Chapter 2
We were out on some cliff Lord knows where. We were just in time to watch the sun rise. It hadn't dawned on me that it was still dark out when Seth and I had left. I was beginning to wonder why he chose here. Usually he isn't sentimental like this; he would normally want to go to an arcade. Which sounds like a wonderful idea, I should tell him. I opened my mouth to spill the idea across the blank canvas of the day when he opened his. "Oh, you first!" I smiled and blushed. "Blake, I've known you since you were born." I nodded. "You've known about wolves for a long time." I nodded again as he grabbed my hand and played with my fingers.
"What has your dad told you about them aside from the phasing?"
"He's told me that they grow super fast when they first become wolves, that they phase if they get really mad and can't control it, and he's told me that they are immortal like vampires" he nodded, something serious behind his eyes. My cold hands were slowly being warmed by his. "Did he say anything else?" I shook my head. "Wait, he said that when you are in a pack you can hear everyone's thoughts" he smiled and laughed "It's a bit annoying when Leah mocks me." I smirked softly. "You're not all that hard to mock!" I lightly pushed him back. "Blake, I have to tell you something serious now, ok?"
"Alright…" I didn't like when Seth was serious. He was so playful. I couldn't stand it. "Imprinting, that has to ring a little bell in your head." I gnawed on my lip. It did. "That's basically what happened with mom and dad right?" he nodded looking nervous. "Blake, you know, in imprinting there are certain levels, all of which are just complete adoration and protectiveness." I nodded again. Where was he going with this?
"I'm telling you this because you deserve to know. You're beautiful and you could potentially have any guy you please at that school. I want you to be happy, so don't take this as a pressure. But, I imprinted on you Blake." I gazed into his eyes, which were gazing into mine, searching for emotion. How was I supposed to react to that? I'm sure had I been truly normal I would have kissed him and told him to love me forever, but I never once thought that he would love me.
"I….I'm not sure what to say." I saw a frown twitch at his mouth. "Seth, I love you, I really do, but I don't know, I just, what about dad? Seth, I just don't know how to love, you understand that right? I'm so conflicted right now." Tears started welling up in my eyes. "You know I want to be like Dad, like you, or like mom, even Bella. I just want to not be me, and the fact that you love me when I'm so plain, kills me"
"Oleander," he smiled weakly, "You don't have to love me like that, I just want to see you happy." I stared up at him "I'm not sure that day is soon" he curled his arms around me and held me against his chest as I cried. Maybe novels ruined the idea of love, because while he let me cry, I felt love.