stuff to do in the office. Also it would take a while to finish. So it just you and me."

"Really," Judai smile happily knowing that he left alone with his crush, "how you filling now Johan?" He ask while seating in the chair next to Johan's bed.

"Just fine Judai, it nothing to fuss over," Johan smiled at the burnet.

"Okay but you did have me worry. Even now you still look like you about to pass out." Johan didn't know what to say but he couldn't tell Judai that the reason why he wasn't filling like his normal self.

"Like I said before Judai," he force a smile, "I didn't get that much sleep last night. I was really busy with putting my stuff away." Judai wanted to protest some more but figure that Johan was going to stick with his story and nodded in agreement at the end. "So did they call my guardian?" said Johan in a worry voice that Judai notice.

"Um…well…" Judai scratch his cheek and his eye look the over way. Johan knew the answer was yes and even worse that he didn't know whether or not the his uncle Greaser would come or not to the school. Judai notice the fright look his crush's eyes, "Sorry if I knew that you didn't want them to call I would have stop it. They have to when it come to some like this but I would have cut the main wire to the phone lines if I knew."

Johan heard the disappointment in the burnet voice and knowing it was his fault for filling the way that he did. "It okay Judai I know they have to. Still did they got in contact with him?"

Judai shook his head, "Mai…sa…I mean Mai-chan said that the phone seem to be disconnected and his cell he didn't pick up." Johan felt relieved, "Also Mai-chan said his message box was filled so she couldn't even leave a number." Johan let out a sigh of relieve knowing that he got off this time.

The a thought enter the young emerald eyes teen head, "Wait Judai how do you know where the main phone line is?"

"Cause I disconnect the phone about ten time for the last year." Judai said it proudly and Johan just look at him disbelieve."

"Ten time in the last year?"

"Yup."

"What for?"

"I don't remember," Judai said with turn his head to his shoulder and folded his arms across his chest. Johan can tell he dose remember but just didn't want to say why.

"Judai," Judai look at Johan. Johan look at Judai and motion him to set next to him on the bed. Which Judai was more then happy to take.

"What is it Johan?" Judai ask while sitting next to Johan.

"I been wondering something since I first got here…well more like two." Judai nodded his head for Johan to continue, "I wanted to know why is it that when we met a staff member, they already know me as someone that you like. Why is that?" Johan look at Judai whose face become hard.

"Well, I usually don't tell people this and even my best friends don't know this. Since it is you and I trust you Johan more thing anyone or anything they I'll tell you." He gave the turquoise hair teen a soft smile. "It happen when I was young, really young, to be honest I really don't it so well. Still what I do remember. I use to have this neighbor. He was the same age as me and we both have the same interest. My parents told me that we were just like twins. I play with him day in and day out. We attended the same per school, we switched off whose house to eat at, and then they we just sleep over all the time. What I was told the we hardly left each other side. My parents told me they worry that I didn't hang out with other children my age. Then I would said that `I love him and I want him to be my wife.` My dad just laugh but my mom knew that I was serious.

One day my closest friend just move with his parents to somewhere else. I think I was really upset and I didn't even said good by to him. I just went straight to my room and lock the door. My mom said that I didn't even went to school or outside. I was just lock myself in my room and did nothing but cried. My mom and dad was worry, so they force me to attended a play date. When I got to the kid's house, I tossed a glass vase at them causing him to bleed from his nose. Of course I was told to leave and never come back. That just made my parents worry even more. They tired again and once again I toss things at them. By that time I remember that I felt nothing and wanted to see the kids I visited in pain. Eventually my parents force me to see a Doctor." Judai pause and turn his head.

"What happen after that?"

"I knock the Doc out cold." He smiled and Johan was in shock.

"You what?"

"I acted like I was interest in one of his awards and then I jugged it at his head. The people in the office heard that noise and rush right in. At that time they tired to force me to leave but the Doc got up and said no. I notice that he was bleeding but I didn't care. Still what got to me that he wanted me to stay. For the longest of time my parents, kids, and other people didn't want me around. But he did and eventually I open up. He said that my out bursts was cause by loneness and he not sure if I could warm up to people again. He was right though, even though I have friends like Sho, Asuka, and Fubuki it took them years of trying to be my friend to get close to me. Even now I still distancing myself from them. What the Doc said the I have a problem with abandonment and fear that I would get hurt if I let someone get never me again.

But when I first saw you I felt something." He looked at Johan and Johan saw the passion in Judai's eyes. "You made me fill that I the missing part in my heart was filled again. That the friend I met before was back and I quickly wanted to get back to the exact friendship were we left off. I more then sure even now that," Judai grab both of Johan hands and held them up to their faces. Johan blush as Judai look at him, "you are the boy I met then. The boy that I was head over held for. The best friend that I wish to marry back then even now I wish that." Johan felt tears coming for his eyes by seeing Judai tears.

