Yeap I was dead and yeah I knew I was Hell he was soooooooo going to ground me for the rest of my life. My father hated violence of any sort, me and Caleb no matter what the situation my father had taught us never to raise our hand to other people. That includes slapping some Bimbo not that I believe in fights yea one time when Sam hawk took my comic book in 4 grade I hit him but that was different this was more serious now that I was older .

I was told to meet my dad outside the school, he must have got off early or something or maybe the embrassement of me fighting with someone in a peaceful reservation was more shame to him. I walked over to my father Black Jeep he looked so Pissed and that scared me.

Me: Dad I'm…

Dad: I don't want to here it….

He caught me off, he did that when he was annoyed with me and this was what I was used to. I loved my dad but I didn't like him, ever since my mom died he pretended I didn't exist just the certain conversations about school and about my friends. When Caleb left that's when there was silence, I didn't know what to say to him an for the best part of all those years of not talking it seemed easier not to try.

We arrived home and it looked dark outside the wintry night where coming in now and that sucked but that was LaPush for you. I jumped out of the jeep and walked to my front door my dad following behind carrying his briefcase, I opened the door and went to walk upstairs but my dad looked at me with a stern look that meant sit down.

Dad: Now lets start from the beginning( he sat down on his chair looking straight at me). why were you fighting?

Me: Amber said some pretty bad things about me soo I hit her

Dad: What have I told you about lifting your hand to other, it's wrong and a immature way to behave.( he looks at me anger is all I see).

Me: She called me fat and a pale face who didn't belong….( I look seriously at my dad).

Dad: you could have ignored her….

Me: but I didn't and that's why I sit here telling you I didn't mean for it to happen

I couldn't believe the way he was acting.

Dad: to right it shouldn't have of happened , you made an idiot out of yourself and of me ( He stands up).

Me: What!, why do you always turn it his round to you?

Dad: Watch your tone young lady? ( His voice turns angerly).

Me: You never listen to me…. Ever….Do you know what it's like to feel like you don't fit in?

He just stared at me uninterested.

Dad: Your grounded…..you go to school and then home no outings with anyone nor even Jacob Black

Me: How do you know about Jacob?

Dad: You're the new couple in La Push, Sue Clearwater was telling me this morning about how perfect you's are together and I didn't know what the hell she was going on about …

Me: I was going to tell you I just didn't have the chance….

Dad: Well here's your chance ! ( He claps his hands pretending to be interested).

Me: He's good to me, he listens and he sees me and nothing else and for once in my life it feels great to be noticed

Dad: Maybe this is the reason why your acting out….

Me: What Jacob wasn't any where near me when the fight happened

I knew he would turn this round on Jacob but it was true Jacob would never except me to fight for him but I did.

Dad: That's because He's never in!

Me: He has to deal with a lot of stuff

Dad: An a good education isn't apart of that

Me: you don't understand!

Dad: Well help me!

Me: I love him and he loves me

Dad: Your 17 you don't know what love is….

Me: An you do…you hate the fact I exist and don't say you don't because that's how it feels

Dad: I…your not allowed to see him

Me: You can't stop me! I won't let you

Dad: you wanna bet! This is my house and you'll live by my rules….

Me: I hate you, the only reason I'm still here is for Caleb as soon as I'm 18 I'm gone

I stand up an walk to the stairs my dad follows me.

Dad: Great all the better then huh ( His voice sarcastic).

Me: For once in my life butt out if mom was alive things would be different

Dad: Yeah it would be I wouldn't have to deal with your stupid whining maybe it would have been better if it was you rather her….

Is stepped back, I felt like someone had punched me in the gut. I couldn't breathe at all, the tears poured and all I could hear was my heart beat.

Dad: River…I didn't…..(I grabbed my coat and ran before he could grab me).

I kept going faster ,faster and the I stopped right in the middle of the forest looking around that the darkness and the smell of dampness surrounding me and the feeling of anger, betrayal the feeling of unwantedness. He was right she deserved to live, I was pointless in this world and the only thing keeping me alive was my brother and Jacob. I sat on the damp ground floor and brought my knee up to my chest and rocked myself back an fourth, the rain began to pelt down quickly and there in the shadows was him my creature, my wolf Jacob.

He walked over to me and looked into my eyes quickly going away and coming back human, he knew everything and I knew he did. He lifted me up of the damp ground and held me close as my body shook with sadness and anger. I then fell asleep from the emotions that at been stirring in my heart and brain.