Lost in the echo- linkin park

Monster- Meg and Dia DotEXE remix

You were that foundation Never gonna be another one, no.
I followed, so taken So conditioned I could never let go Then sorrow, then sickness Then the shock when you flip it on me So hollow, so vicious So afraid I couldn't let myself see That I could never be held Back or up no, I'll hold myself Check the rep, yep you know mine well Forget the rest let them know my hell There and back yet my soul ain't sell Kept respect up,the best they fell,
Let the rest be the tale they tell That I was there saying

In these promises broken Deep below Each word gets lost in the echo So one last lie I can see through This time I finally let you Go, go, go.

Test my will, test my heart Let me tell you how the odds gonna stack up Y'all go hard, I go smart How's that working out for y'all in the back, huh?
I've seen that frustration Been crossed and lost and told "No"
And I've come back unshaken Let down and lived and let go So you can let it be known I don't hold back, I hold my own I can't be mapped, I can't be cloned I can't C-flat, it ain't my tone I can't fall back, I came too far Hold myself up and love my scars Let the bells ring wherever they are 'Cause I was there saying...

"No, you can tell 'em all now I don't back up, I don't back down I don't fold up, and I don't bow I don't roll over, don't know how I don't care where the enemies are Can't be stopped, all I know; go hard Won't forget how I got this far " I sang the last part as I finished kicking the shit out of the dummie I was practicing on and turned the ipod off. Getting in the shower, i turned the water up hot and scrubbed myself clean, repeating the son in my head,

-You were that foundation, Never gonna be another one, no. I followed, so taken. So conditioned I could never let go. Then sorrow, then sickness. Then the shock when you flip it on me. So hollow, so vicious.-

Sounded so familair.

I dryed off and pulled on some trackies and blue t-shirt. I wasnt going to school today, I felt 'ill'. To be honest I was in a one man battle, part of me wanted to see Castiel and forgive him for everything.. yeah fucking right. The other part of me to rip his throat out How dare he? He hugged me and told me he still cared about me?. Plus I had a headache. I sat on the sofa and hugged Saxon for most of the day, while we watched T.V.

I stayed home for two days before Shellie and Cassie came to see chatted for a while when i noticed Cassie getting restless.

"Cassie are you okay?" I asked, she fliched and looked away,to Shellie.

Shellie nodded and looked at me."we need to tell you something... about Castiel and Amber..."

I smiled. "What they both got suspended?"

"No...they..they."

"Got into a fight?"

"They are together."

I sat in shock for a moment then laughed. "Your kidding right?"

Shellie stood, followed by Cassie "We better go."

I watched them leave. After five minutes of agony thinking over different meanings 'They are together' could mean, I put on some jeans and a jacket, leaving my hair down. I Walked to Castiel's house. It hadn't changed. I stopped by the door and just stared at the gold door knocker. I reached for it with a shaky hand but my hand dropped and I turned around, walking down the steps and away from the house. I couldnt do it. I didnt want to know the truth.

"Deanna?"

I looked back to the house and saw Castiel standing there.

"What are you doing?" He asked walking towards me.

I tried to find an excuse but i couldnt hold it in. "Is it true?"

"What? Is what true?" He asked standing there limply.

"Are you and Amber together?" I shouted.

"So you found out?" he smiled.

"Why do you do this to me?! Tell me you still care about me, then do this!"

"You made your feelings clear! You hate me, I dont know what you want from me!" He shouted.

"Im a girl! Even I don't know what I want!" I shouted, "I don't know if I want to kiss you or slit your throat!"

Castiel smiled and put his hand behind my neck and his other arm around my waist, then kissed me.

My note~ Starting think i should have called this Physcos in love lmao! Its crappy i know but this is one of the many upates coming up this week.