"But Judai how can you be sure that I him."

Judai smile and let on of his hand to let go of Johan and grab something from his pocket. Johan saw it, a piece of a paper that was a picture. "The Doc said that I shouldn't carry any reminder of the boy that left, but I had a filling that I would me him again." He lifted the picture so Johan could see. The turquoise hair teen eyes widen in shock. Judai was right. The picture was of him and Judai. The young Judai in the picture had his arms around the neck of a young Johan. Both was smiling and look so care free. Johan look at Judai whose put the picture back in his pocket. "See when I first saw you I didn't have to think twice I knew it was you. That why I kiss you back then, and that why I have to be with you." Johan was breathing in and out trying to get some air to his brain.

"Judai, I …" no words could explain how he felt. For Johan himself he did remember a young boy that he love deeply. So much that he wanted to marry him too. Still the ugly truth that Johan wasn't clean like he was back then. His uncle see to that, and that why they left in the first place. Even though he begged his parents not to move they said that they have to. Now that he was back with the one person he ever loved how could Judai love him back. "Judai…I…"Johan took a deep breath. "A lot of things have changes since then and how can you expect that things could be like there were back then?"

"I can't but Johan, but seeing you know I know that it was meant to be." He held Johan's hands in front of them again. "Johan, I know that something is wrong with you. That you have demons that you can't get rid of but I want you to know that I am here for you and I not going anywhere. I don't care if you tell me or not but I want you to know that I still love you and I want to be with you."

"Why…" Johan look down.

"Cause it just how it is."

"Why?"

"There no one else but you."

"Why?" Johan look at him with tears in his eye, "Why do you have to say that you love me. How can you love with what happen to me."

Judai was surprise with those words, "What do you mean with `what happen to me.` Well that doesn't matter, I still love you."

"Stop say those words!" Judai was shock that Johan was now yelling. "I am not the kid you knew back then I had to change!"

"Even if you did. Don't you remember what I said to you yesterday. I here for you…"

"Judai!" said Johan trying to make him stop.

"and that I like you,"

"Judai!"

"and you like me."

"Judai! I was rape!" Johan shouted it from the top of his lungs not caring with other people heard or not. Judai let go of Johan hand, "See I knew it you don't like the idea of someone else touchin…" Johan words was cut off by Judai's hug.

"Johan, I …can't act like I know what you went through. Still this what I do know that I want to help you."

"Judai, I can't be…"

"Don't say that!" yelled Judai, "You have no right to think that we can't be together." He pulled Johan so that he can look at him in the face. Judai saw the tears in Johan face. "Please Johan, let me help you. I know that I can."

Johan shook his head no, "You can't. Day after day since he become my guardian he made sure the no one can."

"Who is he Johan."

"…my…my Uncle Greaser." Johan said in a whisper but loud enough so that Judai could hear it.

"What?"

"When I move back then Judai was because of him. He touch me and my parents decided to move to my dad home town." Johan lifted on of his right arm and grab Judai left arm, "But he fallow us and kill them Judai." He tighten his hold on Judai's arm.

"How can you be sure?"

"Why wouldn't I be. I saw him did it right in front of me." Johan smiled a fake smile. "He shot my dad then my mom protected me and then she was gone too. My uncle force himself on me right then and there. Say what kind of son am I for having sex right after they die. I felt a shame, dirty and worst alone. Then my uncle made fake wills saying that he was my legal guardian. After my last school figure something was going on, we left to here. Ever since those day my life have been a living hell. His hands touching me just to hurt my body. Making me remember his touch so that my body would react to his liking. I fear that if someone here would to ever figure out what happening with me, he would force me to move again. But I don't want to not after I met you again Judai. So please!" Johan grab hold of Judai other arm and started to cry again while looking down. "Please Judai," He look up at the golden eyes teen, "don't tell anyone."

Judai know that it wasn't the right thing to do but how could he not but to promise Johan what he wanted. Judai nodded and Johan smile. "Thank you," the turquoise hair teen kiss the burnet on the lips and then let go, "my love." Johan could fill himself losing his consciousness and pass out do to the strain of emotion he just went through. Judai caught him before he could fall over. He place his Johan down on the bed while he got off himself. He smile to see that he have a peace look on him for once. "He must have been wanting to tell some one for such a long time. I guess he must fill a bit better." said Judai was moving some of the turquoise hair out of the face of Johan. Still the one thought that bugs him was the bastard of a shit uncle he had. "No one touch my gem angle like that." he thought putting head to lean on his hand, "there must be something I can to but what?"

A/N; Let see when I was typing this I never attend to write Judai's past or have Johan to admit yet but it when I was writing it went so well together. I couldn't help but to keep on writing. I just when on and on. ^^ So what can Judai do to save his love Johan. Would Greaser find out about Johan deep love for Judai. Well I guess you just have to wait see ya next chapter ^^