I quickly awoke to find myself in warm place where there was a fire going. I looked around and found Jacob lying next to me wide awake. This place was some kind of cabin that I'd never seen before so I was abit curious even though I was still upset.

Me: Where are we? ( I looked into his eyes which looked extremely dark with just the fire going).

Jacob: A cabin, I found it when I was away last year ….it helped me feel at least human

Me: I guess you heard ….everything then …( I looked at him).

Jacob: Nope ( I look at him sternly), Maybe some of it….( he looked like he was pretending but it wasn't happing) Okay all of it I didn't feel right leaving you so I kinda was near

Me: I wished you'd never heard that, He hates me….( I began to cry which I never did because it made me feel defenceless but Jacob brought me closer to him).

Jacob: I think he was just angry, Sometimes anger changes what you think you should say Trust me I know anger pretty well… ( He tried to me make feel better).

Me: I don't want to go back…. I can't be in that house anymore…. ( My voice was weak).

Jacob: We can spend the next couple days here but running away doesn't help….I'm sorry your hurting I would do anything to change this ( He placed his lips on m my head).

Me: It's just unfair, I hate being near that house it just makes you feel unwelcome…. My dad wishes I was dead instead of my mom and that hurt like hell….( I couldn't look at him my tears where pouring from my eyes).

Jacob slowly lifted me so I sat between his legs his long arms wrapping me tightly to him.

Me: Maybe it would be easier if she was around and not me it's pointless , I feel so lost and I don't know what to do? ( I spoke out loud).

Jacob pulled my face to him looking hurt, his darks eyes serious almost terrified looking.

Jacob: Don't ever wish yourself not to be here I couldn't live without you. You are the reason I'm alive and sane. Plus your dad loves you he just has funny way of showing it and then there's Caleb who loves you and everyone thinks your special

Me: I'm not…I guess before you came along the only thing that kept me going was Caleb

Jacob: Has he always treated you this way? ( Voice calming).

Me: He used to be amazing, he loved me but I when my mom died so did all the that love. He focused more on his teaching and Caleb but even Caleb didn't get any of that love…( The tears continued).

Jacob: You know losing someone you love hurts my dad wasn't the same when my mom died and the twins had to look after me while he dealt with the pain.

Me: Did you ever feel alone ?

Jacob: Yeah ( he nods while playing with my hair). I mean Rachel and Rebecca where real good but it wasn't the same I felt like I was stopping there childhoods but my dad realised he had to go on for us and for my mom

Me: I felt soo alone when she died , no one spoke for ages, and the silence hurt even more…. Caleb tried to talk to him but he would just ignored everything he had to say

Jacob: I guess everyone deals with pain in a different way… Would you like something to eat, I have some Pizza or you could have sandwich….

Me: Am no thanks, kinda not feeling like food

Jacob: How about some Hot coco with marshmallow…( He grinned).

Me: …Okay ( I could tell it would make him happy).

Jacob: Great it's ready an all …

Me: You never cease to surprise me…( lean closely against his chest).

He smelt forestry yeah not a real word but fresh and I liked that.

Jacob: I do have my moments ( He laughs).

Me: Yeah and I'm glad they're with me….( Jacob's then kisses my cheeks almost wiping my tears away, this cause me to giggle).

Jacob: They're only with you…you make me feel relaxed and human

Me: Well you make me feel normal and that's a hard thing to do when your family's screws up and your larger than life.

Jacob: All families have their problems…it wouldn't be a family if it didn't and your are not huge for the last time….. I like your size it's perfect and you should feel more confident your beautiful and I really do like curves they're sexy ( His voice smooth and deep, his eyes staring strightly at me).

He was able to make me feel good about myself which most cases you should feel that for yourself. Jacob had this aura of happiness and it was good to have a boyfriend that could do that.

Jacob: So extra Marshmallows…or extra extra….( he wriggled his eyebrows amusingly).

Me: extra please ( I giggled).

Jacob: Great….( he slowly let go of me an got of the bed to walk over to the small kitchen part of the Cabin) so what do you think I would have cleaned up more if I knew we'd been coming here….( Jacob turns round to me has he takes the pot of the cooker).

Me: I like it, I like how cozy and warm like you…( I blush).

Jacob: It was great to have something that reminded me of home , when I was away….. I'm happy to be sharing it with you… No one knows about this place but me and now you ( Jacob puts the marshmallows on top of the hot coco).

Me: Really so I'm officially the first ( I smiled)

Jacob: An definitely the last ( He grinned, Jacob walked over carrying two black mugs ).

Me: I love Hot coco….( I grin, I curl my legs under me holding the mug carefully as I can).

Jacob: I think it probably the coolest things ever invented ( We laugh agreeing together). When I was younger my dad would make me it to help me sleep or feel better

Me: It's the fact it's chocolate and is warm that gets people….( I take a sip).

Jacob: And the marshmallows help a lot ( He smirks).

My mind starts to wonder again I wish my life wasn't so annoyingly complicated, here I was with this perfect person and I hated feeling like I was pulling him along with me.

Me: I suppose the other imprints aren't has complicated, ( I place on of my hands on his larger one). I'm sorry you have to deal with stuff….it sucks ( I look down has holds my hand tightly).

Jacob: Everybody has problems and I'm probably the biggest person with lots of issues and the Wolf pack aren't all as amazingly happy as they seem but that's life( he sets his cup down and then mine). River you're my imprint ( he stares into my eyes holding both of my hands). An my life, I just want to make sure your happy and to me that's all that matters…. ( He then kisses my lips softly).

Me: You know you scare me your perfect, , as cheesy has that sounds your make me feel good….

Jacob: I want to make you feel good all the time because that why I'm here. An plus I love making out and having you very very close to me ( he grins showing his perfect whites).

Me: Way to go Mr smooth…( I then moved over to him and placed a small kiss on his lips, that's when he pulled me on top of him). I thought you liked Hot coco…. ( I looked over to the mugs).

Jacob: I do but you taste far better…( I wrapped my arms around his neck has kissed me deeply, leaving me dizzy).

I touched his face feeling his strong jaw , he was so powerful and feeling those muscles underneath me felt great an even better close to me. I loved how he let me be in control, I think he wanted me to feel comfortable and he did. Jacobs hands traced from lower back to me hips, they rested there.