Chapter 7
Seth's Point Of View
I couldn't help but be mad at Blake. No matter how much I loved her. As I left her room I phased out the door. My temper rose like a fire in the wind. Whoa there Seth Leah's voice rang out in my head. Jacob told me that you weren't going to be taking watch tonight…oh… She had "heard" what I was thinking about.
It felt like Blake was starting to love me and this Jack person comes along and ruins it. What's the matter with me? I've never been this mad, and he is supposed to make her happy. Maybe because you want to make her happy, not this Jack person? Leah interjected. I guess she is right. I would love to hold her against me. I always thought that I'd be the first to kiss her. What has gotten into Blake? She always seemed to be the reserved type.
Was she out growing me? Am I losing her? I use to be here for the Cullens, but now I felt that Blake was the only person who mattered. Sheis the reason I am here. The idea of losing her to this Jack person makes me want to leap off a cliff. Too bad I would die anyway. Possibly I should stop complaining and hope he treats her properly.
Ugh I thought you would never come to that conclusion, hearing about your little Imprint is driving me absolutely insane. Don't you ever think about anything else? Maybe food? I'm starving…I better just take food from Esme. Leah began to whine and debate simultaneously. Leah, just GO, I'll take this shift. Where did this rage come from?
One of Blake's favorite songs popped into my head. It was Skin Deep by Trapt. "You have faded into the crowd" I felt that maybe my Blake was like that. Finally fitting in, just when I thought I had a chance. Now he only desire was to be with this Jack?
A shimmering, magic like noise echoed in my ears. Leah told me I could find you running 'round the woods thinking idiotic thoughts about how Blake doesn't love you. Whenever Jake thinks of Blake I am overwhelmed with his feeling of love. Maybe now it wasn't just his. I don't just want to protect Blake, I want to love her, and I want her to love me. Ed thinks she doesn't want this Jack person. That she is mainly with him because of the physical attraction. On top of that, it's a flame due to flicker out any second. Where the hell was the cynical Jake I knew?
I started into Jake's fuzzy face. Hard to think that my best friend was the father of the woman (is that right to think of her as a woman?)I loved. Well thinking of her as a woman around me is pretty bad! You fluff ball! Ha Ha, very funny. I began to see Blake as I saw her in my head. Her frizzy wavy hair that tumbled down her shoulders just hitting below the blade, her sparkling hazel eyes always laced with sarcasm, her slightly off balanced lips that heavens poured out of when she parted them, the blush that rose ever so slightly in her cheeks, her long arms that hung awkwardly, and last, maybe even a bit regretful to think about, the slight curve in her back.
Uhhh you do realize that I'm here. I feel like a creeper seeing images of my daughter in such a romantic way. That's the issue. I don't think she'll ever love me back.