Oh god... I'm so sorry. It has been a really long time I know, thanks to those who actually came back.

A room in the lodging house had never been so loud, yet yesterday it had never been so silent. It was late and they were drinking. Alcohol was the source of their loudness tonight. Jack wasn't there at the time. He was "going out". He didn't add where. Jack had been doing that a lot lately... I wanted to know where he was going, but for some reason I didn't dare ask. The boys were letting out tension. They felt the need to let it out. I couldn't blame it. Sadly the door wouldn't keep the noise out, like it should have.

Faith and I sat in Jack's room with one bottle of white whine. We tried to just stay away from the drunken maniacs. We decided to have some alcohol, but not to much. We weren't completely drinking away our sorrows. Yes, we had wasted money on it... It was worth it. I took another sip of my whine.

There was a loud shout and a crash outside.

"I think the guys outside have to shut up!" Faith screamed.

Of corse the boys didn't care. Faith's glass was nearly finished.

"More whine?" I asked.

"What do you think?"

I grabbed the whine bottle and pored her some more. Faith stared at it for a moment.

"You know we spent a lot of money on this." She said.

"Of corse."

Faith shrugged and took another swig.

"I fear," Faith began after a short pause. "that we may be trampled by the drunken boys if we go outside."

I laughed, "You're probably right. I don't want to die tonight."

"Let's just stay in this room."

I looked over at the bottle of whine, it still had a fair sum of the the liquid left.

"You know," Faith sighed. "I think that we're all going to go insane."

I looked at her with a curious expression.

"Faith what are you talking about?" I asked.

"I think if we stay the way we've been for the the last few days, we are going to go insane."

I nodded.

"This isn't the way the boys and I usually act. I think you know that, but still." Faith went on.

"Don't worry, I know. It's been tough for us all."

As I stared down at the liquid in the glass I realized I never expected to be drowning my sorrows in booze. Forget that earlier I said we weren't drowning our sorrows, we were. Well, that didn't matter anyway. When I'd thought that it had been a different life. That life was dead and gone, it should be erased from my memory. Sadly that just isn't possible.

Oh hell, what did it matter? What did it lead up to in the long run? Experience? I'm still unsure. I suppose we all can't have out answers.

There was a knock at the door.

"I'm scared to open it." Faith murmured.

"I'm not." I smirked.

"Well, if you're going to give me no choice."

Faith stood she grabbed the wine bottle and took a heavy drink from it. She raised her eyebrows as she did, as if she was saying "Well if you're going to make me open the door, how's that?". I didn't give a damn if somebody drank from the same bottle as me. I couldn't care less about some things. Faith opened the door to reveal a drunkard Mush, who swayed slightly from side to side.

"Hey you guys..." He said, speaking in undertone. "We're, uh, we're going out. You guys can come. Do you want to?"

Faith looked back at me and shrugged.

"What do you think?" She asked.

"That depends, where are they going?"

Faith and I looked back at Mush.

"I don't know, we're going out. We're going out. I don't know where, but it's somewhere." He explained.

She looked back at me again,"Well?"

"It's extremely unspecific." I answered.

"Alright then," She said. "no it is."

Mush nodded and walked away. Faith shut the door. She sat next to me and stared at the door.

"No!" She said suddenly. "We're going out! We are going out."

Faith threw her hands up and stood. She sighed.

"I can't stay inside any longer." She hissed.

I stared at her for a moment.

"Where are we g-" I started.

"Don't ask. We're going somewhere with the boys." She hissed.

She grabbed the bottle of whine and drank heavily again.

"Let's go, move your ass." She shouted as she turned and walked towards the door.

"She's drunk now, isn't she?" I murmured to my self.

I stood up and followed her as she walked out.